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Chapter 6

But what is the truth, everyone who has struggled in the world of giants will have their own unique horror memories, about death, about crippled hope.

It is impossible to compare the memories in my heart which is the most painful.Levi thought, no matter which one, he can experience it personally.

So he looked at the child who was struggling on the bed because of the nightmare of memory, and he had no choice but to stay by the bed and comfort Alan when he woke up.

It doesn't feel good to just have to wait.

"Mr. Levi, would you like to go to the park?"

Although he was still worried about Alan's drowsiness, Levi agreed to the child's request anyway.Then he helped the child find out clothes for going out-selfishly chose a rabbit ear hoodie that he liked the most (of course Levi himself), in order to slow down his physical exertion, Levi picked up the child , let him sit firmly on his forearm, and then walked to the Central Park closest to the apartment at a walking speed.

"How is it, Alan, feeling okay?" He was still worried, and asked the quiet child in his arms.

Alan's spirit is still not good, but he has been bored in the room for too long, and after all, he can't restrain the child's playful nature and wants to come out to get some air.

"Hmm... Mr. Levi, let's go ride on the swing!"

"it is good."

He placed Allen on the blue swing the kid had chosen, then leaned against a nearby rail and folded his arms.The weather was not too bad, at least in July and August, when it should be hot, and it wasn't too restless.It was mid-afternoon at this time, and there were cicadas singing from time to time, and the facilities in the park probably because they were a little old, creaked with the children's shaking movements.

The atmosphere is rare and pleasant.

"Mr. Levi..." Allen said hesitantly, shaking his legs, "Recently I...have a lot of strange dreams..."

He thought this was also a good opportunity to understand the child's current situation, so he said "um" to indicate that he was listening patiently. It is rare for a child to be in such a low mood. Levi quietly waited for the next article.

"In the beginning, I dreamed of Mikasa, Armin, and others, and people I didn't know..." Allen said softly, "In the past few days, I always see Mr. Levi in ​​my dreams..."

"and then?"

"Everyone is wearing strange clothes... and there are things that can blow air, I saw, flying. Everyone is amazing," Levi stretched out his hand and rubbed the child's head - I don't know when it started, this has become The action he most often makes with children.Allen raised his head with a sad expression on his face, "But I'm always getting hurt."

"Don't think about it too much, Alan," he couldn't help emphasizing, "It was just a dream."

The child lowered his head again, "I'll be scared, Mr. Levi, I'm too timid."

"That's normal," he found himself in the job of mentoring the kid again, "I said, something to be afraid of, it's a very — oh no, the 15-year-old one...well no It doesn’t matter, it’s the same if I say it to you kid again, it’s normal to have fear.”

The child's hands tightly clutched the chains on both sides of the swing, looking very tangled.Levi thought to himself, it is still the same person, even the way of expressing his feelings has not changed.He sighed.

"I also dreamed of myself," just as Levi was about to continue to speak to comfort this troublesome brat, Allen began to describe his dream again, "And you, Mr. Levi, we seem to always, always Together."

He hasn't been able to describe his dream very well yet, Levi vaguely guessed something from the child's expression, it's nothing more than about the Survey Corps, and, himself.

"I'm sad, but all I can do is cry," the child said again, "It's real, once I dreamed that Mr. Levi was badly injured, but I was too far away , I can't do anything."

The fact is that he has rarely been injured, and most of the time he needs to be at the forefront, as the banner of the Corps and the belief and hope of all.But after Allen joined, there was another kid around him.

"Captain! This is today's report!"

"Soldier, Captain, look, this is what Miss Petra just taught me to do."

"Soldier..."

"Ah... this noisy brat..." Levi let out a helpless sigh while Allen was away, but the smile on the corner of his mouth was caught by Hanji who was passing by.

"Huh~ Captain Levi can actually laugh~"

"Hanji...cut you."

It feels a bit embarrassing to be exposed, but no matter what - that kid is really amazing.He rarely thought of frustration.

After the sacrifice of Levi's class, Allen was really depressed for a long time, which also affected Levi's emotions to a certain extent. Even he couldn't adapt to the fact that the regiment headquarters became empty overnight.The feeling of emptiness even gave him the illusion that even if he said a word, he would hear a loud echo.

"Alan." He understood that it was useless to talk too much. After the routine inspection was over, Levi didn't rush to follow Hanji out. Instead, he stepped forward and sat on the edge of the bed in a daze before walking out of the basement. teenager with hair.

Not long after, the survey corps went through another large-scale investigation outside the wall. God knows where the strange species suddenly ran out, and before everyone had time to react, they stepped on the group of people closest to it.

In an instant, flesh and blood splattered.

"Don't stop! Keep going!" Levi ordered loudly after roughly observing the surrounding terrain, and he was keenly aware of the unsteady breathing of the young man beside him, "Alan, don't be impulsive."

The other party clenched his fists, and his green eyes were full of unconcealable hatred.

"Captain Levi... I... One day, one day I will drive them all out! All!!"

"The momentum is good, keep it till the end."

He understood how much the young man valued his companions. From Mikasa Almin to everyone in the Corps, he just listened to Han Ji's story. After the investigation was over that day, he was covered in blood, and when he finally returned to the headquarters safely, Alan's face showed It was an expression that no one had seen before, mixed with anxiety, worry, and another complex emotion that could not be described.

Levi took it for granted that it was attributed to his subordinates' concern for their superiors, he didn't think much about it, and accepted the sudden hug frankly.

"Little devil, I can't breathe."

"..."

"Hey Alan, why are you crying?"

"...Soldier."

"Ah." Levi responded, raised his hand and patted the back of Allen's head.

He quietly felt the trembling of the other person's body and his own heartbeat.

