growing up

Chapter 98 Gu Yuan's Cry

Ling Chao had been sitting in the taxi for almost half an hour, and the car was about to arrive at Gu Yuan's hometown in the countryside.Until now, he has not fully accepted the facts he heard at the police station.He didn't believe it, but he had to believe it.

That uncle just went to the hospital this morning. Gu Qingqing's body was cremated this morning, and then he was taken back to the countryside directly.

Ling Chao didn't dare to think too much, and didn't dare to listen to more details. He bid farewell to the policemen, stumbled and stopped a car, and went straight to the countryside.

The village was just ahead, and the sorghum fields on both sides were still green and lush.Unlike the last time I came, there was no one in the field.

The closer it got, the more uncomfortable Ling Chao felt.Gu Qingqing's illness is an unpredictable bomb in their family, and it may explode at any time.Since she was half a year old, she has experienced many times of life and death, but she can escape from danger and come back to life every time.

Gu Yuan always said that Qingqing himself was very open-minded, which led the family members to be more calm.But Ling Chao understood how much Gu Yuan cared about Gu Qingqing.How many times did the doctor say that Qingqing would not live until her age, how many times did Gu Yuan expect miracles to really exist.

In just two months, she will turn 17.It will once again break the doctor's prophecy, and look forward to a miracle again!

however……

When the courtyard arrived, the elegiac couplet with black letters on a white background on the door and the pure white lanterns hanging under the eaves once again deeply hurt Ling Chao's heart.

Until now, all luck has been shattered.The tears that had been held back could no longer be controlled.The busy crowd in the yard and the music of mourning all rushed to his face, showing this fact nakedly in front of Ling Chao.

He didn't know how he got into that gate, or what he was looking for in the yard.Everyone is a strange face, and no one knows him.

No one noticed this dazed young man, Ling Chao's footsteps were sloppy, his eyes were fixed on the door in the front hall, and he walked in step by step.In front of the lobby, there was a black and white picture frame next to the original portraits of Gu Yuan's grandfather and father. The smiling little girl was looking at him with a pair of beautiful big eyes.

The appearance of the little girl in the photo is no different from the Gu Qingqing I usually see, except that the fresh and cute little girl is now only framed in one frame and turned into a black and white photo.

He seemed to hear a sweet baby voice calling him: "Brother Ling Chao, brother Ling Chao, you are here."

Her lips turned white from being bitten, but she couldn't resist the urge to cry out in the end.Facing Gu Qingqing's photo, Ling Chao squatted down slowly and burst into tears.

Finally someone noticed him and wanted to ask him, but was stopped by Ling Chao's crying.As a last resort, the man ran to find Zhang Yun and took her to the front of the hall.

Zhang Yun walked over and saw a boy squatting on the ground, crying with his face buried in his arms. His back looked very much like Ling Chao.

She tried to shout: "Ling Chao?"

Hearing someone calling him, Ling Chao raised his head, his face was covered with tears, his unstoppable crying turned into choking.

He stood up slowly, turned around, and it took a while to see the person behind him under the wrapping of tears.

"Aunt Zhang." Ling Chao whispered choked up, closed his eyes, and raised his hand to wipe the newly added tears on his face.

"Ah," Zhang Yun looked haggard, bloodshot eyes almost covered his entire eyeballs.I don't know how long I haven't rested, and my originally good-looking face seems to have aged more than ten years.She was wearing plain clothes, and her short hair was a little messy.She took two steps forward, looked at Ling Chao and asked, "Why are you here? Did Xiao Yuan notify you?"

"No, I've been looking for you for two days, but I can't find it." The tears that had just been wiped away rushed out again. Ling Chao sniffed and said, "Your phone numbers are not connected. I just arrived at noon today. An uncle at the police station told me. Why all of a sudden..."

Zhang Yun's eye sockets turned red when he provoked her. She tried her best to hold back, stretched out her hand, hugged Ling Chao, and gently patted him on the back: "Good boy, don't cry, if Qingqing knows you're here I'm sure you'll be happy."

Ling Chao lowered his body and leaned on Zhang Yun's shoulder, trying to stop the tears that were still pouring out.

After a while, Ling Chao stabilized his emotions before letting go of her. He hadn't seen Gu Yuan and grandma since he came in, and he began to worry again: "Aunt Zhang, how is grandma? And Gu Yuan?"

Zhang Yun raised his head and took a deep breath, and said, "They are all upstairs, and Xiao Yuan is with his grandma." A tear still flowed down as he spoke.

