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Chapter 16 Farewell

The distance between Gloomy Forest and Rivendell is not that close. Even if the two of them had no intention of visiting this time, but had to hurry on the road, it would take half a month to get there.It was the seventh day after leaving the woodland. The doctor insisted on not saying anything, but he looked very tired. The elf decided to rest at Oldford for a day.

The old ferry is very similar to Edsilon, with the same noise, the same enthusiasm, and a little bit of the same malicious intentions.But doctors are no longer just fish and meat that can only be manipulated by others.The arrows on his back and the short knife on his legs would make the person who made up his mind think about it, not to mention the elf next to him looked even stronger and expressionless, even a little cold.The two of them had no interest in traveling, so they found a clean hotel and planned to sleep and continue on their way tomorrow.But an urgent letter from King Elrond disrupts their plans.

"What did Elrond say?" The doctor changed into pajamas and sat on the bed, his white and slender legs dangling dizzily on the edge of the bed.The elf didn't (dare) look at the doctor's naked skin, and sat at the table reading the letter with a solemn expression: "King Elrond wants us to act separately, and I will help King Elrond's adopted son, Aragorn, destroy half of the southern half of Rivendell. Orc army." The elf stopped a little irritably, but had to continue, "And you went directly to Rivendell to help King Elrond deal with the injured elves, and he said that Lindir would come to pick you up."

The doctor finally understood why the elves were frowning. If this plan was implemented, they would have to separate, but in fact they hadn't been separated for more than sixty years.But the doctor thought of a question in a trance: they have been together for more than 60 years. If he is still a human being, this life will almost end. It is ridiculous that Legolas has not answered him clearly.

"It's still not safe." The elf frowned, and even the negative emotions on his handsome face fascinated the doctor, "No, I'll write back to King Elrond, and we'll go together."

"No, Legolas." The doctor smiled, the tenderness in his eyes that could drown someone was no longer there, it was a kind of sad love.The elf looked into the doctor's eyes and had a bad feeling. Shen Zhao said bitterly, "We're going to separate for now." He repeated in a low voice, as if to convince himself and the elf, "for now."

"Why?!" The elf became excited, a little angry and a little hurt. Regardless of the premonition in his heart, he held the doctor's shoulders emotionally, and moved his handsome face closer, "Don't you want to be with me?"

"Is it the one I want together? Legolas." The doctor gently stroked the elf's handsome face, with some expectation, but more helpless despair.The result will be drawn today, do you want to be with me or not, if not, we will break up.30 years later, he waited too long.

The elf lowered his eyes, and his slender golden eyelashes trembled. The elf was in a state of confusion, but his mind was blank. He let go of the doctor and refused to see him.Silence spread between the two, but this time it was not because of understanding.After a while, the elf spoke with a hoarse voice: "Can't we talk about it later?"

"No." Although the eyes immediately turned red when he heard this sentence, the doctor's voice was soft and firm.The doctor loves the elf and doesn't want him to be in such a difficult situation, but he can't be so cruel to me, the doctor thinks, knowing that I love him, I need to get along with him like a friend.The doctor's confession happened during the first kiss, and it has been more than 30 years now. Perhaps it is because human psychology is different from that of elves. In the doctor's opinion, although he has an endless life, [-] years of waiting is enough.This matter cannot be dragged on forever, even if both of them live long.The long years will eventually make him or him compromise. At that time, I don’t know if I am really willing to be with him because of love.

What is so unclear?The doctor thought that he boiled the frog in warm water to make himself a part of the elf's life, even a deep-rooted habit, thinking that love could overcome the barriers between them, but he forgot to verify whether the elf's love for him was love.He understands that elves don't care about time, but he can't deceive himself anymore. Who in love is not concerned about gains and losses, and has zero IQ?Under the doctor's gentle and tolerant appearance, there is a heart that is not only gentle but also strong, but he yearns for peace of mind.

Shouldn't loving someone always want to show sovereignty?He should like me, otherwise his actions would be groundless, but if he liked me, how could he be indifferent.The doctor broke the silence with a trembling voice that he didn't even think of: "Rest first, and leave tomorrow."

Today there is no night talk, no hug and sleep, and no silently surging warmth.They try not to touch each other to avoid embarrassment.Vera, when is it a sin to love, or else you torment me so much that my soul does not sleep at night.

On the second day, the doctor didn't stay in bed, and didn't rely on the elf to act like a baby so he couldn't get up. He got up early with the elf and packed up his things.The doctor looked more tired and sleepy than yesterday.

"You don't have to get up so early, Hyman, I'll call you later." The elf silently watched the doctor do everything he did before. It should have been much easier, but the elf felt that his heart was gradually becoming stiff and petrified, only The tingling reminded him that his heart was still beating vigorously, numb and painful.

The doctor seemed as if nothing had happened. The rejection last night was like a dream. He didn't look at the elf, fearing that he couldn't hide the affection brewing in his eyes. He smiled and shook his head: "No, I will get used to it in the future."

The elf was suffocated, as if a huge wave was hitting him, the simplest breath could not be maintained, and it was as if someone was stabbing his heart gently with a thin and soft needle. He had never felt this kind of emotion, but now He hurts so much.The elf wanted to say something, but he couldn't.

