growing up

Chapter 104 The Letter Left by Gu Yuan

This scene seemed familiar, like a plot that would only appear in a certain bloody TV series.

A bad feeling rushed to his heart, Ling Chao sniffed that it was impossible, while his hands began to tremble uncontrollably.

He slowly sat on the edge of the bed, pressing his hands under his legs to cushion them.Taking a deep breath, he reached out and took out his mobile phone to call Gu Yuan.

However, shutdown.

He looked at the phone screen, the signal was normal and the number was correct.

Tried again, same result.

Ling Chao's mind was in turmoil, and his heartbeat began to speed up irregularly. He didn't believe that it was the plot in his imagination, so he grabbed the earring box and opened it.

There is only one earring left.

Fortunately, not give it back to me, just leave mine to me.

And that letter was still on the bedside table, and the white envelope was particularly conspicuous on the reddish-brown cabinet.

It was written in Gu Yuan's handsome handwriting.

——Ling Chao kisses.

Is it because he was embarrassed to go out first last night?

The phone happened to be out of charge, so it turned off?

You left the earrings because you want me to wear them with him!Anyway, it's holiday now.

This letter, this letter must be his love letter to me.He writes so beautifully, hasn't he written a love letter to me?

yeah yeah yeah!

Ling Chao tried hard to convince himself.

But he didn't dare to touch the letter for a long time.

He stood up and began to walk around the room.

On the armrest of the sofa in the corner was the clothes that Ling Chao took off yesterday.On the low table in front, there were several spent cigarette butts in the ashtray.The bathroom still looks like the two of them took a shower last night.It feels like nothing has changed.

All of a sudden, Ling Chao's mind was filled with shock, and his whole head went numb.

Gu Yuan's changed clothes and his bag were all gone.

He didn't go out for a walk because he was shy, or get up to buy food because he was hungry, but he really seemed to leave.

The bloody plot development made Ling Chao a little confused.

Furious again!

The provocative and passionate person last night just slipped away today?

Ling Chao almost stumbled and ran to the head of the bed, kicking his toes on the wrinkled lines of the carpet almost made him fall, and finally knelt directly beside the bed.

He grabbed the envelope and tore open the seal. Because of the shaking of his hand, the thin envelope was only half-opened before it broke.

He didn't have time to think about it, so he tore out the paper inside and spread it out on the bed. A piece of A4 paper was densely filled with words.

super bro:

I am leaving.

Don't look for me, because you can't find it.

This is a decision I made in half a month.

It starts when you and I go back to school and fill out that volunteer form.

If you insist on giving up going abroad and staying in China to go to university, then I will insist on giving up university and never see you again.

Take it as a threat, but I have to.

Similarly, I am also betting that you will never have the chance to meet me again.

I know that you want to stay and accompany me to go to college not for anything else, just to accompany me.To me, this is a sin, and it is also irresponsible to your parents and you.

Before you met me, your life plan had already been decided, and that was the best path for you.I don't want you to overthrow the future just because of me, so what have I become?What face do I have to face you?

I know you will say that even if you stay in China to study, it will not affect your future development.But in my opinion, you obviously deserve and can have a better future.

Brother Chao, do you know?For me, being able to meet you is really a compensation from God.He took Qingqing away, but made me a boyfriend.So that I will not be disheartened and world-weary for the rest of my life.

I cherish these two years of high school and hope to be with you forever in the future.But none of this can be used as a reason for me to pull you and confine you to seek higher achievements.

I still remember the first time I knew you were going to go abroad at Christmas in the second year of high school. I was reluctant at first, but it only took a few years to think about it. What I wanted more was a bright future.

Also forgive me for not being able to go out with you, because I also can't let go of my mother and grandma.After Dad and Qingqing are gone, they need me more than you these few years.

If you want to insist, then I can only be selfish and choose no one.

The phone card was changed by me, and no one knew about it.Social platforms are no longer online, and you don't have to waste your time.If you end up leaving before school starts in September, send me an email with a photo of you at your new school.

If I receive your email, I will go to HKUST to register on time, if I don’t receive it, then I will take it as if you gave up on me.

I took all the presents you gave me.If you remember me and think of me when you come back from school, I will spend the rest of my life with you.

If you meet someone who cares more about you in the next few years, then just treat these objects as you accompanying me.

This time, please allow me to make my own way.

