Deer in the forest

Chapter 64 Extra Story 2 Alcohol PTSD

"He was willing to show me the wound easily because he didn't care about me at that time, and he didn't have any hope for your future. But it's different now. You are together, and there is still a long way to go in the future. He cares about you , caring about the people around you, so it is easier to hide some wounds than spread them out.”

Before Shen Junhuai went upstairs, he said again: "I didn't say so much to make you sad, but I was afraid that there would be another occasion like today, but you would be kept in the dark."

Li Jibai stood in the bathroom, facing his naked self in the mirror.What Shen Junhuai asked him, you will never find someone who loves you more than Lin Shen, will you?

He didn't answer, but he answered no in his heart.

It's not because Lin Shen loves me more, it's because I won't love anyone else except him.

The person who once loved me like my life, I love him like my life too.

Lu Qingchen's inspiration only exploded at the tip of the iceberg, and he was forcibly carried away by Shen Junhuai who broke into the studio.

Lin Shen stood up, stretched his waist, and walked towards his room dangling.

There was a soft knock on the door, and Lin Shen's voice outside the bathroom door sounded a bit soft like porcelain: "Brother, are you alright?"

He didn't hear the sound of water, so he lay on the door and listened carefully, wondering what Li Jibai was doing hiding inside.

The door slammed open, an arm stretched out, and with a pull, he was pulled in.

Lin Shen was startled, and was tightly wrapped around his waist by a muscular arm. He couldn't help protesting: "What are you doing hiding in there? Can you take a good bath and sleep?"

Li Jibai held his hands slightly harder, and lifted him up.The chest and abdomen are close to the back, and the water vapor turns into greasy water in the friction of skin and flesh.

Lin Shen burst out laughing, and broke the hand on his waist with the palm of his hand: "Itchy..."

A deep voice came from the back shoulder: "Hold it."

Lin Shen still laughed, not only laughing, but also writhing his body as if he couldn't stand the itch.Soon, he felt that the person behind him had changed, and he was pushing himself hard.He didn't dare to move anymore, but he still held back his smile: "Hurry up and get dressed, or you'll catch a cold."

Then they discussed in a friendly voice: "And at Xiaolu's house, why don't you do it today?"

Li Jibai put him on the ground, still buried his head on his shoulder, and said sullenly: "I just want to hug you, but I won't do it."

At this time, if Lin Shen could no longer feel that Li Jibai was in a wrong mood, then it would not be him.

Put away the smiling face, and wanted to turn around, but Li Jibai hugged him tightly from behind, unable to move.Lin Shen couldn't see Li Jibai's face, so he was a little anxious: "What's wrong? Has something happened?"

"No, nothing happened." Li Jibai said, "I just like the present day very much, I like having you firmly in my arms, I like hearing you call me brother, it feels like a dream. I want to hug you and see if it's right. Dreaming."

Lin Shen didn't expose him either. It's a virtue for adults not to get to the bottom of things.

"It's not a dream, it's real."

"Yeah." Then he murmured a few more words, "I know, I know."

The two remained in this position for a long time without speaking.Li Jibai let go of him, turned around and turned on the shower, his mood returned to normal: "Go out, I'm going to take a shower."

"Need help?" Lin Shen teased.

"No," Li said with a coquettish tone, without turning his head back, "I'm not Brooke."

When he came out after washing, he saw a small hill on the bed.Lin Shen was a little tired, originally wanted to wait for Li Jibai, and fell asleep after waiting.He has nothing on his mind now, and he can see things openly. He lives a simple life, works hard, falls asleep quickly, and never thinks about it.

Stripping off the heavy shell of the past, getting rid of obsession with certain personnel, he has always been a "shuishuixinran" temperament in life, in fact, this is the real Lin Shen.

There was only a dim yellow floor lamp left in the room. Li Jibai sat by the bed and gently pulled down the quilt covering his mouth and nose, revealing a peaceful sleeping face.

The past was too heavy, and Li Jibai didn't want to think about it. Before today, he felt that he was forgiven and accepted, he was lucky and happy, and even a little complacent.But now, this happiness made him sad to death.

How can there be so many easy forgiveness, it's just that someone hid the hidden wound in the corner so that it would not be discovered.

It's just that the person is willing to let go of the suffering and love him again.

Lin Shen was awakened by a crisp voice on the balcony.

He rubbed his eyes, the place beside him was cold, and the dim bedroom had a glimmer of moonlight, and the people on the balcony outside could be seen faintly.

Li Jibai was half lying on the sofa, with his legs stretched out, his left hand resting on his forehead, and his right hand was holding a bottle of whiskey that was almost empty.The moonlight was like water, hitting half of his face, reflecting empty eyes.

I don't know how long I sat like this.

Maybe he really drank too much, the bottle in his hand shook, and it hit the solid wood leg of the sofa again, making a crisp sound.

