mousepad-d2 Chapter 54 Is This Reason Enough To Like You?
Chapter 54 Is This Reason Enough To Like You?
Xu Zhisheng's hoarse roar scared not only the group of girls but also someone who was called to the office by the class teacher and passed by this way.
"Kick me? You /mother! Bitch!"
The girl who was kicked by Xu Zhisheng reacted and slapped Xu Zhisheng fiercely and kicked several times. The loud kicking sound echoed in this quiet alley, and it hurt just to hear the sound.
The blushing face was even redder by these slaps, and the slap marks were obvious on Xu Zhisheng's fair and delicate face. Xu Zhisheng bit his lip, but blood still overflowed from the corner of his mouth.
"I don't believe that you, Xu Zhisheng, can't be cured!"
As he said that, he was about to pounce on Xu Zhisheng's clothes, with a look on his face that he wanted to tear Xu Zhisheng to shreds. How could Xu Zhisheng be willing to lie obediently on the cutting board like a fish waiting to be slaughtered and let others humiliate him, his eyes were red as he struggled and shouted:
"If you dare to touch me! I will never let you go if I am a ghost!!!"
Why does it always happen to him like this?Why don't you make him feel better?
"What are you doing!"
A scolding sound interrupted the actions of all of them present, and what shocked Xu Zhisheng even more was the familiar voice.
Why did he let him meet Li Su when he was in such a mess?
Why is it always like this...
The tears in Xu Zhisheng's eyes almost fell when he heard that person's voice.
When the girls saw Li Su coming, they let go of Xu Zhisheng, and they got into a fight with Li Su. Xu Zhisheng's feet were limp on the ground, his body reacted faster than his heart, Xu Zhisheng picked up his clothes, his clothes were disheveled, and his hair was messy. As if fleeing for his life, he ran away without even daring to look at Li Su.
He was afraid that he would not be able to control the tears in front of that person in the next second.
He was afraid that the attachment he had finally extinguished would come back again.
Li Su looked at Xu Zhisheng's fleeing back, his heart stabbed sharply, his dark eyes were deep, without a hint of a smile, and his clenched fists never loosened.
Xu Zhisheng didn't even look at him from the beginning to the end.
Why don't you look at him?Xu Zhisheng, why do you always let me fall into your abyss, and leave without looking back?
Can't you just look back?Can't you explain more to me! ! !
You don't roll when you're disgusted!Now I'm crazy and start to miss you, you don't even look at me...
Li Su pushed the shoulder of the girl in front of him and said coldly:
"What are you doing? What did you just want to do?"
Before the girl could speak, Yu Weiwei shielded the girl behind her.
"What can we do? Isn't it just doing what you think?"
Yu Weiwei can see what Li Su is thinking more clearly than Li Su himself. She is not mentally retarded and knows that Li Su actually has feelings for Xu Zhisheng in his heart, but Li Su himself cannot see through his own feelings for Xu Zhisheng.
Then she won't let Li Su see clearly!
Take her as a substitute for the voice of Xu?Then I will make you, Li Su, never see your own heart clearly!
Li Su, we are not finished!Don't think you'll feel better if you dump me!
"Shouldn't you be happy, Li Su? Don't you usually like to watch Xu Zhisheng being bullied more than anyone else? Isn't it difficult for you to act like this now?"
"Don't tell me you love Xu Zhisheng, why did you go there earlier? Now you feel sorry for him instead? Don't you think it's funny?"
Yu Weiwei's words fell on the tip of Li Su's heart, and every sentence was like a pair of invisible giant hands tightly strangling his neck, making him unable to breathe, let alone a single rebuttal.
Was his hatred for Xu Zhisheng really that strong in the eyes of others?
What is he pretending to be, doesn't he hate Xu Zhisheng to the point of death?
But why is it so harsh to say it suddenly in someone else's mouth.
Yu Weiwei was very satisfied with Li Su's reaction and added embellishments:
"Li Su, why do you feel sorry for him? Do you feel bad that he likes Gao Li? Do you feel bad that he has Gao Li now?"
This sentence came suddenly like a huge thunder, and it was another fatal blow in the already dark weather.
Let Li Su confirm the guess in his heart again and again.
Xu Zhisheng likes Gao Li now...
Xu Zhisheng fled all the way to the bottom of the teacher's office building, and he didn't turn his head back once during the run, for fear of seeing that person, fear of being caught by those crazy girls.
