A psychopath has a crush on me

Chapter 60 The snow that fell in life.

Yu Pei folded his arms and lay quietly on the table.

People say that when a person is on the verge of death, all the memories of his life will flash in his mind like a revolving lantern, and he had two near-death experiences.

Twice he looked back on his short life.

There are not many people who have such an experience, and Yu Pei doesn't know why he is so lucky to be able to experience it twice.

For the first time, he truly thought he was dead.

Tranquility Lan killed many details of Yu's father, whether it was from the Yu family or the Ning family, they actually didn't know much. At most, they only knew that Tranquility Lan took Yu's father's asthma aerosol and caused Yu's father to die tragically. Due to the asthma attack, all the remaining secrets turned into a mouthful of thick phlegm, which rotted disgustingly in the stomachs of everyone who lived in the Yu house and knew the whole story of this incident. decent.

It's not because Yu Pei hates her so much, it's unforgivable, but because he and Tranquility Lan really have reached the point where they can only live as one.

When he was young, he didn't understand why when her brother was there, she would always smile gently, serve him food, and care about his daily life, but when he left, she would face her face without any He always looked at himself coldly, and if he wanted to hold her by hand, he would be thrown away severely, as if he was some dirty thing.

He doesn't know why his mother doesn't like him, but obeying his heart's longing for his mother, he will still involuntarily approach Tranquility Lan cautiously.

In order to cater to her preferences, he will do everything she likes but he doesn't like.

Tranquility Lan hopes that he will do nothing in his studies, so he will try his best to be an art student who can only draw and play the piano. Tranquility Lan likes him to be quiet, so he will keep his mouth shut. Be the most silent child around her, sometimes she gets angry Or sad, he would comfort her clumsily, even if she would slap or pinch himself sometimes, he would never cry loudly.

But even though he worked so hard, he still couldn't make Tranquility Lan like him.

It wasn't until she quarreled with Yu's father once and shouted hysterically that Yu's father brought the mistress' child from outside in order to humiliate her, and lied to her that it was her child, that everyone knew that she was sick.

But everyone at that time couldn't blame Tranquility Lan too much.

Because Yu Pei was born prematurely, and the reason for the premature birth was that a pregnant mistress of Yu's father found Tranquility Lan, who was also pregnant, and she was greatly stimulated. Perhaps since then, she has gone crazy.

The marriage between Tranquility Lan and Yu's father was the result of a commercial marriage. She really loved Yu's father, but Yu's father didn't love her.

In this absurd farce, she was also a victim, so everyone just hired a psychiatrist for her and provided regular psychological counseling. At that time, she seemed to have calmed down.

And Yu Pei, who finally knew why his mother didn't like him, probably started to get sick since then.

But he didn't tell anyone, just licked his wound silently in the corner, digesting all the sorrows, he continued to live step by step according to Tranquility Lan's expectation, but it was not for her anymore.

He once transformed himself into the appearance she expected for her liking, so Yu Pei didn't even know what he liked in his heart and what kind of person he was.

It was as if his ignorant soul lived in a body shaped by Tranquility Lan.

Yu Pei originally thought that such a life where he could see the end at a glance would be his whole life, until Yu's father's death broke all the ice floes, revealing the raging tide underneath.

Father Yu is a life-saving person. As long as people who have suffered from asthma have experienced an attack, they will be afraid of the feeling of being infinitely close to death. Except for those who want to commit suicide, no one is not afraid of death, so the asthma aerosol My father always carries it with me, and there are two spare bottles at home, in case Yu Pei or Yu's father cannot find the aerosol in case of an illness.

The day Tranquility Lan chose to kill Yu's father was the holiday when Uncle Zhuang went home, and it was also their wedding anniversary.

Uncle Zhuang has his own family, every year he will go home for a period of time to visit his family, that is a fixed day, and everyone in the Yu family knows it.

The loyal old butler is gone, and no matter how hard the servants left behind, there are many details that they can’t notice. They don’t check whether the aerosol in the cabinet can be used normally, and they don’t notice that Tranquility Lan took the cabinet All the aerosols in it, not to notice that she put an empty aerosol bottle in it later.

