[Hebrew Mythology] Fallen to Heaven

Chapter 34

"Is Your Highness unhappy?"

Lucifer raised his head, smiled helplessly, and stroked Sariel's hair, "Why do you say that?"

"Because His Highness has been very happy these days, but today His Highness seems to be in a daze. Are you in conflict with God?"

"I won't quarrel with him. He is a god." Lucifer looked away, he was indeed in a daze, even now he has not completely left his world, Sariel knew he was very relaxed , "But His Highness is also an angel standing beside God."

"...what are you joking about?"

He is a god.

It is the existence that whispers in my ear with the soul in the seemingly endless black waters, the existence that creates unprecedented things at will, and the existence that all living beings in the three worlds worship.

And "Lucifer" is one of his creations.

"How can this be described as a joke?" Yanar took up the conversation and asked with a smile, "Does your Highness think that you are not? Or is it that what His Highness wants to say is 'God's superior'?"

"Yanar, I haven't planned to send the commander-in-chief of the Angel Army to prison."

"Ahhh, Your Highness—I thought you were confident in everything. You seem to be proficient in everything I can think of, including getting along with God."

"It's not that I'm proficient in it. When I get along with God, in fact, many times it is He who takes care of my emotions. I can't find His bottom line-it seems that no matter what happens, I will be forgiven. It is very unreal."

"Ah? Isn't it because His Highness is very serious about things, but in God's heart they are worth nothing?" Yanar stood up, staring at Lucifer who suddenly raised his head, "Your Highness is always like this. I still remember the previous battle with the devil. You killed a demon of the first level, and all the angels bowed to you, and you didn’t react at all. When God praised you for this, you were disturbed. The difference is really so big Is it?"

"Because there is no other chance. Yanar, God's bottom line, if you step on it once, you will die. It cannot be verified in any way, even if it is a joke."

"...You are so tired of living. Protecting heaven, commanding heaven, shouldering the trust and worship of many angels, you can't make mistakes in every step-you are like this in front of us, I understand; in front of God, you don't want to be true Relax? I thought the relationship between you—was already 'family'?"

"Yanar," Lucifer replied extremely calmly, "it's because of facing the 'family' that you have to keep your spirits up. The best side should be reserved for the most important existence."

So can't rest.

So won't stay.

So I looked up at the thousands of galaxies created by that god, and then tried my best to make myself more dazzling than the real galaxies.

Only in this way can he be worthy of his gaze, only in this way can he find a sense of security, and only in this way can he convince himself that he will not create anything casually to replace him.

Even if that god casually created the entire Three Realms.

Lucifer wants to become the only one in the Three Realms.

"The biggest problem with Lucifer in my memory is that he has seen God create the world. He knows how powerful God is. He never thought of disobeying God. Even in bed, he would tell himself that he was pleasing God. He wanted God to be happy."

"He suppressed himself for too long in order to win God's attention—he just couldn't believe it. He didn't have to do anything, and God would still only look at him."

"...Do you mean that you even have the memory of their work?!"

"There is no such thing!" Haniya blushed, "I just can understand his emotions!"

"Then why don't you understand? God created the whole world, and each of them has characteristics similar to Lucifer! Who knows what God likes? If there is something that surpasses him in a certain way, God happens to like it. , that would be miserable! That is a god, and if he says a word casually, even a maggot can be worshiped by thousands of people! So Lucifer wants to become the number one in the Three Realms in all aspects, don’t you understand that!”

"But God doesn't like certain characteristics, God likes Lucifer."

God loves Lucifer.

But like this thing, who can tell.

"...'I don't like this world, I only like you'? Don't be ridiculous. This world is too big and too complicated. Lucifer does not allow himself to be submerged in the sea of ​​people. He hopes that God owns this world, owns People who admire him and subordinates who can make him happy; but he will also care about these. His emotions are divided into two halves, one half wants to push Jehovah to more people, and the other half wants to lock Jehovah by himself; His rationality is convincing him to dedicate himself to God, and it is entirely up to God to make decisions, so he cannot be emotionally satisfied with whatever God makes decisions. He cannot control such a self, as you said, he suppresses It's been too long. He can command the entire heaven, but he can't place his heart like a certain building. The existence of 'Lucifer' is too perfect, too surreal, and all people are suppressed in order to maintain tolerance and reason. His emotions were forcing him."

"Then wouldn't he hate God?"

"How could that be. He couldn't possibly hate God - so he had to hate himself. When he explained everything as his own inadequacy, it was 'over'. Because it was an extreme vicious circle, he would lose his sense of justice. His own trust, but he has to maintain it crazily in front of others. Jehovah’s love gives him an unmatched oppression, and it will lead him into the abyss.”

Having said that, I hesitated.

Will the reason why Jehovah sent Lucifer to hell is to let him release his true self and really find the confidence to stand beside God?

not like.If Jehovah wanted this, he could learn to give Lucifer enough sense of security.People at the top will not easily rely on a certain person for an important matter, especially their emotions—but if the other person is a god, Jehovah may be able to hide Lucifer’s heart a little bit through the long years Hold in hand.

But the Lord made him fall to heaven, this kind of behavior full of "I'm tired of you"... Anyway, I still want to light the wax for Jehovah. Lucifer's fall from heaven has completely awakened various dark attributes , I don’t care if you are a god or not, I will sit on an equal footing with you—it was also at this time that Lucifer truly possessed the glory of being compared to God.

