Don't be clouded

Chapter 105 Elopement With You

Miyagi is always extremely silent, and it is difficult to hear even the sound of footsteps.Whether it is a palace official or a courtier, they will unconsciously hold their breath and concentrate after entering, and they don't know whether they are afraid of disturbing the emperor, or they are being choked by the oppressive palace.

The servant was leading the way, while Ji Bieyun and Guanchen were not far behind. The solemn imperial city magnified the silence between the two, making it seem a bit heavy.

There was Xu Yang in the carriage before, so there were many things that he couldn't say, and he had to hide all his sorrows, joys, and anger.Ji Bieyun felt that he was panicking, and also noticed that the person beside him was not as calm as he appeared on the surface.After all, the quarrel between the two really happened, and what was said could not be taken back. He didn't want the gap between the two to remain like this.

He didn't know where to start, and after much deliberation, he lowered his voice and said, "I saw you fixed that lamp, thank you."

Ji Bieyun seldom thanked Guan Chen, especially after they recognized each other, it seemed that the two of them were even stranger when he said it now.

Guan Chen responded, but asked: "And then?"

He couldn't help turning his head to take a look, but the monk was only looking at the road ahead.

"I shouldn't have left without saying goodbye." His voice was softer again.

Guan Chen asked again: "Is there any more?"

He also looked down at the road under his feet. The anger of those quarrels had already dissipated on the battlefield, but he didn't know how to get back together with others, so even apologizing seemed clumsy.

"I shouldn't have lost my temper with you that night, I shouldn't have doubted your feelings, I shouldn't have said that you liked me only out of repayment... It's obvious that the Liu family and I have implicated you, and I should repay you if I want to repay you." He paused, "If you hadn't been found by my parents, maybe you could have a better life."

"I thought deeply about it, but I got a little wrong." The monk replied, "I don't like you saying the word "repayment", and I didn't assume that life can be restarted."

Ji Bieyun's brows tightened, he felt that Guan Chen was angry, and his emotions were suppressed too much.He didn't ask about his injuries, he didn't ask about his battle situation, and he didn't mention the unhappiness that night, and he took the initiative to follow him just to fulfill his previous promise.

He opened his mouth but didn't say anything, and it took him a while to really muster up the courage to touch the root of the problem, "I will treat you well in the future, and I won't quarrel with you, and even if there are differences, I won't say those hurtful things again." if."

The palace road is so deep that it seems that there is no end to it. The skylight casts from the high palace wall and casts a long shadow on the ground.

Guan Chen gave a short laugh, unable to hear the happy emotion, "How are you going to treat me?"

Ji Bieyun was stopped by the question.

Yes, how can he treat Guan Chen well?What Guan Chen wants is for him to stay by his side in peace, and when all the turmoil subsides, they will live a peaceful life again.

They want the same thing, just peace, but the word "peace" is not their own.The two are in the whirlpool, and it is difficult to get out unless they both achieve their goals - Ji Bieyun reverses the case for the Liu family, and Guan Chen brings Xuanqing Temple out of the power struggle.

Before that, what can he give Guanchen?

Ji Bieyun felt very uncomfortable, he said in a panic, "I can give you anything, as long as it is what you want..."

Guan Chen suddenly stopped, pulled him back, and leaned over to get closer.In the distance, the Habayashi Army on duty was patrolling, while the servants in front stopped, but they didn't dare to approach or urge them.

In the oppressive Miyagi, eyes and ears are everywhere.But the monk took him to a corner, stared into his eyes, and said word by word: "What I want is not just my heart's desire and liking, and it's not just as simple as calling my name in the crowd."

He looked up blankly, "Then what do you want?"

Guan Chen lowered his voice: "I want you to go and return with me, I want your love. Can you do it?"

There was a buzzing in his mind, his thoughts seemed to be blocked, and he only remembered the word "love".

"I...I really don't just like you," he stumbled, "We have known each other since we were young, how could it be only..."

"Ji Bieyun." Guan Chen interrupted him, calling him by his current name for the first time.

The place held by the monk was a little painful, and the palm just pressed on the wound.

"The childhood friendship is a thing of the past, I'm talking about the present. I gave you freedom, and I won't take it back, but you have to tie a thread to both of us so that I won't lose you .” Guan Chen frowned, “You can’t be too selfish.”

Ji Bieyun wanted to nod, but also wanted to break free from the monk's shackles.

He never thought that he would have love before, let alone Guan Chen.During the few years when the young man was most likely to be desperate and tempted, he was tortured by the severe cold and the human heart in Shugu City. No one taught him what love is, and he failed to learn it by himself.

The fascination with Guanchen is the most excessive thing he thinks, it turns out that beyond the fascination, there is also love.

Does he have such a thing?

There should be some, otherwise he wouldn't be able to take a person so seriously.

