life partner

Chapter 12

It took a week for Xu Jing to meet his longing brother.

The man was a little excited, he kept hooking his brother's arm, and squeezed it very tightly, his whole body was attached to Xu Cheng's arm, and the heat continuously flowed into Xu Cheng's body.

"How about it, is it fun to live in school?"

Xu Cheng didn't answer him, Xu Jing paused, and felt that something was wrong with Xu Cheng, "What's wrong, your roommates have nothing to do with each other, it's because they bullied you, Xu Cheng, you should talk quickly!"

Xu Jing was a little anxious, but Xu Cheng just lowered his head. Xu Jing couldn't see his brother's expression clearly, so he became even more anxious. He was worried about his brother, like a beast that couldn't get in or out, hurried on the spot and didn't care. Spinning around without a clue.

"Xu Jing, go to the supermarket downstairs and buy two packs of cigarettes for me."

At this time, Xu Yingren's arrival just soothed the restlessness in Xu Jing's heart. Xu Jing looked back at his father and took the money. He was worried about his brother, but at this moment he didn't know what to comfort his brother. , he knew that Xu Cheng was autistic and could not accept the outside world psychologically, but...

His brother is always trying to accept the outside world, isn't he?

In the end, Xu Jing hesitated for a moment, and went downstairs anyway, leaving his brother to his father to enlighten him.

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Xu Yingren is a strict wife in front of outsiders. Li Huiyao's character has some rigid attributes that often suppress Xu Yingren in daily life, so many times, he has nothing to do at home, and Li Huiyao is the only one who teaches the children. It's only for peacemaking, but this time, Xu Yingren has become the person in charge of Xu Cheng's matter.

It was the first time that Xu Cheng talked to his father so seriously. In his eyes, his father didn't look at him with gentle eyes like his mother, but he didn't use harsh words to educate him. When he was a child, he still wondered Why his father was different from what was written in the book? It wasn't until he grew up that he realized that his father's intentional alienation and letting go was just because he didn't like him.

Xu Cheng knows that many people don't like him, but...

He didn't expect his father to dislike him, or rather dislike him.

"Chengcheng, you have grown up, you have to learn to be independent. When Dad was your age, he was already able to live alone."

These are my father's first words...

What did he want to say, why did he say that I have grown up, I don't want to grow up, and I don't want to leave you.

Xu Cheng lowered his head, his mind was in a mess, like fingernails scratching the blackboard, he tried to escape from his father's distant tone, but he found that he couldn't move because of the stinky cat.

Anthracene curled up lazily on his slippers, her soft belly pressed against his toes, Xu Cheng moved his stiff toes, Anthracene's tail flicked lightly, leaving Xu Cheng's feet, and jumped back to the ground. own cat litter.

Xu Cheng was stunned for a moment, and he began to move his toes recklessly.

"Xu Cheng, are you listening?"

Is this my father's second sentence?

Can I answer it?

Xu Cheng thought quietly in his heart, he tried his best to straighten his neck, and then looked at his father.

"I should leave the house."

Xu Yingren's expression was a little surprised, and he looked at Xu Cheng with a sigh, "I didn't expect you to be so sensible, Xu Cheng, you have to understand your father's painstaking efforts, you are already grown up, you can no longer be as willful as you were when you were young, you should communicate more with the outside world , so that you can live like a normal person.”

Xu Cheng blinked and nodded again.

Oh, in your eyes, I am capricious.

Xu Cheng lowered his head again, he liked this movement very much, because of this movement, his father didn't notice the tangled expression on his face.But now, he felt that he had to think carefully about whether he was a normal person or not.

...I'm not normal anymore because I have autism.

...My father thinks I am self-willed because I have autism.

…He needs me out of the house because I'm autistic.

Is this what you mean?My understanding is correct.

He glanced at An An, hoping to get an answer. As a result, the stinky cat had already slept comfortably, so he could only ask and answer by himself.

Yes, you are a superfluous person, you have to leave, no one likes you, no one cares about you, you will die alone, live alone in your narrow and ridiculous world!

he answered for himself.

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"Chengcheng, are you okay, are you sure you can adapt to school life?"

Li Huiyao asked again.

She was a little surprised that her eldest son took the initiative to say that he could adapt to the accommodation. At that moment, she was ecstatic. She felt that Xu Cheng was finally able to open his heart to accept the outside world. Now she admired her husband a little. My husband is pretty good at talking.

Because of the need to live in school, Xu Cheng only stayed at home for one day before going to school. Xu Jing felt that he hadn't talked enough with his brother, and his brother had to leave again. When saying goodbye to his brother, he was also weak and sullen, but when his brother really turned to leave, Xu Jing rushed up, threw himself on Xu Cheng's back, and hugged him fiercely.

"Why do I have a bad feeling?"

Xu Jing pulled his brother's neck, poked Xu Cheng's cold cheek, and stared round, "Brother, if someone bullies you, you must tell me, and you are not allowed to hide anything from me."

Xu Cheng smiled, he always looks good when he smiles, just like the misty and rainy paintings of Jiangnan water villages, misty for a while, Xu Jing felt that his brother was so beautiful and secretly intoxicated, but heard Xu Cheng say , "How can the dwarf help me?"

He fell down from the floating fairyland in an instant, and stared at his brother, "Don't worry, I will grow taller than you."

"I'm afraid I won't see it."

Xu Cheng looked away, Xu Jing hummed, "You think I've always been so short, brother, you have to trust me, my brother, after a few years, I will definitely be a standard handsome guy with long legs. "

Xu Jing's words still carried so much childishness, he danced, pale golden light flakes coated his body, making him look like he was shining, Xu Cheng looked at him enviously, but immediately thought of himself that cowardly world.

He found that he couldn't stop those sad thoughts.

The gloomy and desperate mood is like a virus outbreak, quickly infecting every nerve of him.

So, at this moment, even though his younger brother was so shining and made him sad, he still thought of leaving.

"I'm leaving."

Xu Cheng said goodbye to his brother for the last time, and finally turned around and left. After that, he had to go to school by car. After more than two hours of journey, he went to a place without family and forced himself to endure the cold loneliness.

During the long driving time, Xu Cheng leaned against the swaying carriage, with an erratic expression on his face.

After a few years...

Xu Cheng felt that he could not wait for that time.

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When Li Huiyao received the call from the school, she was chopping vegetables. What she made was Xu Cheng's favorite food, broccoli. It happened to be the weekend, so Xu Cheng should be back.

but……

The school called.

"Is it Xu Cheng's mother?"

"Well, yes, who are you?"

"I'm Xu Cheng's head teacher. You... come to school quickly, Xu Cheng... Xu Cheng attempted suicide."

For a moment, Li Huiyao felt that the sky was falling.

The bomb that had been silent for a long time was finally ignited, exploded, and dropped those shattered hopes.

Bang... With a sound, even the quick fragments were heartlessly left behind.