Why are the stars indifferent

Chapter 75 Xiao Linzi x Ji Changyun

There is a lot of rain this year, and there is always a small puddle of water in the corner of the eaves of the blue bricks and black tiles, and the rusty bell hanging in the corner made an indistinct sound. Just at this time, the door was pushed open, and Ji Changyun moved quickly He took out the cigarette case in his hand, extinguished the cigarette pestle in his hand and threw it in, looking back at Lin Xiangxiao who came out.

"What did the doctor say?" Ji Changyun asked him.

"The doctor said that smoking is harmful to health." Lin Xiangxiao lowered his head and lowered his eyes, turned around and closed the wooden door, then turned around and walked to Ji Changyun, "If you continue to smoke, I will not survive 50 years if I smoke too much second-hand smoke." Year-old."

Ji Changyun clicked his tongue.

Lin Xiangxiao's warnings have always been round the corner, and the same is true for telling him not to drink alcohol. Instead of directly telling him how drinking will be, he leaned against the table with his face sadly propped up, holding a book while reading and saying: " You were drunk last night, and I took care of you until midnight... Well, it's nothing, it's just that my exam will be delayed, it's not a big problem."

Ji Changyun could only push back the wine bureau at work the next day, claiming that the person at home was in strict control.

Lin Xiangxiao is studying medicine at university, and the number of exams is scary. Ji Changyun always feels that he has 360 days of exams a year, and the remaining five days are for exam preparation. .

The two slowly walked out of the hut built against the mountain. This is a psychological consultation room recommended by Ji Changyun's business friends. He brought Lin Xiangxiao with him.

I have been here a few times, and every time Lin Xiangxiao came out, he was like this, dejected, and he didn't react much when I told him to go back to eat a big meal, and he became a little dull, but today's reaction was stronger than the previous few times. They walked back to the car together, Lin Xiangxiao didn't say a word, and ate a box of biscuits from the small bag at the back of the car.

"You..." Ji Changyun turned to look at him.

"Just now," the two said at the same time, and fell silent at the same time.Lin Xiangxiao ate something with a click, paused for a while, and then turned to look at Ji Changyun, "I answered a phone call just now."

"En." Ji Changyun responded.

"Lin Zhi has lung cancer," Ji Changyun saw his hands clenched tightly, as he would always do when mentioning his birth parents, and continued after a while, "Late stage."

"It has nothing to do with you." Ji Changyun said.

"I know," Lin Xiangxiao murmured, "I know."

He knew that the emotion at this time was not even because of Lin Zhi's phone call, but because someone suddenly mentioned this person in his life.

After so many years, Lin Xiangxiao is not perfect.

He spent his childhood and adolescence under the oppression of his parents, and the shadow he carried would accompany him all his life. Ji Changyun took him to see many psychiatrists, but he would still wake up in the middle of the night, feeling anxious and fearful. Fortify a piece of candy, and Ji Changyun forbids him to eat any dessert after eating the tooth decay.

When he was anxious again, he started to smoke like Ji Changyun, and after being caught by Ji Changyun's mother, he gave up smoking after a training session.

When he was in junior year, his homework was so heavy that he had obvious resistance. He drew a circle and refused anyone to enter.Ji Changyun was far away from him, but fortunately, the daily video check made him aware of what was wrong with Lin Xiangxiao before he tossed himself out of shape.

But Lin Xiangxiao is sober, knows what he is doing, and speaks the truth clearly - this kind of person is the most difficult to deal with, he knows everything, but he has no way to control himself.

Lin Xiangxiao had never hated his memory so much. No matter how hard he tried to forget, he couldn't forget the fear and powerlessness that fell short when he was found out to be gay that night.

The car started up and started to walk home, and it rained again on the road, soaking the road surface, and it was soaked in dark colors everywhere.

Ji Changyun parked the car on the side of the road, opened the window, then took out a cigarette and handed it to him.

"Mom will scold you." Lin Xiangxiao didn't answer.

"It's okay," Ji Changyun took out the lighter again, "I won't return tonight."

Only then did Lin Xiangxiao take the cigarette.

There were two sparks in the car, and the smoke stirred up the air flow in the car, which was not much. The rain stopped, and Ji Changyun fully opened the car window, with one arm on the side of the car window, not knowing what he was thinking .

The one for Lin Xiangxiao was an orange popping pearl. He usually doesn't smoke this, and keeps it on his body for Lin Xiangxiao. Up to today, he hasn't found a good substitute to relieve Lin Xiangxiao's anxiety. Can give him a cigarette.

In the past, Cheng Zai would also eat candy, and always kept a box of mints in the car, but later he stopped eating. Zhan Le didn't know what magical power it was, so Cheng Zai could completely put his mind at ease and trust him.

But he can't, he can't do such a thing, while Lin Xiangxiao believed in him, anxiety wrapped around him like a gangrene.

