memory hole

Chapter 79

Taste it. "

"Now I only know what it's like to persecute others. It seems that I have to learn from your parents."

"Come on. Eat. I have something to do later. I don't have time to chat with you here."

"How can I force you to commit a crime?"

"impossible."

"One minute can be given."

"1 minute is an abstract concept."

"I didn't think of it just now, but now I think of it. Uh... just give it a hug."

"Hold me?...don't bother me later?"

"Ah."

"make a deal."

"I have a request, be careful..."

"No problem. Let's start." Deng Yi put down his chopsticks, picked up the wet towel in the gift tray, wiped his hands, and turned to face Zhong Xian.The two looked at each other for a few seconds, and Zhong Xian remained motionless.

"come."

"Just said, you pay attention."

"You mean I want to take the initiative?...No one is more rascal than you."

Deng Yi moved the chair towards Zhong Xian, their knees touched each other, then he pulled Zhong Xian over with a cold expression, and hugged him.

Time passed by second by second.Zhong Xian smelled the sweet and crisp scent mixed with faint perfume and body temperature.He felt that his body shrunk even further, to the point where a baby was greedy for a cradle.

"I...you must." Zhong Xian said softly and clearly.I hope that this meticulous sensationalism can open the heart of the other party.

"En." Deng Yi responded after a while.

"I only want you alone."

"Uh-huh."

"Can you be a little human..."

"Shut up. One minute is up."

After Zhong Xian was pushed away by Deng Yi, he felt a failure, he was very angry, and the circles of his eyes gradually turned red.

Deng Yi looked at his expression, "Why are you wronged, you have said so much, it must have been a minute."

"What evidence do you have? You have to produce evidence in court, right?" He argued irrationally.

Deng Yi looked at him in annoyance, took out his mobile phone and stood it on the table, and turned on the stopwatch, "Okay. It's okay to let you be a rascal again. Let's switch the watch this time. I'll give you 2 minutes."

A 2-minute countdown starts to display on the phone.Deng Yi pulled Zhong Xian over and hugged him again.

Zhong Xian silently shed a tear. "...I don't understand...why you have to do this. I feel like you too..."

"Uh, for this minute, am I going to pretend to be affectionate, or to tell the truth?"

"truth."

"Your feeling is wrong."

"Damn it."

"I'll say it again, I don't...don't like you. Don't cry...I hate it when you cry. Is it a man? I'm leaving!"

Zhong Xian pushed Deng Yi away, took a tissue from the table and covered his eyes.

Deng Yi was silent for a while and said, "I'm not playing a chase game with you. We really can't."

"...If you don't tell the truth, what can I do? Who said that we should be absolutely sincere."

"People's thinking is complicated, not to mention... this is a mistake."

"I don't think it's right either. It doesn't matter what's wrong. I'd rather be wrong...I'd rather go to hell. At least I'll know what it's like to be alive."

"You are always so capricious."

"I thought of you—I can sneak around and no one will know. Your future and reputation will not be affected—I said I thought of you from the beginning."

"It's not that simple. Don't you understand? The problem doesn't come from the outside world, it comes from ourselves. If I let you mess around, this time we'll just have to fuck up together."

"It's over... who are you scaring? Will you die?"

"Yes! Definitely."

Zhong Xian began to believe that Deng Yi was resolute in his refusal. "It can't be helped, right?"

"Correct."

Bell nodded.Laughing and laughing, "I really don't deserve it. Not even once."

"I didn't give you 2 minutes."

"Play as stupid as you want. What I want is a real taste."

"no way."

"Don't rush away. There is one thing I didn't tell the truth. I don't really hate Kiss. ​​But... When I give up on myself, I want to keep something. I don't want to wait until I find out that person really exists. Not even a precious gift can be given away..."

"Uh...there will be another one."

"There's no next one. Only you. I can take it to the grave, or I can throw it around the world. You figure it out."

"Your mind can change. Sometimes faster than we think."

"I pass by as many people as a cow's hair, I understand better than you, do you want it?"

Deng Yi looked at Zhong Xian with almost painful eyes, "Don't be like this. Don't press so hard."

"Okay. Just wait and see, don't regret it."

Deng Yi suddenly pulled Zhong Xian into his arms, and pressed his lips together, but he didn't kiss, but hesitantly paused.

After a while, Zhong Xian opened his eyes and said softly, "It's easy to lie if you think I'm a novice in this field. I haven't eaten pork or seen pigs running. This is not a kiss."

