slow and quick

Chapter 82

Zhou Ya's housewarming banquet is scheduled for Friday, and Zheng Man is also invited.

He didn't want to say it at first, but in fact, he still had the idea of ​​wanting to go vaguely in his heart.

Their part-time job starts at 06:30 in the evening.

Zhou Ya's time for housewarming is noon.

I also asked Zhao Lei to check and confirm that Zheng Man has no classes.

So half pushed and half done, just like that, came here.

Follow Zhao Lei together.

Then, like Ji Lin, Zheng Man witnessed Sun Yijun and Zhao Lei's wonderful way of getting along.

The three views were refreshed again.

Is this the case in big, big cities?

Are you all so unrestrained?

Is it possible to say "I want to buy a spiral" in the presence of outsiders?

Oh, of course not.

In fact, Sun Yijun's voice is not loud, it can be regarded as a whisper.

But helplessly, the car was very quiet, and Zheng Man had better ears, so he heard it.

And seeing Zhao Lei cursed with a dark face after hearing this.

At once.

I have met many times.

But it was the first time I heard Zhao Lei swearing.

Zheng Man sat in the back seat with a calm face.

An ancient Buddha with blue lanterns, looks indifferent to the world and doesn't listen to the noise of the outside world at all.

He had always felt that Zhao Lei and Sun Yijun looked a little too close.

But didn't think too much about it.

And say to yourself: that's it?Ling Sheng and Wu Hongbo looked much gayer than the two of them.

But straight men.

Straight guys sometimes look gayer than gays.

Very normal.

It wasn't until Gu Jianghe appeared that he was startled suddenly, and began to doubt the relationship between Sun Yijun and Zhao Lei.

And now it's confirmed.

That's a heartbreak.

In particular, they had just bid farewell to Zhao Lei's grandfather.

Is it a little blatant?

Zheng Man felt weak, pitiful and helpless, and couldn't hold back, and asked if they were lovers.

Before Sun Yijun uttered wild words again, Zhao Lei admitted.

Zheng Man was silent for a while, then asked again: "Does Old Professor Zhao know?"

Zhao Lei was obviously a little puzzled: "Of course I know."

"Otherwise?"

Zheng Man: "..."

It's very confusing.

He was confused: "Can the professor accept it?"

Zhao Lei showed a puzzled expression again: "Yes."

Zheng Man: "..."

He couldn't hold back for a long time, and asked again: "That Zhou Ya... his family knows him..."

There was a moment of silence in the car.

Sun Yijun turned to look at him: "Brother Ya...Brother Ya and Brother Gu have no family."

Zheng Man wanted to ask what "no family" meant.

Break up with the family?Or literally "without family"?

Then see the answer in Sun Yiwei's troubled expression.

He felt guilty for a while, and quickly apologized: "Sorry, I don't know..."

Gu Jianghe went to pick up the people in Ji Lin's dormitory.

Arrived early.

When Zheng Man arrived, Ji Lin still opened the door.

He was wearing an apron and had a knife in his hand.

Sun Yijun was startled: "What are you doing?"

"It's just in time!" Zhou Ya heard the voice and called him quickly, "Come and help!"

A few of them are killing fish in the kitchen.

This was originally Gu Jianghe's business, but just now the pressure cooker suddenly broke down for some reason.

Gu Jianghe hugged the past and exchanged it for a new one.

Said to tell Zhou Ya not to move, wait for him to come back to do it.

Wang Kun couldn't stay idle, he looked left and right, and suggested that we should kill the fish, and wait for Brother Gu to come back and get it right away?

Zhou Ya expressed doubts: "You know how to kill fish?"

Wang Kun snorted: "What's so difficult about killing fish!"

Then several people fished the fish out of the pond, and Wang Kun raised the knife and chopped it down.

The knife sank into the chopping board and the fish slipped off the chopping board and onto the floor.

Zhou Ya: "..."

He looked at Wang Kun expressionlessly: "What's so difficult about killing fish? Huh?"

Wang Kun chuckled, handed the knife to Ji Lin, and said, "You come here."

But you still have to catch the fish first, right?

When the doorbell rang, Zheng Man, Wang Kun, and Chen Qian were still snorting and catching fish.

It is slippery and not easy to grasp.

Ji Lin, one head and two older, was about to drive them away, saying let me come, and then heard the doorbell.

