REMIX

Chapter 116

"what?"

I saw the white smoke I exhaled when I spoke, blurring the excited face of the woman in front of me.

"Look...look!" Her voice was so shrill as if she was crying, she grabbed my arms with both hands as if she was about to fall to her knees, "This is you...I am your real mother!"

I suddenly felt my brain stop.A huge amount of information rushed in and bombarded me one after another. Every beat of my heart felt like a fatal blow, and my temples were throbbing. I opened my eyes wide, but I couldn't even see the picture clearly.

- Mother?

I refused to accept those simple and easy-to-understand words, just like people who are selectively deaf in order to protect themselves, Gong Junye reacted faster than me, put one hand on my shoulder and replied in a low voice, "Please explain clearly."

Obviously he was surprised too, but to a far lesser extent than me. Even though random events have infinite probabilities, he has a powerful calmness.

"Are you here, looking for relatives?"

Xia Jie also came at this time, she put on my cotton padded coat, strode between me and the woman, stretched out a hand to block me, stared at the woman suspiciously for a while, "What's the matter, baby... …you are?"

The woman rolled her eyes, and seemed to have a basic grasp of the overall situation. She put the photo back into her pocket, and held Xia Jie's hand affectionately: "Is it me? I just contacted you two days ago and said I would come over ...see my son."

Xia Jie was also stunned.

Before the eyes of passers-by gathered, she said:

"Looking for a place to sit and talk?"

It was an ordinary day, a day like a thousand fleeting yesterdays.

I have passed countless days like this, when the birds always come home at dusk, and the sun always rises.I have the most simple expectations for every day, and firmly believe that no matter what damage it suffers, it will return to its original state, which gives me the courage to move forward day after day.

And today is like a broken joint, an extra page in a book with things I couldn't have imagined, characters added out of nowhere, hidden chapters I haven't read.

We found a quiet teahouse nearby. There were no customers when the door opened. The waiter yawned as if he hadn’t woken up. He looked strangely at us, who were tense early in the morning, and led us to a spacious private room. , served two pots of freshly brewed tea.

"Let me introduce, these are your uncle and uncle, and this is your cousin, both of us..."

I listened perfunctorily, and across a large round table looked at the person whom the woman was solicitously introducing, and they were also looking at me, and the timid girl even smiled.I have nothing to introduce myself, I just opened the chair for Xia Jie and asked her to sit beside me. At the same time, I exchanged glances with Gong Junye intuitively. It seems that he and Zhou Jingyang, the two "outsiders" are not intend to stay.

I nodded.

When I was seated, he leaned over and whispered something in my ear, "I'm right outside the door, call me if you need anything."

After speaking, the two went out.He glanced at me before closing the door.

And this sentence is like giving me a shot of tranquilizers, making me calm down.

A tall, thin middle-aged man was sitting directly opposite me. The man who seemed to be my brother-in-law poured tea for everyone around the table. The adoptive mother was on the phone, didn't she tell you?"

Xia Jie didn't speak, nor did he respond to my gaze.

The air conditioner in the room was turned on, and the room temperature rose sharply. The woman hung the cashmere coat on the hanger behind her, and she wore a dress that was quite demanding on the figure, and the color was a bit too bright; Wrinkled, the only hand that revealed her true age rubbed the teacup, and said with a smile: "Okay, where do we start?"

The story is very long, as if I have heard it somewhere.

My biological mother was a man's mistress when she conceived me.

She comes from a mediocre background but is young and presumptuous. She has no higher education and has no skills. With her beautiful appearance, she can get what she wants from men without any effort. She is too lazy to give. To climb high branches, it is best to be among the rich and have no worries about food and clothing.

But others are not so easily taken advantage of.

When she offered her youth and skin as a sacrifice to the person who made a promise to her, all the seemingly beautiful illusions were shattered.

My biological father was a married man, and he had the common characteristics of all men who engage in extramarital affairs: they had a successful career, a small amount of capital, and were eager to break free from the siege. It was obvious that he was unfaithful to the marriage but liked the vows, and in the end it was just for fun.

So of course, she was abandoned, thrown away like an outdated toy.A man who betrayed his family did not want to be restrained, so how could he really abandon his wife and children for her, not to mention, she is not a good thing.

If there is nothing wrong with being clever, then giving birth to me is the biggest failure in her life.

She took me who was still breastfeeding to live in the house left to her by the man, squandered the last bit of savings, and continued to look for the next big tree in the city that she could entangle herself like a vine.

But this time she was not so lucky.

"Do you think I'm cruel? Who doesn't love their children, but I also have difficulties... I can't even support myself, how can I support you?" She said slowly, "Instead of following me and waiting to die, it is better to let go You try your luck, maybe you can find a way out."

