Anecdotes of Tianyuan: The Long Night is Young

Chapter 106

This night, the moon is full outside the window, and the air is filled with the sweetness of sweet-scented osmanthus.Zhao Xiyan hugged Xia Shuning tightly from behind, resting his chin on her shoulder.This moment is really gentle, if there is no competition for reserves, no wars, no intrigues, no love that you can't get, it will be fine.

"Ning'er, I'm so sorry."

"What do you regret, Xianggong?"

"It would be fine if I knew it was you from the beginning, you are the only one, and you are all I have in this life."

"It's also very good now. My husband treats me very well, very well, and I am very satisfied."

"You are always so sensible that I feel sorry for you. How can you be better now?"

Xia Shuning knew that the concubine's sister often looked at her husband with that fiery and guilty look.She knew that now was the key point, Su Xiangzheng was giving his life for his husband, gambling with the fate of the whole family.Even if Xianggong hates the concubine's sister, he will treat Su Xiangli better in the future because of Su Xiangli's hard work.Xianggong was worried that he would be jealous and uneasy, so he gave her a reassurance now.She knew that Xianggong had a lot of involuntary things, he couldn't help being the prince of Daqi, he couldn't help marrying a wife, and he couldn't help fighting for the heir.Now facing the princess who once hurt him, he doesn't know how to treat him.After all, it was the woman he loved so much that he couldn't bear it, and he didn't want to wrong her.So I am willing to be caught in the middle and suffer a lot.

Things like feelings are really too delicate. If one person really lets go, no matter how the other party tries to get it back, it's okay if you don't want it, you don't want it.Then she finally got out of being abandoned, hated, and abandoned, but she turned around and said she was wrong, what do you want him to do?He once endured so much suffering alone in the dark night in order to get out of the darkness she gave him.Finally walked out, finally no longer bear the word monster.On the night when he lost his child, he sat down in the room and blamed himself for being a monster over and over again.She hugged him tightly and explained to him over and over again that he was not a monster, he was a living person.Whether it is true or false, it has already hurt people.

Xia Shuning felt sorry for Zhao Xiyan too much. She really didn't have a good life since she was a child.When I was young, I had to learn to be a man with both civil and military skills. I was forced to stand shoulder to shoulder with men in everything, and my words and deeds should not have a trace of femininity.It's not any better when I grow up, poisoned, assassinated, fled, always on the hospital bed, and suffered all kinds of torture.It's hard to grow into the appearance my mother hoped for, but I'm stuck in love and struggling.

"Will my husband have any regrets?"

"What are you sorry about?"

"I haven't worn women's clothes, and I haven't been a real daughter's family. Ning'er is fortunate to be by your side, to have children for you, to be a husband and to teach children. You are also a daughter's family, but you don't have any of these, Do you feel sorry?"

"Are you the first person to ask me that? To be honest, I haven't thought about it at all."

"Why? But Xianggong was born as a daughter."

"I was born as the prince of Daqi. The mother and concubine only dressed me in men's clothes, and only taught me how to be a man, and did not teach me to be a woman. I also asked the mother and concubine why she dressed me as a man. Let me be a princess. The concubine mother said, everyone has their own destiny, and my destiny is to be a man, it is impossible to be a princess. Since I was born, I have never been a woman for a moment. These things I never thought about it, so naturally I have no regrets."

"That's right. My aunt raised you as a man since I was a child. I'm afraid you don't understand these things at all."

"But I do have regrets."

"What are you sorry about?"

"It's a pity that I didn't love you earlier, it's a pity that I didn't respond to you earlier, it's a pity that I wasted so much time, it's a pity that I didn't treat you better."

"Then, how about we spend our whole life filling up these regrets?"

"My pleasure."

The two looked at each other and smiled, Xia Shuning lay on Zhao Xiyan's shoulder, savoring and chewing all the sweetness.The childhood sweethearts have cultivated a real fruit, and they have become a couple of gods and gods.Everyone only loves each other, only envy mandarin ducks and not immortals.Who would have known that it was also bitter, experienced hardships, and almost missed it.Fortunately, it's you, it doesn't matter if there are some twists and turns, all the suffering is the price of walking by your side.

Burst of the first recap, fold flower front drama.

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Fifteen start to raise eyebrows, willing to dust and ash.

Ever hold a pillar of faith, why not go to Wangfutai.

The moon is the same round, and the house is a house, and each person has his own heart.After Su Qingshu woke up, he often looked at such a bright moon in front of the window.The moonlight was very desolate, softly shining silver light all over the place.It was that night many years ago, and the moonlight was as beautiful as it is today.She was wearing a white shirt, without even thinking about adding a cloak, and went to look for him.Under the moon, he held a pot of tea, sat on the ground freely, and drank against the moon.He is so free and easy, so informal, the moonlight shines on him, he is really a young man.At that time, he didn't pretend to be anyone in his heart.She only wanted to live in his heart, and it took so much courage to make such a bold confession.She is really an awkward person, how could she not love him because he is a daughter?He is still him, he hasn't changed, he still loves himself, why did he change?How did she become like this?Why is she so vicious?Why is she so cruel?Why is she so pedantic?Why did she push him into someone else's arms with her own hands?Why?No one could answer her.

