still water deep sound

Chapter 109 Fever

No matter what kind of waiting it was, it was long and boring, so Jingze simply sat on the ground leaning against the wall, his legs stretched out at will.Jing Ze raised his head suddenly and asked, "Is there any smoke?"

Just as Wei Xiaowu was about to touch his pocket, Su Jing said, "This is a hospital."

Jing Ze lowered his head and said, "Forget it."

Su Jing sat next to him, and said after a long time: "Survivors will have blessings, and the days to come will definitely get better and better."

Jing Ze nodded and said after a long time, "After these two days, I finally understand one thing."

Su Jing narrowed his eyebrows slightly and asked, "What?"

Jing Ze was extremely exhausted, his clothes were wrinkled, and his chin was covered with stubble.He said: "If you have never experienced great sorrow and great joy, you will never cherish happiness."

Su Jing said: "Well, that's true. People's hearts are always dissatisfied. If you don't push yourself, no one knows what they really want."

Jing Ze slapped himself suddenly, Su Jing looked at him very puzzled.Jing Ze said to himself: "Think about the bastard things you did before, it's so fucking... This is too light." He slapped him again.The sound of palm touching flesh echoed in the empty corridor, very ear-piercing.

Jing Ze only felt that his heart was mixed with sorrow and joy, and he felt a little lucky.At this moment, he probably understood why Qu Jingshen felt insecure.That kind of anxiety has a natural component, but it is more of a fear of the unknown, especially when you love someone very much.In comparison, Qu Jingshen loves him more.

Wei Xiaowu squatted in front of them, looked at Su Jing, then at Jingze. "Don't blame yourself too much. Is there still a long way to go?"

Jing Ze probably felt stuffy, so he unbuttoned a few buttons on his chest.He still has scratches on his chest, which have begun to scab, but the redness has not completely subsided.Su Jing glanced at it and said nothing, but asked, "What are your plans for the future?"

Jing Ze said: "When he recovers, I want to take him out to play."

Su Jing nodded: "Very good." Wei Xiaowu asked: "Where are you going to play?"

Jing Ze said: "Xia, go and show him the sea. He must have never seen it before. I want to live with him for a few days without being disturbed by anyone."

Wei Xiaowu gave Su Jing a meaningful look, and Su Jing asked, "Huh? You want to play too? Where do you want to go?"

Wei Xiaowu said: "Come on, I'm not such a woman. If I go, I'll go climbing. I wanted to go before, but I couldn't find anyone to accompany me."

Several of them were terrified by this accident. Once people experienced the anxiety before death, they realized how small they were.If Qu Jingshen cannot wake up, if Fang Qicheng is disabled, it will be a lifetime of loss and regret.I am afraid that the person or thing I love will not be owned long enough.But how long is long?Ten years, 20 years or a lifetime?Jingze's mind was in a mess, and he suddenly felt that some of his previous attitudes towards life were wrong.

Su Jing seemed to see something in Jingze's mind, so he said: "I used to have an uncle in my hometown, and he told me that life and death are not important matters. He was poor all his life, and when he died, the coffin was originally exchanged by several families. "

Jing Ze looked at Su Jing suspiciously, his eyes full of doubts.Su Jing said: "If material things can really enrich people's lives, then there won't be so many unhappy people in this world. Perhaps the meaning of life lies in the constant pursuit, from countless happiness and sorrows, to find what you need most. part of that."

Listening to this, Jing Ze rubbed his temples, and said to Su Jing: "It's so profound, I suddenly realized that my previous methods are no longer useful."

Su Jing smiled: "When I saw you so big, I was also confused. But what people pursue in life is not love, love is the ultimate goal."

Jing Ze nodded half-understood and said, "Love is to get happiness and a sense of existence from him. And love is to plan for his future and try to make his life as easy as possible?"

Su Jing nodded: "Yes, that's what it means. Cherish yourself for him, and cherish him for yourself."

Jing Ze said, "Let me try."

Su Jing lightly punched him on the shoulder: "Treat him well, he deserves it."

Jing Ze looked at him from the corner of his eyes: "I know, you already have Wei Xiaowu, so don't think about it in the future."

Wei Xiaowu was thinking about what Su Jing said just now, when he heard Jing Ze calling his name, he suddenly raised his head: "What? Su Jing, your words make me feel that if I really love you, I should leave you."

