guarding you for seven years

Chapter 103 Chapter 6 Year 18

In one thousand and one nights, there is not a single night that you do not miss, and every miss turns into a pair of butterflies.

The sixth year NO.18

Bian Yang looked at Xia Lu in a daze, for nearly 10 minutes, the two of them didn't move or speak, Bian Yang looked at Xia Lu, Xia Lu lowered her head.The sound of the rain outside the window was pattering on the glass, anxious and anxious, but the atmosphere between the two of them was extraordinarily peaceful.

The corner of Bian Yang's mouth twitched into self-deprecation, she would never hurt Xia Lu cruelly, even if she forced Xia Lu to say a word, she gave Xia Lu enough patience and freedom, but tormented herself.

"I'm leaving, you go to rest early." Bian Yang raised his hands to smooth Li Xialu's hair, the damp hair was slightly cool, Bian Yang didn't want to let go at all, but what could she do?

Bian Yang felt that the distance from the window to the door suddenly became full of thorns. Every time she took a step, her heart was stabbed so hard that she forgot the pain.

"Bian Yang." Xia Lu said, Bian Yang's hand was already on the doorknob, her heartbeat gradually became faster following Xia Lu's cry. "Take your umbrella, it's raining heavily outside." Xia Lu came over and handed Li Mojuan's umbrella to Bian Yang.

Bian Yang looked at the umbrella that Xia Lu handed over, her eyes ached, she didn't know what was wrong with her, and now her eyes hurt.Bian Yang didn't take the umbrella, opened the door and walked out. Soon, the sound of going downstairs came from the stairs, and the sound disappeared even faster.

Xia Lu stared blankly at the umbrella in her hand, her heart moved, and she stepped out the door. At this moment, she only had one thought in her mind, that Bian Yang would get wet, and he would get sick if he got wet.

Xia Lu hurriedly followed Bian Yang, and when she got out of the unit door, she saw Bian Yang walking in the rain with his whole body soaked. name, but Bian Yang walked forward as if he didn't hear it.

This night, it was destined to rain heavily, and this night, both of them were destined to have an uneasy life.

Xia Lu ran to Bian Yang and put an umbrella on Bian Yang's head, but the rain was so heavy that this fragile little umbrella couldn't stop it at all.

"What are you chasing after?" Bian Yang looked at Xia Lu who was drenched all over, his hair was tightly attached to her face, and his face was extremely pale.

"You didn't bring an umbrella." Xia Lu said timidly, her voice almost covered by the sound of rain.

"Do you think I need an umbrella like this now?" Bian Yang's eyes were scarlet, every time his heart beat, his whole body was chilling, and then he walked away with faint pain.

"Bian Yang, why did we do this? Why weren't we good before? Why did you break our previous balance? Why?" Xia Lu suddenly became agitated. She didn't know whether it was the heavy rain that stimulated her or suppressed her. For too long, she needed an outlet, and tonight was the occasion.

"Balance? Xia Lu, is there a balance between us? Do you think that when a person treats you well, he just treats you well?" Bian Yang grabbed Xia Lu's shoulder, the umbrella in Xia Lu's hand slipped, and the two of them completely Exposed to the rain, the heavy rain unceremoniously hit the two of them.

"Do you think that your kindness to Xiao Zi means simply being nice to her? Don't you have some other idea that you would treat her so heartily?" Bian Yang shouted to Xia Lu almost violently. Xia Lu has been so long, she can't say how gentle and gentle she is to Xia Lu, at least she has never really been angry with Xia Lu, but tonight, both of them seem to have lost their minds.

Perhaps the heavy rain gave them courage, or perhaps it was because it was too dark, and anger in the dark was a matter of course.

"Xia Lu, you ask me why I do this? It's because I love you, I dare to tell you, I dare to do everything possible to keep you. Do you dare?" Bian Yang's pupils dilated slowly, and she raised her hand Smoothing the hair from Xia Lu's face to the back, holding Xia Lu's waist with one hand, the two of them were very close. In the cold night, the warm breath sprayed on each other's faces, forming an enticing force. The ambiguity and lingering of people.

"Do you dare to do this to Xiao Zi? You don't even dare to say you like her. Do you think you really love her? What you love is the understanding, companionship and support she gave you over the years, or the person who loves her What?" Bian Yang's voice was low and bewitching, and Xia Lu almost sank in this voice.

Xia Lu began to struggle in her heart, did she love Xiao Zi, or Xiao Zi's company, or what was the part she envied when she saw Xiao Zi possessed?What is it exactly?

Xia Lu almost collapsed, she couldn't believe that the love she had insisted on for six years was not love, and Bian Yang was lying.

Xia Lu looked at Bian Yang, Bian Yang's eyes reflected her own face, her hair was messy sticking to her face, her pale face was bloodless, that self, so strange, this is not her, this is not her real self.

"No." Xia Lu pushed Bian Yang away, she looked at Bian Yang in disbelief, "You lied to me, I love Xiao Zi, I love everything about her, as long as it is her, I can accept it, I don't say I like it ..." Xia Lu roared, but stopped suddenly.

"Why didn't I tell Xiao Zi, I like her, why didn't I tell?" Xia Lu's eyes rolled, and she suddenly couldn't understand why she didn't tell her, she could tell Xiao Zi that she liked her.

