shadow lover

Chapter 62

Touching the warmth and coolness with your fingers, you lie on the side and stretch out your arms to embrace it, breathing evenly and accompanied by an accelerated heartbeat, and you sleep with it.

In a daze, I felt that the person I was hugging moved, and subconsciously retracted my arms and tightened them into my arms. After feeling that the space in my arms was vacant, I rubbed my eyes and sat up in a daze.

"It's not bright yet, why are you going?" She ignored me and went into the bathroom. After a few minutes, she came out of the bathroom, took off her clothes and lay back on the bed.

"I thought you were going out again." She closed her eyes and quickly fell asleep without saying a word. Seeing that she fell asleep, I quickly fell asleep again. This sleep did not open my eyes until it was bright the next day.

"Wake up, have you recovered? Are you still tired?"

"We are waiting for the family dinner on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year. We will go out for a few days. Well, there is a free zoo nearby. Go and see it."

"Anyang, look at the snow outside, it's so beautiful."

When I opened the curtains, I saw the flying snow. She was lying on the bed without moving, and she turned her head and looked in the direction of my fingers when I opened the window and pointed out.The cold wind blowing into the warm room made me shiver, and an extra coat appeared on my body. She stood behind her with bare legs and only a thin top.Turning around and wrapping my arms around her waist, I said, "Let's go to see the animals. There is a cute little white horse there."

A large snowflake fell on us when we came out of the hotel gate. We didn’t drive and walked back and forth. When we looked up, we saw a small restaurant open.In the small restaurant, we each ordered a bowl of porridge and a basket of steamed buns.

"When I left home for college, I didn't really want to come back, but now when I come back after my home is gone, I feel a lot of nostalgia."

"If the price of growth is based on loss, then I also hope to keep the most precious thing, just like I don't want to lose you, my Anyang."

The person on the opposite side put down the spoon in her hand and raised her eyes to look at mine. The holes in her eyes were bottomless. I seemed to be able to clearly see the gloomy emotions suppressed in her eyes. It was only for a moment that my eyes shifted, and my fingers naturally Clenched fists indicate that she is extremely restless and even anxious.People who try to be strong and calm, try to pretend to be safe, and try to control their emotions will make people feel sad and soft. It would be great if I discovered her fragility earlier. If it was earlier, the situation would not be as bad as it is now , if she would have said she loved me earlier,

"Go, go."

When he was in a daze, the man had already stood up to pay. After walking for about half an hour, he finally arrived at the gate of the zoo. He patted the snow on his body and walked up the steps. Unfortunately, this place became an open space, except for the gates of the zoo. The sign is the same as before and everything in it no longer exists.

"I can't see it, what a pity."

When I suddenly thought of a certain scene in my mind, my nose became sore, and the moment I looked up at Anyang, the tears in my eyes dripped down one by one, maybe it was because of touching the scene or something else, anyway, now my tear glands are well developed to make me I feel a little embarrassed myself.Anyang frowned when she saw my tears, she took out a tissue and wiped it for me, then stuffed the whole pack of facial tissue into me and turned around.Seeing that she didn't want to look at me, I went to the side and sat on the big rock alone. It was very cold and getting colder.

A pair of leather shoes appeared within sight, and then a coat was added to her body. She gave me her clothes, and the cold wind blew by, causing snowflakes to fly wantonly.Standing up, hugging her waist and leaning on her shoulders, he choked and said, "When I think of you leaving me one day, I can't control it. I didn't cry on purpose, and I didn't cry on purpose to show you. You believe me."

I hate being like this, but I don’t know why in front of her, it’s like my brain is short-circuited. There is no third person around me except us. I hug her body very hard, and I don’t let go until I have cried enough. Spread your arms to wipe your tears and snot.

After sorting out her fluctuating emotions, she looked back and saw a person not far away unbuttoning her shirt to the third button. She seemed to be very hot, but she should be restless. She squatted on the ground holding snowballs one by one. In the end, she simply rolled out a small snowball. Her hands and forearms that were exposed were red from the cold, but she was still snowing and didn't seem to feel the coolness at all.

"Make a snowman"

"not stacked"

"If you don't pile it up, why are you making such a big snowball? Are you hot?"

"not hot"

"Then let's go and take a look over there."

I think Anyang must be very irritable, otherwise she didn't feel the cold at all in such a cold day, we walked around the area, then went back to the hotel, went back to the room, Anyang went straight to the bathroom, washed for a long time on the glass door of the bathroom It didn't even have any moisture. After calling her a few times, I pushed the door in and raised my hand to turn off the shower.

"You don't want your body anymore. It's such a cold day, you've been outside for so long, don't tell me, and now you're still taking a cold bath, do you know if you'll get sick?"

"go out"

"Because I upset you, didn't I"

"go out"

"I love you Anyang, I have fallen in love with you, and I can't live without you."

"I told you to get out, get out."

"Anyang"

"Do not touch me"

"Anyang"

"Stop it, stop it, stop it."

"Anyang, give me a chance, give us another chance, okay? Let's get along well in the future. I will guard you for the rest of my life. I guarantee that I, Fu Senmiao, will only have you in my heart from now on. I love you alone, I swear that if I am a little bit false, I will never be able to find someone who loves me, and I will never find someone who truly loves me, okay, Anyang."

"I beg you, stop talking, stop talking."

Why is it like this, how is it like this, is it because I want too much or is it too tight? Looking at the painful appearance of that person, I can't help asking myself, why, what makes me hate myself even more is that I saw it with my own eyes Seeing the blood vessels on Anyang's body bulge out, seeing Anyang's pain to the point of suffocation, seeing her eyeballs covered with bloodshots and finally turning blood red.

My repetitions, my extremely cold, extremely hot, and my love have completely overdrawn Anyang. Before she regained her vitality, I asked again, asked again, pressed again, and pressed her hard again, causing her to suffer and suffer.

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