She had shed too many tears these two days, and she didn't close her eyes for two nights.She tried to control her emotions, at least she couldn't fall down.

Zhang Yun paused, and then continued: "Help me persuade Xiao Yuan, he hasn't said a word since yesterday morning."

"Okay." Ling Chao nodded.

There are still many things about Zhang Yun. The funerals in the countryside have complicated rules, while Qingqing is still a child who has not grown up, and has more different customs.

She was the only one in the family, and she was already seriously overdrawn, but the perseverance developed through years of working as a front-line criminal police supported her from falling down.

In just three years, she sent away her husband and daughter. This blow is not acceptable to ordinary people, but Zhang Yun can only grit his teeth and persist.

Because she still has an old man to support, and a son who needs her.

Going up to the second floor, the noise downstairs is a little quieter.

The door of Gu Qingqing's room was open, and the inside was still the same without any changes.But the person who used to read, play, and sleep in this room is gone.

Ling Chao didn't dare to stop for a long time, and turned to the other room as if fleeing - it belonged to Gu Yuan.

The door was also wide open. Ling Chao approached the door and saw Grandma Gu lying on the bed and falling asleep.It's just that Gu Yuan's figure was not seen anywhere.

Ling Chao stood at the door and took several deep breaths. He couldn't let Gu Yuan see him like he was before, and couldn't make Gu Yuan more sad.

Ling Chao walked in slowly. He was afraid of disturbing Grandma Gu, so he tried his best not to make any noise.

It wasn't until he reached the end of the bed that he saw Gu Yuan, this Gu Yuan who had worried him for almost two days!

On the wall near the door is a set of custom-made combined wardrobes. There is a short distance between the cabinets and the bedside table, and now, in this gap, curled up is Gu Yuan.

He sat on the ground with his legs bent, his hands hugging his knees, his forehead resting on his arms, and he couldn't see his appearance clearly.

Ling Chao walked over slowly, squatted down, and called softly: "Gu Yuan."

He thought Gu Yuan was asleep, and was about to touch his arm, but the person in front of him raised his head.

With just one glance, Ling Chao's heart twitched.

Pale complexion, sunken cheeks, hollow eyes, dry lips, and the dark circles under the eyes that are comparable to national treasures, all gathered on Gu Yuan's face.

Like a person who hasn't slept or eaten for a long time, even his mental body has been separated from himself.He met Shang Lingchao's gaze, but he didn't respond at all. His drooping eyelids slowly closed and then opened again, but there was still no brilliance.

"Gu Yuan, I'm here." Ling Chao stretched out his hand to touch his face, and said softly again.

Gu Yuan still maintained the state just now, he seemed to be wandering outside this space, and he didn't know if he heard Ling Chao's words.

"Get up, okay?" Ling Chao held his hand, "Go out with me for a while and let grandma sleep here."

Gu Yuan still didn't respond.

Reluctantly, Ling Chao resisted bursts of heartache, grabbed his arms, and pulled him up.But Gu Yuan didn't have any strength at all, he was just lifted by Ling Chao's strength.As soon as he loosened his strength, he slid down.

Ling Chao barely supported Gu Yuan, and glanced at the bed next to him, but fortunately he didn't wake up grandma.He had no choice but to hug Gu Yuan and leave the room.

There was a sofa set in the living room on the second floor, and Ling Chao sat there directly holding him. The person in his arms was still quiet, neither reacting nor resisting.

Don't cry, don't laugh, don't talk, don't make trouble, Gu Yuan Lingchao has never seen such a person.

"Gu Yuan," Ling Chao called out to him, but got no response, and said to him self-consciously, "Can you give me a little reaction? Talk to me, or cry if you want."

But it was still the same, nothing changed.

Ling Chao just sat there holding Gu Yuan in his arms, unconsciously stroking his arm with his palm, once and for all, as if comforting and looking for sustenance for himself.

After a while, Ling Chao saw blood dripping from Gu Yuan's chapped lower lip, and wanted to put him on the sofa and pour him a glass of water.As soon as the hand was released, it was pulled.

"Don't go." An extremely weak but real voice came from Gu Yuan's mouth.It was the hoarseness that the throat was naturally blocked after not making a sound for a long time, and the hazyness that the lips were glued together for too long and suddenly opened with only a small slit.

Ling Chao paused, staring at Gu Yuan. Aunt Zhang said that he hadn't spoken since yesterday morning. Although the two words just now were not clear, Ling Chao heard them clearly.

