[SK] I don’t have to love you

Chapter 17

Compared with the expected ring, these two worn-out gears were worth nothing, but the shock they brought to Krist was far more violent than the ring.

"This gear..." He always thought that these two original gears from the first season had been lost in the chaos after filming.

Boonrod didn't pay attention to the astonishment on his face, but turned to his son sleeping in the hospital bed.

"This box has been placed on the bookshelf in his room all these years, and I didn't find out what was in it until after his accident."

There was another tremor in Krist's heart.

As I said before, when the first season finished filming, Krist had another lover beside him, he had only one tendon in his mind, and when he was in love, he never thought about himself having love for others. The possibility of tempting.Even if he felt shy because of the intimate actions of the close couple with Singto during the filming and promotional period, he never thought of anything that he shouldn't have.

After being with Singto, he struggled over and over from time to time, wondering whether Singto loved him or not, and when Singto fell in love with him.

At this time, the answer was placed in front of him, but Krist found that he couldn't bear the weight of it.

"Singto never mentioned your matter to me." Boonrod sighed a long time, "He has been seldom talking since he was a child, especially when his mother was sick. In fact, he is still a child who needs to be taken care of... He has long been used to hiding everything by himself. Now that he has grown up, he is becoming more and more sensible, and he is a filial child, but our two fathers and sons may never be the same There’s going to be a scene where everything is talked about.”

These slightly bitter words sounded more like Boonrod finally couldn't hold back the catharsis after a long time of no one to talk to. He blinked away the flash of tears in his eyes, and turned to the topic after a while: "Although he has nothing Tell me, but no one knows him better than me. Singto, like me, has never been a person who talks about love. The more he doesn't care, the more likely he will speak out glibly, because he understands Those who listened would take those words as jokes. But what he really cared about, he kept silent about it.”

Krist's heart skipped a beat again.

During the interview, Singto's good words sometimes come out of his mouth, but when the two get along in private, he only spits out two love words when he is pressed by Krist.

Once or twice, Krist only thought it was for fun, but after a long time, he couldn't help thinking wildly.

"This kid... is far from being as confident in front of everyone. It can even be said that he has a very low self-esteem." Boonrod saw Krist's sudden change of face, and did not give him much time to digest, and continued: "At home The conditions were mediocre. His mother had been ill for so long, which made the family's situation worse day by day. Moreover, his mother's temper became worse and worse because of her long illness—he was interviewing about these things. It is mentioned occasionally in the book, but most of them are easily mentioned, so they will be ignored as a matter of course. But those things are just a few words that can be mentioned in a few sentences to others, but to him, it is just a few sentences. Every minute and every second, the accumulated life of one hour and one day is an experience that cannot be fast-forwarded every moment."

Speaking of these, Boonrod couldn't help but feel a little distressed in the eyes he cast on the hospital bed: "It is true that these experiences can't even be called suffering seriously, but it is also difficult for a child. I was I don't have much energy to pay attention to him, and he has developed this temperament unknowingly."

Boonrod didn't say any words to describe Singto's character again, but now, Krist doesn't need any more explanation from him.

No matter in anyone's eyes, the person he loves is always radiant. Krist has always known that Singto's cheerfulness in front of others is mostly pretending, but in his opinion, Singto's taciturnity behind others can only be regarded as a kind of kindness at best. People can't help being depressed and calm (especially this kind of depression is mostly because they feel that the other party is always looking down on them), and this person can't possibly be associated with negative words such as "inferiority" and "sensitive". .

Listening to Boonrod's words now, Krist felt as if he had suddenly reacquainted with another person named Singto.

No, how could he be like this?

The person he loves obviously has a calm and self-restraint that makes him exhausted and can't please him, and obviously has a prudent rationality that always remembers how to protect himself wisely.

Krist always thought that the other party's calmness and prudence was something he could never learn in his whole life.

If you really love someone, how can you keep calm in front of him?It was precisely in Singto's usual attitude that he gradually gave up.

"Although Singto didn't mention it to me, I can roughly guess when you guys started." Boonrod raised his head again, looking into Krist's eyes, "On his birthday party three years ago, right?"

This answer is absolutely correct, Krist whispered in surprise: "How do you know?"

