Keep Your Distance [Rebirth]

Chapter 41 The Truth

Li Han did not reply.

"Did... Zang Xiuyi tell you?" Yun Xingmian could only think of this reason.

Shang Sixun has always been very self-conscious. As long as Li Hanjin is in school, he will honestly stay in his own territory, far away from Yun Xingmian. Li Hanjin knows about this, it can only be because someone deliberately I told him.

Yun Xingmian tightened her grip on the quilt: "I also said, why have you and your little lover not reconciled after coming back for so long, so they are all in private."

After finishing speaking, Yun Xingmian realized that his words were really sour and bubbling, without any dignity.

His heart clenched tightly, and in desperation, he asked what he didn't plan to say: "I just want to say, you said before that you can only ask people around you to do something, and that's what you're talking about ?"

Only by finding someone close to him can Li Hanjin be addicted to drugs without anyone noticing.

Li Han glanced at him without answering.

"Then who told you in the last life?" Yun Xingmian didn't wait for his answer this time, so he took the initiative to express his conjecture, "Zang Xiuyi?"

Li Hanjin's expression froze for a while, but he still nodded reluctantly.

Yun Xingmian smiled: "I guess that's true. At that time, everyone could tell that between us, I had only one-sided enthusiasm for you. Of course, you would not bother to eat anything I gave you, and if you met If someone asked me to spy on you, I would be so stupid as to tell you everything directly... Of course they can't find me."

But Zang Xiuyi was different.

Although he is silent all day long and seems to have no sense of existence, he is also one of the closest people to Li Hanjin.

Li Hanjin doesn't have many friends, except for Li Hanjin who has been pestering him all the time, and there are only two cousins ​​of the Zang family around him.

Compared with the straightforward Zang Xiulie, the silent Zang Xiuyi is obviously the best candidate.

It's a pity that Liang Yuanqiu still made a mistake. He never expected that Zang Xiuyi, who looked at the timid and cowardly man, also deeply rooted in Li Han. Of course, it is impossible to do anything against him. I am afraid that it was the first time Liang Yuanqiu found him. , Confidentially about Li Hanjin.

Hearing Yun Xingmian's resentful words, Li Hanjin finally couldn't help arguing: "Is it because of that that they didn't look for you? Just like you stick to me all day, if you want to look for them, you have to be able to find them." Chance!"

Yun Xingmian: "..."

One sentence destroys the atmosphere of self-pity and self-pity.

"Then I'm really sorry, I stuck to you too tightly and delayed your relationship with him!" Yun Xingmian said, turning around and turning inside, leaving only the back of Li Hanjin's head.

Perhaps because he found that this position was too uncomfortable without a pillow, he stretched out his hand angrily and pulled his own pillow away.

Li Han pulled the pillow back together with others, and asked through gritted teeth: "Who told you that I have feelings for him?"

Neither of them seemed to notice that the style of chatting with each other had completely changed.If outsiders heard it, they might think it was a young couple who were bickering because of jealousy.

Yun Xingmian rolled back angrily, this time she didn't even want a pillow: "What's there to hide? I'm not an important person, I just slept with you a few times? What can I do if I know Sample?"

Li Hanjin dragged him back again: "I'm asking who told you that."

Yun Xingmian struggled a few times, but found that he couldn't break free from his restraint, so he could only reply unconvinced: "Of course it's your boyfriend? Who else could it be! Someone tell me to stay away from you! You two have already confirmed your relationship." Yes! Are you satisfied?"

Even though his upper body was being pressed down, Yun Xingmian couldn't help kicking him when he mentioned this matter: "Bastard! You're still sleeping with me after you've established a relationship with someone. Are you shameless?"

It seems that he has indeed held back this breath for a long time.

Li Hanjin didn't explain, nor did he stop him from moving, so he leaned against each other and asked with a livid face: "Yun Xingmian, there is one last question, who told you the real culprit who killed your family that day?" Is it Shang Sixun? And who told you where he was locked by me?"

Hearing his words, Yun Xingmian stopped suddenly.

