we didn't flirt

Chapter 144

"I told her that she didn't want to be with me, so she told me, but she didn't say anything..." The drunk Ye Xing leaned on Qiao Rou's shoulder, looking heartbroken, talking to herself all the time Confidence to Qiao Rou: "Even if she lied to me, why didn't she say anything? Then don't you want to be with me..."

Qiao Rou looked at Ye Xing, who was rarely drunk, feeling distressed and suspicious. It was unbelievable that Ye Xing would take the initiative to break up. She remembered that Ye Xing had firmly told her the day before yesterday that she would never break up with Guan Yan. Today I got drunk and told her that I was broken in love.

"As long as she is willing to be with me, whatever is past or not will pass after a while. Mu Yao or something, I will forget about it in two days."

Qiao Rou only listened to these words as drunken words, she didn't think Ye Rong could forget about Mu Yao in 'two days'.But Ye Xing was right. The best way to heal a wound in love is another better and more mature love. It's just a pity that everyone is half-baked in terms of relationships. Can you meet them and heal yourself? It's all about luck, and it's embarrassing to force Guan Yan, who is already cold-tempered, to cure Ye Xing's 'seriously ill'.

"So the reason why you broke up with Guan Yan is because you think she doesn't want to be with you?"

"Is there any other reason for breaking up?"

Qiao Rou was slightly melancholy: "That's true."

Ye Xing took a sip of wine and murmured: "No."

"……what?"

"I have changed……"

Qiao Rou was speechless, and said patiently: "What changed?"

"Even if she doesn't want to be with me, even if she minds Muyao very much, even if I feel bad, I will get better if I work hard. I knew she was cold and unattractive, so I didn't expect her to be enthusiastic..." Ye Xing's tone ranged from melancholy to annoyed, and then from annoyed to slightly sad: "But... I didn't hear her say that she wanted to be with me, but for a moment I felt... just forget it."

"..."

"A moment, it's really just a moment." Ye Xing repeated emphatically, as if he was afraid that Qiao Rou would misunderstand, but after emphasizing, he said even more absent-mindedly: "But not even for a moment...how could I Pass it on to Sister Guan because of my bad mood? This is not me, I have changed... This is what I can't tolerate the most..."

To be honest, Qiao Rou was very speechless, she especially wanted to persuade Ye Xing to let herself go, who hasn't calmed down yet?In the past two days, she has been stimulated one after another, and it is normal to be mentally exhausted. She is not a sun, how can she continue to glow and heat.

"So you broke up with her?"

"Yeah." Ye Xun nodded weakly: "What could be worse than this? This kind of thought... It's like a snowball, from a little bit, to bigger and bigger, and finally it becomes an avalanche... I think I'm afraid that the relationship between me and Sister Guan will get worse and worse. She doesn't want to be with me, I don't want to be with her, and in the end we really won't be together..."

"But...you may not be able to go back if you break up." No one can be sure that two people will have a chance to be together after separation. Even if they can get back together, the fact that they have been separated may not make them better than they are now .Of course, the best thing might be for two people to grow up and continue their relationship, but if one fails, they will really miss it, and it will be even more difficult to find someone who loves more than they do now.

"I know, I'm not stupid, if we split up, we'll split up... I may never find her again... But if this continues, I'll lose her too... I'm in a bad mood, I'm too dark It's over... I should be a positive person..." Ye Xing started to cry as he spoke, crying and talking drunk.

Qiao Rou hugged Ye Xing distressedly: "Okay, let's not talk anymore, I know you are tired, let's go to bed, shall we?"

During Ye Rong's series of "I'm too dark" self-loathing, Qiao Rou took him back to the room and coaxed him to sleep.

Looking at Ye Rong who was still murmuring dislike for herself after lying down, Qiao Rou felt distressed and helpless. Ye Rong, who wanted to find happiness in love, was always unable to achieve it because of too much affection. Ye Rong's love can only be truly complete when she can hold all her deep affection and is not overwhelmed by this excessive emotion.

*****

After Ye Rong left, Guan Yan sat on the sofa and lost her mind, as if her whole body was empty. When she regained her senses, the room was already dark.

Get up to turn on the light, then go to the kitchen and make yourself a cup of coffee.

In the cupboard, Ye Xing's favorite coffee cup was placed on the outermost edge. Guan Yan's eyes lingered on the cup for a few seconds, then he slowly touched the cup with his raised hand, took the cup out of the cabinet, and rinsed it briefly Set aside for later use with coffee.

After the coffee was brewed, Guan Yan picked up the coffee pot. At the same time, he reached out and took the milk ball from the small frame in the corner. When he turned around, the coffee pot accidentally touched the coffee cup on the side, and the cup shattered with a snap.

