guarding you for seven years

Chapter 21 Year 4 12

Congratulations, you have entered my field. --- Bian Yang

NO.12 in the fourth year

At the beginning of the new semester, Xia Lu who returned to school became more silent and quiet. She still went for morning jogs and watched the sunset, but every time her eyes were dry and her nose was sore. She felt like Lin Daiyu in the red building, in depression With a taste of hypocrisy.

Every time Xia Lu swung the racket, Xia Lu didn't want to stop. She pushed herself to the limit again and again. With the sound of bouncing, Xia Lu was exhausted and knelt down beside the racket. She looked at the racket numbly, wanting to cry.

She felt that she had lost something very important, and her heart was bleeding because of this lost thing.Now I can no longer have any unreasonable thoughts about Xiao Zi, she is afraid, she is afraid that she will not be able to bear the torture, she will want Xiao Zi's love, and she will speak out her love for Xiao Zi, she I am even more afraid that other people's strange eyes will hurt my family, Xiao Zi, and myself.She was in great pain, and she couldn't give up her love for Xiao Zi, so she tortured herself helplessly.She wants to be a normal girl who can have a boyfriend, get married in the future, and have a child of her own, but when she thinks of these things, she can't restrain her heartache, like thousands of sharp knives continue to be pierced in her heart , the pain made me go crazy.

Xia Lu's tears flowed down her cheeks, and dripped onto the plastic playing field, smearing wet.A tissue was stretched out in front of Xia Lu. Xia Lu looked up and saw Bian Yang squatting beside her at some point, holding a tissue in his hand and handing it to her. Xia Lu was a little dazed, she didn't expect Bian Yang to appear suddenly , Seeing herself in such a mess made Xia Lu feel very embarrassed. She bit her lip and took the tissue.

This was the second time that she was heartbroken after seeing Xia Lu play so crazy. She knew that Xia Lu must have something on her mind. She didn't want to ask, and she didn't need to ask. She would let Xia Lu speak out by herself.

"Tomorrow, Saturday, do you have class?" Bian Yang's voice was faint, without any emotion, Xia Lu wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, looked up at Bian Yang, without too much expression, "No." The voice was a little hoarse , with a strong nasal sound. "Then wait for me at the school gate at seven o'clock tonight, and I will take you somewhere." Bian Yang stood up after speaking, took another look at the thin man kneeling there, turned and left.

Xia Lu looked at Bian Yang's leaving back, she didn't know where Bian Yang would take her, and she didn't know what kind of person Bian Yang was.

At seven o'clock in the evening, it was already dark. When Xia Lu arrived at the school gate, Bian Yang had already arrived. The streetlights at the school gate shone on Bian Yang. She was wearing a black leather jacket and a pair of black skinny jeans. A pair of black Martin boots, standing there handsomely in a black outfit, made Xia Lu feel that it was a beautiful scene.Bian Yang waved to Xia Lu, Xia Lu saw a heavy locomotive parked next to Bian Yang, Xia Lu had never seen such a locomotive before, the black body reflected light under the street lights, and the tire rings were shining brightly. Xia Lu is unfamiliar with this, but she thinks this car is very cool at the moment, with the letters "MV" printed on the black fuel tank, and two helmets hanging on the car mirror.

Bian Yang watched Xia Lu approaching, staring at his precious motorcycle, with a proud smile on his lips. "How is it? Isn't it cool?" Bian Yang patted his motorcycle.Xia Lu nodded, her eyes were still fixed on the black beauty, she was indeed attracted by this car, this car is really cool.

"MV, Agusta, Lamborghini among nicknamed motorcycles, two-wheeled Ferrari, made in Italy." Bian Yang introduced his favorite car, Xia Lu didn't understand cars at all, but still nodded to show that he knew.Bian Yang took off two helmets from the car mirror, and handed one to Xia Lu. Xia Lu took the helmet awkwardly, looked at Bian Yang with puzzled eyes, "I'll take you for a ride." Bian Yang said She put on the helmet first, got on the motorcycle, and started it. Xia Lu hesitated for a minute, then put on the helmet, and got on the motorcycle.

It was the first time for her to ride such a car, she was faintly excited, the motorcycle started slowly, Xia Lu wanted to grab the back seat, but found that it was impossible to grab the back seat by leaning forward.So he could only grab the corner of Bian Yang's clothes, and Bian Yang turned his head slightly, with a wicked smile on the corner of his mouth. "Xia Lu, the game has started now, I hope you won't let me down." Bian Yang thought to himself.

Every time Bian Yang sees Xia Lu, he always thinks whether she is the same as him, whether she can enter his field?Now is the time for her verification.

The locomotive speeded up, Xia Lu was a little frightened, the hand holding Bian Yang's clothes gradually tightened, and finally had to hug Bian Yang's waist tightly. Satisfied smile.

