Why are the stars indifferent

Chapter 33

It was late at night, and the lights of the surrounding residents had already been extinguished. After getting used to the darkness, they gradually saw the front clearly.Cheng Zai walked over to close the window, reached out and patted Zhan Le's arm, the place where his hand touched was terribly cold, I don't know how long he has been standing here.

"It will be sunny tomorrow," Cheng Zai tried to pull Zhan Le back, but Zhan Le didn't move, he could only follow his words, "The stars will come out."

"...will come out." Zhan Le burped, reeking of alcohol, he paused for a few seconds, then took a few steps back and sat back on the side of the bed, propping himself up with both hands, He sighed as if he had lifted a heavy burden, tilted his head slightly, looked at Cheng Zai, "What are you doing here?"

"Check the bedroom," Cheng Zai turned to look at him, "Who were you talking to just now?"

"Did you hear that?" Zhan Le asked back.

"I didn't hear clearly." Cheng Zai replied.

"I'm talking to myself, myself," Zhan Le pointed to himself, his head still tilted to the side, "No one has been talking to me, I just talk to myself."

"Why..." Cheng Zai paused, "No one has talked to you?"

"Because I'm the only one here," Zhan Le responded quickly, speaking in a very brisk tone but vaguely, probably because he was woken up by something in the middle of his sleep, and his drunken state became a little worse, "Could it be that you go to your room and Are you talking?"

Cheng Zai was a little speechless, "Yes, your logic is really very clear."

He thought that Zhan Le was going to start telling sad stories about his childhood. After his mother passed away, he was talking to himself or something... Co-authoring is too boring. Let me play a schizophrenia for you.

It's also crazy to want to ask something out of the mouth of such a drunk person.

"Go to sleep." Cheng Zai walked over, raised his hand and flicked Zhan Le's forehead lightly. Before he could say the following sentence, beware of catching a cold, as soon as the tip of his finger touched Zhan Le, Zhan Le seemed to have been shot He fell straight back.

Hold.

Those who didn't know thought he was on the verge of death.

The next day's headlines could read: Shocked!A certain doctor took in drunks in his home, and he didn't sleep in the middle of the night, and his brain collapsed, killing one person!After reading this article, thirty thousand doctors cried!

Cheng Zai glanced at his fingertips in shock, and after confirming that he was useless, he knelt on the bed with one knee and looked down at Zhan Le: "Are you going to sleep?"

"Well," Zhan Le narrowed his eyes and smiled, "I'm going to sleep!"

Cheng Zai sighed: "Then go to sleep."

After finishing speaking, Zhan Le didn't close his eyes to sleep. He fell asleep in this position, and when he woke up tomorrow, his whole body hurt like being hit by a cannonball on the ceiling. Cheng Zai originally planned to wait for him to close his eyes and help him adjust his sleep. As a result, Zhan Le's eyes were wider than when he was not drinking.

Eyes staring like brass bells...

"If you don't want to sleep, I'll turn on the light." Cheng Zai sat on the bed, "Who are you scaring by staring like you're dying?"

Zhan Le didn't speak, and stared like a copper bell for a while before turning over, with his back to Cheng Zai.

After a while, Cheng Zai heard him say in a low voice: "My sister said that she might have found my sister."

"What?" Cheng Zai didn't understand.

"Zhan Shixia," Zhan Le said, "She said she might find... my sister, and Zhan Siyi."

"There is a clue, isn't it?" Cheng Zai asked tentatively.

"No," Zhan Le's voice suddenly dropped, "She just came to tell me that there might be news about my sister, and I can't confirm whether she is interested or not. She just came to give me... very vague expectations. .”

"Ah." Cheng Zai responded.

"But I don't want that kind of expectation." Zhan Le turned back and lay on his back. "I finally accepted that my sister was lost and my mother died. Since I can't give a positive answer, why did you tell me?"

"She may feel that she is leaving this city, and she needs to tell me everything she knows," Zhan Le continued without waiting for Cheng to speak, "I don't want to hear any vague answers. No, she thinks she's giving me a hope that my sister is alive, but I don't need that, understand?"

"Are you afraid?" Cheng Zai asked softly.

"My sister...was only four years old when she was abducted." Zhan Le was still staring at the ceiling, and after a while slowly moved her arms to her eyes and pressed them gently, "Mom just went to the canteen to buy something, and we Playing next to us, we were next to my mother, a man came and took her arm..."

Cheng Zai stared at Zhan Le's face for a while, then stretched out his hand to touch Zhan Le's other hand beside him. As soon as his fingers touched Zhan Le's, Zhan Le grabbed Cheng Zai's hand Hand, so strong that Cheng Zai almost hit him with a backhand.