Zhou Ya breathed a sigh of relief when she heard the sound, and said to Ji Lin: "Gu Jianghe must be back, and this idiot probably didn't bring the key. Go and open the door, and we'll put the fish back."

Then whispered to them: "Hurry up, I'll grab its tail, you two grab the fins and throw them back into the pool."

Ji Lin: "..."

What is the operation of throwing it back?

He came over to open the door without a word, and then saw Zheng Man and his party.

Ji Lin froze for a moment, and quickly gave way to let them in.

Sun Yijun went to the kitchen curiously. Ji Lin waited for them to come in, closed the door, and asked casually, "Do you want a drink?"

Zheng Man shook his head, Zhao Lei put down the things in his hands, and said to him, "Pour me a cup of hot water, thank you."

He went to the kitchen.

When I went in, I happened to see Sun Yijun holding the fish fin in his hand.

Only fins.

Zhao Lei: "?"

Before he could ask, Zhou Ya's head exploded, and she wailed at Sun Yijun in despair: "What are you doing?"

Sun Yijun threw down the fins, rubbed the back of his head, smiled, and quickly hid behind Zhao Lei, explaining in a low voice: "I made a mistake, a mistake."

The mistake caused the fin to be ripped off the fish.

Zhao Lei: "..."

He pulled Sun Yijun out from behind him speechlessly, then picked up the fish, put it under the faucet and began to wash it, lowered his eyes, and said, "Knife."

"Okay, okay! Sister Lei is indeed a living Bodhisattva!" Zhou Ya thanked her repeatedly with a smile, and then looked behind her, stunned, "Where is the knife to... the knife? Huh? It was still here just now!"

Ji Lin holds a knife and is looking for cups all over the world.

He did find the kettle, but he only saw a pair of couple cups for the cups.

You can't pour water for Zhao Lei with one, right?

As a result, the cup hadn't been found yet, and the knife started shouting again.

He quickly closed the cabinet and ran in with a knife.

The kitchen itself is not small, but there are more than one person.

Ji Lin handed the knife to Zhao Lei, he took it, chopped off the fish's head with one knife, then turned around, looked behind him, frowned and said, "What are you all doing here?"

Ask Ji Lin again: "Is the water poured for me?"

Ji Lin touched his nose: "No."

He said awkwardly, "I didn't find the cup."

Zhou Ya, who obviously felt disgusted by Zhao Lei, quickly raised her hand: "I know, I know, I'll go!"

Then he ran out in a hurry.

Zhao Lei looked at the other people again: "Can you make a meal? If you can, stay here, if you don't, go and watch TV."

Wang Kun was overwhelmed by the cold breath, and shook his head obediently: "No."

Then he dragged Chen Qian away.

Sun Yijun had already followed Zhou Ya out.

Now only Ji Lin and Zheng Man are left.

Zhao Lei was killing fish, Ji Lin was shredding potatoes, and Zheng Man was washing vegetables.

Sun Yijun came in with a teacup in his hand, and said, "The division of labor is pretty good."

He smiled and said, "You both know how to cook? That's good. You can take turns washing the dishes and cooking."

Zheng Man paused while washing the vegetables.

Resisting the urge to look back at Ji Lin.

Zhao Lei threw the fish maw into the trash can, and glanced at him when he heard this: "You don't like doing the dishes?"

Sun Yijun took a sip of tea and suppressed his shock: "No."

Zhao Lei let out an "oh" and said again: "I'd better find Brother Xiang and ask for an aunt to come over."

Sun Yijun hurriedly said: "No!"

Zhao Lei put down the knife and looked at him: "Auntie, you don't want to ask, and you don't like doing housework. Can't they all be piled up there? Then if I wash the dishes and cook the rice, what are you doing?"

Holding the cup, Sun Yijun leaned over and smiled: "Be your little baby~"

Zhao Lei: "..."

He was originally angry, but he couldn't help laughing because of this sentence.

The corners of her mouth twitched, and finally she smiled helplessly: "Baby, you are tall and delicate."

Sun Yi was not ashamed but proud, very proud of himself.

The fish had been killed, its guts were lost, and its head chopped off.

Zhao Lei called out to Zhou Ya and asked how the fish was eaten.