He is actually afraid...
He was afraid that Li Su would just watch him being stripped of his clothes by those girls.
If he doesn't run away from Li Suhui...
It will definitely...just like the last time he slapped Yu Weiwei.
Xu Zhisheng's hands were trembling now, and he stood in the teacher's office building for a long time before turning around and going to the bathroom.
Seeing himself in a mess in the mirror, Xu Zhisheng held cold water in his hands to wash his face without saying a word. The coolness of the cold water calmed down his bad and messy mood little by little, and the water droplets dripped down his hair The water stains on his hands and face made him unable to tell whether the scalding liquid that just flowed was his own.
It turns out that no matter how strong a person is wronged, he will still cry like a child.
What scares him even more is that the emotional episodes that he has experienced so familiarly that he wants to kill him are becoming more and more frequent, and he seems to be unable to hold on...
like the first time...
After all, he is just a boy under eighteen, how could he live like this.
Because the skin is too white, the place where he was slapped is very red, and his face is still a little numb. Although the strength of girls is not as strong as boys, Xu Zhisheng can still see that his face is a little swollen, but fortunately he is thin, and his face is not swollen even a little. not so obvious.
Xu Zhisheng washed his face with cold water for a long time, and didn't stop until the red cheeks were no longer obvious to you. He suppressed the messy emotions in his heart before he dared to go to his class teacher.
Xu Zhisheng knocked on the door and heard the response before pushing the door in and looking inside, only his homeroom teacher bowed to him before entering.
"Hello teacher."
Seeing that Xu Zhisheng's eyes were red, Xu Zhisheng's head teacher asked worriedly, "What's wrong with the red eyes?"
"I came here by motorcycle on the road. The wind is too strong. I don't have to worry about anything."
The homeroom teacher of Class [-] and [-] of senior high school was relieved after hearing this, and had no doubts, because he was indeed the one who asked Xu Zhisheng to rush back. The homeroom teacher took out the class transfer application form with his callused hands and handed it to Xu Zhisheng.
"Classes [-] to [-] are in the second department of high school. Xu Zhisheng signed it. You can go over there now and don't go back to the classroom. Tell him to come back just to sign the application for class transfer quickly. I dare not let him go back to that unpredictable place. classroom.
He didn't dare to hurt Xu Zhisheng any more.
Please forgive him for being powerless, without monitoring, he really can't find out who is violent to Xu Zhisheng, all he can do now is to transfer Xu Zhisheng to prevent him from contacting anyone in the class.
Xu Zhisheng was stunned for a moment, then took the application form from the class teacher's hand, which was still short of signature.
The head teacher of class [-] and [-] in senior high school also saw the bandage wrapped around Xu Zhisheng's left hand, so he didn't dare to ask.
"Xu Zhisheng, no matter which class you transfer to, the teacher loves you, so if you have anything to tell the teacher, don't hold back or be afraid, the teacher will help you."
The head teacher of class three and four was already hinting at Xu Zhisheng, but Xu Zhisheng looked down at the application form and didn't take what the head teacher of class three and four seriously said.
Will someone carry it for him?No, he is not someone else, he has no father, he only has a mother, and the only thing he can rely on is himself.
And he doesn't know how long he can last...
"I see."
"If the teacher has nothing to do, I will leave first."
After Xu Zhisheng said that, he left the office of the head teacher of the fourth class.
Is he finally set free?Finally, I want to escape from that group of people, and finally I don't have to see that person's disgusting eyes...
Xu Zhisheng said that he should laugh but couldn't laugh no matter what. He also forgot the teacher's instruction not to go back to the classroom just now, so he went back to the third and fourth classrooms inexplicably.
Xu Zhisheng walked with his head down, and bumped into someone while walking. Xu Zhisheng quickly apologized and wanted to avoid that person.
Unexpectedly, the movement of that person's body blocked his way, Xu Zhisheng slowly raised his head.What I saw was a magnified handsome face.
Xu Zhisheng was startled and staggered back a step, the man folded his arms and said with a smile, "Long time no see Xu Zhisheng."
Xu Zhisheng didn't expect to run into Gao Lv so soon, and looked at Gao Lv for a long time without saying a word.
Gao Lv looked at Xu Zhisheng who was stunned, thinking that Xu Zhisheng was frightened by him again, stretched out his hand and patted Xu Zhisheng's back.
