After I died, I became the white moonlight of scumbag A's ex-husband

Chapter 80 Zong Ying, I'm Sorry

This is a pair of healthy and strong hands. There are no years of pressure injuries on the wrists, let alone the shocking scars that ruin everything.

"Why can't you draw it, your hands are fine!"

Zong Ying had a premonition in his heart that what Gu Zhijin was about to say next was unbearable for him, and he instinctively began to escape, resist, and didn't want to hear it.

"Xiao Jin, you just don't have inspiration for a while, which is normal for a designer. It must be that your recent workload is too heavy, that... the bottleneck period is right! Don't think too much, just wait for a while. "

Gu Zhijin looked at Zong Ying's self-deceiving self-comfort, and casually took out another cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it.

He didn't put the cigarette in his mouth, but just lit it and watched it burn slowly, letting the faint smell of tobacco relax his mind a little.

"It won't be good. It's not a hand problem."

"It's not a hand problem, what else can it be! Xiaojin, although I don't know much about design, I know that you just won an award and your design was published in a magazine last week. It is ready to be mass-produced as the new product of the next season. , I asked Yang Yi, and he said that within three years, you will be able to own your own studio!"

Zongying seemed to be stimulated, and he was a little emotional, "Whether it's a studio or setting up your own brand, I'll invest! If you want money, resources, or contacts, you can do whatever you want! Give it all to me! I will give the past I will make up for you what you lost, and I will take you back to the altar with my own hands!"

"So, Xiao Jin, don't say you can't draw, I know you can, you can!"

"Don't get too excited, I didn't say I couldn't do it."

Gu Zhijin looked at Zong Ying as if stupefied, and flicked his forehead with his fingers, "What you said is not a problem. Whether it is becoming a jewelry designer, or having your own studio, your own brand, I can do both."

Zong Ying was puzzled: "Then you say you can't draw it..."

Gu Zhijin looked down at the scarlet fire that was slowly burning at his fingertips, and explained softly: "In the field of design, everyone has their own focus. I used to be very good at expressing love, and almost all excellent works revolved around the theme of love. theme."

For example, the couple cufflinks of Xie Qin and Xi Wei, such as the wedding rings of Hang Jing and Zong Ying.

"Because I used to have nothing but love."

"I was born without a father. My mother and sister...are like that again. I grew up in the deformed environment of the Hang family. The only grandmother who gave me warmth left early. Family affection is the most important thing for me. Luxury."

"I learned how to make myself more valuable in the family since I was a child. Under the education of my mother, I didn't make any sincere friends until I went to study in country F. Naturally, I didn't have a deep understanding of friendship. "

What Gu Zhijin said was Hang Jing's past.

Zong Ying knew it a long time ago, but hearing him say it now, his heart still hurts like a needle.

"At that time, I couldn't design works related to family or friendship. Even if I did try to write, it was just a pile of skills, or a way of expressing completely negative emotions. Those works were empty and hopeless.

It may be because I have never had any sustenance in family and friendship, so I am full of fantasies about love. I don't even know when this fantasy developed into a terrible paranoia under my deliberate indulgence.

I finally found the direction of the design.

I burned my passion for creation in the imagination of love, but my teacher saw that my attitude towards love was too extreme, too extreme, and worried that this excessive persistence would burn me in the end.

I thought the teacher was thinking too much, until later, I met you.

Only then did I understand what it means to make a prophecy come true.

I put all my stubborn pursuit of love on you, which is actually very unfair to you, but I can't help it.

Even if I later learned that the only love I thought I held tightly in my hand was only based on lies and calculations, I couldn't turn back.

Because even if I look back, I have nowhere to go.

In those few years, I have long regarded you as the only remaining bond between me and this world, the only straw I can hold on to under the abyss, and the one I found in the darkness for many years. the last glimmer of fire.

Rather than saying that I pester you, it is more that I am saving myself.

I have so few things, not even the most basic health, only a marriage with you.Actually, Zong Ying, I should apologize to you. "

Gu Zhijin finally put the remaining half of the cigarette in his hand to his lips, took a slow puff, exhaled a circle of white smoke, and said lightly, "I didn't know you were fascinated by the aurora in Bis Park. I don’t know you. Because of my works, I have described an overly beautiful love fantasy for you without authorization, but I can’t bear your concretization of love. It’s because I’m not as beautiful as my works, I made up love to you , but cannot be as brilliant as the aurora.

I give you a false start, a tormenting process, and a bad ending.

Regardless of your wishes, I got pregnant with Zong Xi regardless of the consequences, and then threw him to you. I knew that you would feel guilty and sad because of my death, but I still did it selfishly. "

Gu Zhijin leaned against the door of the cupboard, did not stand up straight and looked a little shorter than Zong Ying.