Although Li Hanjin asked "that day", for them, that was already a matter of the previous life.

Yun Xingmian opened her mouth, and after a long time, she answered in a low voice, "I...Of course I have my own way."

Li Hanjin held his shoulder tightly: "Yun Xingmian, you are really loyal, if you promise not to tell me, you will never tell me, right?"

Yun Xingmian turned her face away.

"You really can talk morally with anyone." Li Han whispered bitterly, "He told you this because he wanted you to seek the same death with Shang Si, can't you see it? Do you think I Blind, can such a person be liked?"

Hearing this, Yun Xingmian understood that he already knew who the person who told him was.

Although the matter was not caused by himself, he was still a little uncomfortable.

"So you're not blind." Yun Xingmian turned her face away, "Of course I know he thinks so. If I were him, a person who has been entangled with my boyfriend for ten years would still be taken care of by my boyfriend all day long." Now, I definitely want him to die. Isn't this normal? I don't have any friendship with him. "

Li Hanjin's grip on his shoulder suddenly increased.

Yun Xingmian didn't notice it: "Besides, I didn't think there was any good in being alive at that time, so I just fulfilled his wish, no longer an eyesore, and let you stay together and fly together."

Hearing his words, Li Hanji let go of his restraint instead, and hid his hands in the darkness, but in a corner where no one could see, his fists were tightly clenched, and the veins on the back of his hands were bulging.

It is one thing for him to be able to figure out some things, and he can rely on his usual restraint to suppress them tightly, but when he really heard it from Yun Xingmian's mouth, the anger in his chest was still so raging that he could feel it at any time. The point where it exploded.

Yun Xingmian has always been accurate in sensing his emotions, but today probably because of too much jealousy, the radar was temporarily out of order, and after waiting for a long time without him replying, she thought she had acquiesced to what she said, and her loneliness deepened. , but still asked involuntarily: "Since my death is good for you, why did you catch up again? Do you regret it? If I can't be saved, I will catch up with myself."

After asking this sentence, he felt that his statement was not rigorous. After all, they did not expect to fall from upstairs to ten years ago, and this unexpected rebirth was a reward for them. .

"If we don't come back now, you must regret it to death, right?" Yun Xingmian continued on his own.

"That day, Zang Xiulie went to look for you and found that you were not there." Li Hanjin finally said, "The nurse in charge of you didn't know where you were at all. He checked the roadside surveillance and saw that you had sex with Zang Xiuyi. car."

What he was talking about was still the situation before they died.

Yun Xingmian instinctively felt that he was going to say something he didn't know, and unconsciously grasped the quilt tightly with both hands: "His cousin picked me up, so what does that mean? Don't they have a good relationship all the time? Just tell his cousin Why don't you just make a phone call?"

"He called, but he called me." The corners of Li Hanji's lips curled up, but this smile made people's hair stand on end, "I'm like you, I didn't know until that day. The friend I valued turned out to be my real enemy."

Li Hanjin turned his face and looked directly at Yun Xingmian: "Sarcasm? The two of us have been entangled for so long that you hate me and I hate you, but the result is just being manipulated by them."

Yun Xingmian's heart was clamoring faintly: "What are you talking about? Why can't I understand?"

After the accident in Lijingzhou, Li Hanjin disappeared for five years. At that time, Yun Xingmian didn't even know his relationship with Yingjia in the provincial capital, let alone where to find him.

And after Li Hanjin came back, Zang Xiuyi, who graduated from a prestigious school, quickly re-friended him and quickly became his right-hand man.

But Yun Xingmian couldn't even get to see him.

The ridiculous thing is that he didn't realize the gap between himself and Zang Xiuyi until then.

Li Han had anticipated his reaction early on, so he continued without pausing for long: "Back then, Shang Sixun left after seeing the photos for his grandfather. Tell me. It wasn't He Liu's idea that he provoked grandpa at that time. I was really out of my mind at the time. He Liu had already caught such a big handle on me. How could he be willing to use such a small matter to stimulate me? Yes Shang Si Xun, when he saw the photo, he knew that I was with you... He was so angry that he wanted to make me feel bad. When I saw the photo on the ground, I thought it was He Liudong's hand... I really can't accept Grandpa Because the mistakes I made left me overnight..."

