Pain fetish

Chapter 60 "The Clouds Dissipate and the Rain Disappears

Fu Ge's sleep has become very light since the accident, especially when Qi Han was not around, it may be the sequelae left by multiple estrus, without alpha pheromone comfort, he always can't sleep well.

Not long after Qi Han left, he was about to wake up, and vaguely noticed that someone was touching his face.

Just the familiar temperature of that palm made him guess that it was his own alpha, so Little Beta smiled, closed his eyes and hugged that hand, only to find that Qi Han was trembling.

"Ahan..."

He opened his eyes suddenly, and before he got up, he was hugged in his arms.

Qi Han gently pressed his face against his chest, and rested his chin on top of his head, not to show him his crying face.

Fu Ge was a little anxious, "What's the matter?"

Qi Han sniffed, and squeezed out his nostrils, "Xiaoge..." After that, he didn't say anything more, he just hugged him tighter and tighter.

Fu Ge knew that he didn't want to talk, so he obediently let him hug him, his warm body sleeping in the bed was like a kitten snuggling up to him, his soft palm wrapped around his eyes, "You can take this What to do with the crying bag, Xiaojue is going to laugh at you when he sees it."

Qi Han couldn't laugh, so he stretched out his hand to touch his chest, his voice was unbelievably hoarse: "Lung disease...healed?"

The person in his arms raised his head abruptly, and explained the whole story with just one sentence.

He was stunned for a few seconds, then withdrew from Qi Han's embrace, lowered his head and whispered, "Did Lao Fang tell you..."

Lao Fang was the chef just now, the only one who helped Fu Ge that month.

Qi Han gave a "hmm", raised his hand to hold his cheek, and asked: "The first meal we ate when we first arrived in Litang, I was unhappy because my words reminded you of those days, right? "

Fu Ge was silent for a long time, closed his eyes and rubbed his hand, "Well, I'm angry with you."

"This is not venting anger! This is what I did." Qi Han's eyes were red, and his chest felt tight with pain, "Without me, you wouldn't even have money to buy medicine. Something went wrong, I really—"

The words that stopped abruptly were swallowed by the lips and tongue that came up to him suddenly. Fu Ge kissed his lips, and the soft tip of his tongue slowly licked it. Little Beta's cheeks were blushing, and she pressed against his face warmly .

"Ahan, I'm actually very afraid of talking about this with you. I'm afraid that when I think of the past, I will anger you again and feel resentful towards you, and even have nowhere to vent my hatred..."

Alpha looked at him in a panic, and unconsciously clenched Fu Ge's wrist, for fear that he would say in the next sentence: So let's separate for a while, shall we?

But Little Beta suddenly laughed, sparkles sparkled in his clear almond eyes, "But I found that I didn't."

"When you mentioned the word lung disease, my first reaction was: What should I do if you find out? This crying bag is going to cry again."

Just this one sentence made Qi Han's eyes turn red, his eyelashes trembled, and his voice trembled: "You have suffered so much, yet you are still... worried that I will feel bad if I know?"

His pupils were trembling, his heart was churning in pain, and his whole body was almost wiped out by guilt and remorse.

Even Qi Han himself was thinking about how he could have Fu Ge.

"how about you?"

With tears in his eyes, Little Beta asked him: "Did you think I hated me when I was going to torture you with a needle? Did you hesitate for a second when that man stabbed me with a needle? Did you have any fear when I was kidnapped?" Have you ever been outnumbered?"

Qi Han shook his head without thinking, "No, I can't make you suffer anymore, I will let you live well even if I die."

Fu Ge laughed through his tears: "This is the end."

He wiped away Qi Han's tears, kissed his eyes, put his arms around the man's neck and said: "I know you didn't want to live at that time, you just thought you were dead, but you don't even feel sorry for yourself anymore , but still feel sorry for me, even... even want to lose his life for a child who has nothing to do with you, just to give me a home..."

"How much hatred can't be healed? I don't hate you anymore."

"The day I forgave you was the only night I didn't have a nightmare in so many years. I always thought that I could only get a moment of peace by letting you die, but after the wedding, my nightmare became more serious. You taught me, Revenge is not relief, letting go is."

Qi Han choked up and pressed his forehead: "Brother, have you put everything down?"

"Well, can you let it go too? The two of us have a good time."

Qi Han closed his eyes and buried his face in his neck, and said in a low voice, "I'm not as good as my brother, I still need a few more years..."

That evening, the two of them hugged quietly for a long time, neither of them said anything, and the time flowed silently. It wasn't until Qi Han was ready that he opened his mouth dumbly: "Can you tell me about what happened in the past few years?"

Little Beta held his hand tightly and said, "Okay."

Fu Ge's past is the sharpest knife in Qi Han's heart. Every time an old incident is revealed, the knife penetrates an inch. The continuous and deepening guilt will kill people. When I caught off guard and found out little by little, it would be better to uncover them all at once.

