still water deep sound

Chapter 135 Spring Chapter

Spring is cold.

The cold spring breeze blows through this northern city, and the willow trees sprout new buds, but the pedestrians on the road are becoming more and more desolate.Turn on the TV, and TV stations around the world are broadcasting the epidemic situation, and many small companies are forced to stop operations.The losses caused by this disaster are huge, both economically and psychologically.Everything we pursue and yearn for becomes insignificant in the face of death.

Qu Jingshen was lying on the bed sickly, his spirit was getting worse and worse.Sometimes looking at the rising sun, I fell asleep after a while.But falling asleep doesn't mean resting. He can't control his subconscious thinking, and he has everything in a mess.I used to think about things from my childhood, but in an instant it became something that happened recently.All these trivial matters mixed together, making him not want to open his eyes again.

When Jing Ze saw that Qu Jing was not sleeping soundly, he would wake him up.But not long after Qu Jing woke up, she fell asleep again drowsily.The originally free environment has been completely isolated due to the increasingly serious epidemic situation, and there will be special nurses to deliver food and clean up.

One night, Qu Jingshen woke up from a nightmare.He was sweating and panting heavily, and he didn't calm down for a long time.He dreamed that he fell into a pit full of wild beasts, and he couldn't get out no matter how hard he crawled. Behind him was a group of hungry wild beasts, coveting his only prey.

That dream was black, but the pale lights in the corridor seemed more depressing than this dream.He turned his head to look at Jingze, Jingze was sleeping soundly, and the thin moonlight outside the window shone on his quilt.

Qu Jing called him in a low voice: "Jingze...Jingze..."

Jing Ze frowned first, and then he woke up completely after a while. He turned his head to look at Qu Jingshen: "Huh?"

Qu Jingshen said, "I want to talk to you."

Jing Ze got out of bed and walked to Qu Jingshen's bed in a few steps.The beds of the two are very close to each other, if Qu Jingshen didn't insist on not sleeping with Jing Ze, Jing Ze would definitely sleep in his bed.Jing Ze touched his forehead and said, "The temperature has dropped a bit."

Qu Jing took his hand deeply, put it down again, and smiled: "You'd better stay away from me now."

Jing Ze snorted, leaned down and pressed his forehead against his forehead: "Infect me, if you infect me, you can recover."

Qu Jingshen immediately covered his mouth with his hand, and he said, "Jingze, I love you."

Jing Ze climbed onto his bed, but was rejected by Qu Jingshen, he frowned: "Is that why you love me so much?"

Qu Jingshen said: "Now I suddenly feel that there are still many things I haven't told you."

Jing Ze pinched the tip of his nose and said, "Then tell me later, it's still a long time anyway."

Qu Jing sighed deeply: "Just in case, in case there is no chance in the future..."

Jing Ze interrupted him harshly: "Nonsense!"

Qu Jingshen said: "I'm serious, if something happens to me one day, you must live a good life."

Jingze's nose suddenly felt a little sour, and Qu Jingshen continued, "If you really love someone, live a good life for him."

Jing Ze covered his mouth tightly, refusing to continue listening to him.Qu Jing groaned for a while, and found that Jing Ze still refused to let go.He could only stare at Jing Ze intently, as if trying to remember something.He was afraid of death, and when he heard that patients were dying one after another, he was worried and desperate.

Jing Ze said: "Everything you say now is fart, I only want you to live well now!"

Jing Ze was also afraid, he was afraid that one morning, Qu Jingshen would never wake up again.Jingze's eyes were red, and tears could not help but burst out of his eyes.Not much, just a few drops, but enough.

Qu Jingshen reached out to help him wipe it off, her eyes were suddenly covered with fog.Some people don't believe in fate, but since they can remember, they haven't had a good few days, with twists and turns in life, with big winds and small waves.Maybe it's really his own bad luck, and he will experience disaster just after receiving the ring.

Seeing Qu Jing crying deeply, Jing Ze's hand covering his mouth gradually loosened.Qu Jingshen pressed his warm palms to her face, and said in a gentle voice, "I am very content to meet you in this life, and I also feel that this is a very lucky thing."

Jing Ze's voice was trembling: "No, I should be lucky to meet you..."

Qu Jing held Jing Ze's hand deeply, and smiled: "Then you promise me one last thing."

Jing Ze asked, "What's the matter?"

Qu Jingshen said: "You go home and wait for me, I promise you, I will definitely go home and find you."

Jing Ze shook his head: "This is impossible!"

Qu Jing patted Jing Ze's back lightly, and said softly, "I'm more likely to be discouraged when you are here. Because every time I look at you, I feel that it will be the last time."

Jing Ze didn't seem to listen to Qu Jingshen's words: "If I don't leave, I will be where you are!" Jing Ze leaned down and bit Qu Jingshen's mouth hard, hurting him deliberately as if punishing him. .