Xia Lu took a step forward and grabbed Bian Yang's hand, "Tell me, why didn't I tell Xiao Zi that I liked her? Why didn't I tell her?" Xia Lu looked at Bian Yang in a panic, with Looking forward, she was waiting for Bian Yang to tell her the answer, Bian Yang was like her life-saving straw.

On rainy nights, there are too many songs and laughter, and there are too many sad autumn moons.

The heavy rain fell endlessly, Bian Yang was frightened by Xia Lu like this, she stared blankly at Xia Lu, not daring to say a word.Xia Lu couldn't wait for Bian Yang's response, so she suddenly laughed, the laughter was mixed with the sound of rain, which made the listener feel extremely distressed.

"I don't know why I didn't tell her, it hurts so much here." Xia Lu covered her heart, "Every time I think of her, it hurts here, but this kind of pain is as wonderful as poppies, it erodes me If I don't have this kind of pain, I won't be able to live." Xia Lu said seriously.

Bian Yang couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears on Xia Lu's face, but Xia Lu's choked up voice fully revealed that the tears on Xia Lu's face at the moment were not less than the rain.

"I feel sick, but I don't want my illness to get better, and then I watch it worsen, day by day, occupying my whole being, even my whole thought, I condone this pain, because I think it is The meaning of my life." Xia Lu smiled sweetly, with a strange sense of despair in her smile, which was a kind of poignant beauty that Bian Yang had never seen before.

Bian Yang never thought that Xia Lu's love for Xiao Zi was so strong and hidden so deeply. She thought Xia Lu's love for Xiao Zi was just an obsession, but now hearing what Xia Lu said, it wasn't an obsession at all, but an obsession. Cracking love.

This kind of love is like a drug. She knows she can't touch it, but Xia Lu can't control herself at all. It is a necessity for her life, just like a person needs to breathe, and then it will be difficult to quit in this life, unless she is reborn.

Bian Yang felt that she had lost, she would never win Xia Lu's heart in this life, because Xia Lu had no heart with Ben, her heart had been corroded, and now she loved Xiao Zi like a puppet.

"I thought that the pain would be numb after a long time, and then it wouldn't hurt, but I found that this kind of pain has no end at all. Every time I see Xiao Zi, I am suffering. I seem to divide myself into pieces. There are many blocks, one part is cheering and clamoring, the other part is tearing my heart, I am afraid of seeing her, and I want to see her again, in the days without her, I restrain myself, I..." Charlotten After a pause, "I punish myself, I keep thinking about her, I keep making my heart ache, I never say my feelings for her, I hide it carefully, I don't want to be her trouble, I want to be quiet Look at her and laugh, she makes trouble, and whatever she does, I think it's good." There was a hint of softness on Xia Lu's face.

But Bian Yang was completely defeated by this softness, he was tortured like this, and he still has such a deep love, Xia Lu, how strong is your willpower.

"She has a boyfriend. I think it's good. She doesn't have to be talked about, she doesn't have to bear the public opinion of homosexuality, and she doesn't have to bear the strange eyes of her family and friends." At this moment, Xia Lu's almond eyes are curved, like It's the same as the gentle and pleasant summer green on weekdays.

"I know she likes me, I can feel it, but she won't say it, she must have struggled, but she struggled to get to the shore, and I fell into the abyss, but I was willing." Xia Xia At the end of Lu's speech, her right hand tightly clutched her aching heart, just like countless nights, the cold, numb pain came again, spreading to every cell in her body.

Bian Yang didn't know what mood she was in after hearing Xia Lu's infatuation and love for Xiao Zi. At this moment, Bian Yang was very calm. She felt like an outsider, and Xia Lu was the only insider. She desperately wanted to be an insider, but she found that there was only room for Xia Lu in this bureau.

"Xia Lu, what about me? What am I to you?" Bian Yang asked this sentence with a very sad heart. After she finished asking, she regretted it, and she didn't want to hear the answer.

"You?" Xia Lu looked into Bian Yang's eyes, there were more and more bloodshot eyes in them, it was terribly red.

"You are Bian Yang, I picked you up on the side of the road, you are the only one who understands me, you and I are fellow travelers, you are omnipotent Bian Yang, you..." Xia Lu started to cry, Tai raised her hand to caress Bian Yang's face.

"You are the last person I can't hurt, you are the most important person to me, you are my Bian Yang." Xia Lu bit her lower lip tightly, her tears mixed with the rain and fell to the ground drop by drop. Lu's pain is fully revealed in her words.

Bian Yang held Xia Lu tightly in her arms. She thought Xia Lu would say, you are my friend, but Xia Lu said so much, but she didn't say that she was a friend. Bian Yang understood Xia Lu. Time is no longer as simple as friends.You can be friends with someone who has been together for decades, or you can be friends with someone who has been together for a few days, but Xia Lu and Bian Yang were not friends from the beginning, or not just friends.

Bian Yang felt that the person in his arms was getting weaker and weaker. Bian Yang called Xia Lu's name in his ear, but the person in his arms didn't respond at all.

Xia Lu finally released her carefully hidden love on such a torrential rainy night.

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