There was a knock on the door, Lin Dier pushed the door and entered, just as he was about to speak, he found that the atmosphere was a bit weird.what happened?in argument?He was thinking, a little gloating, who told them to show affection in one day, the princess has complained to me many times.He spoke calmly, ignoring the haired elf and the tired doctor: "I'll pick you up, Hyman."

"Well, let's go, Lindir." The doctor put his luggage on his back, put on his cloak, and as Lindir walked out of the hotel, the elf also went downstairs silently.The waiter had already pulled out the horses of the two, and the three got on the horses.No one spoke, but everyone wanted to leave.Lindir was now gloating. He was a little worried, so he thoughtfully left space: "I'll go buy the princess what she wants, Hyman, and see you at the city gate in a quarter of an hour." He drove the horse away.

The two were silent, and the elf said, "Be careful, Hyman." "Well, you too." Silence returned between the two of them.Shen Zhao despised himself, when did he become so reckless?He leaned over to hug the elf, and the elf hugged the doctor subconsciously. The embrace still fit, but his mood was not as good as before. The doctor buried his head in the elf's arms, and said softly, "Take care, Legolas."

After speaking, he simply sat upright on the horse, his face hidden in the shadow of the cloak, and rode away.The elf still maintains a hugging posture, his arms are empty, and even his heart has been taken away. With the sound of horseshoes, the warm spring breeze blows over him, but he seems to be on a mountain of swords. Just take a step, move, In the next second, there will be crazy pain gushing out from the bone marrow.The elf stared dazedly at the tiny drop of moisture on the ground. He saw tears fall from the darkness of the cloak as the doctor left. They seemed to be still steaming and fell to the ground, splashing dust, but seemed to burn in his heart. Burn a hole and let the wind blow.From the doctor's heart fell on the elf's heart. Ada, is this the pain you were talking about when Nana left you?

The doctor was far less strong than he imagined. He didn't cry in front of the elf, but when he turned around, tears ran down his face.

His heart is broken.

The doctor rounded up with Lindir who was waiting at the city gate, weeping silently while riding a horse, the wind kept taking away the tears on his face, but more tears rushed out from his moist and reddened beautiful eyes, almost To suffocate.

Lin Dier wanted to jokingly ease the atmosphere: "Don't be so sad after being separated for a while?" The doctor's hood was lifted by the wind, and Lin Dier saw the doctor's face in the sun. He immediately regretted his teasing and was at a loss. "Hey, are you okay?"

The doctor nodded, but still didn't say a word, the clear eyes washed by tears were full of pain and sorrow, which made the onlookers couldn't help but be moved.After a while, the doctor said: "I, I'm broken in love." His voice was small and soft, and the fatigue emanating from his soul had already made him weak, and he was even choked up so that he couldn't speak. What's more distressing is, The doctor didn't cry at all, he just kept crying silently.Don't tell anyone, don't tell anyone, taste all the bitterness alone, how sweet it was then, how hurtful now, memories are like sharp knives, but he still can't forget them.

Lin Dier felt very sad just looking at it, and he said cautiously: "What happened?" The doctor explained the situation with a few words.Lindir was the one who couldn't laugh or cry, thinking it was a big trouble, but the result was that Legolas hadn't realized it yet. He comforted him and didn't worry much: "Don't worry, Hyman. Legolas just didn't turn the corner suddenly. Once he Once he has tasted the taste of losing his lover, he will regret it too much, and he will cherish it even more in the future."

"Really?" The doctor cheered up, as if returning to his soul, and regained some energy. "Of course, I can guarantee that the princess can do it too." Lindir smiled. If love can be faked at will, it is not true. He didn't say it, but his eyes and movements had already betrayed him.

The doctor himself was also confident. He was not an idiot, but he was disturbed by the common considerations of gain and loss in parting and love. Now that Lin Dier said it, his IQ returned to him.He wiped away the tears on his face, he felt better, and smiled: "This time, I must let him know how sad I am."

Lindir shook his head helplessly, but smiled and was sincerely happy for his friend's happiness, but thinking of the purpose of this trip, he became serious again: "Okay, Hyman. We have to hurry up, Rivendell's form It's a little grim, the lord has been in a lot of trouble recently."

The doctor smiled and reassured: "Don't worry, there will always be a solution. Now you can tell me about Rivendell's problem in detail." A sly smile appeared on the doctor's delicate face, "Or tell me Your sad journey of chasing Larry still has no progress, maybe I can help you."

"Forget it, it's just you, you haven't settled your own yet." Lin Dier replied unconvinced.The two "young" elves quarreled on horseback, really helpless.

I will bury the pain in my heart and not tell anyone.If you come, let it become my armor, and it will be indestructible from now on; if you go, let it turn into my weakness, and there will be no more waves from now on.

The author has something to say:

The introduction of this chapter is changed from a doctor's perspective.

During the recent Spring Festival (2 to 17), the update may be unstable. After all, I have to go back to my hometown to visit the grave, and there are things like the reunion year. I hope everyone understands

La la la [I don't want to be stuck in this kind of place, don't abuse the dog] [Bye bye] [Bye bye]

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