Lin Shen was wearing cotton slippers, and without making any noise, he gently opened the sliding door of the balcony.

Li Jibai's eyes rolled when he heard the movement, and then fixed on Lin Shen's face.

"Why don't you sleep?" The voice that just woke up was lazy and hoarse, with a magical power to calm people's hearts.Seeing that Li Jibai didn't respond, Lin Shen walked over slowly, squatted beside the sofa, and raised his head to call him.

"Brother," he was still so gentle, afraid of disturbing anything, "what's the matter with you?"

Brother Yiyi became the last straw that crushed Li Jibai.

His eyes were red, tears were streaming down his temples, and he fell to the floor.He leaned down, clasped the back of Lin Shen's head with one hand, and stroked his back with the other, his suppressed crying made him breathless.

"Ah Shen...do you know? I would give everything...for you to come back that night."

"I really hate myself..."

His nose was blocked, and his head hurt. Under the influence of alcohol, he stripped himself naked. A heart was squeezed in his chest cavity, and even his lungs hurt.

Right now, he just wants to give the best things to this person in his arms, and never let him suffer from the world.

The next day, Li Jibai successfully got two big dark circles under his eyes, his eyes were dull, his eyelids were swollen, and with the blessing of a hangover, he was so depressed that he couldn't see.

After breakfast was ready, Lu Qingchen knocked on the door and called the two of them to eat.Shen Junhuai sat at the dining table and was dissatisfied: ""How much money are they going to invest, and they have to let you make breakfast early. "

Lu Qingchen glanced back, said a number, and Shen Junhuai immediately shut up.

Li Jibai hid in the bathroom and applied hot towels for a long time, but it didn't work, and the elite personality plummeted.

"It's okay, I drink too much water at night, and my eyelids will be swollen." Lin Shen supported Li Jibai's eyelids with his thumb and forefinger, the double eyelids were swollen into single eyelids, and they were still soft when pressed.He tried his best to hold back the corner of his mouth, looked left and right, and finally came to a conclusion: "Besides, you've drank so much wine, you can't tell that you're crying."

"Really?" Li Jibai said with a strong nasal voice, and his complexion improved a little.He was out of control yesterday, crying more and more sadly in the middle of the night, thinking about his crimes, and criticizing himself as worthless.As a result, Lin Shen didn't sleep much with him.

After crying, the emotions and guilt that have been accumulated for a long time have been vented, and I feel a lot easier when I wake up in the morning.

He looked at Lin Shen's ruddy face, and asked suspiciously, "You haven't slept in the last half of the night, why do you look so good?"

Lin Shen blinked, a little proud: "That's because I have a high level and never think about things. Unlike you, I have a strong desire to control, a heavy mind, and I have to stay awake all the time."

"Oh!" Li Jibai pulled him into his arms, rubbed his head with one hand, restrained him with one hand, and kneaded him vigorously with the other hand, like kneading a piece of dough, "I'm in control." Desire is strong, I have a heavy heart, I have so many bad habits, but so what, you still love me? Are you still inseparable from me? "

"Yes yes yes, it's because I can't leave you, it's because I love you very much, I love you so much that I can't sleep all night crying." Lin Shen laughed hahaha.

Li was both pale and collapsed.

Fortunately, the knock on the door saved him and allowed him to maintain a little man's dignity.

So the two went out to have breakfast hand in hand.

After sitting down, Shen Junhuai glanced at Li Jibai, then shifted his gaze to Lin Shen's face, and threw a knife at his mouth: "Crying all night?"

Li Jibai's hands froze when he was about to grab the cheese sauce, and he continued to cut the fried eggs on the plate as if nothing had happened, unwilling to answer.

Lin Shen took a sip of the soup, made a loud noise, and said in surprise, "Xiao Lu, what did you put in this soup? Why is it so fresh?"

However, his good friend Xiaolu seems to have lost his usual tacit understanding and consideration: "The scallops were released. So did he really cry all night? You can see that his eyes are so swollen that he can't open them. Otherwise, I will cook two Egg, Ah Ming, you can roll him off, this will work quickly."

Lin Shen gritted his teeth, lowered his head and continued to drink the soup.

After breakfast, the two quickly packed up and ran away, unwilling to stay for a second longer.

Shen Junhuai stood on the balcony, took a sip of coffee, and watched the black car rush away from his basement at a speed of [-] miles per hour. Lu Qingchen next to him leaned over and asked, "Gone? Is this the past?"

"Well, it's over." Shen Junhuai sat back at the desk and began to prepare for tomorrow's lecture, "When the knot is over, life will be smoother in the future." Then he thought of something, and the expression on his face softened: " They are not in distress, and they will be able to pester you less in the future."

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There is one last episode, about my favorite Wei Qidong