"Singto had an appointment with me that day, and rushed home after the birthday party to celebrate with me, but in the middle of the meal, he answered the phone and hurried out the door." Boonrod seemed to recall the situation back then , finally showed a smile that hadn't been seen for a long time, "He is so busy with work, we don't have much time to spend together, as long as we have agreed in advance these years, he will definitely not miss the appointment. It’s really rare. I thought that something happened to him at work, and I was afraid that the phone call would delay his business, so I worried all night, but when I came back the next day, he hugged me tightly——we father and son privately This kind of intimate behavior is really rare. At that time, I didn't know what happy things happened to him, but no matter what it was, seeing him happy made me feel happy. That day I made a meal and went to call him, just I saw him sitting at the desk and giggling at the box. I didn’t know what he was happy about until I saw the contents of the box recently.”

If Boonrod's words just startled Krist a little at first, then this series of follow-ups surprised him even more to the point of jaw-dropping.

After all, it was the first day the two officially got together, and the memory in Krist's mind was as fresh as yesterday.

It was Singto's birthday party that day, and he didn't attend.

Although the two can be regarded as recognized on-screen couples, when there is no cooperation, they will also tacitly avoid some non-workplace situations.

Especially at that time, the fan base of the two had been considered stable and mature. On such a day when Singto only fans were celebrating together, he didn't need to go to other people's personal birthday parties to disturb everyone.

But at that time, he was in love with the other party so much that even if he didn't show up at the birthday party, he still wanted to meet him.

At that time, he had not seen Singto for half a month.

While wanting to meet, but also afraid of being spotted by Singto, he hesitated for a whole day to watch the live broadcast of fans in his topic, and finally couldn't help it, so he drank two glasses of wine and went to Singto while drunk Wandering around the neighborhood where he lives, I want to have a "coincidence" when he returns home.

This kind of method is very clumsy even if he is drunk, but people who are at a disadvantage in their relationship are so pathetic.

It's just that he walked back and forth on that street for most of the night, the evening wind had already blown away the drunkenness on his body, and he couldn't see Singto's figure.

The special focus on his mobile phone popped up the latest news of that person, which was a selfie celebrating his birthday with his father.

It was only then that Krist realized that on a day like his birthday, Singto would of course spend it with his father, and he struggled all day whether he should come to see him or not, and he forgot such a simple logic.

Knowing that the "encounter" that he had painstakingly designed would never come true, at that moment Krist realized that the anxiety that might be exposed at any time in the bottom of his heart was nothing compared to the fact of "not seeing him". It's nothing.

Krist walked into the convenience store downstairs of Singto in frustration, and the puppet hanging at the door made a mechanical childish voice following his passing figure: "Welcome."

Krist turned his head and saw that the puppet was still a little lion, and felt even more ironic, and his heart, which had been worrying about gains and losses in front of Singto, became even more sour.

He bought a can of beer, and as soon as he walked out of the convenience store, he stood there with his head up and drank it clean, and then he got drunk again and called Singto.

The bell rang several times before Singto answered: "Kit."

There was his deliberately lowered voice.

During the whole day of Singto's birthday, many CP fans were eagerly waiting for them to interact and distribute candy. Krist even received many private messages reminding him not to forget to say happy birthday to his brother.

How easy it is to say a happy birthday, and Krist has even edited it many times in the dialogue between the two.

But it was never sent out.

In fact, what he wants to do most is to be able to tell Singto face to face.

For Singto, it may be just an ordinary sentence among many blessings, but it can temporarily relieve the secret sourness in Krist's heart.

But now it's finally confirmed that they won't meet again tonight, and they dial the phone, but that simple phrase seems to be stuck in Krist's throat, and he can't get it out.

"Krist, can you hear me?" Singto was a little anxious.

Someone nearby walked past Kris and walked into the convenience store.

"Welcome!" The little lion greeted again in time.

Krist blocked the phone's call in a hurry, and Singto was also on the other end of the phone, before asking in a low voice, "Where are you now?"

Krist murmured for a while, then said in a low voice, "I, I was just passing by here, and suddenly remembered that I haven't told you happy birthday yet..."

"Wait there." Singto said hurriedly and hung up the phone.

Krist took the phone away and stared blankly at the page where the call had ended, before realizing that she might really be drunk.

He made him wait?Did he hear it wrong or did he really say it?

Singto's house is some distance away from here, so he probably wouldn't really come here... Krist took a few steps forward, then dawdled back hesitantly.

What if what he said was true?

Call again and ask?What if Singto didn't intend to come here at all?Isn't that embarrassing?

So should he wait or not?

Singto's journey will take a lot of time, even if he really will come, it's obviously silly for him to wait here.

The smarter way is of course to get up and go now!

Thinking of this, Krist turned around and walked forward for a long time, but the further he walked, the more difficult the steps seemed to be.