Deng Yi's face was flushed, and he put his lips on Zhong Xian's mouth again, gradually, jerky encroaching in an extremely slow way.

Zhong Xian didn't have such experience, after feeling this fresh wet and cool stimulation, he felt like he had been punched in the head.They kissed and stopped, and gradually became proficient.

Deng Yi's cell phone on the table rang, and Zhong Xian grabbed the cell phone to turn off the sound while continuing.Deng Yi didn't seem to even hear that sound, his neck was flushed red.

Zhong Xian's brain became flexible for a moment.He put his hand into Deng Yi's shirt and fumbled for the series of buttons, but Deng Yi didn't stop him, probably didn't notice, his fingers could feel the violent breathing and heartbeat.He originally wanted to look for the diamond collar button on the inside of Deng Yi's shirt, but when he touched Deng Yi's skin, he felt that the blood vessels under the skin were trembling at his fingertips.

Deng Yi hugged Zhong Xian tightly, as if to strangle him to death, paused for a few seconds, then pushed Zhong Xian away fiercely.When Zhong Xian fell heavily on the carpet, seeing the other party, he ran out of the private room as if fleeing for his life.

How it ended, Zhong Xian couldn't think of it afterwards, only remembering that he was rolling on the carpet in the private room laughing, shaking his right hand, he touched the incomparably hard evidence of the other party.Sooner or later, this strong instinct will overcome the will of any human being.He didn't believe that Deng Yi would be able to resist forever.Unless he never sees him again from now on.

One day sooner or later.

After Zhong Xian laughed enough, he got up and continued to eat.Eat up all the routines that Deng Yi ordered for him.

Sooner or later...you will kneel down and beg me to entertain you, don't think I'm so easy to dismiss.

Don't scare me with death.

Commit suicide

119

"What's the rush, why don't you ask me to come?"

Zhong Xian's speech was slow and his eyes were dim.Because he didn't sleep all night, his mouth was tight.

There are not many people in Zhao Qi's bar.She always spends some time in the bar after finishing her work in the design institute, meeting with friends, or having a beauty treatment.

"I called you last night, why didn't you answer?" Zhao Qi held a slender cup in her hand.

"Last night?" Zhong Xian rubbed his forehead, he leaned like mud on the soft seat in the bar that almost became his exclusive compartment. "I'm waiting……"

"What are you waiting for? Can't even hear the phone call? Still can't answer it." Zhao Qi stirred the cocktail in the glass.

Wait……

Zhong Xian didn't say anything - he was waiting for Deng Yi's reply.

A kiss at lunch yesterday boosted his confidence and made him feel uneasy.He then left a message on Deng Yi’s WeChat—[I will wait for you to figure it out. ]

Deng Yi didn't reply for a long time.In the evening, I replied a word. [Um. ]

Zhong Xian was so happy that he lost his mind: [If you plan to think about it for a long time, why not come to 419 for a trial first.hey-hey. ]

Chung Hyun has plans of his own.What he thinks is gradual.But I was so anxious that I wanted to see him that night.

In the middle of the night, Deng Yi finally sent him a message back.

[You should understand that I am not being hypocritical—we are all men, why should I be hypocritical.I really have no idea about you.I admit you are attractive.Also admit that I like you.But, isn't it just friendship that's bad? I thought I'd be in control and be intimate without harm.Your willfulness is pervasive.

Which relationship is better, the long flow of water or the destruction after the explosion.

I will not defeat myself.I should tell you clearly - I have no idea about you.

If you still don't believe me.That's because you're a contagious person, you put your feelings on me.If I say this you still don't understand.Let me give you an example—you can make most people follow your feelings. For example, when you feel that you are friends with someone, that person will also think that you are friends. You have this ability to make the other person also Produce the same feeling, you feel that your liking for me is extraordinary, I will be infected by you and will follow your heartbeat.But, that's not me.I want to say thank you for liking it.But, again - I don't really think so.Finally, I will give you a piece of advice from my heart: you haven't even figured out your true desire.You're just used to being willful. ]

Zhong Xian read this lengthy reply many times.Although he was confused, he finally understood that he couldn't do anything anymore, and Deng Yi had already started to tire of him.

He couldn't sleep all night.

Thinking about why he felt that life was boring and lonely.

He wanted to light candles around the bed, with which he hoped to burn off the oxygen and let him die peacefully.If there is no such person, life should continue numbly, just like an ant must live its whole life, meaningless.But if that person showed up, it would be hard to bear the years without him.

It seems that they would rather fly moths to the flame and die in his eyes in the end.

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