Little President ABO

Chapter 101 Love

There was no dream all night, it was already bright when Cheng Hui woke up, he had never had such a peaceful sleep in a month.

Through the door, he could hear the whispers of conversation outside the door, as well as the sound of children babbling.This is an extremely unreal feeling, and a sense of stability that has never been felt before, like a dandelion seed flying freely was knocked into the soil by the rain, and was forced to be covered with heavy mud, but also It took root.

Seeing Jiang Sulu again, he realized that his hesitation and doubts were unnecessary, and the feeling of liking and love could not deceive him no matter what.

He never believed in the connection of blood itself before, and did not believe that parents would naturally love their children.But when he hugged Jiang Nianyue in his arms, he couldn't think of any other reason except for the instinct of blood relationship for the love and affection that made his heart soften.

He was glad that he was back, but regretted that he hadn't figured it out sooner.He knew that Jiang Sulu hadn't fully accepted him, but luckily he wasn't kicked out.

Cheng Hui got up and went out, and saw Jiang Sulu playing with the child in his arms, and a strange woman preparing breakfast.Last night he hadn't noticed the robot sleeping in the corner at all.

"Who is she?" Cheng Hui pointed at the back who was busy in the kitchen.

"It's called Nana, FTG's latest parenting robot."

"Oh, that's it." I slept with Jiang Sulu all night, but the invisible barrier was still there, and Cheng Fan was somewhat embarrassed.

"Go wash up, we'll have dinner later."

"okay."

Jiang Sulu supported the child with one hand, and seemed a little slow to eat with only one hand.

Cheng Hui finished eating quickly, and said, "Let me hug him, you eat first."

Jiang Sulu hesitated for a moment, thinking that when the child was briefly quiet in Cheng Hui's arms last night, the biological father and other people might be different for the child, so he put Jiang Nianyue in Cheng Hui's arms.

As soon as he let go, the corners of the child's mouth immediately rolled down, and he began to moan, and he was about to cry.Jiang Sulu frowned, and stretched out his hand to Cheng Fan: "Give it to me."

Cheng Fan avoided Jiang Sulu's outstretched hand and stood up: "You eat yours, I'll coax you." After speaking, he walked away with the child in his arms.

Sure enough, Jiang Nianyue failed to return to her mother's arms as she wished, and immediately burst into tears.Cheng Hui imitated the way Jiang Sulu had been coaxed to sleep before, and walked back and forth in the living room with the child in his arms.But it was useless, he was still crying and kicking his arms and legs.

As soon as Jiang Sulu heard the child crying, he became anxious and subconsciously speeded up his meal. When he was gobbling, he accidentally choked himself, and he coughed violently.

Cheng Hui came over a few steps, squatted next to Jiang Sulu, and patted him on the back with one hand: "Bend down and spit out what's in your mouth first." The trash can is in the corner, and Cheng Fan took an empty dinner plate." Spit here."

Jiang Sulu coughed violently, and the child burst into tears, and the living room was jumping around for a while.Jiang Sulu coughed until his nose and tears finally subsided. He didn't care about other things, so he wiped it with a tissue, and then stretched out his hand to Cheng Fan: "Give me the child."

Cheng Hui just looked at Jiang Sulu like that, letting the child cry and mess in his arms, and didn't do anything else, his eyes were full of pity.He knew that Jiang Sulu's nerves were too tense, only the child was left in his eyes, and he had completely lost himself, only being a machine called "mother".

He gently put his hand on Jiang Sulu's shoulder: "Go and wash your face first."

Jiang Sulu frowned, his face was still red, but there was only anxiety in his eyes: "He's crying, I can't do it without me."

"Leave it to me, be obedient."

Jiang Sulu knew that if the child didn't return to his arms while crying, he would not stop, so Jiang Sulu didn't move for a while.

"Trust me, okay?" Cheng Fan suddenly smiled at him, the corners of his mouth curled up, his eyes curved into a sunny smile, "Go and wash your face first, I will coax him well when you come out."