After the kiss was over, Qu Jingshen was not angry, but said softly, "Hey, I promise you, you will definitely get better, and I will see you when I go home."

Jing Ze said: "Honey, you're mean, you just made me feel bad on purpose!" Although the tone was joking, it sounded more uncomfortable than heavy words.

Qu Jingshen said: "I learned from you to be bad, so go back early tomorrow morning, huh?"

Jing Ze smiled: "If you want to go back, go back together."

Qu Jingshen knew that if this topic continued, there would be no result of the discussion.He suddenly said, "Is your phone fully charged? I want to play a game."

Jing Ze thought he had suddenly enlightened, kissed him as a reward, switched the phone to Tetris and handed it to him, then turned around and poured him a glass of water.Qu Jingshen seemed to be engrossed in playing, and ignored him.

In the early morning of the next day, I heard the noisy voices in the corridor. Qu Jingshen stood behind the door and looked out. Several patients were sent to the emergency room one after another.He went back to bed and lay down, Jingze didn't go to bed until dawn, and he still hasn't woken up yet.

Perhaps it was because Qu Jing was thinking too much, her condition worsened day by day, and sometimes she even fell into a slight coma.Doctors have already started discussing transferring him to another ward to make room for new patients.

For this reason, Jing Ze had reasoned with them. Although it could alleviate the temporary difficulties, if Qu Jingshen continued to deteriorate, he didn't dare to think about what would happen.

The sun was shining brightly this afternoon, lazily shining on Qu Jingshen's hospital bed, and Qu Jingshen was looking at Jingze with a smile on his face.It seemed that it was just a moment, Qu Jingshen suddenly pressed her chest, her face was pale, like a fish that can't breathe after leaving the water.

Jing Ze rushed to his bed and tried to talk to him, Qu Jingshen looked at him blankly, but couldn't speak with her mouth open.Jing Ze rushed out recklessly, and started yelling loudly in the corridor: "Doctor! Doctor! Where is the doctor! ... Hurry up and save him! Doctor..."

The medical staff rushed into the room with emergency tools. Jing Ze watched them put the oxygen cylinder on Qu Jingshen, and watched them insert various tubes on him... His mind went blank. A nurse passed by him and pushed him away. : "Don't block the way, don't hinder us from rescuing patients!"

Jing Ze was shoved into a corner, and Qu Jingshen was sent to the first-aid room just like those rescued a few days ago.Jing Ze suddenly felt that his feet were very heavy, and he couldn't even take a single step.He clenched his fists and punched his chest hard. It hurt a lot, but it couldn't compare to the pain in his heart!His internal organs seemed to be so shaken that he couldn't breathe, he sat down on the ground exhaustedly, the lazy sunlight was more dazzling than the scorching sun.

Qu Jingshen's smile, Qu Jingshen's words, the scene of the two of them rubbing each other's ears... like a silent movie playing back in front of Jingze's eyes.But for a lifetime...they agreed for a lifetime!Jingze suddenly remembered that when he met him for the first time, he was shivering and delivering milk to others in the cold winter morning.Just before that, they celebrated the New Year together, and he put the ring on his hand himself.It's over, everything is over as expected...

Jing Ze stumbled up from the ground and walked outside the emergency room like a puppet.The lights in the emergency room were still on, but the light failed to bring him hope.Tick, tick, tick—

One after another, I don't know if the faucet was not turned off, or the tears could not stop.The past may be obscure, and the future may be beautiful, but neither can save the ignorance of the present moment.

That night, Qu Jing smiled deeply and said to him, "If you really love me, you must live a good life." around you.If you don't feel it carefully, it is very easy to ignore his existence.

Jing Ze stood at the door of the emergency room, and before he finished crying, he suddenly laughed.But that smile was bitterer than tears.He knelt down and bit his wrist hard.But the pain in his flesh didn't ease the discomfort in his heart at all, the blood flowed profusely, staining his cuffs red.

Qu Jingshen said: I love you.Jing Ze looked at the still unlit lights in front of the emergency room, and cried, "But you haven't told me what a good life is..." Without you, who am I going to live with?

This person who broke into his life by mistake gave him happiness and love, but he couldn't accompany him for the rest of his life.How far is a lifetime?Who knows.Perhaps it was the distance between the front and the back of the door. Before the door, he was heartbroken, but behind the door he didn't know life and death.Or maybe, when they shared the same bed, their whole life had already passed.

Jingze suddenly thought of a sentence Qu Jingshen said: I am rustic and not romantic.But when you are hungry, a meal will be delivered to you.When you are late at night, leave a light for you.

Thinking of this, Jing Ze couldn't help crying.

The footsteps behind him just stopped at this moment, and then Jingze fell into a deep sleep with darkness in front of him.