That empty aerosol bottle belonged to Yu Pei.

When Yu Pei came home from school that day, Tranquility Lan suddenly walked up to him with a box of paint, and asked him with a smile, "This is a gift my mother bought for you. Do you like it?"

And Yu Pei really likes painting, and he really likes Tranquility Lan. Even though he was wondering why Tranquility Lan wanted to give him a box of expensive paints at that time, he would not doubt what Tranquility Lan wanted to do to him. I'd rather believe that it's because the doctor's treatment of Tranquil Lan finally worked——

"Apei, do you like it?"

"I love it...thank you mom."

"Go and try it out if you like it, mom will hold the schoolbag for you."

Until now, Yu Pei still clearly remembers every word and every sentence Tranquility Lan said to him at that time, even the expression on her face when she spoke. Her smile was so gentle and her voice was so beautiful. It's like she's really healed and knows that he is her child.

And this was the last conversation he had with Tranquility Lan. Since then, he never spoke a word to Mother Yu again.

So he couldn't wait to hand over his schoolbag to Tranquility Lan, and excitedly ran to the studio to try the new paint she gave him. He was still thinking about Tranquility Lan until before going to bed.He thought, finally he can see himself in his mother's eyes, the paint she bought is really useful, and he must say thank you to his mother when he has breakfast tomorrow morning, but will it be too much? By the looks of it, they are mother and son...

But the next day when Yu Pei got up together, he received a call from Yu Qing, saying that Yu's father had died and that Uncle Zhuang was on his way back.

When Yu Pei received this call, he was immediately out of breath.

Although he is not very close to Yu's father, he is his father after all, and he has never abused himself like Tranquility Lan, and sometimes even gave him more warmth than Tranquility Lan gave him, so he would be sad and shocked .

However, when Yu Pei habitually took medicine out of his schoolbag, he found that his aerosol was missing.

He stumbled out of the room, trying to get medicine from the medicine cabinet, but on the way he ran into Tranquility Lan who was singing and dancing.

Tranquility Lan saw him appear, smiled at him, and came to help him.

Yu Pei was unprepared, she walked to the stairs with her support, and was about to go downstairs when Ning Lan suddenly let go of her hand.

Yu Pei stepped on the ground, before falling down the stairs, he had wanted to look back at Tranquility Lan countless times, but he had no chance, only when the spinning world stopped and he lay quietly at the foot of the stairs, could he He raised his head and stared at her blankly.

He is not short-sighted, so he can see Tranquility Lan looking down at him, with a gentle smile on his face that he has been looking forward to for a long time.

Tranquility Lan just watched him struggling and panting on the ground quietly, and smiled indifferently and gently when the Filipino maid screamed and rushed to help him, and hurriedly called the ambulance.

In a daze, he heard the Filipino maids saying that there was no medicine in the medicine cabinet, and he also heard the Filipino maid asking him where your medicine is, young master.

Yes, where's his medicine?

Yu Pei couldn't answer, all his feelings for Tranquility Lan, from yearning and hope, to collapse and despair, finally turned into tranquility and indifference.When he closed his eyes, he seemed to hear Tranquility Lan's words again when he coaxed him into signing the voluntary share transfer statement. She can always do this, when she talks sweet words to confuse you, she handed over a sharp knife by the way.He should have known earlier that Tranquility Lan wouldn't treat him well for no reason, it's just that he couldn't remember the lesson.

The reason behind Yu's father's death gradually became clear. Yu's mother secretly took the aerosol from his clothes while he was at home. Before Yu's father went out, he found that his aerosol was gone. Take a bottle, but that bottle of aerosol is just an empty bottle after Tranquility Lan tricked it away from Yu Pei.

And when Yu's father took away the medicine that was so important to him, he didn't check to see if it could still be used normally, he deserved to die, he was stupider than Yu Pei.These are the original words of Tranquility Lan when she was interrogated by the police.

Yu Qing listened to the whole interrogation, that's why Yu Qing would rather have people move all the furniture related to Yu's mother out of Yu's house, and then let her and Yu's father's room be repainted and refurbished, and they will be emptied of living in this house. She will never let Tranquility Lan leave the hospital without any traces of her past.