He raised his face slightly, stuffed the remaining few puffs of cigarettes into Zong Ying's trembling lips, and smiled lightly in the long-lost Hang Jing tone:

"I thought I wouldn't have the chance to say this to you, but I didn't expect... Zongying, I left you alone to face all the past. I'm sorry. Zongying, I'm sorry."

Zongying's eyes were red from the smoke, he took a deep breath of the almost exhausted cigarette, and after he extinguished it, he said in a trembling voice: "What nonsense are you talking about, why are you apologizing! What's wrong with you?

what?

You tell me what's wrong with you!

Can those shits be your fault?

Blame you for having such a mother and sister?

Blame you for finding me because of my mother's calculations and your mother's threat?

I blame you for doing so much for me, but I want you to be as I imagined you should be. Once I find that you are different from what I imagined, I will vent my grievances on you indiscriminately?

Or do you blame you for giving birth to Zong Xi?

All of this can't be blamed on you!There is nothing wrong with you!

If... If I could care about you more at that time, pay more attention to those things about the Hang family, if I could let go of my prejudices and have a frank talk with you, or at the beginning, in front of the graffiti wall in Bis Park Just ask one more question, and you won't... You were killed by me, it was my arrogance and arrogance that ruined you, and if you want to blame it, you should blame me! "

Gu Zhijin did not argue with Zong Ying.

His original intention was not to investigate who was right and who was wrong, and who was responsible.

This is the fourth time they have met since they met Zongying in the MTC Sanhe City Finals.

For the first time, they smoked for a while in the fire escape.

For the second time, Zong Ying was his award presenter.

The third time, at the airport, Zong Ying recognized him.

The fourth time, today, Zong Ying sent Zong Xi to him.

Gu Zhijin has never had a quiet chat with Zong Ying about the matters of her previous life.

Because just yesterday, he still had the simple idea of ​​being a good Gu Zhijin, staying away from Zong Ying, and not interfering with each other's lives.

What he said at the airport last time, he thought he could push Zong Ying away, but it didn't work.

Zong Ying still walked in front of him.

The parallel lines in the plan became intersecting lines under the fiddling of fate, whether it was Xi Yi's sudden appearance, or those things that happened in the restaurant, Gu Zhijin knew that after today, he would not be able to completely draw a line with Zong Ying.

Even if he wanted to, public opinion would not agree.

Zong Ying put himself on the moral judgment stand of empathy and other love through blackmailing himself, and also tied the two together in this way.

Gu Zhijin is no longer a stranger to Zong Ying.

In the small tea room, filled with the smell of tobacco, two tall alphas stood facing each other.

After a moment of thinking, Gu Zhijin spoke again: "When I first came back, the doctor judged that I have a tendency to depression."

Zong Ying took a sharp breath, stretched out his hand to grab Gu Zhijin's arm, stared at the other's face with scarlet eyes, and his eyes were full of fear and fear: "You..."

"It's all over. I didn't harm myself, and I won't commit suicide."

Gu Zhijin pulled Zongying's hand away, and said slowly: "It's not that I didn't want to, but I couldn't do it at the time."

"The only bond between me and this world is you. When I signed the divorce agreement, I cut off the connection between us with my own hands. The rest of my life is just to give birth to Zong Xi, and the connection between me and this world, Long gone.

Later, when I came back with this body, I was in a very bad state. I didn't know why I came back, and I couldn't think of a reason, so I thought about leaving for a while.

But Gu Zhijin's body was seriously injured. I looked at the needle on the back of my hand but couldn't pull it out, and couldn't pinch the blade on the instrument table. Looking out the window, I couldn't even stand up and take two steps closer.

I was forcibly trapped in this world, but it seemed that I had nothing to do with this world, and I just lived in such a muddle. "

Zong Ying listened stiffly, not even knowing when he shed tears.

"Then what happened later? You can move freely now, why did you decide to stay..."

Probably thinking of something, Gu Zhijin's eyes softened a bit, showing a bit of warmth.

"Later, I learned how sweet the tomatoes grown on my balcony were, and how delicious the soup made from local chickens in the country was. I realized how it feels to have someone waiting at home, having someone to accompany me at meals, and having someone whispering in my ear every day. , I finally tasted the taste of family and friendship."

"Zong Ying, you can't be too greedy, I can't want everything."

Gu Zhijin raised his eyes and looked directly at Zongying, "I have taken over the family and friendship that should belong to Gu Zhijin, so I can't selfishly use his alpha body to enjoy Hang Jing's love."

"I really can't draw love anymore, because I gave it up with my own hands." This paragraph is not over yet, and will continue tomorrow.At this time, Gu Zhijin was talking to Zong Ying with Hang Jing's mentality, so he would be gentler.

I need this part of the plot to explain Hang Jing's transformation into Gu Zhijin's psychology clearly. It is also the plot before Yuan, and then I will give it to Zong Ying to play.

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