Jiaotong Yanxi

Chapter 107 I'm More Afraid of Losing You

I thought at the time, was it God's punishment or favor for me to die right after I escaped?

But the moment I opened my eyes and saw you smiling at me, I knew it was definitely favored.

Your body is warm, and I feel my face is a little hot, but I see you are still shivering under a quilt, and your lips are purple from the cold.

You asked me what my name was and where I lived, but I couldn't answer.Or, I don't want to answer that my name is Ke Xiangyang, and I have no home since I was born.

I kept silent and you weren't angry, you just touched my forehead and looked at me with a hint of pity in your eyes?Or sympathy?

You told me afterwards that you didn't continue to ask because I had a fever for three days, and you were worried that I would turn into a fool.

In fact, I didn’t feel so uncomfortable these three days. It’s much better than being hungry in the orphanage. At least you will feed me on time and by order, and it’s all warm. I also ate the oranges I’ve always wanted to eat. , a whole orange, so sweet!

If I knew that you would have such a choice when I was discharged from the hospital in three days, I might as well live in the hospital for the rest of my life, and then let you serve me for the rest of my life.

Ke Xiangyang smiled: "Dai Wei, you are really good, now you lie on the bed and don't care about anything, let me serve you all day long, this is what I wanted and wished at the time! Why is it all the other way now? ?”

Also, I was so pitiful at the time that you could abandon me, isn't it too much.

He said that only four days of family leave ended up being wasted on me for three-quarters of the time, and he also said that there are regulations in the army, and if you violate the regulations, you will be punished.Although the military uniform on your body doesn't look like a bluff, I don't quite understand what you said. I only know that I will repay you for saving you, but how will I repay you if you leave.

So when the uncle at the police station asked me, I said categorically that you are my brother, and you will leave me alone.

You stomped your feet and scratched your head helplessly, and your hair was so short that you couldn't catch it. It's so funny to think about it now.

Although you left me again a day later, you told me before you left: Help me take care of grandma, I will come back to see you.

I have only seen you for three days, but relying on this sentence, I have been waiting for you for a whole year.

During this year, I learned how to cook, how to wash clothes, how to grow vegetables and how to mend clothes with my grandma. My daily life is much happier than being locked in the cold door of the orphanage.

I go to the market with my grandma every day to sell vegetables. After the vegetables are sold, my grandma will use the money from selling vegetables to buy me a lot of snacks, as well as various comic books and comic books.

In fact, there is one thing I didn't tell you. Grandma fell ill three times that year, and it took more than half a month to recover each time, but grandma didn't ask me to tell you.The little money I saved from selling vegetables and the money you sent home every month were not enough for my grandma’s medical expenses during her illness, so I went out to pick up garbage with my grandma on my back.

You don't even know how much money I can earn by picking up garbage during the day, and my grandma's medical expenses are enough. I can also buy some more fruit for my grandma, and of course, I will also buy some meat for my grandma to stew for me.

Every time my grandma is sick, I always think, if grandma really leaves suddenly one day, how will I live alone, and how will I explain to you when you come back.

Fortunately, you didn't lie to me. You really came back a year later, and you were carrying big and small bags, including the sea shells you brought me.

What's even more fortunate is that grandma didn't leave until three months after you came back, and her old man also enjoyed three months of family happiness before leaving with peace of mind.

But watching you sad for so long, my heart is both sad and worried.

The sad thing is that you have been depressed, and the worry is that you will abandon me again.

I hugged you tightly and called out "Brother" mouthful, I hope you can get out of this sadness as soon as possible, I hope you can find that there is a "brother" like me by your side.

"Dai Wei, the doctors have come all the way here, you have to work harder, and don't let the doctors work so hard for a full 6 hours to fail in the end."

"I'll be with you until the day you wake up."

My sentence at that time: Brother Dai Wei, I will always be with you, and then your eyes filled with tears, and you didn't drive me away, why doesn't it work now?

"I know you are still very tired because you just finished the operation, so I will wait for you to rest well, and when you open your eyes, tell me: Xiaoyang, read me a book, I want to listen to English."

You said why you insisted on forcing me to go to school at that time, I watched you leave early and return late to work hard to earn money, and then put it all into my tuition.And the saddest thing is that I have been living on campus since high school, and I have to go home to see you every other month.

Don't you know my wish is to be with you all day long?

Don't you know how excited I am to see you every time I go home?

Don't you know that every time I go back to school, I hug you and secretly wipe away tears?

But compared to thinking about your pain, I am more afraid of losing you.

So I have been obediently listening to you, I have listened carefully to every course, especially English class, because every time I go home you will ask me to read you a short story, and you have to translate it into English.You said that this looks very awesome.

At that time, I felt that you were my only family member, my all, and I was your only, your all.

Until one day, when I went home, I took a female classmate from the same class and from the same town home. I really just wanted to briefly introduce the friend I just made to you, but you yelled at me with a dark face and scolded me If you don't study hard, you know you've fallen in love early.Then the little girl who was killed ran away.

Since then, I have not been in contact with any girls, because I will stay away from all the people or things that make you angry.

But can you be like me too?Do you know how much it hurts when I see the neighbor lady come to you, you chatted with her so much that you didn't even notice that I came back?

I somehow kicked a pot of flowers by the door to pieces, which made you turn your attention to me.

Since then, I have felt that I have a special emotion for you, and this emotion makes me panic.

I tried my best to hide this feeling, and forced myself not to get so close to you when I saw you sleeping soundly, and not to put my mouth towards you shamelessly.

And one day when you suddenly turned around and pressed me under you, and then kissed my lips, I realized that you are the same as me.