Even now that Li Jingzhou has returned to him safely, Li Hanjin still feels a little excited when he mentions this again: "I really didn't know who I should hate the most, He Liu? Is it me, or ……still you."

After many years, this is the first time Yun Xingmian heard him talk about the reason for leaving.

Like Li Hanjin, he himself had thought about these reasons, but now he heard him say it out of his own mouth, and there was still a strong sadness in his heart.

"I think I'm such a jerk, isn't it just the young master who is doing nothing all day and making fun of me? Why can't I resist the temptation to sleep with him, and let my grandfather be so stimulated..." The voice of Li Hanji Getting lower and lower, "I can't wait to kill myself, and I can't wait to kill you."

Yun Xingmian, who was judged as just making fun of the other party, couldn't help feeling wronged. If he had changed his usual temper, he would have quarreled with him long ago.

But looking at Li Hanjin who was immersed in the grief at the beginning, all his grievances were involuntarily stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say a word.

"I'm really...too cowardly. I don't know how to bear the pain of killing grandpa with my own hands. That feeling...is really better than death." Li Han said so much, almost in a tone of breath.It seemed that he really couldn't say what happened next.

Yun Xingmian continued for him in a low voice: "So you need someone to take on this responsibility. Only by thinking that it's all my fault and that I'm seducing you can you convince yourself to live."

It's just a few words to say, but it's really difficult for a person who has always been outstanding to admit his mistakes.

The fist that had been through the cold was clenched a little more, and the stinging pain from the nails piercing into the flesh gave the anguish in his chest a little outlet to vent.

"Are you feeling sorry for me now?" Yun Xingmian asked, "Actually, you don't need it. You are absolutely right to think that way. If I hadn't been pestering you all the time, nothing would have happened. We all know that , this is not an excuse, it is a fact."

Yun Xingmian didn't want to use self-sacrifice in exchange for Li Hanjin's self-forgiveness. Over the years, he had figured it out that if he hadn't been pestering him, Li Hanjin would not have looked at him at all.

If they don't all understand this truth, they don't have to tacitly fulfill the agreement to keep their distance from each other on the day they are reborn.

Li Han shook his head: "It's because I'm still unwilling to admit that my grandpa's accident is related to me."

He suddenly took Yun Xingmian's hand.

This holding hands does not have any ambiguous meaning, but they may need a little warmth from each other as support now.

"That day, Xiu Lie called me and said that Xiu Yi might be bad for you. I didn't believe it at first." Li Han smiled bitterly, "When I was young, almost all the adults and children in the courtyard avoided me, so Even Zang Xiulie was beaten up by Auntie Chen after laughing at me. Only Xiuyi, although his mother always speaks bad words to me, every time I get hurt, I hide and don’t want to let it go. Grandpa knew, he was the one who secretly bandaged me and comforted me."

Yun Xingmian's heart felt sore when he heard it, he didn't know whether it was because he felt sorry for his arduous childhood experience, or because he felt sorry for his love at first sight that was nothing compared to other people's childhood sweethearts.

"I'm not a person who can have long talks with people and confide in heart palpitations, but even though I don't talk much with him, in my heart, he is my only friend in this world."

Feeling the warmth from his palm, Yun Xingmian couldn't help but think to himself, it's a good thing he was talking about friends, so he saved some face for himself.

"So when Xiu Lie told me those words, I instinctively didn't want to believe them." Li Hanjin suddenly clenched his hand.

Yun Xingmian's hand hurt a little from being held by him, and he couldn't help but panic.

"Xiu Lie said that he actually saw Shang Sixun leave my house that day." Hearing Li Hanjin mention this, Yun Xingmian's expression suddenly became serious.

Shang Sixun only entered the Li family once in his last life. It is conceivable that what Zang Xiulie was talking about was the day when his grandfather had an accident.