Xia Lu didn't know where Bian Yang Kai was going, but only knew that the wind speed was getting faster and faster. In the dark night, the locomotive was driving on the main road, and occasionally there were vehicles driving with flashing lights, Xia Lu tightly closed her eyes and dared not look.Every time Bian Yang accelerated, Xia Lu hugged Bian Yang's waist tight once, Bian Yang felt that his waist was cut off by this little girl, she looked at the speedometer, it was close to 120, no wonder Xia Lu hugged Bian Yang so tightly Tight, she slowed down a little and dropped to about 80, but Xia Lu still hugged her tightly.

The wind was getting louder and louder, and there were fewer and fewer vehicles on the road. Xia Lu opened and closed her eyes, and the surrounding was pitch black. Only the lights of the locomotive emitted from the front illuminated the road ahead. Xia Lu looked at the The surrounding environment, the stretches of trees, Xia Lu felt that it was going up a mountain, but she didn't know what kind of mountain it was, because she was not familiar with it at all.

The speed of the car was getting slower and slower, and it stopped slowly in an open space. Xia Lu guessed right, they were indeed going up the mountain just now, and at this moment, they were on the top of the mountain.Xia Lu took off the helmet, her body shivered, the weather was still very cold at the end of March, and the extreme speed of the car made her feel chilly from the wind.It was dark all around, and there were trees under the mountain vaguely.

"This is the highest mountain in G City, called Fushan." Bian Yang leaned against the motorcycle, holding his helmet in one hand, and stared at the pitch-black trees.Xia Lu looked at Bian Yang, and felt that she was so lonely at the moment, and she was not at all like the person who was racing at extreme speed just now.

"People here say that you can see the entire city of G from the top of Fushan Mountain, but I have been here many times, and all I can see is this lush and lush tree." Bian Yang turned his head and saw Xia Lu looking at her, and smiled slightly , Two small canine teeth were exposed, the night wind blew the broken hair in front of her eyes, and the sharp-edged face looked soft in the light of the locomotive.

"Xia Lu, people always say that you can see far when you stand tall, but when you really stand tall, you can't see far, because you can't see things that are too far away." Bian Yang was not looking at Xia Lu, Instead, continue to look at the trees in the dark.Xia Lu was a little confused, she didn't quite understand what Bian Yang meant, but she didn't dare to ask, she just stood there quietly, also looking at the dark night in front of her.

The wind on the top of the mountain was getting stronger and stronger, Xia Lu felt a little cold, she held her arms with both hands, and stood silently, "Xia Lu, there are too many things in front of my eyes, it is easy to get lost and forget the original What do we want, like when we came to the top of the mountain, we wanted to overlook the whole city, but it was all blocked by the trees here, and we couldn’t see anything. In this case, it’s good to look at these trees, at least It's another kind of scenery." Bian Yang's voice was very soft, and it reached Xia Lu's ears, making Xia Lu's heart skip a beat.

I am always entangled in those things that will not happen, always in ifs, in assumptions, in fact, there are not so many ifs and assumptions at all, life is real and cannot be adulterated.For Xiao Zi, my obsession became deeper and deeper, and I forgot that I just wanted her happiness at first, even if her happiness was not given by me, at least she would smile like a flower as before. This is not what I have figured out before something?Why bother now?Human obsessions and desires are truly terrifying.

No ifs, no assumptions, letting go will be a kind of happiness, freeing myself and her.But if it is really possible to get rid of these distracting thoughts, where is one's pursuit?

Bian Yang was a little surprised by Xia Lu's silence, she thought Xia Lu would say something, but Xia Lu never said a word.

"There are many things that people can do in life. Some things can be treated sincerely, and some things can only be hypocritical. Maybe when I dream back at midnight, I will ask myself if I am a hypocrite, but so what, this world is inherently It's hypocrisy, your hypocrisy will only make this world a better place." Bian Yang said very extreme, because she herself is an extreme person, if she fails, she will succeed.

"Why can't you be your true self?" Xia Lu asked in a low voice. After listening to Xia Lu's question, Bian Yang really felt very comfortable. It seems that she is really a simple little girl.

"In the future, you will know how difficult it is to be your true self, even more difficult than what you want to get." Bian Yang said seriously, Xia Lu was a little shocked, she looked at Bian Yang, she didn't know Bian Yang Yang saw something, and she panicked.

"Let's go, go back." Bian Yang put on his helmet, Xia Lu stood for a while, and said, "Thank you." Bian Yang looked at Xia Lu's beautiful almond eyes through the helmet, feeling inexplicably good.

On the way back, Bian Yang's speed was much slower than when he went there, Xia Lu thought about what Bian Yang said, and felt that it seemed to make sense.

The locomotive enters the urban area smoothly, and the neon lights of the city are flashing, which is completely different from what you see on the mountain. Do you need to use a different mentality when facing different things?

When the locomotive stopped, Xia Lu was a little confused, because the locomotive was parked in an underground parking lot. She watched Bian Yang lock the locomotive, put the helmet in the trunk, and didn't know how to ask her where it was.

Bian Yang took Xia Lu into the elevator, and Xia Lu in the elevator was a little uneasy, Bian Yang smiled softly, "I just went to the top of the mountain to get some fresh air, this is our destination." The elevator door opened, Bian Yang first Stepping out, Xia Lu followed.

Perhaps, if you let go of what you can't let go, you will get what you can't get.

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