Zhou Ya was eating jelly outside and was having a great time. Hearing this, she quickly swallowed the jelly and shouted: "Gu Jianghe said to slice it! Let's go to the hot pot!"

Since it's hot pot, the thorns have to be shaved.

Zhao Lei hummed and started shaving.

Just as he made a stab, he suddenly realized that he frowned and looked at Sun Yijun: "Is this my water?"

Sun Yijun: "Hey."

Zhao Lei said to him, "Pour me another glass after drinking."

"Why do you pour it again?" Sun Yijun yelled dissatisfied, "You hate me? No, you even mine..."

"Shut up!" Zhao Lei, who had realized what Sun Yijun wanted to say in an instant, hurriedly stopped.

Sun Yijun, whose words were stopped, hummed.

Zhao Lei took a deep breath and compromised: "Okay, if you don't dislike you, give it to me."

As he spoke, he stretched out his hand towards Sun Yijun.

That's what you're talking about when you hit a snake with a stick.

Seeing Zhao Lei let go, he immediately started working again.

Just pour the remaining half of the cup into your mouth, and bring your head closer.

The whole face was swollen with water, like a puffer fish.

Humming towards Zhao Lei, he said in a nasal voice, "Come on."

Zhao Lei: "..."

He looked at Sun Yijun with a dark face: "Do you feel uncomfortable all day without beating?"

That being said, I have never fought before.

It made Sun Yijun feel confident all day long.

Seeing his dark face, he pretended not to see him, and continued to move forward.

Zhao Lei: "..."

He watched Sun Yijun approach him blankly, seeing that he refused to bow his head, and even pulled his neck, pressing him down.

Zhao Lei bowed his head down, and Sun Yijun blocked his mouth firmly.

Ji Lin caught a glimpse from the corner of his eye, and was extremely embarrassed.

Even though there were only four people in the kitchen, he felt that it was even more crowded than before when it was full of people.

Zheng Man was still washing the radishes with all his heart.

Ji Lin tried not to care about what the other two were doing.

look!Manman is very calm!

Then he realized that Manman was very calm, his ears were as red as a tomato.

Sun Yijun put his mouth on Zhao Lei's mouth, and then tried to cross Zhao Lei.

But Zhao Lei didn't cooperate.

There was not even a slit left in the mouth.

He had no choice but to stick out his tongue, trying to push Zhao Lei's lips away.

Then the mouthful of water, just like that, overflowed.

Zhao Lei took a step back a second before the water sprayed out of Sun Yijun's mouth.

So all the water was left to Sun Yijun himself.

Hearing the sound of coughing, Zheng Man and Ji Lin couldn't help turning their heads: "..."

Sun Yijun was dumbfounded.

He wiped the water from his chin, and poured the water down his neck.

Zheng Man wanted to laugh but felt that he was really miserable, so he handed him a tissue.

Sun Yijun took the tissue.He wiped his face, then pressed it all over his neck and clothes.

Looking at Zhao Lei aggrievedly, he sang sadly, "Are you serious about taking half a step back? Such a small move can hurt so much."

Zhao Lei glanced at him, turned around, and cut the fish: "It deserves it."

The corners of his mouth couldn't help ticking.

It was ruthless.

Zheng Man coughed with a smile, and said to Sun Yijun, "Let's go out first and ask Zhou Ya for a hair dryer to dry your clothes, shall we?"

Sun Yijun nodded, and before walking out of the kitchen, he still whispered to Zhao Lei: "Smelly man."

It makes people want to laugh.

The hair dryer was in the bathroom of the master bedroom. Zhou Ya led them in, and Gu Jianghe came back.

He stuffed the hair dryer to Sun Yijun and hurried out.

Zheng Man followed them in, then watched Zhou Ya close the door of the master bedroom and go out.

Sun Yijun was blowing on his clothes while cursing, saying that Zhao Lei didn't understand the style.

He also poured bitter water on Zheng Man, saying: "There is nothing good about a man."

Zheng Man: "..."

He suppressed a smile and said, "You are also a man yourself."

Pointing to himself again: "Me too."

Sun Yi was at a loss for words.

After a pause: "That's right, I'm not a good person either."

Zheng Man really wanted to laugh.

This man is a living treasure, right?

He leaned against the door frame, watching Sun Yijun blowing his clothes there.

Then his eyes glanced around uncontrollably.

Couple towels, couple toothbrushes, couple slippers.