"It's like carrying a bag of things. We ran very fast with her in our arms. We kept chasing that car, but we couldn't catch it, we couldn't catch it! Maybe my mother is about to catch it," said Zhan Ledun After a while, he swallowed to try to swallow back the feeling of blockage in his throat, and when he spoke again, Cheng Zai heard his voice hoarse a lot, "But I had a car accident, I was running too slowly, and the headlights shone I didn't have the explosiveness to run away from there when it came over."

"I was fucking hit by a car at that time. What should my mother do? One side is the daughter who was robbed, and the other side was the son who was in a car accident. She can't choose," Zhan Le's voice has already brought a lot of emotion. Strong nasal voice, "There were people around who called the police and 120, but their thoughts were taken away, and the car drove far away..."

Cheng Zai held Zhan Le back very hard, and said softly, "It's not your fault."

"What if I hadn't been in a car accident?" Zhan Le asked with a trembling voice, "Did I just catch up?"

"People can't catch up with cars," Cheng Zai said, "I don't blame you."

"My mother often told me that the most well-behaved child in the world will have stars to help him when he encounters difficulties." Zhan Le moved the arm that was pressing on the eyelids away, and a tear slipped from the corner of the eye along with this movement Come down, "I was lying on the ground and saw a lot of stars, I kept thinking, save my sister, she is most afraid of the dark, the stars let her go home, save her, I will be the most obedient child in the world for the rest of my life... ...help her."

"But no one saved her," Zhan Le said, "Xing Xing is completely indifferent."

It had been a long time since Zhan Le woke up in the hospital. His mother was so skinny that she was guarding the hospital with his grandma and aunt. He opened his eyes and wanted to ask his thoughts?But only a few hoarse sounds came from the throat.

After that, my mother received news that Zhan Siyi was in another city, and moved to another city with Zhan Le who had just been discharged from the hospital, but there was no more news.

My mother could only use some of the money she had saved to start a business. The business got better and better, but her body became weaker and weaker. In the end, she was too tired and fell ill, and died in the city that could not give them a sense of belonging.

"Sijun, don't blame yourself," the mother's voice was very weak, but she still told Zhanle over and over again, "You should not blame yourself for the criminal's fault, you have to...be good and live on."

But no one came to tell Zhan Le what to do next.

He continued to live in that city alone, and was sent to the hospital after having mental problems. He didn't follow Zhan Tingci back to this place until Zhan Tingci came to his door and said that he had news of Zhan's thoughts. Words but said, can not find her.

The underworld and the white have searched all over, but they can't find her.

Zhan Shixia said that he might have found her.

Uncle said, do you think He Muxi is her?

Zhan Siyi has permeated his life forever, in every corner, anyone will open this scar without warning, throw out the hope that is hidden in the pile of cloth, and push him forward with an unclear expectation. Stumble forward.

They don't care how uncomfortable Zhan Le will be when he hears these words, they just want to watch him move forward.

But Zhan Le wants to find Zhan Siyi more than anyone else, but he has no way to start, there is no way, there is no way to try.

Everyone said they couldn't find it.

But everyone is reminding Zhan Le that you still have a younger sister named Zhan Siyi. She may still be alive.

They are always so entangled and selfish, throwing their self-righteous goodwill on him.

"Sometimes I think," Zhan Le squinted at his and Cheng Zai's hands, "What if I was the one who was kidnapped?"

"Zhan Le..." Cheng Zai frowned and shouted.

"What a horrible thing a girl will go through when she is abducted. I... When she was so young, she was still afraid of the dark, and she had to sleep with the night light on at night," Zhan Le couldn't stop crying, almost saying a word Pause for a while, "If I was abducted, it would be fine if I squatted on the side outside."

"Boys are the same." Cheng Zai interrupted him, paused for a while, leaned over and hugged Zhan Le gently, "No one should be abducted, Zhan Le, don't have such thoughts."

Zhan Le was hugged by Cheng Zai, as if he hadn't realized what happened, he was stunned for a while before he tightly grasped Cheng Zai's clothes behind with his other hand, took two deep breaths blankly and let the tears flow go down.

"What about my sister?" Zhan Le looked at the ceiling, her voice shaking uncomfortably, "She was just kidnapped..."

"It's the bad guy's fault," Cheng Zai said softly, "Your mother told you it was the bad guy's fault, right?"

Zhan Le stopped talking.

After a while, Cheng Zai gently placed his head by Zhan Le's ear, and after feeling his wet side face, the tears finally fell down like broken threads, Zhan Le's breathing became heavy, and gradually became Sobbing softly, Zhan Le opened his mouth wide and took a deep breath, as if to release all the confusion and depression accumulated in his heart for so many years; in the end, he grabbed Cheng Zai and howled and cried.

It was probably the first time I told others these things, and when I said it, I forced myself to think of countless details. He cried to the point of lack of oxygen, and the effect of alcohol magnified his usual emotions countless times, like a child. , Tears could not stop falling.

Cheng Zai frowned, hugged Zhan Le who was crying and trembling, and sighed again after a long time.