Su Jing rubbed his head and said with a smile: "If you really love me, don't think about these things. Also, be more mature in dealing with things in the future, and don't cause trouble for me."

Wei Xiaowu frowned: "I am a big man, there is no need for such a thing."

Jing Ze let go of the stone in his heart, let out a long sigh of relief, and said, "Da Wu, I suddenly think you are very handsome, and your hair is also very stylish. And you, Su Jing, now I think you are quite pleasing to the eye."

Wei Xiaowu stroked his hair like a chicken coop, and asked half-believingly: "Is there any? Don't tell me, this accident, I think you are quite a man, I just like to get along with men, and you are very exciting."

Su Jing smiled lightly, and said: "I would like to make friends like you. Only people with a temper and blood will have a stand. Soft buns are the best at betraying others."

Jing Ze also slapped him on the shoulder, and they were silent.Sometimes the relationship between men is so confusing. Thinking of the ancient poem "killing a man in ten steps, never staying a thousand miles", it seems to be this feeling.Communication that requires too many languages ​​is often not reliable.People who really have a crush on you have already read the desired information from the details of your dealings.

Jing Ze said: "I decided to be more ambitious in the future. I want him to be envied by many people when he stands by my side."

Su Jing laughed at him: "This is an immature idea."

Jing Ze narrowed his eyes and said absent-mindedly: "Outsiders, they will think what you want them to think. Understand?"

Su Jing said: "You feel good about yourself, and you are driven by vanity. Besides, how are you doing, what does it have to do with people outside?"

Jing Ze said: "When people are young, they like to find a sense of presence from the bystanders. So, this only shows that I am young and energetic. But I will not let these affect the two-person world between me and him. Take it easy."

Su Jing thought it was funny, but didn't want to expose him.Wei Xiaowu scratched his head and asked, "How did you find a sense of existence from me?"

Jing Ze said: "Are you envious of my relationship with him? Do you want Su Jing to treat you like this?"

Wei Xiaowu nodded blankly, Jingze followed his nod and said, "That's right."

Two hours later, the door of the operating room finally opened.Jing Ze got up quickly, grabbed the doctor and asked, "What's the matter?! Is he awake? Can I talk to him now?"

The doctor took off his mask, and the long operation made him a little tired.He turned around and gave some instructions to the nurse, and then said to Jingze, "I'm much more optimistic than I imagined. The water in my brain is gone, and the trauma on my body needs to be recuperated."

Jing Ze breathed a sigh of relief, and asked again: "Then is he awake now?"

The doctor shook his head: "I took the anesthetic, but I'm still asleep."

Jing Ze followed him all the way to the ward, and the nurse said, "We still have to use the oxygen, and we'll take it off when he gets better."

When the nurse finished everything and went out, Jing Ze felt completely at ease.He said to Su Jing and Wei Xiaowu: "Your injuries haven't healed yet, go back and rest first, I'm here."

Just as Wei Xiaowu was about to say something, Su Jing said first: "Then you spend good time with him, lie down on the bedside and sleep for a while when you're tired, and come over tomorrow morning to replace you."

Su Jing and Wei Xiaowu were walking in the corridor, Su Jing said: "Let them be alone for a while, I just snatched him back from the gate of hell."

After everyone left, Jingze turned off one of the lights in the room.The light was much darker than before, so he leaned on Qu Jingshen's ear and said, "I'll turn off the light, you can sleep peacefully." Jing Ze moved a chair and sat in front of Qu Jingshen's bed, first staring at Qu Jingshen. He then fell asleep unknowingly.

In fact, Qu Jingshen was conscious. From the time the car fell into the ditch to when he was sent to the hospital, there were some vague images in his mind.It felt like the body was separated from the soul. He knew what Jingze was talking about, and he knew that Jingze was worried, but he just couldn't wake up.The whole figure floated lightly in the sky. He kept trying to touch the ground, but just as he was about to touch it, he was swept up into the sky by a sudden gust of wind.Just like this non-stop cycle, he felt tired and didn't want to touch the ground like moths to a flame.But at this moment, he heard someone calling him again, so he decided to try again, and then he saw Jingze's face in a daze, and he felt that Jingze was crying, but he wasn't sure it was true , or an illusion.

In the early hours of the morning, probably the strength of the anesthetic had worn off, and Qu Jingshen felt pain all over her body as if falling apart.Excessive oxygen made the nerves in his whole body more sensitive, and he could even feel the beating of arteries.

