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Chapter 55

"Good boy!" Ji Hang raised his body with force on his waist, and turned to stare at him, "What did you just say?!"

After the inspection, Ruan Yi put down his phone and blinked at him innocently: "What did I just say?"

Ji Hang: "..."

"Did I just say something?" Ruan Yi blinked his big eyes again, and asked sincerely.

Ji Hang: "..."

All right, sure enough... He should accept it as soon as he sees it. He knows that he is just saying something casually, but he can't control his mouth and wants to ask back.

"It's nothing." The little prince Ji Hang shut himself up, and silently lifted the quilt and lay down.

Ruan Yi's good-looking eyebrows and eyes immediately curved, and he also lay down under the quilt. Just looking at the back of his head, he could see his depression, and teased: "I seem to remember a little bit, did I just say who doted on me?" with?"

Ji Hang turned around with a click, the orange light of the night light cast on his thick eyelashes, forming a small semi-curved shadow under his eyes, a pair of eyes hidden behind looked at Ruan Yi's face that was close at hand Bulling Bulling shines straight: "Isn't it!"

"Okay." Ruan Yi couldn't help wanting to touch his eyelashes every time he looked at them, he buried half of his face in the quilt and said, "Ask whatever you want, I won't lose my temper this time."

Ji Hang paused, staring at the small dimple on the face in front of him, his voice subconsciously softened a lot, as if he was afraid of scaring Ruan Yi away again: "Well, actually, I just think... my dear, you are a little Strange, of course I'm not saying you're bad, just saying, it makes me a little angry."

Ruan Yi didn't understand the tortuous logic for a while, and smiled: "I'm weird about mine, why are you angry."

Ji Hang pursed his lips, buried half of his face in the quilt, raised his eyes slightly to look at Ruan Yi and said, "You don't care about yourself, you don't think about yourself at all."

Hearing this, Ruan Yi was immediately stunned by Ji Hang's black eyes, his mouth hidden under the quilt opened slightly, unable to speak.

Unexpectedly... Is it because of this that made him so angry... Then this afternoon?

"I really think what happened last night is a big thing, and I don't believe you don't realize the seriousness of it." Ji Hang stared at his every word, gently but insisted, "Really Has it passed, Ruan Yi? If it really passed, you can look me in the eyes and tell me now, and I promise that from, hereafter, I will never ask again. "

"From now on" Ji Hang bit the four words very hard, every sound fell on Ruan Yi's heart, weaving into a fine net, making him almost out of breath.

After Ji Hang finished speaking, he quietly waited for Ruan Yi's response, without urging him at all, only to see that the person in front of him hid the bun face with a few ounces of flesh under the quilt again, and this time he simply covered his nose as well. went in.

Ruan Yi was bubbling with aggrieved heart, his nose was sore, he felt that Ji Hang, an old fox, was too cunning.

So Ji Hang waited seven to eight, and Ruan Yi said aggrievedly, "How could you threaten me..."

Ji Hang: Critical strike—heart!null!

He is now capitalized "Fuck", and he is inexplicably lacking in confidence: "I don't have..."

"Yes." Ruan Yi's soft voice was separated by a layer of quilt, as if it was directly scratching his heart, his bones were crisp.

What principle is needed, Ji Hang immediately echoed: "Okay, I have it, I have it."

When it was over, I went to ask others: "So where do I have it?"

Ruan Yi quickly raised his eyes to glance at him, and whispered: "You just rely on me not to part with you, and you threaten me like this."

Ji Hang almost looked up to the sky and laughed out loud, and quickly hid under the quilt like Ruan Yi, leaving only one pair of eyes exposed, and said with a low voice: "So it's actually not over, but I usually don't talk about it."

Ruan Yi's eyelashes trembled, and his voice became softer: "Actually, I was... quite scared..."

Actually, I was... quite scared...

Ji Hang almost couldn't catch his breath, he couldn't do it at that time, really, he felt that he was going to die from Ruan Yi's words in the next second.

Distressed to the point of explosion, damn it, he must kill that scum of FOD this time, he's dead!

But what Ji Hang didn't expect was that what made him feel even more distressed was yet to come.

He heard Ruan Yi say, "I was sexually assaulted before, but it was an attempt."

Ji Hang was immediately taken aback.

As keen as he is, after being with Ruan Yi for so long, it is impossible to say that he can't see anything wrong with him. Ruan Yi may have a little psychological problem, which is completely within his expectation, but when it comes to sexual assault...

