Beginning without end

Chapter 124

From the moment Song Bai knelt on the tile, Ren Hantao has been crying.Her weak and broken crying sound hit her heart, like a hammer swung by a poor craftsman. It was very heavy, but it couldn't make a cohesive effect on Song Bai's heart.

"Why are you doing this? Ah? What's wrong with you? Since when have you been like this?" Ren Hantao asked questions sentence by sentence, Song Baiquan couldn't answer, he just lowered his head and looked at the tile in front of him. The circles of patterns, in his eyes, the patterns become bigger and smaller, they seem to be dancing, and they seem to be very happy.

His absent-minded appearance made Song Huafeng furious, he stood up and kicked Song Bai's shoulder fiercely, Song Bai couldn't help but leaned back.

"Look at you! Smoking! Being gay! What else do you want?! Why don't you just piss me and your mother off!"

After all, it is a woman who is soft-hearted, and the mother is always partial to her own child. Ren Hantao dragged Song Huafeng back and sat down, and said to Song Bai with tears in his eyes: "Ah Bai, tell mom, is it because Lu Fucheng has spoiled you, coaxing, coaxing?" You do this with him. He is six years older than you, so naturally he understands everything. When you went out to live with him when you were 15, did you just..."

Song Bai walked away in a daze for a while, and suddenly remembered Ji Suiyun's insulting words in his mind. Ji Suiyun scolded him as a guy who rented a house outside the school and lived with wild men when he was fifteen or sixteen years old.Now Ren Hantao is also saying that she didn't say any more ugly words, but it caused Song Bai an indescribable nausea in addition to the dull pain.

Song Bai raised his head and looked at Ren Hantao in a daze. He opened his mouth, but the retching feeling under the tension and fear that he hadn't felt in the face of his parents for a long time appeared again. Song Bai put his hands on the ground, arched his back uncontrollably Retching, the pantothenic acid pain and nausea in his stomach reached his throat, and Song Bai spat out acidic water and bile mouthful after mouthful.

When Song Bai stood up straight and fell down on his back, he seemed to hear a knock on the door in a trance.

When Song Bai woke up, he was still a little dazed, and someone was wiping his face with a warm wet towel.He opened his eyes and looked up, as if in a dream, the person in front of him turned out to be Lu Fucheng.

Song Bai's tears filled his eyes in an instant, and large streams flowed into his forehead.

Lu Fucheng gently wiped away Song Bai's tears with his left hand, his words seemed to be sighed, but also regretted: "Look at my Abai, how much he has suffered, why is he so silent."

Yes, Song Bai knew when he was a child that in front of Lu Fucheng, a child who would really cry would have sweets to eat. He didn't care if he looked like a girl or not, but whenever he was wronged, he would throw himself into Lu Fucheng's arms and wail. There is also a lot of rain.The louder he cried, the more distressed Lu Fucheng was, no matter how difficult it was, he would give Song Bai what he wanted.

Now Song Bai is also crying, but there is no sound at all, but everyone knows that the child has been really wronged.

Song Bai felt that he should still be dreaming, and he forgot how long it had been since Lu Fucheng had spoken to him so tenderly and patiently.

Song Bai tried to sit up, leaned out and embedded himself in Lu Fucheng's arms. He put his arms around Lu Fucheng's waist, put his chin on Lu Fucheng's neck like before, and acted obediently: "Chengcheng, I haven't seen you for a long time. I dreamed about you, kiss me in the dream, okay?"

Lu Fucheng thought that he would no longer cry to Song Bai after shedding tears all night, but at this moment he couldn't help but wet his eyes: "Ah Bai, this is not a dream, I am here, I have always been here .I'm sorry, Abai..."

Xu Fei told Lu Fucheng what he heard from the mouth of the man and woman. It was very strange. He thought he would not say it, but he did. He thought he would hide part of the truth, but he still told Lu Fucheng everything he knew. .

No matter how stupid Lu Fucheng knew those things, he would be able to find many clues from Song Bai's perception after meeting Ji Suiyun.Ji Suiyun took advantage of Song Bai’s incomprehension and deliberately asked Bai Qinan to take him home. During that time, Lu Fucheng’s work was not going well, and he was framed and taken away for investigation. On his birthday, Song Bai didn’t come home overnight. Where did he go? ?What did Song Bai experience during his two-month business trip?

He shouldn't, shouldn't have wished to escape the facts, while hypnotizing himself and pushing Song Bai into the hands of animals.Lu Fucheng hated, hated Ji Suiyun, hated himself, hated everyone who hurt Song Bai.

Lu Fucheng's little friend is obviously timid, afraid of pain, and sensitive. He understands whoever treats him coldly and who treats him badly. If he understands, he will hide and run away, afraid of conflict or being hurt.Lu Fucheng didn't even dare to think about how desperate this child was when he was being pointed and teased by a group of beasts like playthings, and when he was slapped so hard.

"Baby, I was wrong. I shouldn't have done anything to you last night. You are already so sensible. Be good. It's only past four o'clock in the morning. You need to sleep again..."

After learning the truth about the video from Xu Fei last night, Lu Fucheng couldn't sit still. He wanted to knock on Song Bai's door and take Song Bai away without hesitation.Xu Fei stopped him and went to help him.

As a guest, no matter how impolite it is to knock on the door in the middle of the night, the host has no reason not to open the door.After Xu Fei went in, before he could say any excuses, he saw a mess of soldiers and horses.

After Xu Fei brought Song Bai out, Lu Fucheng was so anxious that he was about to go to the hospital. Xu Fei said that Song Bai was probably too emotional and tired, so he found a chain hotel to open a room for them.