Ji Bieyun tried hard to find words to express his emotions in his mind, but failed. In the end, he just tried hard but was powerless: "I brought myself back safely, I didn't die on the battlefield... Although it was difficult, but I Never forget that you want me to be safe, but I can't do better, Guan Chen, I really have... we will only embarrass each other this time, the last time, don't you believe it?"

Guan Chen stared at the boy, and suddenly let go of his hand.

No one can feel calm after hearing these words.It's not that he didn't notice the thin figure of the young man, even thinner than when they reunited in Lingzhou, and it's not that he didn't see the eagerness and love in each other's eyes.Swords have no eyes on the battlefield, he can't imagine what Ji Bieyun has experienced, how he led only a thousand troops to burn down the rebel camp, and how he survived after slaying Wan Liangao.

He just...was rejoicing and couldn't bear it at the same time, but he couldn't restrain that trace of anger.After guarding Chen Jing without Ji Bieyun for too long, he was always not sure that the boy would return safely.It's been so long that he wants to take all the boy's emotions as his own, make the boy think about him all the time, and want to see Ji Bieyun lose control of him too.

Guan Chen couldn't tell whether he was conniving or selfish.

But Ji Bieyun became flustered again when he saw that he was silent, and hurriedly said: "Then you can't doubt my feelings... I'm just not proficient yet, just wait for me, I can give it to you."

He suddenly lowered his eyes and smiled, just now he said some nonsense words, which frightened the young man like this.Obviously he was the one who wanted to see Ji Bieyun lose control, but he was also the one who couldn't bear it in the end.

"I didn't doubt you." He took a step back as he said, "Let's go, the servant has been waiting for a long time."

Ji Bieyun followed, stubbornly walking side by side with him.The wide sleeves of the two were hanging together, and under the cover of the sleeves, the boy quietly reached out and hooked his fingers.

Guan Chen froze for a moment, Ji Bieyun's behavior was still childish, looked up at him, and said softly: "Then are you still angry?"

The two walked for a long time before he found his voice: "Did I touch your injury just now?"

The soft place in Ji Bieyun's heart was touched again, he immediately answered "no", and after speaking, he realized that he was lying to himself.But Guan Chen didn't say anything, just let him secretly hook his fingers.

"I don't want to quarrel with you." Ji Bieyun couldn't hide the depression in his voice, "I started to miss you as soon as I left Chenjing, and I came back non-stop not to meet the saint, but to see you."

What he said was rebellious, and he said it in the palace, which seemed even more deviant.

Guan Chen turned his head to look at him, held his hand back in his sleeve, rubbed it twice, as if he was measuring something.

"I lose weight everywhere, and it takes a long time to get it back."

Ji Bieyun's heart finally fell to where it was, he moved closer, and his voice became softer: "I want to cling to you too, I thought about locking you up and chanting sutras alone, but our bodies There are always other responsibilities. After a while, I will reverse the case for the Liu family, and help you pull Xuanqing Temple out of the turmoil, shall we elope?"

Guan Chen finally smiled, just slightly raised the corners of his lips, and smiled for a moment.Turning her head to look at him, she asked, "You want to elope with me? Where do you want to take me and lock me up?"

He almost forgot that he was in Miyagi, or he no longer cared what others would think of his relationship with Guan Chen.He just clasped the monk's hand and looked at him for a moment: "Leading you wandering around the world? I'm in charge of dancing knives and performing arts, and you just recite sutras to cheer up, isn't it beautiful?"

The monk looked a little helpless, "Yes, it's a beautiful idea."

The two had already walked outside the Hall of Wenying and had to let go of their hands.

Ji Bieyun was a little reluctant, and suddenly felt that Emperor Yuan Hui was even more disappointing.Guan Chen seemed to see what he was thinking, and looked at him comfortingly, "Go, I'm right here."

It happened that the servant had notified Emperor Yuan Hui and announced him into the palace.

He looked at the monk again before stepping into the Wenying Hall, but after only two steps, the smile on his face faded, and he turned back into that sharp little general Ji.

There are always so many memorials on the table of Wenying Hall, Ji Bieyun even felt that there were more than the last time he saw it.Presumably because of the war, with the flames of war, there were more matters going up and down the girder, not to mention that he had also heard Xu Yang talk about the imperial tomb, and there were only a lot of memorials to persuade the court.

He walked to the table and gave a military salute to Emperor Yuan Hui who was reading the memorial, "Chen Jiyao, see Your Majesty."

"Well, I'm back." Emperor Yuan Hui replied casually, and paused for a while before raising his head, "Get up."

Ji Bieyun got up from the ground and stood respectfully on the spot, as if he was at his mercy.

Emperor Yuan Hui threw the memorial in his hand aside, took a new one, read it and said: "I have ordered that all those who pass the decree be killed."

The author says:

reconciled