Ji Changyun suddenly felt a sense of frustration for no reason.

After they smoked the cigarette on the side of the road, they stopped in front of a hotel, opened the room and went straight up to the top floor. There was a small pond in the yard, and the floor-to-ceiling windows on the other side were enough to overlook all the lights of the city.

"What do you want to do?" Ji Changyun asked him.

Lin Xiangxiao nestled on the small sofa and raised his eyes: "Go and see him, and then tell him how well I am doing now, and when he dies, go to his grave and read my graduation certificate aloud."

Ji Changyun sighed, walked over and squeezed with him on the small sofa, wrapping his arms around his waist: "Just do it."

Lin Xiangxiao tilted his head, remembered something, and suddenly smiled.

He remembered that when he got the notification letter in the third year of high school, he really pulled Zhan Le, went to the door of Li Siting—Lin Xiangxiao’s mother—, bought three amplifiers, and recorded the contents of the recitation notification letter in advance. , and then turned on the maximum volume and placed it at the door of her house, almost the whole building could hear it. Congratulations to Lin Xiangxiao for being admitted to R University. Congratulations.

Zhan Le and Lin Xiangxiao ran down when they heard the sound of the door opening. Li Siting angrily smashed all the loudspeakers. Lin Xiangxiao and Zhan Le got into Ji Changyun's car and couldn't straighten up laughing.

That was probably one of the few crazy moments in his entire adolescence.

Lin Xiangxiao leaned his head back and rested his pillow on Ji Changyun's shoulder. He stared at the ceiling for a while, then pulled the corner of his mouth and said, "I'm just kidding."

"What?" Ji Changyun asked.

"Don't go to his grave to read something, don't do anything, he has nothing to do with me," Lin Xiangxiao said, "it's none of my business."

"Yes," Ji Changyun said, "You still have an exam next month, and you will have the final exam soon, and you have to take the exam to practice medicine. How can you have so much time to talk to him?"

Lin Xiangxiao got a little headache when he was reminded by Ji Changyun, he sat up with difficulty: "Don't remind me of this..."

"But it will happen." Ji Changyun patted him.

"No," Lin Xiangxiao said, "As long as I don't want to, the exam is far away from me."

"I recorded this sentence," Ji Changyun said, "I will send it to your teacher later."

Lin Xiangxiao smacked his lips, stood up from the sofa and stretched.

The rain outside was intermittent, and the sky was heavy. Lin Xiangxiao stared outside for a while, and when he turned his head to say something, he found Ji Changyun was pointing at him with his mobile phone: "Laugh!"

Lin Xiangxiao subconsciously twitched the corner of his mouth, and with a click, Ji Changyun looked at the photo with disgust: "Why are you smiling so stiffly?"

"Why?" Lin Xiangxiao touched his face.

"Send a photo back," Ji Changyun said, and raised her phone again, "Mom knows you're going to see a doctor today, and I'm worried about you. We won't be going back tonight, so don't send a photo to make her feel at ease." what?"

"Oh." Lin Xiangxiao responded, and smiled brightly at Ji Changyun. Ji Changyun still felt a little disgusted after taking pictures: "You pretended to be really happy."

"The culture is not high and the requirements are quite high." Lin Xiangxiao glanced at him speechlessly, "Why don't you start a video with your mother?"

"How tiring it is to play the video," Ji Changyun sent the photo, "Maybe how long she will have to talk about it, if you try to laugh for a while, you will almost cry, there is no need for that."

Lin Xiangxiao turned his head again, and looked at his expression through the floor-to-ceiling windows polished so that they could be used as a mirror.

"I won't cry." Lin Xiangxiao said with certainty.

"I'm going to cry, I'm so hungry, why hasn't my order come yet," Ji Changyun said while walking towards the door, "I'm going to starve to death..."

"Let's go downstairs to eat." Lin Xiangxiao left the window, and he walked behind Ji Changyun, "The wontons in the penultimate store on this street are very delicious."

"...Hey," Ji Changyun turned around and looked at him, hooking the corners of her lips, "Then what about the things I ordered?"

"Leave it alone, and eat again when you come back." Lin Xiangxiao breathed a sigh of relief, walked over and hugged Ji Changyun tightly, "Don't you still believe my stomach?"

"Believe it," Ji Changyun finished speaking, paused for a while, and said with a smile, "I don't quite believe my stomach, so buy some digestion tablets."

The rain outside finally stopped.

The dark clouds showed signs of dissipating, revealing the originally bright sky. People on the street put away their umbrellas and smelled the fragrance of wontons from a long distance away. Lin Xiangxiao parted his lips and smiled, and looked up at Ji Chang Yun and Ji Changyun were also looking at him, the smile on their lips did not fade away, their eyes collided, and they were kissing with their eyes.