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Chapter 50

The more I walked inside, the more chilling I felt. It seemed that I had underestimated Mo Ni's position in Anning Yu's heart, and said that I would forget about it when I woke up the next day. Judging from today's situation, it was an exaggeration.

Arriving at the empty main hall, in the center of the hall there are fallen wine jars piled up all around, while An Ningyu is curled up on the cold ground, holding tightly the pear flower handkerchief that Mo Ni left that day, with his eyes closed, the smell of alcohol is all over the room. The smell of wine.I don't know if she was asleep or drunk, if she didn't see the weak ups and downs of her breathing, she might have thought she was dead.

Avoiding the wine jar on the ground, Nalan Meng came to An Ningyu's side. After hesitating for a while, he also sat on the ground. He was surprised that the ground was as piercing as ice and snow. He regretted not wearing more clothes, especially the buttocks. Can't resist the freezing temperature.The slender An Ningyu didn't have much flesh on his body, and the clothes he wore were so thin.I originally planned to come in and yell at him, but I couldn't bear to see An Ningyu in such a miserable state, "They all told me that you have been hiding here without eating or drinking for almost three days. If this continues, do you want to freeze to death or not?" starve?"

Seeing that An Ningyu didn't respond, Nalan Meng was not in a hurry, picked up the flagon next to him, poured the wine into the glass and drank it down, "Wow, it's so cold." Even though he said so, he still drank several glasses in a row. It is very mellow and fragrant and slides into the stomach with a feeling of warmth. "Many people think that drinking in winter can drive away the cold. In fact, it is not the case. When you first drink it, you will feel that your body is warm and give people the illusion. The reason for the heat is the temperature in the body. .In the end, people feel cold instead.”

If human emotions are the same as body temperature, drinking alcohol in the cold winter can evaporate, then maybe this is why An Ningyu drinks so much wine, and she also hopes to take away her troubles.It's a pity that it's just a beautiful fantasy. Alcohol can only numb the pain temporarily, and the pain will still be the same when I wake up.

It seems that An Ningyu didn't intend to pay attention to Nalan Meng, and the room returned to the previous silence. After a while, Nalan Meng said again, "Remember what should be remembered, and forget what should be forgotten. Change, accept what cannot be changed, if your life is not over, then please stand up and keep going, no matter how difficult the road ahead is, at least don’t torture yourself and the people around you like this. Because no matter what you do, it’s good , Mo Ni will not frown, nor will she come back."

Maybe what she just said just hit An Ningyu's pain, she opened her eyes but didn't sit up, and asked softly, "Why?"

"Why?" Nalan Meng was puzzled.

"Why don't I even have the freedom to be sad? Why can't you let me go? Don't I deserve an ordinary life? I have to live in your will and do what you want me to do according to your mood What?" Actually, this remark was not aimed at Nalan Meng.

It's just that since she was sensible, everyone around her has been telling her what to do and what not to do, but she has never had the right to decide.Always living for others, never really living for myself, and have no emotions of my own.Even now, if she just wants to stay in one place quietly, there are so many people interfering with her and telling her not to do so.

"No one wants to interfere with your mood. If you don't stay here and don't eat or drink, I will persuade you if you make them worry. Don't bite Lu Dongbin, who doesn't know good people." Nalan Meng, who has the same birth And don't you know the thorns behind the rich, how many people are lost in fame and power, accustomed to weighing life with wealth and pros and cons, and gradually drifting away in a real emotional life, "Even a moonlit night is full of ups and downs, not to mention people are more There are joys and sorrows, but the moon will not disappear because of the existence of dark clouds, so you cannot let sadness occupy your mood for a long time."

"I don't need your concern. Haven't I lived a good life by myself for so many years? I can't stand those who use the banner to force others." Apparently, An Ningyu wanted to say that many people use the name of caring, but they have evil intentions. fact.

Normally, Nalan Meng would have been angry long ago, but now that the situation is special, An Ningyu's willingness to speak is a good start, and it is better to communicate than being silent.

"An Ningyu, when I first met you, I thought you were superficial and indifferent. In fact, after getting to know you slowly, I realized that you are just not good at expressing. This may have something to do with your growing environment."

"Don't pretend to know me well, you don't understand anything."

"I don't know how tired you are of bearing the ups and downs of a family, and I don't know why you are troubled, but I believe that it is not the family business, let alone your family, but your heart that has always restrained you. " Nalan Meng said while drinking the wine in her hand, maybe she was not used to the coldness after drinking too much, or maybe she didn't realize that her mind was focused on An Ningyu, making her ignore the coldness.

"My heart?" For the first time, she felt shocked, because she had always thought that she lived for this family, but she didn't know it was not the case.

"Well, your heart, it's not that you can't do what you've longed to do but never did, it's that your heart binds you and makes you want to but don't do it. Hidden in your heart If you can’t let go of one thing, you won’t feel happy for a day.” In Nalan Meng’s eyes, it might be her identity that makes An Ningyu unhappy.An identity that so many people dream of is an inescapable burden for An Ningyu.People are always so strange. Some people are constantly pursuing something, but some people regard it as poison and avoid it.

"What could that be?" An Ning asked puzzled.