With sharp eyes, he caught sight of the transfer application form Xu Zhisheng was holding in his hand, and Gao Lv couldn't restrain his excitement when he saw that it was written to apply for transfer to Class [-] of the third year.
Class One, Senior Three, on the top floor of their teaching building.
What made Gao Lu even happier was that Xu Zhisheng was finally leaving Li Su! ! !
But just when he was happy, Xu Zhisheng took out a bank card from his pocket and handed it to him, with the password written on it.
"Gao Li will give you the medical expenses these days."
Gao Li's happy mood suddenly changed, and the smile on his face collapsed.
Xu Zhisheng remembers...
Still so out of touch with him.
What Gao Lu didn't know was that this wasn't a stranger, Xu Zhisheng would not take advantage of others, even if it was Li Su, he would pay him back the money, not to mention the amount of money he was hospitalized for.
"You don't need to give me much money." Gao Lu pushed Xu Zhisheng's hand away, clearly refusing to accept it.
"Gao Li, this won't work. You have to take this. I don't need anyone to pity me in this way. Gao Li, don't let me lose my head in front of you."
"I didn't mean Xu Zhisheng..."
Gao Li never thought that his refusal would be a kind of pity and insult to Xu Zhisheng.
"No, you just take it."
After reading it for a while, Gao Lv reached out and took the card handed over by Xu Zhisheng:
"I will pay you back in a few days."
As he spoke, he put one of the black wristbands he was wearing on Xu Zhisheng's right hand.
Gao Lv smiled and touched Xu Zhisheng's soft short hair and said softly:
"This is not something expensive, Xu Zhisheng gave it to you, I wish you a good mood every day."
Fool, be happy every day, I will give you all my good luck.
This black wristband is indeed not an expensive thing, but it is Gao Li's favorite and most precious thing in his heart.
I have brought something for a long time.
At that time, Jiang Xi gave it to him on his birthday. Although it looked cheap, it was much more pleasing to the eye than those gold, silver, and silver items.
Jiang Xi gave him a pair of black ones, with a small white sun tattooed on them. The sun is not a stick figure, it is a bit delicate and beautiful.
At that time, Jiang Yefan even joked that he would give another one to his girlfriend in the future, but Gao Lv didn't take it seriously, thinking that there would be a day when he would give it away.
He didn't even touch several of his girlfriends, but now Gao Lv gave it to Xu Zhisheng. It is conceivable how high Xu Zhisheng's status is in his heart, or he Gao Lv lost to Xu Zhisheng, a sunflower.
He didn't need Xu Zhisheng to turn to him, Gao Lv had to turn around him.
"Thank you."
When Xu Zhisheng heard Gao Lu say that it was hard to refuse, he said goodbye to Gao Lu and explained that he would go back to Class [-] and [-] to move things. He didn't take the words of the head teacher of Class [-] to heart. How could he ask the teacher to help him move the books, let alone that person Still his head teacher.
As soon as Gao Lv heard that Xu Zhisheng was going back to Class [-] and [-] of high school, his face turned livid and he had to brazenly follow Xu Zhisheng no matter what he said, and tricked Xu Zhisheng into helping him move the books under the pretext that Xu Zhisheng was hurt.
Xu Zhisheng asked Gao Lv to wait for him downstairs, so as not to confuse the crowd.
Xu Zhisheng found that there were students looking at him inexplicably everywhere he went today. He didn't take it seriously and returned to his class as usual. As soon as he opened the door and walked in, the eyes of the whole class really fell on him again.
It was so hot that I wanted to see through him.
Lin Han wasn't there, so why not, and Li Su wasn't there either, Xu Zhisheng felt a lot more relaxed.
As soon as Xu Zhisheng stepped in, he felt that not only was something wrong with the person, but even the air was wrong.
"I just said why there was a sudden sour smell. It turned out to be a dead/dog."
As soon as Xu Zhisheng heard this sentence, he knew who he was talking about, and they insisted on accusing Huai and scolding Sang.
But some words are really immune to hearing too much, don't they get tired of playing every day?
Xu Zhisheng ignored their ridicule, and went straight to his seat. There was a puddle of black ink on his desk, and the books on the desk were also thrown on the ground. It's obvious.
Xu Zhisheng put down his bag and bent over as if picking up his own books. Seeing that Xu Zhisheng ignored them, they grabbed Xu Zhisheng's bag and dumped it out on the floor.
In addition to homework, some pens and his medicine.
