To you who are late

Chapter 18

From the moment Ju Jingyi got the phone, Xiao Xiao never saw or even took the initiative to contact Ju Jingyi, except for a few times following her orders and taking pictures of what she wanted and sending her to her.

Jiang Susu saw her often, and she would also comfort Xiao Xiao and bring Xiao Xiao various gifts.

Xiao Xiao always felt that she was strong enough, so she rejected Jiang Susu's kindness in disguise, and instead accepted Ju Jingyi's 'cooperation'.

She felt that what she did was right and sensible.

But when she was lying in bed enduring the pain these few nights, she realized that she was not as brave as she imagined, nor was she as rational as she imagined.

She was scared.

Fear of pain.

Fear of being alone.

Fear of hanging water every day.

She was afraid that the doctor would come and ask her.

Fear of being alone at night.

Fear of not knowing what the future holds.

Scared of her, no future.

In the past, she didn't feel anything about what she might encounter, and even felt that death was nothing more than that.

But just close your eyes.

Every day, she watched some patients being pushed into the ICU at the end of the corridor, watched the lights go out and the doctor walked out or spoke or shook his head silently, and saw the family members standing outside the door crying bitterly or losing their souls, and she felt nothing at all. .

Even when someone was pushed out wearing a white cloth, the eyes of the people passing by in the corridor were all heavy and solemn, and there was no wavering in their hearts.

She only realized now that it was because she was just a bystander at that time.

Just passing by.

But at that time, she also realized one thing.

Ah, the man is dead.

Until a few days ago, my right hand suddenly lost strength, and I couldn't even pick up the mobile phone by the table. Several fingers were curled up together, and I couldn't break them apart.

She slammed her hand viciously at the cabinet, making a loud bang, and the back of her hand was covered in bruises.

But I can't feel it at all.

As if it wasn't her hand.

When Jiang Susu came to see her during the day, she pretended nothing happened, but at night, she heard the heavy breathing of the old man beside her after falling asleep, and the pain in her body that seemed to be protruding from the cracks in her bones.

She was finally getting scared.

To her, death was no longer just a word.

She is no longer an innocuous passerby.

She will be so painful that she can't speak, she won't be able to move directly, she will let others manipulate her body, her body will become cold, and she will even be forgotten by everyone in the end.

She is not a great person, she has made no contribution to this world, who will remember?

Even if he dies in the end, I'm afraid it won't even appear in the third-rate tabloids that attract people's attention.

No one will ever know.

Thinking of this, she was not reconciled.

She didn't want to just give up like this, she didn't want to just disappear like this.

She still wants to live.

Now, Xiao Xiao no longer dares to take chances.

Her eyes fell on the drawer of the small table, where there was the mobile phone that Ju Jingyi gave her, and there was only one number on it.

The warm yellow light fell on her sallow face, illuminating the pupils of her eyes, making her look thinner and thinner.

Ju Jingyi took back the key that Yan Wen gave to Zhao Jiamin, but she didn't expect that she would find a chance to get a new one, and followed her home, calling it personal protection.

Ju Jingyi began to think about whether to move back to the villa area, at least Zhao Jiamin didn't know the password of her gate.

However, Jing Xuan knew.

If Zhao Jiamin knew about this, he might make trouble again.

It's just that what's more important now is not this matter.

"It's getting late, it's time to go home."

"Go back." Ju Jingyi was absent-minded, "Aren't you going?"

Zhao Jiamin, who followed behind, was silent for a while, "What's wrong with you?"

Her voice was muffled, and Ju Jingyi was startled, thinking she had seen through her, "It's nothing."

"Since you just received that message, you have circled the park three times."

Well, so obvious.

If you still can't see that there is something wrong with her, then there is something wrong with her head.

"Ah, thinking about the company."

"Yujia is completely under your control now, you don't need to worry." Zhao Jiamin noticed that she didn't want to say more, put his hand on her shoulder, leaned into her ear and whispered, "It's about the hospital."

Her tone was very certain.

"Let me guess," Zhao Jiamin exerted a slight force on his hand, preventing Ju Jingyi from escaping, "Over there, the hospital director, Yue Zhenxing, Liu Yushu, and even Li Qing, we both looked at it, and it was impossible for us to make any mistakes. It was an accident. So, it was the little girl named Xiao Xiao who was in trouble."

Originally, she also wanted to see that little girl that night.

Seeing Ju Jingyi go in first, she simply waited outside the door.

Anyway, whoever goes has the same purpose.

Ju Jingyi paused for a moment, with a helpless expression, "I can't hide anything from you."

Zhao Jiamin turned her shoulders with a smile, and looked down at her, "Ju Jingyi, you said that you are all mine, how can you hide it from me?"

Ju Jingyi rolled her eyes, didn't answer, but handed her the phone.

Against the gray background of the screen, there is only a short sentence on the white dialog box.