In many cases, true thinking is far more harmful than lies. If one day An Ningyu really gives up everything desperately, she may have to wait until there is really nothing in this family that she can cherish, so that she can focus on nothing else, otherwise she will You can never be truly free.

Looking back, An Ningyu's father died early, and her brother suffered from dementia. As a member of the family, it is imperative to shoulder the burden of settling down the family. Obviously, she does not seem to be attached to a high position and a life of wealth and wealth.All this did not bring her more happiness, but only added sorrow. She couldn't love the one she loved, couldn't do what she loved to do, and lived the life that others wanted her to live, but she was in pain. Suffering so much every day but no one can understand and tell it, the current peace language has long been born.

Although she couldn't read the Anning language, Nalan Meng saw a sense of responsibility and mission on her shoulders, and gritted her teeth for the sake of her family, which was actually a kind of sadness. Originally, her home was supposed to be a shelter from the wind.

Obviously, in this family, An Ningyu was not happy at all. She never received the same maternal love as other children, and she never got along under the care of her brother. Instead, she acted as a protective umbrella to manage the An family.Even so, An Ningyu couldn't give up, even if his body was bruised, he had no regrets.

She once hated her mother for taking everything from her, forcing her to do things she didn't like, and pretending to be the second young master in vain. She also hated why her brother got that kind of disease and let her bear all this alone.She also loves them, because they are the only relatives in this world, and they are bound by blood.

"Actually, you have always known what is trapping you, but you just don't want to face it. People always let themselves see what they want to see, while avoiding the facts they don't want to know. So if one day you are willing to face it, the problem will It has always existed." Nalan Meng put down the wine glass in his hand, squatted up and faced An Ningyu and pulled him up from the ground forcefully, "Since you haven't thought of a solution for the time being, why don't you live well first, such a negative way of doing things is not only unsolvable Any problem will damage the body. Willing to be at your disposal is not the peace language I know."

An Ningyu who was pulled up sat on the ground, she was not surprised by Nalan Meng's sudden action, "Don't pull me."

"Then don't lie on the ground like a lump of mud, that's disgusting." Nalan Meng's words were not a personal attack, but occasionally An Ningyu needed some stimulation to recover.

Sure enough, An Ningyu rolled her eyes and said, "Go out and let Brown in, and remember to let him in alone." Maybe the current image is really not suitable for outsiders to see, which seriously affects her former majestic image.Although it was cold in winter and I didn't sweat, after all, I still smelled of alcohol after wearing my clothes for three days, and now I can't even stand up, I've never been so useless.Even if you fall down like a dog, you must maintain an elegant posture.

"You just want to save face." Nalan Mengxing hurried out, very excited that he had successfully persuaded An Ningyu to regain his strength.

In fact, these days, apart from feeling sad for Mo Ni's departure, An Ningyu has been thinking about the reasons why she made such a mess.Back in the dungeon, I shouldn't have softened my heart and let people go, maybe today it doesn't have to end in tragedy.Sure enough, what her mother said was not wrong, kindness to the enemy is cruelty to oneself.

Although he was still wearing a cane, as long as it was about An Ningyu, Brown would not frown when he went up the mountain of swords and down the sea of ​​fire.Enduring the pain and working together with Nalan Meng, An Ningyu was helped up and sat down again.Brown admires Nalan Meng and is also jealous that she can persuade An Ningyu, since he was always the only one standing beside An Ningyu before.

"Brown, tell the people below to get rid of all the people in Dong's house." Who would have thought that the first thing An Ningyu would do after regaining his strength would be to kill people, and he was completely different from the half-dead man lying on the ground just now.If he hadn't stayed here all the time, Nalan Meng couldn't believe that the words were spoken by the same person.

"Yes." Although he was dazed, it didn't affect Brown. He never took his eyes off An Ningyu, and found that he lost a lot of weight after not seeing anyone for a few days.

"What do you mean by disposing of everything?" It will be Nalan Meng's turn to be uneasy, "I know Dong Mingsheng hurt you, but the crime is not as good as your children. Their family members are all innocent."

"Do you still remember the arrow you shot in the hunting ground? It was Dong Mingsheng who arranged for someone to kill me and get you implicated. Not only that, he also ordered the people from the Yantie Gang to ambush me in Le Taoju but accidentally injured me The purpose of letting Lei Jian's men besiege my Anfu is to put my family to death. Does my family deserve what they deserve? Even forcing me to kneel almost killed me. All of this, even if he kills his family I can't solve the hatred in my heart."

"What's wrong with the princess?" It's no wonder that I met Ji Wu and moved into Anningyu's other courtyard before. It turned out that there was also an inside story.

"Brown, go." Apparently, An Ningyu didn't want to bring up that unbearable past. For her, Ji Wu was a pain in her heart forever. After all, she was implicated because of her and became an unpayable debt. "I can only blame them for their bad luck, and they just became Dong Mingsheng's family members."

The author has something to say: Everyone must believe in Xiao Ye, and there will be no tragedy.

The stand-in son-in-law abused me so much that the children's shoes even criticized me.

So now this is suppressing first and then rising, first bitter and then sweet, An Ningyu will get better.

Spoiler: Mo Ni will come back again, but in the future, so stay tuned.