The first time Ji Hang spoke, he couldn't even make a sound: "...cough cough, dang... what happened at that time..."

"That was the first time I went out for an internship during the summer vacation of my freshman year. My condition at that time was relatively poor. I mean my psychological condition, but no one around me knew about it." After an afternoon, Ruan Yi also figured it out. I made a guess, and I have nothing to say, "It is a relatively prestigious company in the industry, and there is a chance to become a full-time employee, so there are quite a lot of internship places, and all the seniors and seniors want it, but our professional teachers came to me in private. He said that he wanted to give it to me by leapfrogging, but my state at the time was not suitable, but I didn't know how to refuse, and I really wanted to go, and then... an accident happened."

Ji Hang's heart suddenly picked up: "So... is it a senior from the internship unit?"

Ruan Yi pressed his eyelashes and nodded lightly: "At first, he was not the teacher recommended by our professional teacher to take me, but that teacher was not there on the day I went to report, so I was assigned to that teacher. Everyone respects him very much. , It is said that he is very kind to people, the kind with a good temper, and his status is relatively high."

Ji Hang only felt a fly choked in his throat with this kind of costumed beastly setting, and he could guess what would happen next...

"Actually, I felt that something was wrong on the first day with him, but I didn't say it, because he looked...not like that kind of person. Even if I told people, no one would believe me. Overthinking." Ruan Yi said.

Ji Hang couldn't help but interjected: "Did he...do something that made you feel bad?"

Ruan Yi pursed his lips and said, "Not long after he saw me, he asked me if I had a girlfriend, and said that I looked a lot like the last intern he brought, but I... had a better figure than him. .”

Ji Hang frowned subtly, the word "figure"...

"It's probably a more obvious sexual hint on a girl, but because I'm a boy, it's not necessarily true. Maybe it's just that I'm too sensitive." Recalling the past, Ruan Yi lowered his voice little by little. Going on, "There seems to be nothing wrong in the next few days, but I have no appetite for several days in a row, and I can't eat much."

As he said that, Ruan Yi suddenly laughed at himself: "Didn't you also complain about the bad weather in Hong Kong? At that time, the weather was very hot during the summer vacation. I just thought it was too hot and I lost my appetite, but later I found out that it was the way he looked at me that made me feel uncomfortable." I was uncomfortable, especially in an enclosed space like an elevator, and his sight made me sick to my stomach."

When Ji Hang heard the word "nausea", he was completely speechless. He didn't know whether to say that Ruan Yi was too sensitive, or that the man's eyes were too naked. His heart grew more and more sour with Ruan Yi's self-report. Just want to hug him.

"What made me completely sure that he had a problem was that I came across a piece of news when I was translating."

It was a news that a 14-year-old girl was dating a boy online by playing games.

"After seeing this, that person actually told me that '14 is not too young'. I couldn't help but say 'this has nothing to do with age', but he smiled back and said, No wonder I have no object."

Ruan Yi felt that he could really remember this conversation for a lifetime, verbatim for a lifetime.

Ji Hang only felt that his three views were completely shattered: "When he told you these words, were you two alone?"

Ruan Yi shook his head: "It's in the public office area, and there are many people around, but they are all busy with their own things. I don't know if they didn't hear it, or pretended not to hear it. In short, they didn't respond, so I really of...doubt life..."

"Oh... my old swan..." Ji Hang finally couldn't hold back, and squeezed to Ruan Yi one after another like a caterpillar wrapped around the quilt, doing what he wanted to do since he saw Ruan Yi.

Ji Hang immediately pressed the head of the person in front of him into his arms, and muttered: "It's really... but it hurts the baby so much, that's why I keep telling you that we boys must protect ourselves when we go out... ..."

This is much more uncomfortable than the overlord's direct bow, and this is the first time I have encountered such a thing when I went out for an internship...

The two were covered with the same thin quilt.

Across the quilt piled up in the middle, Ruan Yiyi didn't move in Ji Hang's arms, closed his eyes and pressed against his scorching neck, trying to relax his tone: "Anyway, there are many similar details. It makes me very uncomfortable, but it is true that no one will believe me if I tell this. This internship opportunity was given to me by our professional teachers despite all the arguments. Just casually say that I quit, so I can only work hard to adjust my mentality and continue..."

On the afternoon of the accident, Ruan Yi lay on his desk for a morning break as usual, and he was the only one left in the office at some point. When he opened his eyes again, his hands were already tied up with a tie.