It was as if his body was enduring a double sky of ice and fire, from pain to pain to no pain, and then another burst of intense pain.Jing Ze slept very lightly, he was awakened by Qu Jingshen's repeated unease, and helped him wipe the sweat off his cheeks.

Qu Jingshen seemed to feel better, but after a while, she began to move restlessly again.He still had an infusion needle stuck in his hand, Jingze was afraid of getting the needle, so he pinched his shoulder skillfully to prevent him from moving. "Baby, what's wrong with you? Why is it uncomfortable?!" Jing Ze was also sweating anxiously, and he was careful not to hurt him again.

Qu Jingshen quarreled for almost half an hour, and finally opened her eyes.He looked at Jingze blankly, and Jingze was so happy that he didn't know what to say: "Baby...are you awake? Are you uncomfortable? Are you hungry?...Huh?"

Qu Jing stared at him intently, and closed her eyes again after a while.Jing Ze touched his face with trembling hands, and the sudden coolness on his hands brought him back to his senses.Qu Jingshen still had wet tears on the corners of his eyes, and Jing Ze wiped them off carefully, leaning very close to him. "Baby, why are you crying? Are you still awake? Open your eyes and look at me...I'm going to worry to death."

Qu Jingshen didn't know why she was crying, he was in pain and felt unspeakably uncomfortable.Seeing Jing Ze's haggard face made me feel uncomfortable.Under such double stimulation, the tears could no longer be controlled.He didn't want to open his eyes, he was afraid that Jingze would be worried, so he just pretended to be asleep.

Jing Ze kissed the corners of his eyes very carefully, as if he had accumulated all the tenderness of the past 20 years at this moment.Qu Jingshen didn't want to cry at first, but when she felt Jingze's slightly cool lips, she couldn't help but shed another line of tears.Jing Ze stretched out the tip of his tongue and licked it gently, and asked in a low voice in his ear: "Why are you crying again? Be good, go to sleep, it won't be uncomfortable when you fall asleep."

Jing Ze whispered many words in his ear like this, some of which had no logic and were just gossip.He listened to Qu Jing's deep breathing gradually stabilized before sitting back on the chair.He just sat there blankly until dawn, fearing that Qu Jingshen's body would hurt again, he would rather bear the disaster on his behalf.

The mind was full of messy thoughts, and Jing Ze just fell asleep lying on the bedside.There is no dream, and the quiet breath that only belongs to the hospital is in my ears.At seven o'clock, Xiaobai and Wei Xiaowu came over together, opened the door and saw the situation, and then kept the sound of the soles of the feet to a minimum.

Jing Ze fell asleep face down, and this sleeping position always made people think of fatigue and helplessness.Xiao Bai whispered, "Do you want to wake Brother Jing up and let him go back to rest?"

Wei Xiaowu said: "Let's wait for him to wake up naturally." So the two of them quietly sat aside and watched.

Half an hour later, Jing Ze woke up in a daze. The first thing he did was to make sure that the person on the bed had fallen asleep peacefully.Qu Jing's breathing was steady, and she seemed to be sleeping well, not like last night.Only after he finished this series of things did he take care of the two big living people sitting in the room. "coming?"

Wei Xiaowu said, "It's been a while."

Jing Ze stood up, stretched his waist, stretched his muscles and bones, and said, "I'm going to wash my face, and help me look at him first."

Xiaobai said: "Brother Jing, don't you go to the rest meeting? With us during the day, your injury is still not healed, it will be unbearable if this continues..."

When Jing Ze passed by him, he dropped two words: "Worry."

After Jingze went out, Wei Xiaowu said: "Even if he goes to sleep, the person hanging on the bed probably won't be able to sleep well, why don't we let him stay here."

Xiaobai held his chin in a daze, and after a while he asked Wei Xiaowu: "Wu, do you really think there is such a saying as 'surviving a catastrophe, there must be a future blessing'?"

Wei Xiaowu shrugged his shoulders: "Who knows, but fortunately everyone is fine. In the future, I will probably cherish life even more." Maybe this is the future blessing?

Xiaobai sighed, and said: "Fang Qicheng woke up in the middle of the night last night, hugged me and didn't talk. He's a big man of his age, and he was crying badly."