Can you really get me out of here?

"I can indeed take her away." Ju Jingyi said softly, "But her leaving is not the same way as the one I mentioned."

Zhao Jiamin's eyes dimmed, and she returned the phone to Ju Jingyi, "I understand."

Xiao Xiao's guardian has signed a contract with the hospital, and there are only two ways to leave the hospital.

get well.

or death.

Xiao Xiao wanted to leave, so she naturally wanted the first option.

Unfortunately, the possibility is too small.

Zhao Jiamin also met Xiao Xiao, although Xiao Xiao didn't know her.

Passing by the ward a few times, Zhao Jiamin could see the whole picture of the ward just by moving his eyes a little.The little girl was lying on the bed obediently, she looked like she was smart and attractive.

Obviously still so small.

"That." Zhao Jiamin said in silence, the volume was very low, but with a hint of heaviness, "Are you still replying to her?"

"I won't come back." Ju Jingyi shook her head, "I give people hope for no reason, why bother."

Since she couldn't pull the little girl out of the deeper and deeper quagmire, she shouldn't give the little girl hope and make the other party think that she can escape.

but.

The little girl will be very scared if she stays alone in the ward.

I'm not afraid and I won't send her such a message.

A wry smile appeared on Ju Jingyi's lips.

From the moment she found the little girl, she felt sorry for Xiao Xiao.

Why make excuses for yourself?

Will she give up her plan because of this little guilt?

Ask yourself, she won't.

and so.

There's not much more to say.

"Let's go." Ju Jingyi raised her head and looked at the lights not far away, her eyes were clear and firm, "Go home."

Just do it.

What is there for her to hesitate?

"Okay, go home."

Zhao Jiamin's eyes were gentle, and she put her arms around Ju Jingyi's shoulders, "Let Mama Rong make egg noodles for you."

Ju Jingyi wanted to break free, but unfortunately she was defeated by the food without any spine.

She didn't notice that the corner of Zhao Jiamin's eyes never left her face.

From the first time she circled the park, Zhao Jiamin noticed her irritability and worry, and after thinking about it for a while, she guessed that it was related to Xiao Xiao.

She is not afraid that Ju Jingyi's sympathy will overflow, and she is not afraid that she will give up her plan. She is only afraid that Ju Jingyi will immerse herself in entanglement and pain because of guilt and sympathy.

But now it seems that she underestimated Ju Jingyi.

The person hesitates, but not for long.

Ju Jingyi, she is Ju Jingyi.

In the dark ward, the wall lamp faintly emitted a soft orange light, illuminating a small area of ​​the world, but Xiao Xiao didn't feel any warmth.

She looked at her phone screen every few minutes, and then even every few seconds.

But no matter how much she looked forward to and how nervous she was, the only thing that changed on the phone screen was time.

Just like that, she opened her eyes until dawn.

It was only when the nurse's rounds came from outside the door that she realized that the night was over.

But why does she feel that the night has just begun?

Xiao Xiao didn't sleep all night and was seriously ill for a long time. Not to mention her haggard complexion, her entire eyeballs were red, she couldn't have the lively and lovely appearance before.Seeing her like this, the nurse who made the rounds told Jiang Susu distressedly.

It's a pity that she has been with Professor Jiang Qin all morning. Jiang Susu thought that Xiao Xiao couldn't go to see her, so she found a chance to talk to Professor Jiang after she was free in the afternoon, and then hurried to the ward.

Xiao Xiao's ward was facing a small garden. Open the window a little, and you could hear the movement from the garden.In the past, there were very few voices in the garden, but today I don’t know which family’s children are playing and laughing on the lawn. The voices come in along the summer wind, tinkling, as hearty as wind chimes being blown by the wind.

The location here is not very good. Although it is facing the garden, the lush plants cover the view, and even the setting sun in the afternoon can only fall into a small corner. With the sound outside the window, the room looks colder and colder.

Looking at Xiao Xiao's haggard little face, Jiang Susu felt a little distressed, put on a gentle smile, walked forward quickly, and handed over the newly bought plush bear in her hand.

"Xiao Xiao, the little bear doll you are looking forward to the most, I give it to you."

Hearing her voice, Xiao Xiao turned her head slowly, glanced at the little bear doll in her hand, but did not take it, but stared at her blankly.

After a while, Xiao Xiao's eyes suddenly lit up.

She stretched out her hand to grab Jiang Susu, but Jiang Susu thought she wanted a doll, so she quickly handed it over, and she didn't react until Xiao Xiao's hand grabbed her wrist.

"Xiao Xiao?"

"Can you let me get out of here?" Xiao Xiao broke down when she opened her mouth, she didn't realize how much fear she had until now, "I don't want to stay here anymore."

Facing her expectant eyes, Jiang Susu felt her mouth dry, "You are sick, what are you doing if you don't stay in the hospital?"