Xu Zhisheng turned around when he heard the voice, his eyes widened and he saw the medicine he had packed scattered all over the ground, and he rushed to grab it regardless. Then those people reacted faster than Xu Zhisheng, and picked it up first.
Citalopram Hydrobromide Oral Solution, Tyner, Dover, Lefuting, Escitalopram Oxalate Tablets, Alprazole/Lun Tablets, a lot of drugs for the treatment of depression are all displayed in front of everyone .
Those people were taken aback when they saw these medicines, then looked at Xu Zhisheng and burst out laughing. They looked at Xu Zhisheng like a clown, his face was more disgusting than anything in the world.
"Do you have depression?"
This sentence is like saying that you are sick?
Xu Zhisheng stopped suddenly, and the Serqulin he was holding fell to the ground. His body was stiff and he did not dare to raise his head to look at those people.
Because the scar that had been hidden for a long time was uncovered on the spot, Xu Zhisheng's face turned pale.
It was as if there were countless pairs of eyes looking at him in the darkness, tens of thousands of hands firmly holding him down, and holding a sharp knife to cut his flesh little by little, moving his muscles and bones, even if the pain was heart-piercing. Can't move.
They watched him dripping with blood but remained unmoved, admiring his twisted fear like a bloodthirsty devil, taking his pain as a joke.
The scars hidden deep in his heart were torn open again and again, and salt was sprinkled on his wounds again and again to prevent him from having a chance to heal.
Embarrassing him coldly and cruelly in front of everyone, and finally talking about him inside and out.
"I think you seem to be moaning without illness, otherwise why are you still alive?"
Xu Zhisheng's mind was buzzing, he felt that the world was made of blackboards, and everyone around him was dizzy.
Moaning without illness.
He remembered the first time Ms. Yang took him to see a psychiatrist, and the doctor spent several hours trying to trick him into bringing up things he didn't want to think about. Those few hours were the most difficult moments for him. The doctor pulled out his scar a little bit to bleed but did not bring him sunshine.
He wasn't surprised by what was expected.
The psychiatrist said: Accept treatment well, don't think about it, everything will pass.
The doctor opened his wound, and in the end there was nothing he could do about his illness.
After that incident, Xu Zhisheng was taken to see a doctor and never spoke again. The doctor gave him medicine when he had no choice but to see Ms. Yang getting thinner and thinner before he proposed to go to school.
He didn't want to worry Ms. Yang anymore, let alone face those so-called psychiatrists.
It turns out that in their eyes, depression is just moaning about unreasonable troubles.
"The representative of the students who delivered the speech, the number one student in the school, is depressed? Doesn't it make people laugh out loud?"
"Or do you want to pretend to be sick so that the whole school will pity you?"
Xu Zhisheng's hand holding the sertraline medicine box trembled slightly, what were they talking about...
Why is he number one in the school?
In countless sleepless nights, he repeatedly reviewed and numb his emotions, grasped the weak reason to persuade himself in the collapse again and again, and tried hard to deceive his mother to let her Believe that he is really getting better, and try his best to pretend to be a normal person.
In the end, he became the person that others said he wanted the whole school to pity him?
Is he crazy……
Could it be that he is crazy!Put your wounds in front of everyone!
Those people made fun of Xu Zhisheng seeing him speechless, and kicked Xu Zhisheng with their feet and said:
"Why don't you speak? You were guessed right, so you are guilty?"
Xu Zhisheng didn't answer, clutching his aching heart to suppress and try to swallow his symptoms.
When he was in pain, he was suddenly pulled up from the ground, and those people unceremoniously removed the bandage that wrapped the wound on his left hand.
When the bandages fell on the ground and the large and small wounds were exposed in front of everyone, Xu Zhisheng suddenly lost his temper. He was not as low as usual, but at this moment, he was more like a little beast that was forced to the cliff, red-eyed and irritable, and pushed him down in front of him. of people:
"What else do you want!!!"
"Pretending to be like that, is it because the unrequited love for Li Su didn't get any response, so I learned to cut my wrists? Are you afraid of death if you don't cut deeper?"
Xu Zhi's whole body trembled and couldn't speak, he could only look at them, feeling very sad when looking at them.
I can no longer see why I am alive...
What on earth is Xu Zhisheng living for?Does it make sense...