"He thought it was strange, so he went to my house after Shang Si found him, and wanted to see what he was doing here." At this point, Li Han's words could not help but stop.

Yun Xingmian pursed her lower lip, while spitting on herself, she turned sideways and hugged him: "If you don't want to say it, then don't say it, anyway, it's over, I don't have to know."

And his hug really gave Li Han his strength.

Li Hanjin hugged him tightly, and continued to whisper in his ear: "He saw Zang Xiuyi coming at some time, so he squatted beside grandpa. Grandpa...was already lying on the ground, and Zang Xiuyi was still holding our The photos, the words that stimulated him..."

In astonishment, Yun Xingmian's mind was left blank: "You, what did you say?"

"At the beginning, when I pressed Shang Sixun, he said that although my grandfather was angry at the time, he had no symptoms of illness. He heard footsteps outside and thought it was me coming back, so he ran away...I didn't believe it at the time. I thought it was his excuse." At this point, Li Hanjin's voice was already somewhat mechanical.

If it wasn't for suppressing the emotions in his heart, he really couldn't continue talking.

"Xiu Lie said that he never thought that Xiu Yi, who has always been kind and quiet, would say such vicious words. He just watched his grandpa get ill, and when he reacted, he rushed in to save others. Grandpa is already dead..." And because That day the ambulance was called by two cousins ​​of the Tibetan family, and it was impossible to suspect them even after the cold weather, "He said, I was really scared that day, he didn't dare to tell me the truth, for fear that I would really kill Zang Xiuyi , and then kept it from me for ten years. If he was not afraid of what Zang Xiuyi would do to you that day, he would probably keep it from me for the rest of his life..."

Yun Xingmian could fully understand Li Hanjin's shock when he heard all this, because even he who had no friendship with Zang Xiuyi, when he heard what he said, his first reaction was unbelievable.

Yun Xingmian always thought that among the three of them, Li Hanjin and Zang Xiuyi were worthy protagonists, while he was just a worthless cannon fodder.

Unexpectedly, in the end, Zang Xiuyi's role setting would actually include the word "vicious" in front of cannon fodder.

Seemingly harmless to humans and animals, he was able to hide everyone behind his back because of jealousy when he was a teenager, and forced to death the most respected and beloved elder of the person he loved.

If Zang Xiulie hadn't been afraid that Yun Xingmian would be in danger, and had to tell what happened at the beginning, what was waiting for him would indeed be a happy ending. His love rival passed away, and the only person Li Hanjin trusted most in this world was himself.

Even if Zang Xiuyi said at that time that he had confirmed his relationship with Li Hanjin in order to deceive Yun Xingmian into giving up, but after removing his biggest obstacle, it was only a matter of time before they got together.

Sure enough, are ruthless people more likely to succeed?

If it wasn't for the variable of Zang Xiulie, Zang Xiuyi would really be the biggest winner in this game.

Even if he thought he had put all the members of the Ying family in prison, and had already taken revenge for his grandfather, Li Hanjin was in his hands.

It took Yun Xingmian a long time to digest this matter.

It's no wonder that after going through the cold and being reborn, he always treats Zang Xiuyi with no false words. Presumably his feelings towards him are the same as when he faced Shang Sixun. The urge to tear him apart.

But now Li Dong is just a poor student, even if he wants revenge, he can't do it overnight.

The simple and brutal revenge method of killing people directly is of course not advisable.

Li Hanjin pressed Yun Xingmian into his arms again, and continued: "After listening, do you hate me even more?"

Yun Xingmian lay in his arms in a daze, not knowing why he would mention this.

"At that time, I always knew that Ying Wanhai had taken action against your family... I also heard from Xiu Lie that you were looking for me all the time, but I... seemed to have pinned all my hatred on you at that time, even I dare not even take a look at you." After a long time, this is the first time Li Hanji said sorry to him, "I'm sorry, if I made a move at that time, uncles and aunts would not be able to do anything when Shangsi came to ask for money. If you can’t even get the money out, you won’t provoke him and bring about his death.”