There are pairs everywhere.

It's beautiful and cozy.

There are also two rabbits on the master bed, in a kissing pose.

The girl's heart is bursting.

From the time he came in, he noticed that the whole house, whether it was the living room, kitchen, bedroom or anywhere, was so cute that it exploded.

At first glance, he thought it was some girl's home.

Zheng Man suddenly had an idea.

Ji Lin would probably also like this kind of house, right?He likes these pink and tender things the most.

Like a little princess.

As a kid he loved these things that only girls like.

Later, in the second term of middle school, I still felt disgusted for a while.

Said that the pink and tender ones are not handsome or cool at all, so I reluctantly replaced umbrellas and schoolbags with black, white and gray.

But there is still a doll that guards Sweetheart quietly hidden in the schoolbag.

When Zheng Man found out, she frantically said that it was her mother who let it go.

Of course Zheng Man knew that it was impossible for her aunt to let her go.

Seeing that Ji Lin was really pitiful, he gave him a whole set of pink and tender suits on his birthday.

Clothes, pants, shoes, wristbands, and a pink mechanical keyboard.

And when Ji Lin moaned and said that pink is a color that girls only like, he seriously criticized his wrong thinking, saying that there should be no stereotyped gender impressions.

Then Ji Lin started his pink and tender dress with peace of mind.

These years have been slightly restrained, but he still prefers some soft and warm colors.

Such a house must be Ji Lin's dream paradise, right?

Zheng Man couldn't help laughing, then coughed, and said to Sun Yijun, "I didn't expect Zhou Ya's house to look so pink and tender."

He smiled, without malice at all, and joked: "I always thought Zhou Ya was cool, so it turns out that there is such a soft girly heart hidden under Cool's appearance."

Sun Yijun let out an "uh", grabbed the Peppa Pig hair dryer in his hand, turned his head slowly, and looked at Zheng Man stiffly: "This...is not Ya Ge's girlish heart."

"It belongs to Brother Gu."

Zheng Man: "?"

Sun Yijun couldn't help laughing: "Brother Gu really likes these pink and tender colors. He likes them, but he doesn't make them for himself. Instead, he likes to make them for Brother Ya. The bed nets I bought for Brother Ya before were all pink, no matter what It’s cute, and girls will be moved when they see it.”

"Brother Ya is so angry."

Zheng Man imagined it for a while, and also wanted to laugh.

Sun Yijun touched the clothes, and it seemed that they were almost dry.

Then I turned down the wind power a bit, and continued: "Actually, I think it's okay, isn't it cute? Brother Ya was not happy at first, but later compromised, saying that Gu Jianghe likes it, so let him go .”

He looked at Zheng Man with a smile, and said maliciously: "Speaking of this, you should have a deep understanding with me, right?"

Zheng Man was stunned: "Huh?"

Sun Yijun smiled and said, "The one in your house."

Zheng Man was stunned again.

I don't know whether to refute that there is no "my family's one" or "it's not my family's".

"On the day Yage started school, Sister Lei and I accompanied him. As soon as we entered the dormitory, we saw a big Rilakkuma." Sun Yi was overjoyed. of."

Then Zhou Ya saw Ji Lin's complete pink computer suit.

Zhou Ya was dumbfounded.

Asked Ji Yan if someone else bought it for him or what, he replied that someone else gave it to him.

Zhou Ya's first reaction: They are also fallen people in Tianya.

Then soon, he was slapped in the face and found that it might be different from what he thought.

His pink suit was stuffed by Gu Jianghe, and Ji Lin's pink suit was given to him by others because he liked pink.

Zheng Man smirked.

When Sun Yijun asked if it was his gift, he nodded and admitted.

Sun Yijun was actually a little puzzled: "You and Ji Lin actually like each other, right?"

Anyone with eyes can see it.

"Why not together?"

Zheng Man was silent.

He took a deep breath and looked at Sun Yijun: "Aren't you afraid?"

Sun Yijun was pulling out the outlet of the hair dryer. Hearing this, he was stunned for a moment, turned around, and asked doubtfully, "Huh?"

"That's right," Zheng Man organized his words, "Haven't you ever been afraid of not being accepted?"

He gritted his teeth and asked Sun Yijun: "Haven't you ever been afraid? Other people's eyes, family addresses. Both Ji Lin's parents and I can't accept it, I..."