"Speaking of unrequited love, congratulations, Xu Zhisheng, you are famous. The whole school has seen the love letter you wrote to Li Su. The whole school knows that you like Li Su. You made a fuss when you were a sophomore in high school, and now you are making a fuss again. , awesome/forceful Xu Zhisheng."
Xu Zhisheng's heart beat even faster when he heard the love letter, what do you mean?What's the meaning!
Yu Weiwei posted that piece of paper?
"Look at your expression, don't tell me you don't know? Ha, that's fun, do you want me to read the content again?"
Taking advantage of their distraction, Xu Zhisheng snatched the transparent bag and didn't care to pick up the scattered things and bags on the ground, knocked those people away and escaped from this place as if fleeing for his life.
calm!He needs to calm down!But the panic in his heart made him unable to calm down.
"Xu Zhisheng, you're down..."
Gao Lv watched Xu Zhisheng run down and asked a question. Just about to stop Xu Zhisheng, Xu Zhisheng ran away from him like he didn't see him.
Gao Lu's first reaction was that something had happened, and he ran after him with his long legs. He pulled Xu Zhisheng away without saying a word, and was about to walk back.
"Come back with me and I'll support you, it's really against/his/damn heaven! How dare you touch you!"
Xu Zhisheng broke Gao Lu's hand with his hands and resisted: "I won't go...Gao Lu...I won't go...I won't go."
He didn't want to see those people... didn't want to see anyone there again.
Gao Lv was also a little angry, he didn't understand what Xu Zhisheng was afraid of?
"Does it feel good to break your teeth and swallow in your stomach? Xu Zhisheng, do you really feel good? How long are you going to endure them? Didn't I say I will support you?"
When Xu Zhisheng heard Gao Lu's words, the tears in his eyes fell unexpectedly. He smiled wryly as he watched Gao Lu hold up his bag of medicines, and the emotions that surged up like a tide couldn't be suppressed.
People who have been wronged too much are afraid of a sudden concern from others.
"It's good, I'm used to it."
"See? A bag of medicine, how do you want me to refute when they say I'm sick? I'm sick, and what they say is right."
It is true that I have a crush on Li Su, and it is true that I am sick.
"These scars? It's because I'm sick and can't control myself like a monster!!!"
"Gao Li, no one can empathize, you are not me, and I am not you."
"I also said that you told you not to approach me, don't approach me...why didn't you listen, Gao Li..."
Let me say these things to you and be so remorseful at the same time.
Why do you want to care about me... why do you let me have a source of venting...
He doesn't want this...he really doesn't want this.
Looking at Xu Zhisheng's bald and self-destructive appearance, Gao Lv was anxious and said everything in his heart.
"I like you!"
Gao Lu's resounding words entered Xu Zhisheng's eardrums and flowed into Xu Zhisheng's heart.
"Is this reason enough? Is it enough to explain why I am close to you?"
"Because I like you, I can't see any of them bullying you. Xu Zhisheng, why don't you think about me?"
"It's because I like you that I don't want to see you cry and don't want to see you wronged. Do you know how much I like you? I know...I know you have Li Su in your heart. I know all of this."
Xu Zhisheng had already stayed where he was, a bit unable to accept the fact that Gao Lv liked him.
"I don't care about the past between you and Li Su, and I don't care about your past. If Li Su doesn't cherish you, someone will cherish you. If you sentence me to death like this..."
Gao Lv paused for a moment, suddenly hugged Xu Zhisheng and said word by word in Xu Zhisheng's ear:
"I don't accept it, I don't agree with Xu Zhisheng."
"Xu Zhisheng, I like you like you like you very much, so please let me remember not to say those words..."
Don't say things that make me unbearable, I can accept you saying you don't like me, I can accept you rejecting me...
But can you stop saying it and let me think about it.
"I know you're sick, but you'll get better just because you're sick. I'll accompany you. When you're well, we'll go see the starry sky in Chuanjiang, see the flowers all over the mountains, and see many places you want to go."
"I know you are confused Xu Zhisheng, you look up at the morning star..."
Gao Lu hugged Xu Zhisheng and muttered to himself.
"The morning star... the brightest star before the dark dawn, the guide of light."
"It is a pointer when people are confused, and it symbolizes infinite hope."
"No one deserves to live for someone all his life. Xu Zhisheng, if you are confused, look at the Venus star and follow the answer in your heart all the way forward. If you can't see the Venus star, I will be your Venus star and lead you all the way. forward."
"There is no light ahead, I will light the way for you to dispel the darkness."