The correct posture of gratitude

Chapter 40

Chu Yan entered the door with her head down, and heard her grandma come out to greet her and asked, "Are you back? Did something happen?"

When I left in the morning, I said to go out to pay New Year's greetings to my teachers and classmates, but the old lady was still sensitive as if she had discovered something.

Chu Yan really wanted to adjust his emotions, control his facial expressions, and stop the old man from worrying blindly.

But he found that he couldn't do it.

He couldn't laugh, or even pretend nothing had happened.

Some suppressed and chaotic emotions surged into his heart in an instant, and in front of his closest relatives, Chu Yan's eyes suddenly turned red.

He lowered his head, scratched the palm of the other hand with his fingers, and murmured:

"Grandma...I screwed up..."

...

In fact, Chu Yan was not a naughty child since he was a child.After his parents passed away unexpectedly, his grandma told him: "Xiao Yan, this is the life you and I have to bear. From now on, we have to support each other. When I get old and can't move, I will It's up to you. Life, that's how it is. Better not expect anything from anyone else."

Although Chu Yan was young at the time, he also kept these words in his heart.

He doesn't count on other people's well-intentioned charity, nor does he resent the injustice of fate, he just accepts everything he needs to bear, and tries his best to promote it to develop in a good direction.

That kind of life is hard but also down-to-earth, neither longing for nor owed to anyone.

Until that snowy night, Fang Yu intersected with his fate.

In the beginning, he approached Fang Yu in the name of repayment, but after getting along for a long time, Fang Yu's kindness to him has far exceeded the repayment he wanted to pay.

Fang Yu really treated him very well, never before.

No one has ever walked so close to Chu Yan, took care of him, accompanied him, pretended to quietly greet him, and talked with him about the future and ideals...

Chu Yan's heart, which was originally as calm as a lake, began to ripple.

He would think that Fang Yu was very flirtatious, but he also felt that he had enough capital, whether it was his handsome appearance or the wild and uninhibited way he acted.

Looking back now, maybe just like what Fang Yu said, he had already secretly moved his mind before he knew it.

Otherwise, how could he choose to accept Fang Yu after he learned that Fang Yu had such thoughts for him and his anger subsided?

If the object is replaced by any other person, even if he has great kindness to Chu Yan, and asks him to commit himself to repay, can he really do it?

It was only because it was Fang Yu that he let him do whatever he wanted.

Qianqian recalled the past few years, thinking of the two of them studying hard side by side in high school, and then flying towards the university gate of their dreams hand in hand.

Later, he took him to the scenery and mountains that he had never experienced before, and accompanied him to taste the tempting food that he had never tasted before.

They would sit on the top of the mountain together and watch the stars and the moon, and they would also plunge into the dreamlike game kingdom to fight happily. They even listened to the music with no words but inexplicably deep artistic conception in one place with their heads facing each other...

What's more, he took him to Wushan Yunyu together, so that the young him could truly experience the extreme pleasure of floating on the clouds and being happy like a fairy...

Fang Yu accompanied him all the way, he told himself time and time again, it was just following Fang Yu's desire to be playful and exciting.

But he never thought that such a seemingly incomparably cooperative game would end in a tragic ending where someone's life was ruined when the game ended in a hurry.

Thinking of this, Fang Yu's sentence "You ruined me" echoed in Chu Yan's ears again, just four words, but it was enough to put him in a situation where he could never recover.

Everything was wrong, and he was so wrong that he didn't even realize it!

It was wrong to rush to repay favors beyond one's capacity at the beginning, and it was also wrong to get close day and night so easily.

Not to mention knowing that it was Fang Yu's willful nonsense, but still following his temper to accompany him to nonsense, and ended up dragging them into the abyss.

In Chu Yan's superficial cognition, he thought that a romantic person like Fang Yu could definitely be distinguished from the emotion and the body.

If it wasn't for him agreeing to Shu Luo later...

The biggest mistake should be Shuluo.When Shuluo chased him like a dog's skin plaster and kept asking, for some reason, he poured out the bits and pieces of the past.

It's like spending a lot of effort to create a perfect substitute. In his heart, he actually hopes that Shu Luo can become as similar to him as possible, and then she can accompany Fang Yu through the rest of his life Roads—the roads to the future that he can't accompany in the open.

But all of this is obviously just what he took for granted.

Fang Yu refused to accept it, he completely denied everything, and resolutely cut off all his escape routes.

Then grimly told him that he had ruined him.

Fang Yu is taking revenge.

Chu Yan sadly felt that he somewhat deserved it.

Grandma Chu seldom saw her grandson look like this, fragile and helpless, dejected like a bereaved dog.

The old lady Chu softened her heart, patted Chu Yan's arm and said softly: "Is it Fang Yu's business? How did you mess up? Don't worry, think about it slowly and see if there is any room for redress. It is useless to be depressed Yes, find a way to solve it!"

Grandma's words gave Chu Yan some encouragement, and he naturally wanted to make up for it.

On the first working day after the end of the annual leave, Chu Yank knocked on the door and entered Mr. Fang's office with a stack of documents in his hand during his off-duty time.

Not long after that, the assistants and secretaries who were closer to the boss's office heard a roar and the sound of something falling to the ground.

This is... a fight?

The secretary and the assistant looked at each other. Logically speaking, it shouldn't be possible. Not to mention their boss and Director Chu's friendship for many years, Director Chu's good-tempered appearance doesn't seem like a person who can quarrel?

Just as he was hesitating whether to knock on the door and go in, he suddenly saw the office door being pulled open from the inside.

Looking at it from the assistant's point of view, Director Chu was holding a folder in his hand and said something, but before he finished speaking, he was roughly interrupted by Mr. Fang who opened the door:

"You still say! Get out!"

At this time, Director Chu also saw the assistant and secretary outside the door who hadn't got off work, squeezed the documents in his hand, and strode away.