They chose the gentlest and cruelest way to dig out those old diseases, and let Fu Ge personally tell every trace of suffering he had experienced, which was undoubtedly cutting out Qi Han's flesh with a knife.

He was suffocating in pain, trembling in pain, his chest was so stuffy that he couldn't breathe, and his stomach turned upside down again and again, but every time at this time, little beta would pinch his fingertips hard to wake him up, his eyes were full of water mist Looking at each other through years of suffering, Fu Ge said: "It's all over, I'm fine now."

Qi Han cried until he couldn't make a sound, hugged him and panted heavily: "Brother, I hurt...I hurt so much...I really want to kill myself..."

"No." Fu Ge's curled mouth was full of tears, and his voice was hoarse: "I'll be serious if you die..."

This was the longest hour of Qi Han's life, because it was so painful, it was hundreds of times more painful than any torture Fu Ge gave him.

When Little Beta finished speaking, he didn't react, his whole body was numb with pain, and he sat on the bed as if his soul had come out of his body.

When the doctor came in with the medical records, Qi Han didn't realize it, and didn't listen to him in a daze, until Fu Ge screamed, and when he looked at him, his eyes were full of panic and bewilderment.

Qi Han regained some consciousness: "What's wrong?"

Fu Ge's face was pale, and he raised his hand to press on his gauze-covered gland, and asked hoarsely, "Does it hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt." Qi Han grabbed his hand and smiled, "I'm fine."

But when the doctor opened the gauze, his bruised glands had already festered and suppurated, and the pink flesh oozes yellow water, sticking to his neck like a piece of carrion, which is shocking.

Tears burst out of Fu Ge's eyes in an instant, and everyone was dumbfounded: "How could it be...how could it be like this...how could this not hurt..."

Seeing that Qi Han didn't seem to be holding on, the doctor took a small plastic hammer and slammed it on his shoulder, but Alpha didn't respond.

Fu Ge moved his lips in disbelief: "He doesn't seem to feel... Has his pain sense also become dull..."

"It looks like this at the moment." The doctor pushed his glasses, "President Qi has suffered too many blows in a short period of time, and he has been injured continuously. When the pain accumulates to a critical value, the body's sensitivity will be reduced. The slowness you mentioned is also a kind of body's self-protection mechanism."

"Can it be cured?" Fu Ge asked anxiously.

"It should be possible." The doctor didn't dare to guarantee it. "It can be a few years, or a few months. This is a psychological problem. You can consult a professional psychologist."

Fu Ge looked down at Qi Han, Alpha smiled very slowly, "Don't worry, it's nothing, I feel fine these days."

Little Beta closed his eyes, and when he broke free again, his eyes were moist and bright red, and a row of thin and dense needles fell on the tip of his heart and stabbed downward.

He wants to ask are you really okay?

Insensitivity to pain, hallucinations, even the glands are festered...

What kind of good is this?

But he finally didn't ask what was on his lips, because he knew that all of this was thanks to himself.

"Then why are his glands like this? They were fine two days ago."

The doctor checked again wearing gloves, and even squeezed pus from the edge of the gland. Fu Ge was already having difficulty breathing just by looking at it.

"It shouldn't be. It's just a few cuts near the gland. The wound is not deep. How could it suddenly become inflamed, and the self-healing ability of the gland has almost been lost."

The doctor raised his eyes and asked, "Has the president's gland been injured before?"

After the words fell, Fu Ge's pupils suddenly dilated, and his heart trembled violently.

Qi Han got up almost immediately and pushed the doctor away, "Come here, I will see you in the consulting room tomorrow."

"Ahan!" The person behind him stopped him in a hoarse voice, tears rolled down his eyes when he spoke, "He, he smoked pheromone..."

The doctor smiled, "Ah, there is no problem with pumping pheromone. This is not a big deal for a 3S alpha. How many milliliters have you pumped in total?"

Qi Han: "Eighty!"

Fu Ge: "One hundred and five..."

The doctor opened his eyes in shock, looked at Fu Ge and stammered, "How much?"

Little Beta's heart seemed to be pierced by a knife, and he gritted his teeth in pain, forcing out the words: "It's not a total, it's...one hundred and fifty..."

Just to cure the unfounded disease he made up, Qi Han has to lie on the restraint chair every day, let the thick needles he fears the most penetrate into the most vulnerable places, and drain the most precious pheromone of an alpha little by little, The glands shriveled and festered, and his energy and life force vanished.

After saying those words, there was a long silence in the ward.

Fu Ge lowered his head, clutching the corner of the table with his pale fingers, feeling pain and fear.

Qi Han didn't care about his condition at all, he just looked at little Beta worriedly.

The doctor sighed helplessly after digesting for a long time: "No matter how powerful a person is, he can't help but practice like this. One hundred and five times a week, at least five pumpings, not mentioning the dosage, just talking about the process. If you don't suffer from pain, you will be a tough guy." ..."