Glory.

The one who is truly honored is not Lucifer, but Lucifer.

He chose himself, not God Lucifer.

Lucifer's perfect illusion turned into a demon king who unscrupulously showed his desire|desire and ambition, and the latter made people even more crazy to kneel down, and even more people wanted to follow and accompany——wanted to see the world he wanted to see , I want to go with him to a place I never dreamed of.

The bustling capital city in the dark, the flying black wings, and the throne at the bottom of hell, and the belief in the entire hell under the throne.

He just sits there, as eternal as God.

There, the godless creatures rejoiced for his name.

He is the king of hell.

He is the god of hell.

His name is Lucifer.

"I'll keep your existence a secret. It's just that I can't take the initiative to contact God—I'm really sorry."

"It's all right. Be careful in hell—or I'll go? I'm the one after all—"

"That's what I was created for. When you're sure you're ready, go to hell." Haniya smiled. "After all, you can't make the mistakes you've already noticed, can you?"

"Yes, I won't. I only believe in Jehovah, but I also believe that I am special. I have searched all over the three worlds and I can't find anyone who is equal to me—in any case, at least I bear this name."

Don't even believe in yourself.

Believe in the LORD - don't believe in some analysis and other people's nonsense, don't go into a dead end, don't get caught up in your own thoughts.

Because nothing is certain, because I believe he will not harm me.

In this big gamble, I put all my chips on the Lord's side.

"Why do you...why trust God like this? I mean, after all, he was—"

"You're mistaken. He didn't hurt me. I can totally accept what he did. After all, I've gained a lot in any way."

Haniya suddenly took a short breath and closed her mouth again.He frowned at me with a look that could only be described as pain. "That's not the case, you—no, it's nothing." After all, God...will not harm you, after all, there is no motive.

"...Is there anything you can't say directly? Do you know that people like you will die in the next shot, preventing others (the protagonist) from getting information through you forever?"

Haniya froze for a moment, "I just—well, why do you insist on separating the people in my memory from you?"

"Because this is not a person." I replied sincerely.

"Why do you think that? Aren't those choices you would make?"

I know what it means to be speechless.How to explain to him that I shouldn't be your mother, your mother is the one in your memory, and I'm a fake?

"...Because you haven't experienced that, so you don't think I remember you?"

"That's pretty much what it means."

"So you think that the one I admire is not you?"

I stared at him for a while.

"You don't understand me. No, it's not your fault. The only one who understands me is Jehovah, and even he doesn't understand many things about me. I trust Jehovah because I have no other person to trust. The angel— Everything, no matter whether it is corrupted or not - I don't believe it. I believe they will not deliberately harm me, but they can't see everything - now my mental state is not good, which I am more than anyone Clearly, I can't just take any negative insinuations, you know what I mean? In order not to accept their insinuations, whether they are inadvertent or not, I choose not to believe everything about them."

He stared at me, then lowered his head slightly, "I understand."

After that Haniya went to hell.So soon the news of "Lucifer" spread to heaven, and the heaven exploded in an instant. The little angels were crying in the Angel Academy. For the first time, I knew that I had so many little fans. They asked everyone they could come across. Angel, "Is Your Highness really not wanting us?"

Yanar asked me calmly in the principal's office: "You don't want them anymore?"

"Please don't make fun of an innocent mother who just sent her own son to hell."

Yanar's hands trembled infrequently, "...What? I mean, isn't that in hell played by a demon?"

"Would you believe me when I said it was played by an angel? It's not the one that fell into heaven."

He blinked, and made an exaggerated movement of putting his chin back with his hand, "Since you said so...then I will believe it." The pair of strange-colored eyes reflected a bright light, "This is the same as Do you have anything to do with what Mephisto said?"

"No."

"I overstepped." He lowered his head docilely, and lay down beside my bed, like a big dog begging for his master's attention.The silver hair curled around my fingers, and I couldn't help rubbing his head, "It's really not. Don't think too much, I'm keeping that from you—just because if I tell you, you won't be able to bear it." Stop and push again. That would be too much."

"Hmm." He rubbed my palm, "Where's Alu?"

"Probably in a very high place. Like the temple—I'm joking. Not everyone can enter the temple."

Yalu.

Haven't seen him since coming back from Hania.But this is not a very important matter. What I want to know more is what he will look like next time he appears in front of me.

"Your true face is actually light, right?"

"No, Lucifer. It's too much to say that. You have seen my true face, which is the soul itself. I don't have to have a body. The reason for this is just for you to look at it with a sense of reality. .”

"But in this case, I can't help but imagine how many faces you have—"

"Countless. Endless, as many as the limit of imagination. But no matter what I look like, Lucifer, will you not recognize me?"

"How could it be? You have a thousand faces, and the feelings of your soul will not change. And, will you cover up your tracks from me?"

"This kind of thing is not certain. But I believe in Lucifer, even if I deliberately hide it, you will see me, find me, and watch me—my Lucifer."

From the moment you open your eyes, everything you see and touch is me.My creation, my vision, the whole world I created for you.

In return, I know that you will never leave me.

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What should I do? It seems like another chapter _(:з」∠)_I saw everyone’s landmines. I’m so happy—it’s a holiday and I can transform into a typewriter!Hold on to your emptied archives and start struggling x