I'll wait for your email, and if it arrives, I'll wait for your triumphant return.

Hope I can never give up.

Gu Yuanliu

The bright lights illuminated every part of the room. The air conditioner, which had been working stably, was turned down too low. Ling Chao only felt chills all over his body.

The strength in his body seemed to slowly disappear along with the words on this piece of paper, and he finally fell down on the carpet.My mind went blank.

Gu Yuan's decision came so suddenly that Ling Chao thought it was a dream.

And all of this is just a scene in a dream that is opposite to reality.

He tried his best to stand up against the edge of the bed, and walked towards the window in a daze.

It's so boring, even if it's a dream, I still want to take a breath.

The three layers of curtains with excellent shading effect looked very heavy, Ling Chao grabbed the edge and pushed it towards the corner of the wall, and the dazzling sunlight shone in.

The weather outside is so nice!

I wanted to open the window, but I didn't have the energy anymore.

He slid down against the wall and slammed the back of his head against the wall.

It turned out that it was not a dream.

The pain swept through the whole body at this moment, and finally all gathered in the heart.

why?

Why did he have to make such a choice?

Was everything last night used to numb yourself?So that I can experience what it's like to go from cloud to hell?

The body curled up slowly, hidden in the piled up curtains.

The pain, which was as gentle as a knife, only tortured Ling Chao's heart over and over again.

The sound insulation effect of this hotel is really good, you can't hear the noise of cars and people outside.The entire space was terribly silent, as if an ice cellar surrounded him.

Ling Chao didn't cry, he couldn't cry.All emotions were sealed off, he could only hide in that corner with the support of the wall.

The letter was spread out on the bed, the white paper mixed with the white sheet.The screen of the mobile phone next to it turned on and then went dark, and the call from someone who didn't know it rang until the end tone.

After a long time, the blank mind gradually began to resume thinking, and the scenes of the past two years of acquaintance with Gu Yuan began to play like a movie.

Ling Chao closed his eyes, greedily wanting to hug and kiss the person in his memory, but imagination is imagination, and he can't grasp it.

How cruel!

In such a decisive way.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, the waiter of the hotel knocked on the door and asked if the room was still booked.

Ling Chao shook his head, packed his things and left the hotel.

When I went back, the house was empty.My parents have gone to work, and my aunt has something to go out too.No one is better, and he doesn't want to see anyone now.

Ling Chao locked himself in the room and threw him on the bed, and slept until dark again.

At this time, it turns out that you can fall asleep.

When my mother came back and saw the shoes by the shoe cabinet, she knew that he had gone home. After knocking on the door for a long time, no one answered, and then opened the door directly.

The person on the bed was awake, but seemed unresponsive.

"Why do you sleep so deeply?" Mom asked.

In fact, Ling Chao woke up when he heard the knock on the door, he just didn't want to move or speak.

He was very dizzy now, lying on the bed half-closed his eyes and looked at Bai Lan, but felt that his mother and the roof were spinning.

Bai Lan also sensed that something was wrong with him, so she walked over and reached out to put a sticker on his forehead.

So hot!

Bai Lan frowned distressedly: "Why do you have a fever?"

She got up and went downstairs to look for medicine, poured another glass of warm water and went upstairs, and Ling Zhifeng followed.

They had never seen Ling Chao like this before.

Like a frost-beaten eggplant, his face was dull, his lips were pale, and his eyes were half-closed.

Ling Zhifeng hugged his son's upper body and leaned against him. Bai Lan fed the medicine into his mouth and some water for him to eat.

"Didn't you say that Xiao Yuan came to play? Why didn't you see him alone at home? You've made it like this." Bai Lan couldn't help asking a series of questions.

Ling Chao didn't have the heart to answer.

They finally felt that Ling Chao was not just sick.

Bai Lan looked at Ling Zhifeng, winked at him, and motioned for him to say something.

Ling Zhifeng shrugged helplessly, not knowing what was going on.

He put Ling Chao who had finished drinking the medicine on the bed, moved a chair and sat in front of the bed.

The family of three were silent, and the atmosphere seemed a little heavy.

In the end, Ling Chao moved. He pulled the backpack that he had thrown beside the pillow when he returned to the house, took out the A4 paper from it, handed it to his mother, and then covered his eyes with his arm.