Song Bai only slept for less than three hours. Lu Fucheng watched him while scrubbing him. The more he looked at him, the more painful he felt. Song Bai really lost weight, the baby fat was gone, he couldn't sleep well, his long eyelashes were trembling all the time, the dream There seems to be a terrible and inescapable disaster everywhere.

"Why are you so nice to me all of a sudden?"

Song Bai's soft and careful question dragged Lu Fucheng's complicated thoughts into a dark and sad abyss.

"I should always be nice to you, Ah Bai, don't ask me that."

"...do you know something?"

Lu Fucheng kissed Song Bai's eyelashes, nodding his head with difficulty.

Song Bai let him hug him without moving, his voice was so low that he almost murmured: "Why is Xu Fei like this..."

Song Bai knew that after Lu Fucheng knew the truth, he would never be willing to neglect him again. Those guilt and pain would even make Lu Fucheng's love for him even stronger.In the past, Song Bai wanted Lu Fucheng to know the truth countless times, but when this day came, Song Bai found that he was actually unwilling. He even angered the talkative Xu Fei and resented everyone who let Lu Fucheng find out the truth.

Song Bai thought, he would rather not have Lu Fucheng talk to him, not have Lu Fucheng apologize, he also wants to be clean in Lu Fucheng's heart, Lu Fucheng is such a clean person, no matter how late or tired he has to clean up the house and put his things in order, but How could someone who was loved by him be dirty?Song Bai also didn't want to care, but he was raped like a plaything, fucked by Lunv, and the video of him being shot was watched by countless people, how could he not care?Any pimple in Lu Fucheng's heart can become a thorn in the way for the two of them to fall into the abyss.

Song Bai began to reject Lu Fucheng's comfort and hug. His movements changed from mechanical numbness at the beginning to hysteria. He waved his weak minions like a wounded animal, trying to hide in his dark cave.

Lu Fucheng shackles Song Bai firmly, not letting go of half of his strength.He has easily given up on Song Bai once, and he will never give up a second time.Even if Lu Fucheng's face was bloodstained by Song Bai's flustered scratching, no matter how pitifully Song Bai whimpered and growled, Lu Fucheng would not let him go, because he knew better than everyone else that Song Bai was so and so from the beginning to the end. need him.

Song Bai was finally tired, and lay motionless in Lu Fucheng's arms as if dying.

Lu Fucheng caressed his face soaked in cold sweat and tears, and said softly, "Ah Bai, you are not wrong."

"But it's dirty, there's nothing I can do about it." Song Bai's voice was hoarse: "I thought it was just a nightmare. In fact, I didn't accompany you to see Ji Suiyun's house from the beginning. I got up very late that day. You came back It's early, you brought me my favorite custard bun when you came home... But brother, there's no other way, I can't go back."

"Abai, please don't say that. It's all my fault. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't be bullied at all." Lu Fucheng said in a painful tone, "You can just scold me, I'm too cowardly."

"But if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't be framed and suffer so much."

It turned out that this was what Song Bai had always thought.Lu Fucheng thought.So Song Bai endured everything and didn't think he was sacrificing.

"Can you sleep for a while? Let's talk about it after waking up. I'll look at you." Lu Fucheng felt powerless, and he was really sad. He couldn't think of a solution for the time being, he couldn't comfort Song Bai, and he couldn't take revenge on Ji Suiyun.He smoothed Song Bai's hair, and Song Bai's undetected eyes gradually showed a cruelty that had never appeared in his eyes before.

Song Bai lay down, and he took the initiative to hold Lu Fucheng's hand: "Why do you still wear gloves in the room?"

Lu Fucheng said softly: "Because I suffered a little injury where I couldn't see the wind."

Song Bai nodded, closed his eyes, and held Lu Fucheng's hand but did not let go.

"When you wake up, it's a new day, baby, and you're new too."

Song Bai smiled sarcastically: "No, every day is the same. I want to hold your hand for a while longer, because I know Ji Suiyun won't just leave like this, and he will come to bring you soon I'm back..."

Lu Fucheng's eyes were red: "Ah Bai..."

Song Bai didn't want to look at him: "You don't have to do this, at most you will make me feel embarrassed. You don't have to sympathize with me, don't talk about how it was at the beginning, he treats me very well now."

Song Bai didn't know when he opened his eyes, his eyes looked very far away: "He has done a lot of bad things to me, but he has also changed, he is very good to me, so good that for a few moments I think it is not It's up to you."

Song Bai finally looked at Lu Fucheng and smiled: "I didn't lie to you, he was willing to take my knife and help me repair the broken doll you gave me, and he would also feed me candy. When he is in a bad mood, he will smoke with me."

Song Bai seemed to be satisfied with a smile: "Chengcheng, look, I actually have everything now. I don't need to save money with others to pay for a mortgage to live in a flat in Lujiazui. Everyone sees it in Ji Sui Yun gave me a respectful face. I am not as miserable as you imagined and urgently need to be rescued, yet he even said that he would give me an honorable name."

"Brother Fucheng, let's forget it, thoroughly, forget it."

Lu Fucheng gritted his teeth and said with a miserable smile, "Forget it? No, Ah Bai, what you said this time doesn't count."

Lu Fucheng's eyes were red, and the expression on his face was even slightly distorted: "You have endured everything you have encountered, and now it is finally exposed in front of my eyes. This is not fair to you. And I suddenly want fairness."

Lu Fucheng ripped off the glove of his right hand with a bit of relief, and put his hand close to Song Bai, who had already petrified when he saw his ugly right hand: "You still want it now, follow you My glory and wealth go away, abandon me?"