"My parents can't accept it either." Sun Yijun put the hair dryer away, then smiled at him, "My father said that as long as I dare to go back, my legs will be broken."

Zheng Man was stunned.

He had heard them say that Old Professor Zhao could fully accept Zhao Lei's sexual orientation, and he thought that there was no family obstacle for their pair.

"I have three older sisters in my family," Sun Yijun said ok, and then said to him with a smile, "So you know how feudal and pedantic my parents are, right?"

Acceptance is impossible.

Sun Yijun's mother was sent to the hospital because of his anger.

At the very beginning, his father made several phone calls to scold him.

In the end, Sun Yijun was glib and glib, and he almost became angry.

Now simply say don't go back if you have the ability, as long as you see Sun Yijun, he will definitely beat this evil person to death.

Sun Yijun shrugged, pretending to be relaxed: "Old stubborn."

Several older sisters took turns persuading him, telling him to be obedient.

Sun Yijun was so forced that he couldn't help it. He cried and begged them to let him go as if he had been hit by a car.

It made my sisters cry too.

Very sad.

Although I think it's not good for my parents to favor boys over girls, I think my parents' thinking is very pedantic.

But Sun Yijun was spoiled by his family since he was a child when he considered the vested interests.

He has no right to blame his parents at all.

The moment he fell in love with Zhao Lei, he knew he was done.

He will feel sorry for his parents.

I was very scared, afraid of being rejected by others, and afraid of hurting the hearts of my parents.

But I really like it.

If Zhao Lei had no interest in him at all, he might have forced himself to give up.

However, Zhao Lei was blind and fell in love with him.

"Maybe he burned high incense in his previous life," Sun Yijun said with a smile, "or maybe he owed me too much money in his previous life, and he paid me for himself in this life."

When he found out that he liked Zhao Lei, he was ready to be beaten to death by Zhao Lei.

"You don't know, Zhao Lei looks fierce, and he is so good, I..." Sun Yijun was a little embarrassed, "I am such a poor person, sometimes I feel like him, it is a shame for him thing."

As a result, Zhao Lei didn't hit him.

Say harsh words time and time again.

Time and time again, he pushed his lower limit back, allowing Sun Yijun to play in his minefield, frantically probing.

Sun Yijun sometimes feels that he should go to hell.

He tricked Zhao Lei who was so good from someone else.

So when I was with Zhao Lei, every day I dreamed that after Zhao Lei's family found out, they were forced to break up, or were beaten to death by their family.

Zheng Man: "..."

He was a little sour, but also wanted to laugh: "Why are they all beaten to death?"

Sun Yijun was also laughing: "Because I think I deserve to be beaten to death."

But unexpectedly so lucky.

He likes Zhao Lei, and Zhao Lei also likes him.

Such a good Zhao Lei, who looks like a fairy, is smart, tall, rich and handsome is not enough to express himself, he has to be Bai Fumei.

would actually like him.

It was already a dream.

He thought this was the limit, could he be liked, even if it was only for a short time?Also enough.

I have no regrets in this life.

It turned out that this dream could be even better.

He really never dreamed that Zhao Lei's family would accept his sexual orientation.I never thought that I could accept him.

Uncles and aunts told him gently that when he asked him to treat them as his biological parents, Sun Yijun really cried like something.

When he got home later, he stopped crying, and then whispered to Zhao Lei that his legs were shaking.

Zhao Lei: "..."

Sun Yijun whispered: "I thought my leg would be broken..."

Zhao Lei: "...Even if you hit me, it should break my leg, right?"

Sun Yijun twitched his lips: "Who would be willing to beat you? If I were your father, I would definitely kill that pig who dared to come to my family's cabbage. Who would be willing to give up the fresh Chinese cabbage?"

Zhao Lei: "..."

Really blue veins.

What kind of fucking metaphor is this?

Who are you talking about dad?

Is it okay to say that you are a pig?

as well as……

Zhao Lei pinched his cheek: "Who is going to win whom?"

Sun Yijun hugged him into his arms: "You hug me, you hug me!"

Zheng Man sneered: "The way you get along is really fun."

Sun Yijun laughed.

He really considers himself extremely lucky.

Luckily got the top.

And then it really hits the top.

He came out during the National Day holiday.

At first I thought it was wishful thinking.

