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Chapter 77

Ji Wu, who had left the room before, sat by the door and remained silent. The night before yesterday, she witnessed Nalan Meng walk into the room of An Ningyu. At that moment, it was as if the sky fell apart. Then she followed the abbot who appeared suddenly to the back mountain of the temple. Fearless of the cold rain, snow and darkness, she finally overcomes all obstacles and reaches the top of the mountain. The white light drives away the darkness of the night. Ji Wu looks down at the boundless white snow on the ground. Everything seems so small in her eyes, even people. No exception.

The abbot standing beside said to Ji Wu, "There are eight sufferings in life, birth, old age, sickness, death, parting from love, long-lasting resentment, inability to ask, and inability to let go. No matter where your suffering comes from, there is nothing wrong with it. The empty flowers are just an illusion. Compared with the sky and the earth, we are like dust, insignificant, if we take anything too seriously, we will only find troubles, it is better to let go, and only by knowing how to let go can we have no troubles."

"The master knows that the Taoist monk can see through the world of mortals, but I am an ordinary person, so it is easy to get lost." In this emotional entanglement, Ji Wu could not find any way out. She tried her best to dedicate everything to An Ningyu, but found that she was unable to do what she wanted.

"Then make yourself stand taller. Only at a high place can you find the right path." Abbot Huairen stroked his silver-white beard lightly, and continued in a calm and old voice, "The greatest fear of man is not It lies in how terrible the enemy is, but how fragile you are. Don't be afraid, learn to be strong, and make yourself stronger, so as to drive away the darkness and fear in front of you."

"How can disciples make themselves stronger?" Ji Wu wanted to find a way to overcome her demons once and for all.

"Face the fear in your heart, face it without being afraid, and it will disappear. Others are afraid of being hurt again and are unwilling to face it. In fact, it is not the case. On the contrary, you ignore it. Even if it exists, it will not pose any threat to you. You learn It is powerful to control it, not to be controlled by it. Remember, hope is stronger than fear."

Compared with Huairen's words at this moment, Ji Wu was overwhelmed by the magnificent scenery in front of her eyes, and she deeply felt the satisfaction of climbing from the foot of the mountain to the top of the mountain.In the past, the road to the future was vague and unclear, and the feelings for Anningyu were even more love and pain. Knowing that there is no absolute end, learning to turn the corner will surely reach the destination.

Thinking of all this, Ji Wu summoned up her courage, stood up from the cold ground, pushed the door straight and walked in.Seeing Nalan Meng sitting beside An Ningyu's bed with mixed feelings and whispering silently, with tears in his eyes.She was even more convinced of the idea that had just flashed through her mind.

Ji Wu went to the bed and sat down, the hand holding An Ningyu was much cooler than before, and her anxious heart also calmed down, and she said to Nalan Meng, "Miss Nalan, it's lucky to have you here. Let Ning Yu get through this difficult time."

"Princess, it's too serious." Since knowing An Ningyu's identity as a woman, all the things that were originally stalemate have become more complicated.Nalan Meng who was standing by the bed didn't know how to face Ji Wu, nor how to face An Ningyu who woke up.

"As her unmarried wife, I should have done this myself. Letting you wipe Ning Yu's body and change her clothes is really wronging you, Miss Nalan." Ji Wu's tone was very flat, not at all like It's jealousy, but sincere gratitude.

Thinking of Nalan Meng's naked body in An Ningyu just now, she couldn't help but blush, and even her words became awkward, "Uh... this matter..." She couldn't help but look at Brown for help, she couldn't hear it. The meaning behind Ji Wu's words, after all, she didn't know the truth that An Ningyu was a woman, obviously now she is taking advantage of the future county horse, it is not clear why.

"Miss Nalan, don't be nervous. I don't mean to blame you. On the contrary, I am very grateful for everything you have done for Ning Yu." Ji Wu took a deep breath and said coldly, "Perhaps you will find it strange that Ning Yuwei Passing wife, why did you behave so rudely just now? To tell you the truth, I was raped/ravaged by bad guys before, so I can't look directly at the man's body, so I can't face Ning Yu either."

This is definitely the second breaking news after knowing that An Ningyu is a woman. It is definitely a big deal for the princess to be raped/violated, not only because she is the princess, and women regard chastity as life, but some people Steal her precious first time.

Perhaps Nalan Meng was too shocked to stay where she was. Brown also turned around and left when he heard this, and knocked on the door to let the two of them talk secretly, and stood outside the door to promise not to be disturbed by anyone.

"I never thought I would be able to say it. Just thinking about it before made me feel that life would be worse than death." Ji Wu didn't expect to really say it. She was finally willing to face up to this problem, because she knew that if she couldn't get over this hurdle, she might Tranquility will be lost forever.