For a long time, no one spoke again.

Then he thinks of the bouquet of daisies at home, and Levi chuckles again at his own stupidity.

"So Alan," he squatted down beside the swing, and took the child's left hand, which was also wearing a bracelet, with his left hand tied with a red thread, "I'm here, don't worry."

The child nodded vigorously, wiped away tears with his free hand, and sniffed.

It's just that he didn't notice that more and more dark clouds had accumulated in the sky at this time, and when the thunder began to rumble, Levi realized that something was wrong.

"Mr. Levi... isn't it, it's going to rain?"

"...Ah, Alan, we have to hurry home." He stood up and looked up at the increasingly gloomy sky. He couldn't help but blame himself for not considering the recent rain, and taking the child out without an umbrella. .

It's just a pity that the sky didn't give him much time to reflect on his negligence. First, a few drops of rain fell in the sky, and then it seemed that only a few seconds later, it directly escalated into a downpour.

"Whoa! Mr. Levi!!"

"Okay, don't dawdle!" He picked up the child as fast as he could, and then started running in the direction of the apartment.

The rain was so heavy that Levi couldn't do anything even if he wanted to protect Alan in his arms from the rain.By the time the two finally stood at the door of the apartment, they were already soaked through.

The feeling of the clothes sticking to the body was really bad, and the air-conditioning in the hall made Levi shiver, and he was worried about the child's body, so that the hand that took out the key to open the door trembled unconsciously.

"Ah, ahh!"

"Take off your wet clothes first, Alan," he ordered directly to the child, regardless of himself, "go take a bath."

The child rubbed his red nose, and then obeyed obediently. When he finished washing, Levi had already changed in the bathroom on the other side, "Feeling okay? Ellen?"

"Well, that, Mr. Levi..." Allen's face was flushed, and his voice was small, "I'm sorry...I'm sleepy again."

Levi nodded, a little worried that the child who had been exposed to the rain would have a fever tonight, but it was still early at this time, but since Alan was already sleepy, there was no other way.So he carried the child to the bed, covered the quilt, and kissed Alan's forehead lightly as usual, "Then, goodnight kiss."

"Good night, Mister Levi."

Levi's bad premonition has always been accurate, after the child slept peacefully for a few hours, he found that Alan's face began to flush abnormally, so he reached out and touched the child's forehead, "Tch, did you really have a fever?" .”

Allen woke up in a daze, he was a little confused from being burned, "Mr. Levi..." He forced a smile, "I feel so hot..."

"You troublesome kid, you have a fever." He said and put a new cool towel on the child's forehead, "Can you get up, you must drink some water."

Allen's body temperature finally dropped a lot when it was approaching midnight. Levi had been by the child's side until then, and would leave for a few minutes except to change the cold towel. The rest of the time his nerves were in a state of high tension, afraid What unexpected problem happened to the opponent whose body is already special.

"Hey, is it finally better?" Levi frowned and looked at the number displayed on the thermometer. Although it was not a normal body temperature, it was not a serious problem. He should have fully recovered after sleeping and waking up. He relaxed a little. Tone, "Smelly brat...just causing trouble."

The child's blushing face has almost faded away, and he is sleeping soundly at this time, Levi is lying on the side of the bed watching him, and his nerves are no longer tense after he is relieved, he just feels sleepy, and he just lies on his stomach unconsciously Fell asleep.

This is what Eren Yeager saw when he opened his eyes. Levi folded his arms and was lying on his bedside in a tired-looking posture, fast asleep.

He was a little confused, it seemed that his body had really recovered, the only shortcoming was that he felt that his brain seemed to be unable to function, and it was accompanied by pain in his limbs and bones.Allen tried to move his legs again, and then confirmed that apart from the pain, his body functions seemed to be fine.

"It feels like two long weeks..." He said to himself, the memory of being with Levi at the age of five seemed to be not his own, although it clearly existed in his mind, but he still had a memory that was someone else's illusion.

But no matter what, the effectiveness of time magic ended.Life is about to get back on track from today.

Allen sat up after taking a few deep breaths, hugged his five-year-old teddy bear in his arms and leaned against the wall.He didn't intend to wake Levi up yet, just watched him quietly.The clothes were too small to wear anymore, so he simply took off his pajamas and only covered himself with a thin quilt.The red thread on the wrist was a little tight because of the recovery of the bones. He smiled and untied it, adjusted the length of the bracelet, and put it on again.

"Captain..." As if enchanted by someone, Allen mustered up all his courage so far, and leaned over to Levi who was lying on the bed, he was worried that his breath on the other's face would wake him up , so he tried to hold his breath until the distance between the two was only a few centimeters.

His body was still in pain, but he didn't want to take care of it so much at this time. He thought that the captain must be too tired at this time. After all, since he started having nightmares, he rarely had time to rest.Allen narrowed his eyes slightly, holding his breath and looking at the man in front of him.

He likes him so much, although he can't remember when it started, but after so many years, this feeling has not weakened in the slightest, but as time goes by, it becomes stronger and stronger like wine that gets better with age.

He thought of Levi's tender hand-to-hand kiss to his five-year-old self on the Ferris wheel; he thought of the gentle hug that the man squatted down in the flower shop; he thought of the countless times he had relied on when he woke up from a nightmare that chest.

These warm memories almost brought tears to his eyes, and he had to admit that he had always been a crybaby.

In the end, Allen shortened the last few centimeters between the two to zero, and the end of the distance was between each other's lips.

He gently pressed his dry lips due to fever to the other's, but did not make any further movements. Allen was so cautious, as if a slight movement would shatter the warmth of this moment.

This is also the first official and informal kiss between them.

The boy closed his eyes slightly, and time seemed to stand still.