Later, when he came to S city and met Zhao Lei's family, he still wanted to try his best to act as a perfect old high school classmate, a pure friend, the kind of friend who had no ill intentions towards Zhao Lei.

As a result, Zhao Lei's brother said directly: "Isn't this Xiao Lei's boyfriend? This is to meet the parents?"

Sun Yijun was immediately dumbfounded.

Dumbfounded to explain.

Zhao Lei nodded.

Sun Yijun: "???"

What are you nodding for, brother?This is the first meeting?I haven't had time to increase my favorability, you are going to let your parents break my legs?

In the end, he was pulled over affectionately by his uncle and aunt, and praised him.

Sun Yijun was so apprehensive and elated.

I found out later that Zhao Lei came out to his family when he was still in high school.

It also provoked Sun Yijun to keep asking him if he liked me since high school, but he forced Zhao Lei to admit that he liked me first.

Zhao Lei gave him a surprise, and he couldn't keep shrinking.

When I went back on National Day, I told my parents.

Sun Yijun chuckled: "I told my dad when I got on the high-speed rail. He was so angry that he jumped outside the high-speed rail station and said he wanted to kill me, but he couldn't!"

Zheng Man was still a little dazed.

Sun Yijun grinned: "He wants to hit me, but I really stand there and let him hit me? Am I stupid?"

Of course he is also afraid.

Afraid of being pointed at, afraid of Zhao Lei being hurt because of him, afraid of parents being sad.

But Zhao Lei was straightforward.

He also wanted to love Zhao Lei frankly.

"I don't see other people's eyes! They don't like me, and I don't like them!" Sun Yijun took it for granted, "In fact, after coming out of the closet, I found that there are not so many people who care about my sexual orientation. .”

Or it should be said that no one cared about him at all.

Everyone is busy.

Busy living, busy growing.

Who has the time to talk to you, regardless of whether you like men or women.

You don't have anything to do with others.

"In my hometown, it will definitely be spread all over the streets and alleys after dinner, but no one cares about it here," Sun Yijun said with a smile, "Maybe it is the benefit of the big city."

His family couldn't accept it, which really made him very uncomfortable.

He didn't dare to read the messages from his parents at all.

I put a bunch of wechat groups and chat columns on the top, just to keep myself from reading messages from my parents.

"It must be difficult for them to accept it, and they may not accept it for the rest of their lives." Sun Yijun forced a smile.

He knew he was unfilial and selfish.

He is forcing his parents.

Originally, they also forced each other.

Parents forced him to give up, and he forced parents to accept.

See who is more ruthless, and whoever wins.

"I didn't even give them a chance to vent my anger." Sun Yijun pulled out a chair and sat down, and said to Zheng Man, "I thought about it before, even if they beat me to death, I won't give up. , I want to be with Zhao Lei too."

But the final choice is to just leave a word and run away.

"Because I know my dad could really beat me to death."

And even if he was beaten to death, his parents still wouldn't accept it.

It may be said, "Kill to save the disaster."

If he still has a soul after death, he will collapse upon hearing this sentence.

And what about Zhao Lei?

He is going to see Zhao Lei soon, with all his injuries?

What if his father broke his leg and locked him up?

He couldn't live without seeing Zhao Lei.

After thinking about it, he became ruthless and decided to make his father angry.

There was no way to keep his dad from being angry anyway.

He will never give up on Zhao Lei even if he dies.

His dad scolded him on the phone, but he still didn't repent. He kept pushing, saying that you are pedantic, and my boyfriend's parents accepted it!It’s okay if you don’t accept it, the uncle and aunt have two sons, and you both have one son.

His father was so angry that he jumped and scolded him.

Sun Yijun is still yelling, saying that you just treat my boyfriend as a woman, he is better than me, I don’t know how much better, let me tell you, our family has to burn incense from our ancestors, so that I can be with such a good person Together!Otherwise, you can treat me like a woman!

His father didn't listen at all and just kept scolding.

He was scolding, and Sun Yijun continued to babble, saying that I would not break up anyway, unless he insisted on not wanting me, and if he didn't want me, I would not be with others, and I would not be with others for the rest of my life, so I would As long as he.Either you accept it, and you can have two sons, and the new son is smarter than me and obedient than me, or you don’t accept it, and you can only be killed by a car when I leave.

