The last time to say I love you

Chapter 32 So Sugar Is This Taste

Afraid that Ms. Yang would think of something bad, Xu Zhisheng sniffed and added:

"I miss your chicken drumsticks..."

Ms. Yang on the other end of the phone seemed to be amused by Xu Zhisheng and let out a chuckle:

"Are we going to act like a baby to our mother in a low voice?"

Ms. Yang's sweet voice disturbed Xu Zhisheng's heartstrings, making Xu Zhisheng feel more guilty.

Dou Da's tears dripped onto the screen of the phone. Xu Zhisheng's hand holding the phone was trembling.

He doesn't want to lie to Ms. Yang anymore...he's really tired...this kind of life...

But when he lied to Ms. Yang for the first time, he seemed unable to turn back.

In order to complete the lie, he made up one excuse after another to deceive Ms. Yang.

And he couldn't help but lie.

It doesn't matter if you say he's cowardly or evasive, he's just so useless and can't stand other people's gossip.

Thinking that one day what happened to him in Yangcheng would be spread in Lichuan High School, Xu Zhisheng already thought of those people's harsh words one after another.

Thinking of the way Li Su loathed him after knowing his terrible past, Xu Zhisheng could even imagine the way Li Su treated him.

Surely he would spit at him, call him a dog in disgust, and kick him away?Most definitely……

"Mom...we..."

Let's leave Chuanjiang, go to a place farther away from Yangcheng and Chuanjiang, far away from here, and never come back again.

The look in that person's eyes always made him feel uncomfortable.

It always made him unable to forget the words that were sharper than knives and more likely to hurt people.

Halfway through the talk, Xu Zhisheng's rationality defeated the selfish self who wanted to shrink back.

He can't be so selfish, it's Ms Yang's burden, and now he wants to make Ms Yang worry, Xu Zhisheng, what's the use of your life...

What else do you do but cry?

The tears in Xu Zhisheng's eyes slid down his palms from his cheeks again, and he finally gave up struggling. The warm tears wet his palms little by little, as if he had been working hard for so long and everything was in vain.

"When shall we go to the sea? Let's go to the sea when I recover from the cold."

Xu Zhisheng hates places with many people, and he hates communicating with people, because communicating with people is always the most tiring.

Ms. Yang once said that she wanted to take him to see the sea, but he refused on the grounds of studying.

Because, he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to blend in with them, and seeing other people's laughter would make him feel more and more alien.

He was also afraid that Ms. Yang would find out the loneliness in his eyes and the desire to be loved.

But in his eyes, the meaning of the sea is different now.

How good the sea is, even if there are so many dirty things in the sea, they can always hide all the festering with their appearance. If it can't hold on, someone will guard it with a knife, and clean up all the unclean things in the sea for him to keep it gentle.

Those who throw rubbish into the sea will be blamed by those so-called good people and the whole world, but if someone dies in the sea, it will be the person who died, never the sea.

Why?Because the sea is beautiful, because it can cover the other side of itself, because it has the ability to be protected by others and the world.

So sometimes the sea also symbolizes freedom.

Sleeping in the deep sea will no longer have troubles, it can isolate those rumors from the outside world, and the ears are full of the silent sound of the deep sea.

Very quiet, very quiet, there will be no more noise, how happy it is.

"Want to see the sea in a low voice? Then when you come back, mom will take you to see it, okay?"

Ms. Yang was surprised when she heard Xu Zhisheng's request. She was afraid that her son would be locked in the room as soon as he returned, so she wanted to take him for a longer walk. Unexpectedly, Xu Zhisheng refused on the grounds of studying.

Although Xu Zhisheng's various behaviors in front of her were normal, she was afraid that Xu Zhisheng would not come out of the shadows at all.

She felt that she had really failed as a mother. She didn't protect Xu Zhisheng well and made him experience so many things that he shouldn't have experienced.

Her little voice didn't feel sorry for the world, so her little voice didn't deserve to end up like this.

May this world treat her softly, and in her next life she is willing to go to hell to atone for her sins and repay God.

Redemption for what?The redemption is that she didn't let Xu Zhisheng live the life he should have lived like an ordinary child.

So Ms. Yang was very happy to hear Xu Zhisheng's request. She felt that God heard her prayer, so her voice changed little by little.

If Ms. Yang knew what Xu Zhisheng was really thinking, her heart would be hurt to death.

"it is good……"

"Whisper, you must take care of yourself when your mother is not around, okay? Because my mother will also feel distressed."

Xu Zhisheng's heart suddenly ached, and his facial features were distorted. He was afraid that he would cry aloud. Xu Zhisheng immediately perfunctory Ms. Yang:

"Okay, mom... I'll... hang up after class..."

Ms. Yang was a little bit reluctant and finally had to compromise: "Okay."

After Xu Zhisheng hung up the phone, she could still hear Yang Nu say, whisper, Mom loves you.

Xu Zhisheng fumbled for his trouser pockets with tears-soaked hands, and felt a little impatient when he couldn't find the medicine in the usual small bottle. He took out the almond candy Gao Lu gave him, peeled off the candy wrapper, and stuffed it into his mouth.

The milky aroma of almond sugar melts in the mouth, very sweet and sweet.

It turns out that sugar tastes like this, it's not tasty, and sure enough, he still doesn't like sugar.

The sugar is obviously very sweet, but why does he feel bitter in his heart.

Why can't it be sweet to his heart.