Zheng Wang

Chapter 84 Extra Story·The Snow Is Not Deep in Winter④

Guan Zan was taken aback when he heard the words.

He looked at Ke Jinrui, his eyes didn't blink for a moment, there was a daze in the bottom of his eyes, and there was also a sense of disbelief floating slowly.After an unknown amount of time, Guan Zan's eyelashes trembled, he lowered his gaze, his slightly parted lips trembled slightly, and then wept unconsciously.

Ke Jinrui extinguished half of the cigarette in his hand, and without speaking, he hugged Guan Zan into his arms and hugged him tightly.

Guan Zan was overwhelmed with 1 things in his heart, from suppressing sobbing to completely breaking out, crying almost to the point of collapse.

He trembled uncontrollably, and asked Ke Jinrui loudly if he was wrong?Shouldn't we care about the old things that happened more than ten years ago?

Ke Jinrui turned over to hold him down, pushing the little guy's trembling body into the quilt.He gently kissed Guan Zan's eyelashes that were glued together by tears, and kissed the wet corners of his eyes and cheeks.When his mood calmed down a little, he stretched out his hand to stroke Guan Zan's forehead hair that was blocking Guan Zan's eyes, and looked into his eyes seriously and intently.Ke Jinrui said: "This matter has nothing to do with right or wrong, whether you mention it or not, it is a reality that he has to face sooner or later."

"He will forget that just because of the deterioration of the condition, this is an inevitable internal cause and has nothing to do with you."

Guan Zan stared at Ke Jinrui, a little timid and worried.He was very afraid that the other party was just pretending to be calm, but he actually cared in his heart, blaming him for catalyzing Ke Su's illness.However, there was nothing in those eyes, they were as calm as ever, darker than the winter night, dark and silent.

"To be honest..." Guan Zan took a deep breath, "I've thought about this from time to time in the past six months. I thought about it carefully and asked myself many times. I'm sure I didn't really blame the teacher. He I remember all the kindness to me. For me, his appearance made up for the biggest lack in my life. He is not just a teacher who taught me how to play the piano..."

He hugged Ke Jinrui back, pinching his fingers into his back as if venting.

"You said that people with blood relationship usually just let things go when they solve problems, and they can't tell right from wrong, because an apology is meaningless to either party. In the case of my father, the teacher was at fault , my dad was also at fault, but what's the use of thinking about it? Those who can't come back still can't come back, and the rest will suffer." Guan Zan closed his eyes, his lips tightened, and his shoulders twitched slightly. Trembling, "I got his apology and repentance, but in the end, I still lost those crucial people, including my teacher..."

Ke Jinrui sighed silently, and slowly stroked the top of Guan Zan's hair with his palm: "This is a proposition that has no optimal solution, and someone will be hurt anyway." At this point, he paused, and after a long while he spoke again, " In fact, for him, forgetting might be a good result.”

Guan Zan didn't understand, and shook his head very puzzled: "Why?"

"Because he also has regrets, because he failed to protect his beloved students." Ke Jinrui said, "For more than ten years, he has not lived an easy life. He likes fame, wealth and achievements, but after Yu Wen passed away, he changed a lot. He gradually faded out of the folk music circle and no longer participated in various activities. Then he fell ill and began to forget many things and people, but he couldn’t forget Yu Wen , but transferred his preferences and habits to other people."

"Can you imagine that kind of life? Xishan's house is empty, and there are only a few fixed people around him, but the corners and corners, some details that we usually don't care about, in his eyes, there are other things everywhere." A shadow of a person."

Guan Zan was moved by the narration next to his ears, and couldn't help being moved in his heart.

Ke Jinrui wrote lightly: "I'm not trying to excuse him, especially in front of you, I will respect all your decisions. But emotional issues are so contradictory, there is no way to solve them perfectly, we can only leave it to time, and wait until a few years later, Or wait until he passed away, and you look back, and you will probably have another idea in your heart."

"Now that he has forgotten us and Guan Yuwen, it means that he has let go of the shackles that he has been carrying for more than ten years. Of course, it can be regarded as a relief." Ke Jinrui smiled indifferently, "But he can't forget you, so he can't forget you again. Wearing another pair of shackles, waiting for you to free him."

Guan Zan sniffed, and replied in a muffled voice, "Then let's go." He was about to get up.

"Now?" Ke Jinrui said, "Not now." He didn't let go, but hugged him tighter, and then pulled the quilt to cover him, "You need to rest, get a good sleep, and when we go tomorrow, I will with you."

It was a long night, and Guan Zan had insomnia half the night in his arms, waking up ignorantly, and falling asleep ignorantly.He thought about many things, all kinds of things, and finally fell on him and Ke Jinrui.He felt that although there was a sentence that was very selfish, it was also very true, and it couldn't be more appropriate to put it at the moment.