A lot of things, when I never said it, I thought I would never be able to start it, but once I really said it, I found that it was not that difficult.

Yun Xingmian had indeed hated him countless times for this reason.

In the first few years, he thought that designing his father and annexing his family's property was done through hard work. Even when the police couldn't find the murderer of his family, he couldn't help but take this One crime was also attributed to Li Hanjin, thinking that he hated himself for killing his grandfather, so he took revenge by all means.

Just like the end of the cold, he needed such a person to hate at that time, so that he could support himself to continue to survive in this world.

It's just that they didn't expect that in the end, they all blamed the wrong person.

Especially him, who loves deeply and hates at the same time, he doesn't even dare to look back and think about how he got here all those years.

It can be said that life is worse than death.

But there is a grievance and a debtor. He understands that the person who should be responsible for all this is not the person who is now blaming himself in front of him.

"It's none of your business." Yun Xingmian said in a hoarse voice, "He would kill my parents, not because of money. Even if the family was not bankrupt at the time, my parents would not be able to escape his murderous hands. You don't have to Blame yourself."

Li Hanjin was also taken aback by his words: "What did you say? But how could he lie to me, when I pressed him..."

"Everyone will have a time when they can grit their teeth and stick to the past, even he is no exception." Yun Xingmian didn't want him to get entangled in this matter, and deliberately changed the subject, "Actually, I knew a long time ago that the one who killed my family was not You... When Xiu Lie went to your home to treat me, he talked to me about many things. I knew that you couldn't do that kind of thing, but I am also like you. If I didn't hate you, what would I do? survive?"

He suddenly smiled, but that laughter also sounded a bit sad this night: "Look, in fact, we all have a selfish side. You hate me for living, and I hate you for living. Maybe these are just It’s just an animal’s instinct to survive.”

Yun Xingmian hugged Li Han for the last time before letting him go: "But we have all started again now, grandpa is alive, and my parents are also alive. God is willing to give us a chance to reform, then we Don’t be so obsessed with who’s right and who’s wrong.”

Li Hanjin suddenly lost the warmth in his arms, he didn't know why, and suddenly felt empty.

"At least we didn't think of harming anyone, so why bother each other? Now that we've talked about everything, why don't we reconcile, whether you're sorry for me or I'm sorry for you, let's just forget about it." Yun Xing Suddenly, Mian felt her eyes blurred, "From now on, we will be a pair of ordinary friends. The relationship is neither far nor close, so we will never have to be afraid of hurting grandpa."

Li Hanji looked at him calmly, without saying a word.

Yun Xingmian continued to whisper: "Just like what we said at the beginning, in this life, I will not pester you and will not affect your life anymore. But maybe, it's okay to be friends. Grandpa also likes me very much. To be honest, besides you, it is really easy to please anyone I want to like."

At the end, Yun Xingmian actually laughed and joked.

If it weren't for the tears in his eyes that were almost overflowing, this relaxed tone would certainly not make people feel sad.

Seeing his tears, Li Hanjin seemed to have a low growl in his throat, and stretched out his hand to embrace him again.

This time, Yun Xingmian blocked him.

"Do you still remember what happened to us the first time?" Yun Xingmian smiled while crying, "You are actually a good person with a lot of kindness, you look fierce, but every time, I just want to Once you pretend to be pitiful, you will follow me."

He wiped his eyes: "This is not good. Since we can't be together, we have to keep the distance that friends should have. And so many years have passed, it's just that we have been entangled back and forth for so long, and so many things have happened It seems that it is so unforgettable to mention, but in fact, if you think about it carefully, for you and me, it is nothing more than first love."

Li Han stared at him intently, with unpredictable emotions in his eyes.

"Our life should go smoothly in this life, and first love is of course nothing." In the last step, Yun Xingmian pulled out his hand, "Friend, go to sleep, tomorrow is another day .”

And he, sooner or later, will be freed from this first love that is destined to have no ending.