As he said that, he couldn't help muttering in a low voice: "If I was really killed by a car, you still have to collect my body. Graves are so expensive now. Look, you don't have to bury me when I was hit to death. How nice it is!" , out of sight, out of mind, and save money.”

Zheng Man: "..."

Zheng Man wanted to laugh, but felt sad at the same time, and asked him, "Is it hard to say that?"

Of course it was hard.

It danced like something, but in fact, it seemed that there was a mountain in my heart.

Just boil it.

Let's see who survives whom.

Sun Yijun turned to look at him: "What are you most afraid of?"

scared……

Zheng Man himself was a little confused.

He is afraid that his parents will be sad, but his parents are already very sad now.

Every time he received a call from home, he dared not speak out, gritted his teeth, and burst into tears.

Mom and Dad were on the other side, and they were very sad. They cried and asked him why he was like this, and if there was anything he couldn't tell Mom and Dad?why?

But he dared not answer.

He was afraid that Ji Yan would be ridiculed and pointed at.

But Zhou Ya and Sun Yijun showed him a different situation.

It’s not just about coming out that you’re going to be pointed at.

Don't talk about others, at least he already knows that there are many people he knows and Ji Lin knows, which is acceptable.

And more people, as Sun Yijun said, simply don't care.

He was afraid that Ji Lin would be sad because he broke with his parents.

Can……

"Did you look at it and think that Ji Lin is very happy now?" Sun Yijun asked him.

Zheng Man was stunned.

"Anyone can tell that he likes you," Sun Yijun shrugged. "You two like it so much, and you are so careful to pretend not to like you. Are you happy? Are you happy?"

"Why not give him a chance to choose? Maybe this choice is cruel and force him to leave a certain side. But at least give him a chance to choose? Which side he wants to choose and which side to give up is up to him to decide .”

"Just like you are now, if you choose to give up Ji Lin, are you happy? Zhao Lei's grandfather said that he heard that you didn't go back for the National Day. Your parents were worried about your accident and called the counselor. You give up While killing Ji Lin, did you really reconcile with your family?"

"Are you sure your choice is the best?"

Zheng Man was silenced by his series of questions.

After a long while, I reluctantly opened my mouth: "But as long as Ji Lin is not with me, maybe he can like women..."

"Then what if there is no such possibility?" Sun Yijun interrupted him, "Can you still like girls now?"

Zheng Man clenched his fingers tightly.

"What if he doesn't dare to love you, and can't like others? Have you ever thought that he will be like you, and finally choose love and give up all his family? Can you bear it?"

Zheng Man tried to defend himself: "He looks very happy now, he has friends, and..."

"You also look very happy now." Sun Yijun interrupted him again.

I also have friends, are liked by many people, and talk to people with a smile every day.

Are you happy?

Are you happy when you are alone?

How do you know that the other party is not equally suffering during those difficult days?

"There are many times when it is really impossible to have the best of both worlds. Letting go of something is like tearing off the flesh, and the pain is like dying. But you should at least ask, in such a situation, you can only choose to let go Next, what the other party chooses."

"You shouldn't decide his choice," Sun Yijun looked at him. "You have blocked this road. What if he insists on hitting this wall? Let him hit your southern wall to death." ?"

He is a person, not a machine, and cannot be controlled by a switch or a program.

A living person will be sad, collapse, and cry.

"Even if we are destined to separate, at least spread out and say goodbye, right? There is no way to block feelings."

Sun Yijun patted him on the shoulder and stood up: "You say he looks good, but I don't think so. I only see you two struggling in pain."

Zheng Man clenched her fists, gritted her teeth, and desperately held back her tears.

Sun Yijun walked to the door, turned back, and said to him, "Wash your face, and then come out to eat? They almost finished lunch."

Zheng Man took a deep breath, then let it out slowly, then supported himself, stood up, forced a smile and said, "Tell them I'll be late and go to the bathroom."

Sun Yijun nodded, closed the door and went out.

Zheng Man walked into the bathroom, supported the sink, turned on the faucet, and splashed water on her face.

Then look in the mirror.

The boy in the mirror looked sad, his eyes were red, and he was stubborn, as if he was competing with something.

He looks at himself.

It was as if through a mirror, I saw that stupid Ji Lin, looking at him with red eyes, begging him.

The author has something to say: is it thick enough? 【pride】