Jiang Sulu had no choice but to agree. He washed his face slowly in front of the sink several times. He wondered what to do if the child was still crying when he went out, and whether he should ask Cheng Hui to give him the child.If it was just to wash his face, he really stayed in front of the pool for too long, Jiang Sulu hesitated to go out.

When he got to the living room, he actually found that the child had stopped crying.Cheng Fan hugged him and sat on the sofa, while Nana was telling him some techniques for holding and comforting the child.And Jiang Nianyue took the pacifier that he always refused in the past. Although she was still sobbing a little, she had indeed stopped crying.

At that moment, Jiang Sulu's tense nerves suddenly relaxed, followed by a burst of extreme fatigue, which made him almost squat on the ground suddenly with weak legs.

After the matter of crying was finally useful, his pressure was much less, and he finally had time to eat, take a shower and tidy himself up.But getting up every night to breastfeed is still a hard job.

At first, Cheng Hui tried to persuade Jiang Sulu to give up breastfeeding at night, but he was very persistent on this issue, insisting that he should not give his child the best option in order to save himself trouble.Cheng Hui learned that babies do not wake up at night because they are hungry, but in many cases it is just because they have formed this bad habit.He began to take the initiative to get up at night to coax the child, sometimes just feeding some water, sometimes just changing the diaper, sometimes just waking up to play with him, not every time he had to drink milk to fall asleep.

Gradually, the child also developed the habit of eating in one sitting before going to bed, and the frequency of Jiang Sulu waking up at night changed from four or five times a night to two or three times.After resting better, he was able to return to more rationality from that anxious and paranoid state. Seeing Jiang Nianyue being led by Cheng Hui and beginning to accept Nana's comfort, he suddenly felt an unprecedented sense of relief. and a little bit of frustration.Unexpectedly, Cheng Fan would do a better job than him in raising children.

Cheng Hui told him not to be constrained by the role of "mother", and not to bottomlessly compress his needs in order to respond to society and children's expectations of "mother". Apart from all identities, the most important thing is that you are still you. Own.

Cheng Hui used these words to persuade Jiang Sulu to agree to feed the child milk powder at night.The child was two months old, and Jiang Sulu was finally able to sleep through the night without dreams.

Time goes by, and the children still don't like their father's arms the most.Every time he transitioned from Jiang Sulu's arms to Cheng Hui's arms, he always moaned for a while.But it wasn't to an unbearable level, as if he was reluctantly accepting his father's hug and company.

No matter what, Cheng Hui would not be able to learn the meaningless words that Jiang Sulu uttered when coaxing the children, as if only their mother and child could understand the secret words, the gentle and soft voice with warmth and emotion, no one could hear it in their ears. Controlled to be gentle.Cheng Fan always wondered, would his mother coax him to sleep like this when he was a child?There is probably no more moving language in the world than this.

He didn't have the language of Jiang Sulv, so he copied hundreds of sound clips from Nana's library, and played them to the children when needed.He is very skilled in taking care of the child now, the posture of holding the child, the procedure of quickly changing the diaper, the position and strength of burping the baby... The child quickly adapts and accepts him, and Cheng Hui also quickly adapts to become a Father, it's just that the barrier between him and Jiang Sulu didn't seem to disappear.

There are only children between Jiang Sulu and his conversation, never himself.At first, Cheng Hui thought that Jiang Sulu, who became a mother, was thinking about the child, but later found that this was not the case. Jiang Sulv has been avoiding talking about his own thoughts.

One day they took their children out for a stroll, and wandered into the depths of the quiet park. The child was sleeping soundly on Cheng Hui's chest. Gives the illusion of a stolen time just right.

Cheng Fan felt that there was something to say.After crossing an artificial wooden bridge and entering a deeper path, Cheng Fan asked, "Jiang Sulu, are you still angry with me?"

"I admit that I'm a bad person, whether it's a partner, a father or a son." Cheng Hui took a deep breath, "I'm back because I can't let you and the child go, I want to do it, try to do it, maybe I still do it Not good, but I want to try so that you and the child won't be disappointed."