"So the reason why the princess brought it up again today?" Nalan Meng couldn't imagine what would happen if this happened to her, "Does she know about Ning Yu?"

"Hmm. It's because of her tolerance and support that I'm able to get to where I am today. Without her, I'm afraid I would have died long ago." Ji Wu couldn't help but choke when she mentioned the generosity of An Ningyu.

"Oh." Nalan Meng thought that An Ningyu was playing with Ji Wu before, so he deliberately wanted to marry her. He never thought that Ji Wu would have such a tragic experience. Wu is so brave.

Ji Wu wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and continued, "Until I saw you walk into her room last night, I realized that I can no longer pretend that nothing happened and continue to stay by her side like before. This is better than letting me die." Even more uncomfortable."

"Actually, last night was not what you thought. I went to her room because..." Nalan Meng never thought of being misunderstood by Ji Wu.

Before she could finish explaining, Ji Wu interrupted her, "I know you are here to save a woman named Chuntao, if I tell you, I would rather you really had sex last night, it would make my heart feel better Do you think I'm crazy?"

Nalan Meng nodded in surprise, eager to know the reason behind her words.When I got here, I realized that not everything is black and white, and there are still many unpredictable things happening, which are beyond human control.

"I used to be unable to accept that Ning Yu was intimate with other women, only to realize that doing so was so selfish, because I made her have to suffer loneliness. For so long, I felt guilty for her, and I couldn't make any promises, and I knew I couldn't. I am married to her, and I owe her so much that I am almost suffocating." Ji Wu remembered that in Yangzhou she leaked the secret to Ji Yu in order to get Anning Yu to marry her, and in order to make Bu Yudie disappear, she agreed to persuade Anning Yu to let her go. Ye Fei, everything she did was undoubtedly hurting An Ning Yu, just to bind Ning Yu forever, but she didn't know that she was not happy at all.

"You are not wrong in the whole thing, nor is it not what you think, so don't blame yourself blindly, and you shouldn't be so humble in love." Ever since Nalan Meng learned about An Ningyu, he has been hiding his identity, and it doesn't matter if he deceived Ji Wu. Forgivable, seeing Ji Wu blame herself for An Ningyu was even more furious, and almost told the truth.

"It's my problem that prevents her from living a normal life. Do you know that the reason why Ning Yu agreed to marry me was not out of sincerity, but a deal I brokered, and I forced her to make such a choice , the ridiculous thing is that she has been kept in the dark so far."

It is not only An Ningyu who is kept in the dark, but An Ningyu is also cheating. For more than ten years, no one has seen the truth about her disguise as a man.

Nalan Meng gasped, wondering if she could digest so many truths, and how bloody An Ningyu's life was to be so twists and turns.In order to marry the person she loves, the princess will not hesitate to do anything wrong, and the most dramatic thing is that the people the princess lied to are also lying to her.In the end, who is right here, who is wrong, or no one is wrong, but the timing is not right.

"Shouldn't these words be said to her? Why did you tell me?" If all this is true, Ji Wu is not the only poor person, and An Ningyu is also a victim of this deception.Nalan Meng felt that she was stuck in a quagmire. Originally, her relationship with An Ningyu was complicated enough, but she didn't expect to take Ji Wu into account.

"I also thought that when I faced her, I couldn't say it because I was afraid that the truth would make me lose her forever. The abbot told me a lot last night, and it also made me understand that sometimes I am hurt. The wound rots, and finally spreads all over the body and devours your soul. Only by acknowledging its existence and applying medicine in time can the wound heal and scar. And I am trying hard, the process is painful, but I will still work hard, I hope there will be Face Ning Yu sincerely one day, and get her forgiveness and love."

"Is there anything I can do to help you?" In this conversation, Nalan Meng was passive. If it was a battlefield, she would have already suffered a crushing defeat.

Although it was very difficult, Ji Wu still mustered up the courage to say, "I hope you can consider marrying Ning Yu."

"What?" Nalan Meng heard it clearly, but he just didn't believe it.

"Although you often quarrel and fall out, this is a unique way of getting along with you. Only when you are with her can she open her heart. She also looks at you in a special way. I don't know if it is love, but at least you Her existence is very important to her. So I hope you can stay by Ning Yu's side, and I will accept anything that makes her happy." Even if it is a humble love, Ji Wu is unwilling to give up staying by Ning Yu's side Opportunity.

"There must be some misunderstanding here." Nalan Meng hurriedly denied it, never thought that it would be so obvious that even Ji Wu could see through her mind.

"Don't get me wrong, I don't want to blame you, but I want to give her the best."

"Princess, I'm not your thing, aren't you a little wishful thinking?" Perhaps seeing through made Nalan Meng aggressive.

"The reason why you're so ranked now is because these words came out of my mouth, but they won't change your mind. I can see that you like Ning Yu. This is the perception of a woman."

"nonsense."