That sentence is, the most important thing for you in this life is not your parents, let alone your children, but your lover.Because parents will always grow old, and children will leave. Only a lover can accompany you through ups and downs, and grow old together until you rest in peace.

In the early morning of the next day, Galileo, who had been left out all night, couldn't bear the loneliness, so he ran upstairs, jumped onto the low bed, and began to moan.

Guan Zan was woken up by the overweight corgi, and while kicking the sticky thing out of bed, he fumbled for his phone to check the time.

The other half of the bed was empty, Ke Jinrui had already woken up, and there was a light noise downstairs, probably preparing breakfast.Guan Zan didn't sleep soundly, and when he woke up suddenly, he couldn't help feeling a headache. He kneaded his forehead to calm himself down, and waited for the uncomfortable feeling to pass before turning over and getting out of bed, and changed into a set of clothes from the closet.

After washing and walking the dog, the takeaway morning tea had already been delivered when I entered the door again.Ke Jinrui ground soy milk now, and specially added cocoa powder and sugar to Guan Zan's cup to adjust the taste he likes. He made a cup of instant black coffee as usual. It was simple and trouble-free, but a little monotonous.

After washing his hands, Guan Zan sat down to eat, glanced at the coffee cup in front of Ke Jinrui, and asked casually, "Will it be sour without milk and sugar?"

Ke Jinrui put a shrimp dumpling on the plate for him, and explained: "I'm used to it. I drink coffee mainly to refresh myself. I used to like brewed coffee, but it gradually lost its effect. Only pure coffee is still useful. I don’t ask too much, as long as I can enter.”

Guan Zan said: "But drinking on an empty stomach hurts your stomach, at least drink after breakfast."

Hearing this, Ke Jinrui moved the coffee cup aside, poured himself another cup of light soy milk, and said, "Listen to you."

Affected by the incident the night before, Guan Zan was not in a good mood. After a few mouthfuls, he put down his chopsticks and drank all the soy milk prepared by Ke Jinrui.

At eight o'clock, the two went out and drove to the courtyard house in Houhai.

After changing the residence, Ke Jinrui dismissed the original Filipino maids, and instead hired two professional nurses from the hospital to take care of them. The nannies from the housekeeping company came to prepare for hygiene and food, but they would not stay overnight. In addition, Uncle Xu and Zhang Mom followed suit.

The Siheyuan is a large place with few people, and it looks even deserted than the Xishan Villa.

After knocking on the door, Xu Zhendong led the two into the yard.

After the snow, the weather is fine today, and the sun has been particularly abundant since the morning.

The grape trellis in the corner of the front yard has withered, leaving only a bare shelf and a few dry branches.Guan Zan has been absent-minded since he entered the door. He didn't know how to face Ke Su later. He didn't pay attention to the two people walking in front. He didn't even notice that Xu Zhendong stopped. He didn't know to stop until he was stopped by Ke Jinrui .

Xu Zhendong's attitude towards him was quite polite, he gestured towards the direction of the grape arbor, and said in a low voice: "The old man doesn't like to sit in the house, and he is in a good mood when he comes out, so he will basically stay in the yard if there is no wind or rain. in the sun."

Guan Zan followed the sound and looked over, and sure enough, he saw Ke Su sitting on a wooden recliner with his eyes closed.

He was wearing a thick winter coat, and his figure was invisible, but his face had lost a lot of weight, his cheeks were sunken, and his complexion was not very good-looking.

"I'll go talk to him." After speaking, Xu Zhendong walked towards Ke Su first.

Guan Zan hesitated and did not move, his eyes fixed on the teacher who was a little out of shape.He didn't meet the real person before, and the discomfort was out of emotion, but now that he met, he really felt sad.

"Go and have a look." Ke Jinrui said.

Only then did Guan Zan follow.

Xu Zhendong leaned over beside the rocking chair and told Ke Su that someone came to see him.Ke Su only opened his eyes when he heard the voice, but it was as if he didn't notice anyone around him. The old man's cloudy eyes were not focused, he stared blankly, wandered aimlessly, and then landed on Guan Zan impartially .

Xu Zhendong also noticed this, and immediately calmed down, observing Ke Su's reaction carefully.

They all had an expectation in their hearts, hoping that the old man would get better after seeing Guan Zan. They didn't expect to be cured, but at least they could recognize who he was.

When the eyes met, Guan Zan's heart beat fast. He found that the teacher's eyes were brightened, and his eyes were no longer blank. He was delighted for a moment, surprised that Ke Su really did not forget him.

The rocking chair creaked and swayed, Ke Su stood up awkwardly, opened the hand Xu Zhendong wanted to help, leaning on crutches, tremblingly greeted him.His eyes were filled with tears, his eye sockets were red, and his breath was short and trembling.Guan Zan supported his arm subconsciously, and his eye sockets were also sore.

He thought Ke Su would say "You're back", but unexpectedly, the old man asked, "Have you seen my Zan-Zan?"