Bai Lan and Ling Zhifeng read Gu Yuan's letter together, and finally understood why Ling Chao did this.

Bai Lan felt extremely uncomfortable, she really couldn't bear the two children to be like this.

But now that it has happened, the only thing that can be done is to alleviate Ling Chao's pain as much as possible.

She took Ling Zhifeng's hand and was about to go out.

When she came to the door, she stopped and said to Ling Chao: "Son, you should rest well first and take care of your body. After you recover, think slowly. Your father and I still say the same thing, no matter what you do No matter what decision you make, we support you 100%."

There was no expression on Ling Chao's face covering his eyes, he was motionless, if it wasn't for the slight trembling of his clenched fists, he would have thought he had fallen asleep again.

Later, Bai Lan brought him some food and put it on the bedside table. Without saying a word, he quietly retreated out.

That night, Ling Chao never fell asleep again.

The drowsy brain gradually improved after taking the medicine, and the fever subsided.He sat at the desk, and several photo albums were placed on the table.

It was what he brought back from City D, and it was full of memories about the two of them over the past year.

The way Gu Yuan smiled, the way he was in a daze, the way he was doing the questions seriously, the way he was cooking in the kitchen, the way he was eating, the way he was typing codes in front of the computer, the way he was sleeping...

There are many, many, and each one still has a picture.

Ling Chao flipped through the pages and stroked each one, as if the real Gu Yuan was still in front of him.

But no matter how many photos there are, there is no way not to choose them no matter how much you are reluctant to give up.

He knew that Gu Yuan was sure that he would choose to go abroad, and he just used such threats to facilitate this decision.

Then do as he wishes!

Early the next morning, he was waiting for his parents to get up in the living room.

It rained last night, but it didn't affect the clear sky today.

After seven o'clock, Bai Lan came down and was a little surprised to see Ling Chao.The dead boy from last night now looked normal except for the lack of a smile.

"Morning baby, is the fever gone?" Bai Lan asked as she walked towards him.

"Well," Ling Chao looked up at her, "retired."

It's good to be able to speak.Bai Lan thought to herself.

She sat down, took a close look at Ling Chao calmly, and reassured after confirming that he was fine: "Would you like to have breakfast with mom? Aunt Luo cooked lean meat porridge."

"Okay." Ling Chao nodded.

It happened that Ling Zhifeng also came, and the family of three gathered around the dining table, and the delicious breakfast whetted the appetite that had been empty all night.Ling Chao hadn't eaten for a day, and he really felt hungry right now.

He drank half a bowl of porridge, and his stomach became warmer.Ling Zhifeng was about to say something, but was robbed by Ling Chao: "Dad, Mom, I decided to study abroad. I know that my family has prepared everything for me, and there is still some time before I leave school, but I want to go abroad as soon as possible." Walk."

"It's up to you to decide. It's just that you don't need to go out so long in advance, right?" Bai Lan said.

"No, I want to go, to play somewhere else or to get a driver's license." Ling Chao insisted.

"But..." Bai Lan was about to say something, but was interrupted by Ling Zhifeng raising his hand: "Son, let's go ahead if he wants to. He is an adult and has autonomy and the ability to take care of himself."

The couple looked at each other for a while, and Bai Lan finally compromised: "Then I will arrange some things in the past few days and book a ticket for you."

"Thank you mom." Ling Chao said.

"You don't need to be so polite to your mother." Bai Lan felt distressed again, how could she not know why Ling Chao left so quickly.Because only when he left, Gu Yuan would go home.He was worried that it would be dangerous for Gu Yuan to stay alone in a place that no one knew about.

Ling Chao really did not go to him as Gu Yuan said in the letter.He knew that Gu Yuan would do what he said.He only needs to follow Gu Yuan's request after making a decision.

That year, Ling Chao was 19 years old. He refused his mother's request to send him off and boarded the plane to England alone.

At an altitude of [-] feet, Ling Chao took off the rope around his neck, took off the ring that was attached to the jade badge, and put it on the ring finger of his left hand.

On the inside of the ring, there are three letters of "GDL" carved by Gu Yuan himself.

And the ring belonging to Gu Yuan has "LDG" in it.

L stands for Lingchao.

D stands for "of".

G stands for Gu Yuan.

The author has something to say:

I thought I finished writing today, and there are a lot of things to explain at the end.

Tomorrow is the official final chapter.