Looking at the broken coffee cup, Guan Yan couldn't help but feel worried when he thought of Ye Xing drinking coffee from the cup.Ignoring the worrying feeling, she took out another cup from the cupboard and carefully poured the coffee.

She wanted to throw the broken coffee cup into the trash can, but she couldn't let go of the cup in her hand. Guan Yan raised her eyes and looked at the cup filled with coffee. Nor can it be ignored.

It turned out that she cared more about Ye Xing's departure than she imagined, and the annoyance that she didn't leave Ye Xing behind now made her feel a strong dislike for herself.

Perhaps, breaking up with Ye Rong might be a safer choice under the current circumstances. As Ye Rong said, the two of them are in a very bad state. Can't get out of the relationship full of unsolved problems.

However, how should she face the choice of letting Ye Rong leave?Isn't this an escape?

Ye Xing deliberately wanted to leave her when he was in a bad mood, so as not to make their relationship irreparable. Perhaps, one day in the future, they could really accept each other again.

But how should she face herself who made this choice at this time?

She was annoyed that she failed to help Ye Rong when Ye Rong asked her for emotional support, she was annoyed that she did not put Ye Rong's emotions first and caused Ye Rong harm, she thought that she would hurt Ye Rong If Rong caused harm, why did he stay by Ye Rong's side.

But... isn't Ye Rong now the time when she needs her?Didn't she ignore Ye Rong's needs again?She didn't stay by Ye Rong's side when Ye Rong needed her the most, why should she stay by Ye Rong's side in the future?

Even if Ye Xing could really accept her in the future, she would not allow herself to return to Ye Xing's side again.

Holding the shattered coffee cup in her hand, Guan Yan took a deep breath. Since it is impossible for her to find Ye Xing back in the future, even if there is a possibility of breaking up, should she try to keep him?Even being together for one more day is better than breaking up without doing anything.

But... If she can't help Ye Rong, if she chooses to keep Ye Rong but causes more harm to Ye Rong, isn't this choice too selfish?

When he hesitated to put the coffee cup back on the counter, what Qin Yuxian said suddenly flashed in his mind-"Did you never believe that you and Xing Xing could always be together?" '

Guan Yan was stunned, it seemed... She really subconsciously never believed that she and Ye Xing could always be together, even at this moment, what she was thinking about was to be able to live one more day, not to be with Ye Xing. Xing went to the end.Even... All the efforts she made in the past were just to make herself and Ye Xing together longer, not because she believed that she and Ye Xing could always be together.

Guan Yan froze in place in a daze, because she subconsciously felt that they would not be together forever, so was she so hesitant?

Annoyed, he raised his hand to cover his eyes, took a deep breath, and forced himself to calm down.

Qin Yuxian's words flashed in her mind, there will always be someone who can heal Ye Xing in the future, she thought angrily, why can't that person be her? !

She is indeed not very good at dealing with emotional matters, but since both left and right will cause harm to Ye Xing, then she has to choose to work hard to become a future that can heal Ye Xing, not a past that is destined to cause harm!

*****

After coaxing Ye Xing to sleep, Qiao Rou also went back to the room to wash up, and was about to rest. Just as she lifted the quilt and was about to lie down, the doorbell rang downstairs.

Taking the phone to check the time, Qiao Rou was speechless. In the middle of the night, there was only one person who ran over without a call.She put on her coat and went downstairs to open the door, wondering if she should give the man a set of keys?But it was quite scary to think about sleeping until midnight when someone knocked on her door directly.

However, the person who came was not the one Qiao Rou expected. Looking at the person who would never appear here at this time, Qiao Rou lost her voice for a moment.

"Is Ye Xing here?"

"Yes..." Qiao Rou replied in a daze, remembering Ye Xing who was drunk and talking drunk an hour ago, came back to her senses, and welcomed him into the room: "I drank too much, I just fell asleep not long ago."

"I'll go up and see her."

As soon as people entered the room, they went upstairs. Qiao Rou closed the door, followed a few steps, and couldn't help saying: "Sister Guan, you..." Didn't you break up?After Ye Rong's crying, Guan Yan suddenly appeared here, what happened?

Guan Yan turned around and glanced at Qiao Rou. Judging from Qiao Rou's reaction, she probably knew about her breaking up with Ye Rong. She didn't reply, and went upstairs to see Ye Rong.

The room was pitch dark, turned off the smoke for fear of waking Ye Xing, so she didn't turn on the light, and groped into the room lightly, Qiao Rou who followed thoughtfully helped her turn on the small light in the room that was not dazzling, so that she could see Ye Xing clearly. Siu's face.

Guan Yan sat down on the side of the bed, saw Ye Xing who was asleep frowning, and wanted to soothe her distressedly, Ye Xing seemed to sense something, and rubbed against her.Guan Yan couldn't help smiling, took off his clothes and got under the covers.