After dawdling for a long time, he still couldn't help turning around.

Krist didn't remember how many times he hesitated back and forth. When Singto came, he sat pitifully in front of a dimly lit step, sleepy, tired, and apprehensive.

Seeing Singto appearing in front of her, Krist didn't know if it was because of the alcohol, but she just felt wronged, looked up at him, and said awkwardly: "Anyway, it's past twelve o'clock, so it doesn't matter if you come back or not." .”

Singto didn't know how long he ran after getting off the car, looking at him panting, his eyes sparkling.

Krist used to like his eyes the most, but now because of the hidden liking in his heart, it is his eyes that he fears the most.

Because they were really too bright, as if he could see through his mind at any time.

In order to cover up her shady thoughts, Krist simply pretended to be drunk with the little alcohol remaining on her body.

Singto also thought that he was really drunk, and led him all the way back to the residence.

Krist was so nervous that his nerves were tense, but at the same time he secretly felt some comfort because of this rare meeting, his thoughts were contradictory like a ball of thread scratched by a cat.

"Didn't you go home? It's so far away, why do you come back?" Krist suppressed the frenzied thoughts that grew wildly like weeds for a long time, and finally slipped out of his mouth inadvertently.

Singto looked at him seriously, with the same shining eyes.

Krist became nervous, and hurriedly said: "I mean, I was planning to go back after that phone call—no, I was, I was just passing by—"

Under Singto's gaze, he didn't know what he said. In such a panic, Krist finally closed his eyes and asked dejectedly: "I mean...you, you know my mean?"

Krist's voice couldn't be softer.

But in the quiet night, people can still hear clearly.

Singto was quiet for a long time before asking in a low voice, "What do you mean?"

This is obviously asking knowingly. Krist was already in a state of embarrassment, but after this, she lost her temper: "What else do you mean?"

He raised his head, met Singto's eyes, and was a little stuck, but honestly said what was in his heart: "Didn't you see it? I...I like you a little bit."

This "somewhat" is clearly a reserved statement to save face.

Singto's eyes seemed to become dimmed, making it impossible to understand his thoughts.

Krist's heart hung high: "Then what do you mean...will you be with me?"

Krist remembered that Singto just looked at him for a long time, until his heart seemed to fall into hell, then he said in a hoarse voice: "Okay."

On that day in my memory, Singto was always so calm, and he was the only one who couldn't get out of embarrassment and excitement.

Krist has even tacitly agreed that Singto will agree to his confession, but it's just because life is too boring, and he just wants to talk about love to adjust his life.

Listening to Boonrod's words now, Krist realizes that her thought was wrong from the beginning.

"This is the second time in a few years that he hugged me so tightly, probably the day you broke up." Boonrod continued.

Listening to his sigh, Kris suddenly felt ashamed.

No matter what the relationship between him and Singto is, but in Boonrod's view, he is probably playing with his son's relationship. He is the one who is together, and he is the one who wants to break up. , Even after the breakup, Singto was harmed to what he is now.

Boonrod seems to have guessed what he was thinking at the moment: "I won't blame you for causing him to be like this, because I know that it would be the biggest blow to him if he let him watch you have an accident. At the last moment, he chose In order to protect the one he loves, he must have been happy at that time. Anyway, he doesn’t know anything now, and the one who knows how to be sad is a sober person.”

Boonrod reached out to help Singto smooth the broken hair on his forehead, looked at him gently, his eyes were a little moist: "I tell you this, not to make you feel guilty, but to let you understand his mind. My child, He doesn't know how to express, he is a stupid guy. But this stupid guy is willing to give his life to love you. "

Krist held the box in her hand in a daze, not even noticing that Boonrod quietly left the ward.

His tear point has always been very low, and he often couldn't help crying for a little thing. After a long time, everyone seemed to have tacitly associated his crying with cuteness. As time passed, Krist no longer wanted to cry in front of others.

But now, in front of the sleeping man, tears quickly blurred his vision, fell down, and finally wet the two gears lying quietly in the velvet box.

When did Singto fall in love with him?He was even with other people when he put away the gear.

Krist suddenly remembered that a long, long time ago, when they were just becoming famous, he accidentally saw the interviews about Singto compiled by fans.

He said, I will not pester someone who has a lover, even if I like him very much.

At that time, many fans of the two of them substituted the so-called "person with a lover" into him, and Krist thought it was ridiculous when he saw it.

When he saw it, he actually thought it was ridiculous.