"Don't leave me." This time, Gu Yuan licked the connected lips with his tongue, even though his voice was still hoarse, he spoke clearly.

There was also a change on the previously expressionless face, the brows slowly wrinkled together, the red eyes narrowed slightly, showing the sadness in the eyes.He held Ling Chao's wrist very hard, as if he was afraid that Ling Chao would disappear if he didn't use more force.

Ling Chao half-kneeled on the sofa, lowered his body, and kept at the same level as Gu Yuan.He didn't care about the wrist that hurt from being scratched, and inserted the other finger into Gu Yuan's hair from the back of his head, looked into his eyes and said solemnly: "Gu Yuan, don't worry, I won't leave. I won't leave, I will always be with you, forever and ever."

The corners of Gu Yuan's eyes twitched a few times, tears "swish" filled his eye sockets, making his surroundings flushed red.It was as if he had finally returned to this world and remembered everything, and he was in unbearable pain.

Finally, he let go of the finger that looked like a man in the water grabbing driftwood, and hugged Ling Chao before tears fell.

Ling Chao had no choice but to sit down on the sofa, the wetness on his shoulders came quickly, and his trembling body was pressed tightly against his chest.

"Qingqing is gone," Gu Yuan said, sobbing, "Brother Chao, Qingqing is gone. She was fine before, and she drew with me at noon, why did she suddenly fall ill after a while?"

Ling Chao couldn't give him an answer, so he could only hug him tighter.

"Last semester, she didn't miss a lot of classes. She was very happy. During the summer vacation, she told me that she would study hard and try to skip a grade, so that she might be able to catch up with me in college. "

"But, no more, no more skipping grades, no more college, everything is gone like this."

"In the past six months, she has looked so healthy, why can't she be cured when she falls ill?"

As if he finally had someone to confide in, he continued to speak intermittently until the crying completely interrupted his speech.

At around [-] o'clock yesterday morning, the operating room, which had been closed for fifteen hours, was finally opened. The exhausted Director Li walked out with the support of the nurses.

He saw Zhang Yun's Gu Yuan, who had been waiting outside, gently broke away from the nurse who was supporting him, and walked toward them step by step.

Director Li took off his mask, bent down to Zhang Yun, raised himself up and said, "I'm sorry, this time, I couldn't keep the child."

For such a long operation, Zhang Yun and Gu Yuan had prepared for the worst.But when he heard the bad news from the attending doctor with his own ears, the feeling was still like thunder, and Zhang Yun almost fell down.

But Gu Yuan, from that moment on, his soul flew away, like a puppet, he didn't know anything.

Zhang Yun held on with difficulty, there were still a lot of things she needed to deal with in the future, she couldn't fall down, and she couldn't fall down either.

She contacted the leader of the unit and called Lao Niu again.Fortunately, she has a friend in City D, so that she will not be at a loss at this time.And now that Gu Yuan needs someone to take care of her, she also needs someone to help her.

The leaders of the police station arrived first, and Lao Niu came with Dr. Chen.Gu Yuan has the closest relationship with Lao Niu, but now he has no reaction at all.

Zhang Yun asked Lao Niu to help take care of Gu Yuan, and went to deal with Qingqing's funeral all morning, and didn't come back until noon.

In the afternoon, she was busy again, and she left her bag in Dr. Chen's car. It wasn't until the evening when she was about to go home after finishing everything that she found that the battery in her bag was dead.

Xu was too tired and too sad, she didn't care about these things, and spent the whole night staring at the photo of Gu Yuan's father and Qing Qing without taking a single look.

As for Gu Yuan, after the whole day, he still remained the same as he was in the morning.

Gu Yuan's crying was full of venting, he had lost his mind for more than a day, and now that he came back, all his memories came back.

He remembered that Qingqing was happily drawing with him at noon that day, he remembered the sudden sound of falling to the ground not long after, he remembered the scene where he gave first aid medicine in a hurry but didn't get better soon, and even more Qingqing said the last sentence to him.

She said: "Brother, I am very happy. I am destined to be your twin brother and sister in this life; I am also very fortunate that it is me who is sick and not you."

The author has something to say:

Writing this chapter today, I cried several times until I stopped.My tear point is quite low, I didn't expect that I could cry myself when I wrote it.

This setting is the link that has been determined from the beginning, and it is the most important chapter for the subsequent development.Originally, I wanted to try my best to finish writing the funeral, but found that there might be another chapter in the follow-up word count.

See you tomorrow then.