The Hairpin of the Red Chamber

Chapter 182

Sister Feng and Heping'er occasionally said some heartfelt words in private, but even those words were reserved.Sister Feng knows that although she looks straightforward outside, she actually has more eyes than anyone else.She has always been proud of it.It's a pity that I was careless just now, and Ping'er noticed it, which made her unhappy. Now I have to make up for it, and I need to spend more thought.In her private heart, Sister Feng didn't want to make Ping'er sad, even if it wasn't for future plans, she couldn't see Ping'er sad, she thought it was probably because of her feelings for Ping'er.Sister Feng knew that Ping'er had feelings for her. At first she wasn't sure how deep the bond was, but from the time they met in the Prison Temple yesterday, Sister Feng knew that Ping'er's love for her was by no means simply love for getting along, nostalgia, The feeling of repaying gratitude is not just as simple as Jia Lian's love for him at the beginning, it is a deeper feeling that Sister Feng is a little ignorant but doesn't understand.Sister Feng vaguely felt that she should not let down such a bond, that she should not have hurt the heart of such a person who treated her, but she did not know how reliable this bond was. It all depends on the person, if you want to hold Ping'er only with such an illusory affection, it would be too exaggerated.

Sister Feng frowned in distress, and said: "I'm indeed trying to please you, but...it's not the kind of flattery you think." She moved her shoulders uncomfortably, thought and thought, and said: "I... I am grateful for your heart for me, you are so good to me, I shouldn't be bad to you."

Ping'er sneered again.

Sister Feng coyly said again: "It's not just this, I...you know, what I looked like before, what I look like now, I'm... afraid." She clearly knew that she was afraid, but she clearly said these two things. This word is so difficult, she felt that she would rather hug Ping'er and cry begging than say such a thing, but now she said it out, telling Ping'er frankly that she was afraid.and

Ping'er said indifferently: "You should be afraid now that you are like this."

Sister Feng said: "I...I'm not worried about my future, no, I'm also worried about my future, but it's not just my future, I'm just... afraid of you leaving me."

Ping'er raised his eyebrows, his lips moved, but he didn't speak.

Sister Feng said: "I... I'm not that afraid, I just feel that I was in charge of everything before, and I can take care of everything well, but now... now, I can't do anything." She sighed in frustration , stretched out his hand to hold Ping'er's hand, Ping'er let her hold it, looked away, and said: "If you want to take care of things, I will leave these people to you, anyway, they are all bought with your money .”

Sister Feng hurriedly said: "That's not what I mean, I'm not trying to take your power, I'm just...just...if you let me know what you're doing and how much money you have, then... I will naturally feel more at ease."

Ping'er stared at her and smiled.

Sister Feng felt that she was really not suitable for speaking frankly, because the more she talked, the sadder Ping'er seemed to be.Looking back on what she said, she also felt that her words were incoherent. If she were Ping'er, she would have turned her face.But she is not Ping'er, she will turn her face, but Ping'er... still let her hold his hand.

Sister Feng suddenly stopped flustering, gathered herself together, and said, "Ping'er, you know how I am. I... have gotten used to that way of dealing with people. If you tell me to change, I can't even change it. Besides, I'm like that. For you, it's not that I don't worry about you, I'm just used to knowing everything... After all, we will live together in the future. If a woman and a woman can get married, then we are a serious couple. Helpful, right?"

Ping'er frowned, and looked at Sister Feng.Sister Feng was neither shy nor embarrassed at the moment, and she looked up at Ping'er, and Ping'er suspected that Sister Feng was trying to coax her with good words, just like she did when she coaxed Jia Rui back then.Ping'er turned her head and said: "What is a husband and wife not a husband and wife? If two women can get married, wouldn't that be unreasonable and unethical? You want to be a madman who is struck by lightning, and do it yourself. I won't accompany you. "

Sister Feng smiled lightly and said, "Could it be that what you did to me just now is not a matter between husband and wife?"

Ping'er blushed, shook Sister Feng's hand, turned over and said, "I thought you were going to say something, so it's these things, I don't want to hear it anymore."

Sister Feng leaned over, teased her again and said, "What I'm saying is the truth, and you know that I don't usually say such things, but I'm really...afraid that you will leave me. So flat, I used to be powerful and powerful. , if you dare to betray me, I am confident that there are a hundred ways to catch you back immediately, tie you by my side, and not allow you to leave. But now I have nothing, and I am still a sinner. If you leave me, I will call the heavens I can't stop you even if it's broken, so I'm afraid, I'm afraid you don't want me, I'm afraid you will leave me. I deliberately coaxed you in the morning and told you not to leave, and I also deliberately wanted to ask you how much money you have. I hooked up with you on purpose just now, and I also wanted to make you like me more, and you can't leave me. I'm afraid of you leaving, not because I'm afraid that no one will bribe the tolerance for me, take care of the place, and it's not because I'm afraid that no one will take care of my daily life , if life is really difficult, death is the worst thing to do, but without you, even death is unacceptable. Ping'er, I am not a good person. I fancy you and like you, so I wish I could keep you in my Here, no one is allowed to touch a little bit, I... I want to possess you completely, regardless of your body, your heart, your people, your money. You came to rescue me with money and people, I am very grateful. But private In my heart, I sometimes think, it’s better that you have nothing, so you have to rely on me, be controlled by me, and you can only follow me for the rest of your life. I know these are all falsehoods, but unfortunately I just can’t help it Do it. Ping'er, you...you are so kind, I'm afraid."