"Find parents who will raise you well."

I know it doesn't sound that good.

Said it was to let me live, it was nothing more than to make her easy.It's like I'm not her child, but a burden she can't carry lightly, her heart disease, her oil bottle, she can't wait to get rid of me as soon as possible.

So she tricked me to go out on a rainy day, saying that she would take me to find my dad, buy me my favorite snacks, and let me obediently wait for my dad to pick me up at the intersection, while she was going to the mall to buy something, and repeatedly told me not to mess up Run and wait until Dad comes.

I was five years old at the time, holding an umbrella that could cover me completely, and I did as she said.

She said, I was really a disobedient child when I was a child.

An hour later, the enthusiastic stall owner and peddler at the downtown came to ask me, and I said I was waiting for someone; two hours later, a woman with a child came to get me a drink, and I said I was not thirsty; After three hours and four hours, it was dark and the rain was getting heavier and heavier. The old lady who opened a small restaurant on the side of the road couldn't stand it any longer. She brought me a bowl of hot soup and dragged me away with her.

That afternoon, my dad didn't come, and neither did she.

But why does she know this?

——Because my biological mother hid behind me in the mahjong parlor and watched me go, into the black night rain, until she could no longer see me.

She never had to see me again, whether I was on the streets, looked down upon, among the trash and beggars.

"What? Look at it now, isn't it pretty good."

When she talked about it, she didn't evade it, and she didn't care whether I could listen to it or not.Picking at his red nails, making a lot of vulgar and uneducated little gestures during the conversation, grinning mockingly, his eyes lingering on me, and saying something frivolous beyond belief, "My son is so handsome , 21 this year, right? The hateful thing is that he looks like that shameless father, hehe..."

"Oh, yes, your father got divorced and reunited with me. Until now, if you go back with me, you can still share half of his property, which is quite a lot."

I lowered my head from beginning to end, with my hands under the table, trembling with rage, even my body was trembling, almost dizzy.

What she said was as light as a needle thread, but she pierced my most sensitive nerve bluntly and sharply. I heard myself breathing heavily like I was dying, and my throat hurt like swallowing a blade. The more I choked, the worse I felt. Severe pain, the more you struggle, the more you bleed.

"Go home with mom. Mom has money now. The first thing she wants to do is to pick you up. In the future, what do you want to do, where do you want to play, are you a family, the most important thing is Neat and tidy."

"It's not easy for this sister to raise my son. They are both parents and understand."

She glanced at Xia Jie who was silent at the side, and there was a blatant sarcasm hidden in her sigh: "It's just that you still don't have a father... Maybe it's this kind of fate..."

"Well, I think you won't be able to accept it for a while. Mom is willing to wait for you. We will do a paternity test in a few days, and you-"

I leaned on the table and stood up.

The room is transparent and bright, the sky outside the window is clear, there is no wind or cloud, the cold and sharp sunlight across my face, I closed my eyes for a while, and gave up on everything I could think or not.

"you."

The woman looked up at me in astonishment.

When the unbearable past came to light again, I was finally able to look directly at this face that I had no memory of.Almost by accident, I discovered that it is like the thousands of passers-by who forget at a glance, and disappear like dust when they pass by me, without leaving any traces.

I don't know her, and I don't want to know her.

But she said she was my mother.I am the flesh and blood that was stripped from her body when she was pregnant and gave birth in October, continuing her blood. I have such a beautiful name that makes people say it even softly, my child.

I smiled at them.

—I actually feel disgusted.

"Listen."

"I don't need to pursue you, but don't expect me to cry and go back with you. No matter how poor or difficult I am, I have the confidence to say that I am living a good life now, and you are not qualified to comment on my life." I said : "I don't know you, I don't remember you, and I don't want to do a shit paternity test with you, don't even think about it."

"So what if you're a relative, or do you think you can buy a son with some fucking money?"

You come whenever you want, leave whenever you want, you kidnap me by relying on the most precious but also least valuable blood relationship in the world, and you can finish it with just "love me"?

"Summer break!"

Xia Jie, who had been sitting and watching coldly all this time, made a move at this moment. She reached out and grabbed my clothes and pulled me back, and said sharply, "Stop talking! Sit down!"

Panting heavily, my body tightened like a bowstring, I disobeyed her orders in public for the first time.

"Because you are the one who gave birth to me, can you use me as you like?! Because I was born by you, must I love you, obey you and forgive you unconditionally?! You need me now, so I have to be grateful I beg you to give me a mother's love!!"

I yelled at the woman whose name I still don't know: "I'm a fucking dog you gave birth to, if you want it, you can throw it away!!!"

No one present answered me.There was no sound.

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