Knowing that Jiang Susu didn't understand what she needed at all, the light in Xiao Xiao's eyes went out instantly, "Forget it."

No matter how slow he was, Jiang Susu knew he had said something wrong, so he hurriedly made amends, "Where do you want to go? I'm on night shift today, and I have time tomorrow, so I'll hang out with you."

"Go out to play?" Xiao Xiao was not very happy when she heard her promise, her voice was soft and fluttering, "If you go out to play, you still have to come back."

Seeing Xiao Xiao like this, Jiang Susu was very anxious, she didn't know what she said or did wrong, she only knew that she wanted to help Xiao Xiao, but she always seemed to be unable to find a way.

"Xiao Xiao, you."

A flash of inspiration flashed in her mind, "Did Ju Jingyi tell you something!"

But Xiao Xiao ignored her.

"Xiao Xiao, I don't know what's wrong with you." Jiang Susu took a deep breath, "But don't listen to Ju Jingyi's words. Although she is not a bad person, she will not treat you well."

She won't help you either.

"She." Jiang Susu paused, "She has her purpose."

"What about you?" Xiao Xiao asked suddenly, "What is your purpose?"

"I just want you to be happy."

"Want me to be happy? You and I are not related, what is there in me that deserves so much from you?"

Xiao Xiao grew up in distrust and suspicion since she was a child, and never believed that others would be kind to her for no reason, so she rejected Jiang Susu's kindness again and again.

What's more, in her opinion, Jiang Susu's "good intentions" are no different from people who go to the orphanage to buy some gifts to visit orphans but don't really do anything for them, and feed stray cats and dogs when they have nothing to do but don't take them home. Street-like casual.

Doesn't have any real effect at all.

This kind of 'good intention' is just to satisfy the so-called sympathy of these people.

And the sympathy of these people is too cheap.

Even if the cooperation with Ju Jingyi ends up in vain, she doesn't need such kindness.

Jiang Susu understood that Xiao Xiao would not believe her words.

"Xiao Xiao, I will find Ju Jingyi and explain it clearly."

Facing Xiao Xiao, he said so, but Jiang Susu was a little bit murmured in his heart.

She is not familiar with Ju Jingyi, but she also knows that it is impossible for Ju Jingyi to listen to her advice.

But if she didn't meet Ju Jingyi, she wouldn't know why Xiao Xiao became like this.

So, how to find Ju Jingyi?

Jiang Susu was thinking about something and didn't look at the road, and accidentally bumped into someone else.

"what."

The man's chest was quite hard, thinking about it, Jiang Susu looked up while holding his forehead.

They are still acquaintances.

Bai Chengze rubbed his chest and grinned, "Emma, ​​I didn't expect you to have a hard head, little girl."

"Sorry, I didn't pay attention." Jiang Susu was embarrassed, as if remembering, grabbed Bai Chengze with his backhand, "By the way, you have Ju Jingyi's contact information, right?"

Coming out of Xiao Xiao's ward, Jiang Susu went to find Ju Jingyi, but Ju Jingyi seemed to be on leave, and no one knew when she would come back.

She went to find Zhao Jiamin again, and the two of them didn't know if they had made an appointment, and they both took leave and didn't know when they would come back.

It is estimated that there is a problem with the company.

But Xiao Xiao's matter is urgent, Jiang Susu has to disturb Ju Jingyi.

"Huh? Are you looking for her?" Bai Chengze's reaction was a bit slow, seeing the eagerness on her face, he took out his phone and flipped through the address book, "That's her."

"It's not a mobile phone number that can be found in hospitals."

Hearing what she said, Bai Chengze's expression froze, "What did this girl do?"

Not even answering the phone.

However, it is impossible to give out a private number without Ju Jingyi's consent, so he simply called Ju Jingyi in front of Jiang Susu.

After a while, it cleared up, "Hello?"

Before Bai Chengze could say anything, Jiang Susu grabbed the phone from Bai Chengze's hand and said to Ju Jingyi, "I'm Jiang Susu, Doctor Luo. I want to talk to you about Xiao Xiao."

The other side was silent for a while, "Okay."

After speaking, he hung up.

Bai Chengze stared at Jiang Susu, he really didn't expect that such a quiet person would do such a thing.

"That, thank you."

Only then did Jiang Susu realize that her behavior was impolite, and quickly apologized to Bai Chengze, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

"Okay." Bai Chengze sighed, looked around again, and said in a low voice, "You said Xiao Xiao, who is it, Professor Chai Yuanping?"

In fact, he knew Xiao Xiao, but he couldn't reveal too much in front of Jiang Susu.

"Yeah." Jiang Susu didn't notice the strange look in his eyes, nodded and said, "A very cute little girl."

Bai Chengze looked at her profile, and for a while, he didn't say the comforting words in his heart.

Sometimes it's better not to shatter other people's hopes.