Not only did Wei Xiaowu have no sympathy, but he had an expression of fascination: "Su Jing will cry for me someday."

Xiaobai was absent-minded: "If he doesn't cry for you, you can cry for him."

Wei Xiaowu shook his head violently: "I still don't want it, you're a bitch, I can't do this." As soon as he said this, Wei Xiaowu thought contradictoryly again, someday he will be forced to the point, principles or something It's all bullshit.

In the afternoon, Qu Jing woke up once in a daze.Jing Ze, Xiao Bai, Su Jing, and Wei Xiaowu hurriedly stood in front of the bed together, Qu Jing raised her eyes to look at them, her movements were very slow.Wait for him to look over and smile at them.

Although that smile was very relaxed and warm, it was filled with sadness in everyone's eyes.Jing Ze felt that if he continued to watch, his heart would break from pain, but he couldn't help but stare intently like masochistic.Xiaobai's eyes were red with discomfort, and Su Jing nodded at him.

Qu Jingshen quickly closed her eyes again, not sure if she was asleep or awake.In fact, he was awake, but he felt tired and didn't want to disturb his thoughts.I don't want to think about anything in my head, I can only accept some very intuitive images.For example, Jingze's worried face, or Xiaobai's red eye circles.He subconsciously hinted to himself that he was actually very happy to be able to open his eyes and see these people.So compared with this, the previous misfortunes are bearable.

In the evening, a nurse came and took away the oxygen cylinder.Jing Ze was finally able to touch Qu Jingshen's face. His face was as pale as paper, and there were some small wounds on it. Although he was treated with medicine, they hadn't healed yet.Jing Ze stroked his face over and over with his fingertips, Qu Jingshen's lips were very dry, Jing Ze took a cotton swab dipped in some water and carefully wiped it off for him.Jing Ze said to himself, "Honey, get well soon, I want to take you to the beach."

Qu Jingshen didn't react at all, but Jing Ze continued, "I don't think you've seen it before, so I want to take you to see it." Jing Ze suddenly felt that the scene was like a black and white movie.He talked about things related to two people by himself, and gradually increased the happiness in his heart, until this happiness made up for the vacancy of the other person.Even people who love each other probably torture each other unknowingly.

Jingze seems to have tasted some flavors, about love, or about life.It is because of love that we torture each other, such as difficulty integrating with life, such as friction with a lover.Not only did this not make him feel painful, but he felt that his feelings for Qu Jingshen gained some weight.It's no longer like before, always light and airy.

Jing Ze kept watch all day, and just after twelve o'clock at night, he fell asleep.In the middle of the night, he suddenly heard the sound of rustling, his intuition overcame his fatigue, and he opened his eyes to look at the person on the bed.He asked him gently: "Baby, are you awake?"

Qu Jing woke up for a while, and opened her eyes upon hearing this.It's not like the short call the night before, and it's not like closing your eyes in a hurry like this day.He and Jingze looked at each other, Jingze was speechless for a long time, and then called him a little embarrassed: "Baby..."

Qu Jingshen said weakly, "I'm here..."

Jing Ze stood up, leaned over and kissed his cheek.The nose was sore, and the lacrimal gland was stimulated, and tears fell without warning.After losing and recovering, after turning danger into disaster, I don't want to laugh, but to cry.Crying is the best way to release your emotions and the best way to express your feelings.

Qu Jing asked him deeply: "I'm fine...why are you crying?..."

Jing Ze pressed his face against his, shook his head and said, "I don't know, I don't know. I just wanted to cry, so I cried."

Qu Jingshen said: "He's such a big man, he's still crying."

Jing Ze sniffled, wiped away the tears on his face, and said, "Honey, don't scare me anymore, okay? I'm so worried, you don't understand the feeling of loss... you can't even cry. "

Qu Jing nodded deeply, and said after a long time, "I also...don't want to part with you."

Jing Ze said: "I've figured out a lot of things in the past two days. When you recover, I'll tell you."

Qu Jingshen said: "Okay..."

Jing Ze asked him, "Does your injury still hurt?"

Qu Jingshen said: "It's a bit...my leg is numb, please rub it for me..."

Jing Ze nodded, rubbing for him with just the right amount of strength.When Jing Ze was about to ask him if he was still rubbing elsewhere, Qu Jingshen had already fallen asleep.Jing Ze smiled, feeling very sad again.