"Tsk." Qi Han hugged Fu Ge into his arms, and said to the doctor, "Don't talk about unnecessary things, just talk about whether it can be cured."

The doctor nodded regretfully, "It can be cured, but you two must be prepared to leave sequelae."

Fu Ge could not help but tighten his palm, "What sequelae?"

"The most basic thing is that the release of pheromones is blocked, you will feel blocked when you mark temporarily and for life, and you will feel pain when it is cloudy and rainy or the weather is sultry. In addition, I suggest that President Qi go to test the level of the gland tomorrow."

"Gland level?" Fu Ge looked over mechanically: "You mean he..."

"Maybe it's not a 3S-level alpha anymore."

Something in his head collapsed, Fu Ge's eyes went dark, and he fell on the bed as if he lost his strength.

Even Qi Han was stunned for a few seconds, and subconsciously touched his own glands, but only touched a handful of blood.

Once upon a time, genes and grades were the things Qi Han and Qi Ji were most proud of. Not to mention the capital city, even the 3S alphas in the world accounted for less than 5%. They were jokingly called God's darlings. With a halo, both intellectual and physical strength are excellent.

If the gland is broken, the level will drop, just like a swordsman being cut off, a spear king being blinded, and a natural warrior being cut off with both arms.

No one can be willing to fall from the best to the mediocre.

Qi Han regretted for a moment in a daze, but he quickly adjusted his mood after only a moment.

He leaned over to touch Fu Ge's forehead, "It's okay baby, whether it's 3S or not, I don't care about that anymore."

He winked and told the doctor to go out, sat on the bed and embraced the stiff Fu Ge into his arms, Little Beta burst into tears, his red eyes were full of self-blame and regret: "I didn't at all Being sick, I just want to find an excuse...to torture you, make you worse, lower your vigilance..."

Qi Han naturally knew about it a long time ago, and now he pretended to be surprised and said, "So you thought of pumping pheromone? Smart baby."

"What are you talking about!" Fu Ge frowned and patted him, not to see him making fun of his body.

Qi Han smiled lightly: "Did you forget what you said to persuade me so quickly? Those things are over, let's live well in the future."

Fu Ge shook his head, his voice choked up in his neck: "Once the level goes down, it's impossible to recover. That's what you're most proud of."

Qi Han was stunned for a moment, "Do you think so?"

"Isn't it..." Little Beta muttered.

"Of course not. Whether I am still 23 years old, my identity and status have never been my pride."

He touched the tip of Little Beta's nose, and murmured: "You are."

How can things outside the body match Fu Ge?

He has such a good lover, who is the flame unintentionally stirred up by the stars in the sky when they fall into the mortal world, illuminating him for many, many years.

Even after being separated for a long time, it is still hot and warm.

Fu Ge's eyelashes trembled, he touched his glands, touched the wound at his Adam's apple, the tip of his nose trembled, and tears immediately flowed down, "But if I didn't make you smoke so much—"

"Stop." Qi Han interrupted him directly: "Stop, Xiao Ge, don't think like that, never think like that."

He supported Fu Ge's face, picked his chin, and said eagerly and seriously: "I stabbed the throat wound by myself, and I also decided to smoke the pheromone. I deserve everything, don't just because of it." Blame yourself or even regret these things, don’t want them at all, understand?”

From the beginning to the end, he didn't want to tie Fu Ge to forgive with emotion and guilt, he just wanted him to really let go, and he even explained it in Chen Xing's last words, hoping that he could be buried far away from Xiao Beta after his death.

Don't let him see it, don't let him regret it, and don't let him blame himself.

Qi Han hugged him into his arms, stroked his back with warm thugs, and said in a low voice, "Xiao Ge, I'm not a coward who evades responsibility, and I will admit everything I have done."

"No matter what my reasons for hurting you were, those things actually happened. Everyone should be responsible for their actions. I am an adult. I have the courage and self-consciousness to take responsibility. Everything you do It’s all what I deserve.”

"Besides, if you didn't take revenge on me for these things—"

He paused while speaking, then lowered his head and touched Fu Ge's forehead, "I don't even have the face to be with you anymore."

"I appreciate your willingness to forgive me, but I will never forgive myself. These seven months are not punishment for me, but relief."

"Baby, you gave me the chance to have you again."

The long night travels to the end, the incomplete embraces the completeness, the endless darkness finally ends, and the two people who have traveled through hardships stay together.

They even engraved each other's names on their wounds, as if they were the most suitable people in the world, falling in love at every moment when the clouds and rain disappeared.

"Then let's test the gland level together tomorrow, shall we?"

Qi Han kissed him, "I listen to you."

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Family members, give the young couple "No Ji Tai Lai" on the public screen? (ˊ?ˋ*)