"Would you like to try and accept me again?"

Following Cheng Fan's narration, Jiang Sulu walked slower and slower, and stopped just as Cheng Fan finished speaking.

In the early summer afternoon, the sun shines through the leaves, casting mottled light and shadows on the stone path. Before the cicadas sing, there are only birds chirping on the trees, and the cool breeze blowing in the forest. The world is quiet and peaceful.Cheng Fan followed him and stopped, waiting for Jiang Sulu's answer.

Jiang Sulu was silent for a long time before saying, "I'm not angry with you."

"You're not a bad person." Jiang Sulu took a deep breath, "I can understand you leaving without saying goodbye."

Hearing what Jiang Sulu said, Cheng Hui felt a little relieved: "I also understand why you have been hiding it from me." Holding the sleeping Jiang Nianyue, Cheng Hui even thanked Jiang Sulu for doing so, "Me and you, and the baby, let's reunite. Come here, okay?"

There was another long silence, and after a while, Jiang Sulu's voice became hoarse: "You don't owe us anything." He raised his head and looked into Cheng Hui's eyes, and said seriously, "Cheng Fan, this is not what you want. "

During Chenghui's return, Jiang Sulu was finally able to free his mind to think about this question calmly, and this was his answer.Cheng Hui may be reluctant to stay with himself and his children because of momentary guilt, but this was not the life he pursued from the very beginning. Rather than completely disappearing from their mother-child life after making him bored, it is better to give him love from the beginning. free.It is true that he is the father of the child, but Jiang Sulu no longer tries to use this identity to bind him.

Jiang Sulu thought that he had said what Cheng Fan wanted to hear the most, that he would breathe a sigh of relief and enjoy the parent-child moment in front of him without any burden.But when he saw that tall man, looking down at his eyes, tears quickly accumulated, and the corners of his mouth curled up like Jiang Nianyue, with a crying voice, asking himself: "Why isn't this what I want? You What's the meaning?"

"Why do you say that? You know what I want? It's fine if you don't accept me. Why do you say such a thing and deny everything and all the feelings I asked for?"

Jiang Sulu was stunned. To be precise, he was frightened by Cheng Fan's appearance.

"I thought, for the sake of the child, you would give me a chance." Cheng Hui had never expressed such a broken expression before. His hands were occupied by the child, so he could only shrug his shoulders and rub his face on the clothes , keep going.

Jiang Sulu panicked, and he followed quickly: "That's not what I meant."

"Forget it." Cheng Hui stepped up his steps, making him unable to keep up.

Jiang Sulu was really anxious, they had known each other for so long, he was the one who always cried, and Cheng Hui always comforted him.The roles were reversed, and he didn't know what to do at all. He could only follow, walking more and more anxiously, and even had to trot to keep up.Jiang Sulu's nose was sore, and the defenses he had built for the idea that "Cheng Hui will leave one day" began to collapse, tears poured into his eyes uncontrollably, and Cheng Hui's figure began to blur.

Hearing Jiang Sulu's choked up voice, Cheng Hui stopped suddenly, Jiang Sulu walked too fast with his head buried, bumped his head on his back, he subconsciously reached out and hugged Cheng Hui's waist, choked and said: "Cheng Fan, I'm not. I don't want to deny your feelings. I'm afraid that one day you will get tired of this kind of life and disappear from my life with the baby again. If that's the case, I won't be able to hold on. "

"I do not know."

"All I want, I want you and the baby"

"I'll never leave you again." Cheng Hui turned around and wiped Jiang Sulu's tears with one hand, "I'm really sorry, trust me once."

"It's okay." Jiang Sulu hugged Cheng Hui's waist and buried his head on Cheng Hui's chest, still unable to stop his sobs.Cheng Fan held the child in his arms with one hand, wrapped Jiang Sulu's back with the other, and tightly hugged the most important and beautiful thing in his life with both hands.

"Jiang Sulu, do you love me?"

"I love you."

"I love you too."