She was the one who liked him first, she was the one who confessed first, she was the one who let go first, and she was the one who regretted it first.He did nothing wrong, but he gave him all his hatred.Dressing up as a man wasn't his choice, it was made for him when he was a baby.How could I blame him for lying to me, she was the one who wanted to marry him.It's all wrong, whose fault is it?How to get to the bottom of it?Everyone thought that a sentence like "Ask what love is in the world, and teach life and death to agree with each other" is just a sour sentence.But just when there is true love, this sentence has a deep understanding.Tonight is the world's unknown number of full nights, tonight is the world's unknown number of sleepless nights.

The next day, Qin Huai'an came to find Zhao Xiyan to play chess in his room, and while they were playing, the two had a chat and drank wine.When we were at the border, because of the cold weather, we often drank together to keep warm.Zhao Xiyan's nerves had been tense for too long, and it was rare for him to drink. The two of them talked and drank a lot.Zhao Xiyan didn't drink as well as Qin Huaian, and had already become dizzy from drinking, but Qin Huaian was only three points drunk.Only then did Shen Jiyue come out, Shen Jiyue glared at Qin Huaian, and he quickly got up and took the flagon from Zhao Xiyan's hand.Shen Jiyue and Qin Huaian worked together to send the drunk and unsuspecting Zhao Xiyan to Su Qing's study.Neither Shen Jiyue nor Qin Huai'an knew what happened between Duan Wang and Wang Fei, and why they became so indifferent.Seeing that the princess was pitiful, they decided to get Zhao Xiyan drunk and help them reconcile.It is said that husband and wife quarrel, quarrel at the head of the bed and at the end of the bed. Both Qin Huaian and Shen Jiyue feel that they just don't communicate, and it's good to resolve the misunderstanding.Su Qingshu was embroidering green bamboo in the room, and wanted to make a new sachet for the prince, but two suddenly brought it to her with a drunken Zhao Xiyan, she couldn't help but be surprised.Qin Huaian and Shen Jiyue put Zhao Xiyan on Su Qingshu's bed, and only told Su Qingshu.

"Take good care of it, we can only help you here."

Qin Huaian and Shen Jiyue left after talking, leaving behind Zhao Xiyan lying unconscious on Su Qingshu's bed.Su Qingshu doesn't know why they want to do this, but the prince is in her room now, she should accept such kindness.Su Qingshu sent away all the servants, only Yinger was left, and asked Yinger to bring a bowl of hangover soup, some hot water and a hot towel.Ying'er had quick hands and feet, and Su Qingshu wiped Zhao Xiyan's face with a hot towel.Zhao Xiyan tasted very good wine, and he didn't cry or make noise when he was drunk, but fell into a drowsy sleep.Su Qingshu stretched out her hand to touch the face that she thought about day and night, her hand was trembling, she hadn't touched him like this for a long, long time.His eyebrows and eyes are as good-looking as before, but darker, with the vicissitudes of time.From the night when he revealed his identity, she never saw him like this again.Su Qingshu caressed every part of Zhao Xiyan's face carefully. In the past, he had only himself in his eyes and in his heart, but now he belonged to another person.Her heart really hurts, why doesn't her boy wait for her anymore, she will wake up, she still loves him.Su Qingshu stuffed himself into his arms just like before.His heartbeat was steady and powerful, but his heart wouldn't beat for her anymore.

Su Qingshu remembered that he had suffered so many injuries because of himself, so he threw Yinger out, and untied Zhao Xiyan's clothes by himself.When the last layer of white jacket was removed, the blackened arrow hole on the chest, long or short, deep or short scars, were densely packed.The wound on the left waist near the stomach was not an incision, but a big scar.Su Qingshu counted the scars on his body in detail, weeping uncontrollably, tears fell drop by drop on his chest.She remembered the last look in his eyes before jumping off the cliff, full of sadness, even more sadness came from it.

"My lord, can you give me another chance?"

"My lord, can you love Qingshu again?"

"Qing Shu will cherish it."

