mousepad-d2 Chapter 39 I Like You Very Much
Chapter 39 I Like You Very Much
Xu Zhisheng's scorching tears dripped down on Gao Lu's shoulder, and the skin that the tears touched felt as hot as burning and hurt his heart.
Those past events that Xu Zhisheng didn't want to think about were lingering in his mind again and again. Those things tortured him again and again until he wanted to go crazy, but the only reason left in his heart made him want to go crazy even if he wanted to go crazy. If you want to die, you can't die.
During countless sleepless nights, he kept suppressing his crying to brainwash himself, telling himself that he still has a mother who loves him, so the world must be worth it.
But thinking about these nonsense now makes him want to cry, he has lied to himself time and time again that the world is worth it, but he can't find what is worth it at all.
He finally gave himself a chance to let him go, but why didn't these people let him go?
He was even thinking about why Li Su appeared in the first place, why he had to save him, why he had to meet someone he didn't want to meet, and remember the past he didn't want to remember.
He deserved it, he couldn't see everything clearly, he was greedy and thought he could really start a new life.
He shouldn't regard Li Su as a life-saving straw, shouldn't contact Li Su who is not in the same world as him, shouldn't hope that Li Su who lives in the sun can bring him out of the darkness, and shouldn't dream about all the things that shouldn't be dreamed about.
He thought again when he was in junior high school, he saw He Qi who fell on the ground, he handed him a tissue to pull him up, and did everything he should do, but why did that boy bully him so badly afterwards.
He regretted handing him a tissue, but if he could do it all over again, he would still hand it to He Qi.
He couldn't act as if he didn't see what he saw, nor could he forget his father's teachings.
He's not a bitch, he's not a virgin, he's not full of sympathy, my father said that helping others is a virtue.
My father also said that no matter how others are, you must first be yourself.
No matter how bad the bad guy is, the doctor can't let the bad guy die, because saving people is the meaning of the doctor's existence.
He didn't know which step went wrong, but instead of being himself, he became a person that everyone hated.
"Don't hate me, Li Su...I really can't stand it anymore..."
Li Su, so I beg you, don't ignore me, don't hate me, don't ruin my last bit of motivation to live...
Ms. Yang is still waiting for me...waiting for her favorite whisper.
Gao Lv was stunned when he heard Xu Zhisheng's words. He had heard Xu Zhisheng say these frustrating words more than once. Last time in the hospital, Xu Zhisheng also recognized him as Li Su and cried and begged him not to give up on him. He was so tired. if.
depression...
Xu Zhisheng must have suffered from depression. He was forced to suffer from depression by everyone. He must have thought of suicide...
He remembered that Xu Zhisheng loved her mother very much, Xu Zhisheng would always call out Li Su's name every time something happened, and it was his mother and Li Su who supported him to live...
How could Li Su become Xu Zhisheng's support?If Li Su is so important to Xu Zhisheng, then they should know each other, right?But how did they become what they are now?
How could Li Su bear to watch Xu Zhisheng being bullied?
Xu Zhisheng was still crying, the sobbing sound was very hoarse, his hands hugged his neck tightly, crying until he couldn't breathe, when the hand holding his neck kept shaking, Gao Lu's eyelashes shook and tears fell without warning down.
What to do... what is he going to do now... ah?What is he going to do... Xu Zhisheng is crying... crying...
Gao Lu hugged Xu Zhisheng in his arms, obviously wanting to hug Xu Zhisheng with all his strength to let Xu Zhisheng know that he still has him, but he was afraid of hurting Xu Zhisheng so he didn't dare to use all his strength.
"Xu Zhisheng, I beg you...don't do this." I feel sorry for you.
Gao Lu patted Xu Zhisheng's back lightly, tears kept falling, he felt that he was really going crazy.
He couldn't find a way to make Xu Zhisheng stop crying...
If it was someone else, Gao Li would have sneered at that person with a look of disgust and humiliated him, but the boy who was crying was not someone else but Xu Zhisheng, so he couldn't do that.
He didn't want to hear Xu Zhisheng cry, he didn't want to see Xu Zhisheng cry, he wanted to see that Xu Zhisheng who was smiling, that Xu Zhisheng who was quietly reading a book.
If he could, he would like to bear the pain for Xu Zhisheng. Anyway, he is not bad for being strong. Whoever dares to talk nonsense and measure him with a stick will not dare to say it next time.
The voice of Xu is different, he shouldn't have to bear this.
Because Xu Zhisheng is the person in his heart that is unmatched in the whole world.
Now he wished to send all the good things to Xu Zhisheng to coax him well and never let him cry again.
It didn't take long for Xu Zhisheng to cough violently. Gao Lu patted him on the back helplessly to help him breathe. After his cough improved a bit, he started crying again. Gao Lu had nothing to do with Xu Zhisheng.
"Li Su... Please don't hate me..."
When Xu Zhisheng finally said these words, his voice became quieter, his head rested on his shoulder and he passed out.
"I don't hate you...Xu Zhisheng...Everyone likes you, and I like you very much, too."