And Tranquility Lan treated him like this, he didn't hate Tranquility Lan, but Tranquility Lan hated him so much that she wanted to kill him. When Second Uncle Ning asked him if he had visited Yu Mu, Yu Pei wanted to ignore her. He yelled at him, why did he go to see Tranquility Lan, in order to let her kill him again?

He chose to give Tranquility Lan the last respect, so he didn't say anything. These people don't know anything, but they still want to eat another bite of fleshy buns with his pain. Such people are really disgusting.

Yu Pei was panting heavily, feeling that he could not breathe, he had no choice but to raise his head from between his arms, the hot and humid water vapor on his face touched the cold night wind, and instantly became extremely cold, Yu Pei realized that he was crying.

The sky is clear and cloudless tonight, and the silver moonlight pours down from the sky, very bright.

There is a tall ginkgo tree next to his room, its branches cut the moonlight into bright or dark pieces, falling from the gap, shining on the exposed stones, and the summer in the south has not completely passed, Yu Pei However, he felt that the surroundings were filled with harsh and cold air. As long as he took a deep breath, he would be choked. The cold air penetrated into his lungs and numb his internal organs.

But tonight, he was supposed to sit here and make a phone call with Luo Changzhou, say goodnight and then fall asleep peacefully, but that phone call made him feel so depressed that he couldn't do anything but stay in the Crying like a fool here.

Yu Pei looked up at the moon, and suddenly felt a sense of ignorance and helplessness in his heart. The hatred was not for Tranquility Lan, nor for Second Uncle Ning, but for himself.

He hates himself for being so useless and letting these negative emotions invade his thoughts. He is no longer what he used to be. His life is so beautiful now. His lover, he can no longer let himself be defeated by these negative emotions, otherwise it will be meaningless for him to come back to life after dying.

It’s meaningless to hide here and cry alone, it’s also meaningless to curl up in a corner when you feel wronged and sad, there are countless snowfalls that fall in a person’s life, if you can’t run out of the snow, you will be gradually lost by the falling snowflakes. Buried, unable to run to the spring, no longer able to feel the warmth.

Because if there is no special accident, it is very difficult for people to lose their memory, just like he once wanted to forget what happened in the past so desperately, forget everything related to Tranquility Lan, but even if the memory of a depressed patient will become very poor, he He also failed to forget these memories that he wanted to forget, but these memories were still integrated into his flesh and blood, containing all the fragments of memories about the past, flowing in his blood vessels, silently entangled with him for a lifetime.

But all of this will eventually pass, and as time goes by, it will be washed away by this irresistible torrent. If you can't forget it, you must learn to face it until it can no longer bring salt to your scabbed wounds. pain.

Yu Pei stood up from the chair, wiped away the tears, went to the bathroom to wash his face, then came back and picked up the phone, and called Yu Qing.

"Brother." Although there was no cry in Yu Pei's voice, it was still hoarse.

Yu Qing heard that his tone was wrong, and asked him: "What's the matter, Ah Pei? You haven't slept so late?"

"En." Yu Pei responded in a low voice, "Second Uncle called me."

"Second Uncle?" Yu Qing was stunned for a moment, then realized that something wrong with Yu Pei probably had something to do with him, he immediately asked Yu Pei, his voice became cold, "What did he say to you?"

"He asked me to see Tranquility Lan." Yu Pei didn't mention Second Uncle Ning's question about Yu Qing's girlfriend, but only mentioned the reason why he was in a bad mood.

And Yu Qing's breathing became thicker when Yu Pei said the three words "Tranquility Lan".

"He definitely wants to do something bad. No matter what he wants to do, brother, don't promise him, okay?" If you don't have anything to do, you can either rape or steal. Yu Pei has learned enough lessons and won't be fooled again.

"Okay, brother will." Yu Qing's voice also became a little hoarse, he didn't say anything, just made such a promise.

"It's late, I'm going to bed, good night brother."

"Good night, Pei."

After Yu Pei hung up the phone, he originally wanted to call Luo Changzhou, but seeing that it was really late, he gave up and just sent Luo Changzhou a good night message.

Unexpectedly, just after the text message was sent, Luo Changzhou's call came.