It's a pity that Zhao Xiyan couldn't even hear her, it wasn't her in his drunken dream.Su Qingshu lay on Zhao Xiyan's body and fell asleep with him until Zhao Xiyan woke up in the afternoon.Zhao Xiyan woke up groggy, with a terrible headache, and called for a drink of water before he opened his eyes.Su Qingshu didn't sleep deeply at first, when he heard Zhao Xiyan's voice, he quickly got up and poured a glass of water for him.Feed it until Zhao Xiyan's mouth, Zhao Xiyan got a headache after drinking and didn't identify who it was, so Su Qingshu let Su Qingshu feed him water.Zhao Xiyan half leaned on the bed, rubbing his temples.Su Qingshu stood up and gently rubbed his temples.But Zhao Xiyan regained some sobriety, smelled a familiar yet unfamiliar fragrance, and turned his head to look in surprise.Zhao Xiyan found out that he was actually in the princess's room, and bounced like a conditioned reflex.Su Qingshu felt even more bitter when he saw Zhao Xiyan reacted so strongly.

"Why is this king here? Where is Huai'an?"

"My lord is drunk, Mr. Qin and Ms. Shen sent you to me."

"Thank you, Princess, for taking care of me. I still have something to do, so I won't bother you."

Zhao Xiyan wanted to escape here as if fleeing.Xia Shuning didn't want him to leave like this, she had to seize the opportunity, she couldn't ask the prince to keep her cold like this.

"My lord!"

"What else is the princess?"

"Don't be so polite with me, okay? I'm your wife, and I'm the wife you are marrying!"

Zhao Xiyan turned his back to Su Qingshu, speechless.

"Are you going to keep me cold for the rest of your life?"

Still facing away, still speechless.

"My lord, Qingshu knew that he was wrong. No one is a sage without fault. Can you give me another chance?"

"We will definitely be able to go back to the beginning!"

Zhao Xiyan suddenly laughed, such a smile was full of desolation.

"The princess is not wrong, it is the king who is wrong."

"My lord!"

Su Qingshu rushed forward and hugged Zhao Xiyan, Zhao Xiyan took a deep breath and did not move.

"I know I shouldn't break your heart, but those words are not from my heart. I just, I just, I just can't accept it for the time being..."

"It was Wu Qingyao who changed my medicine. If not, our child can keep it!"

"I really didn't know it was insect poison. I thought it was sweat medicine. At that time, I really wanted to make a clean break with Chu Hengyuan. He said that if he couldn't see me, he would come to me openly. I'm afraid you know..."

"They pushed me that day, I didn't intend to kill you."

"Do you hurt?"

"I didn't mean it, I really didn't mean it."

"My king knows it all, there is no misunderstanding, my princess, please rest assured. This king really has something to do, my princess, please let me go."

"No! I let you go, you won't come here again in the future."

"My lord, do you really miss our relationship as husband and wife at all?"

Not only did Su Qingshu not let go of Zhao Xiyan, but he hugged him even tighter.Zhao Xiyan couldn't cry anymore, but felt desolate and angry, Su Qingshu hugged Zhao Xiyan and cried even louder.

"The king asked you, when you decided to have an abortion, the king knelt at your feet and begged you, but you were indifferent. Have you ever thought about our relationship as husband and wife?"

"When you cursed me as a monster, when you mocked me with titles like Your Royal Highness, did you ever think about our bond as husband and wife?"

"You and Chu Hengyuan have been exchanging letters for three years, and my king escaped death at the border. Have you ever thought about our relationship as a husband and wife?"

"For three whole years, my king wrote 110 seven letters, but you didn't reply a single word. Have you ever thought about our bond as husband and wife?"

"When I came back from the border and you refused to see me. I begged to see me for the sake of a safe day. I knelt in the Taiji Hall for a day and a night. When you were still inseparable from Chu Hengyuan, did you ever think about our relationship as husband and wife? point?"

"When you suspected that the king tied up your family to vent his anger, did you ever think about our relationship as husband and wife?"

"Do you know that the border has been closed for more than three years, and this king is suffering day and night, full of guilt and concern, and can't wait for a word of loss?"

"Do you know that this king cried all night when he lost his child?"

"Do you know that when this king saw the letter between you and Chu Hengyuan, he said Chu Lang, this king suffered the pain of cutting out his heart?"

"You don't know, you don't ask, you don't care, you don't want to get married, yet you actually ask me, why don't you want to get married?" Zhao Xiyan smiled sadly, his eyes dimmed.

"My lord! I was wrong, I really know I was wrong! I won't do it anymore!"

"This king is already riddled with wounds, and I can't do it again for the princess. The princess should know it hurts!"

Su Qingshu hurriedly walked up to Zhao Xiyan, hugging him tightly, unwilling to let go no matter what.

"The letter of divorce has already been given to the princess. The princess of this palace can stay or leave. It's up to you. This king is willing to let you go free. This king is not worthy of you."

"I will not go! I will never go again!"

Zhao Xiyan took her hand off, turned and left.Su Qingshu felt the warmth in his arms rushing into the cold wind, and wanted to hold on to it tightly, but he couldn't hold on to anything.

The author has something to say:

hurt is hurt

not because of carelessness

and can be easily forgiven

Can't solve the misunderstanding

not indifference itself

everything has a price

There is a price to be forgiven