If it wasn't for the interns who were outreaching that day, someone left something in the office and smashed it when they came back to pick it up, maybe something really happened.

"At the beginning, the company and the school didn't know about my family background. They wanted to lose money and told me to shut up. After all, the internship unit was arranged by the school, and it would not have a good impact on the school. The intern who broke the scene that day was me. The senior directly related to her directly got the only regular position among a dozen interns afterwards, and when she received her graduation certificate, she was pressured by the school leaders to sign a non-disclosure agreement, and this matter is over." Ruan Yi said slowly, " My parents were very angry when they found out about this incident, but it would be very bad for me if this incident were really exposed, so I only let that person lose his job in the circle, and no one dared to hire him again. The matter is directly pointed out..."

Ji Hang clicked his tongue a little, he has a deep understanding of the fact that people's words are scary.

When it comes to this kind of problem, if you don't point and point behind your back, if someone is wrong, it may be that Ruan Yi took the initiative to seduce someone.

But this was not the only problem he was worried about all the time. Ji Hang rubbed the back of Ruan Yi's neck, and tentatively said: "So the mental state I keep talking about is...depression?"

Ruan Yi was silent in his arms for two seconds, then slowly nodded: "After this incident, my parents insisted on taking me to see a psychiatrist before I was diagnosed. After taking medicine for nearly two years Well, it won't stop until the second semester of senior year."

But what Ruan Yi didn't say was that he threw away the medicine, which was regarded as compulsory withdrawal.

Hearing that he had taken the medicine for so long, Ji Hang was shocked: "The live broadcast is also..."

Ruan Yi: "Well, the live broadcast also hopes that if I can't get in touch with people in real life, I can at least do it online."

But after saying all this, he himself was not doing well, but Ji Hang yelled in his ear, saying that his heart hurts so badly that he was going to die.

Ji Hang's voice was muffled: "Baby, rub it for me, it will be better if you rub it."

Ruan Yi smiled: "Wait until I finish talking before kneading, otherwise I will score twice."

Ji Hang opened his mouth and let out a series of uncomfortable groans: "Oh...it can't be done, I'm dead, I'm completely dead, could it be that my abuse point is too low..."

So this time he simply buried Ruan Yi's chest. He was in a trance, making Ruan Yi laugh, and he felt a lot more relaxed. He even freed up an arm for Ji Hang to pillow under his head, saying: .

"On the first day after my college entrance examination, my parents signed the divorce agreement in front of me. Maybe they thought that I could understand them, and opened up and said that the harm would be less. Just... I have been treated very well by them since I was a child. , is also very good to Xiao Mu, there is no partiality, I can only say that... I am not very good at teaching children..."

Sleeping in Ruan Yi's arms, Ji Hang moved his head and found the most comfortable angle: "It reminds me of my puppet. She used to breed and give birth to several cubs, but she raised them all to death. Everyone is suitable to be a parent, of course I don't want to compare our stupid cat with my uncle and aunt."

Ruan Yi laughed: "I know, but that's probably what it means."

"Actually, I also know that they just treat their feelings more freely and loosely. They haven't quarreled too much over the years, and no one has made any mistakes in principle. It's just that the relationship has faded after a long time, so when my college entrance examination is over, they will naturally We broke up peacefully, but the better they treat me and the calmer the divorce, the more uncomfortable I will be..." Ruan Yi seemed a little unsure how to describe his feelings.

But Ji Hang understood, and while playing with Ruan Yi's pajama buttons, he said: "It will make you subconsciously feel that a person's attitude towards feelings is separate from the person's own good or bad, that is, you will feel that maybe No matter how good everyone is, it is very likely that they will not be responsible for their feelings?"

Ruan Yi was quiet for a second, then said, "Yes."

"My parents are really good to me, even if I said I don't want to go out to work, I don't want to contact people, I just want to stay at home and play games live, they never objected, everything about me and Xiao Mu they are unconditional I support it." Ruan Yi said, "But they divorced so easily, let go of all the promises they said, and then remarried each other, and they can continue to meet and chat after the peaceful years. This really makes me sad."

"I lost my temper at them, not just Xiao Mu's college entrance examination, they have too many self-righteous mistakes, and they don't know what the consequences are, just like they never thought that they would be divorced for four years and remarried three times. make me into something."

"It's possible... they just have a free view of love..."

The most uncomfortable thing is never not to love, but to love but not understand.

That age was an important period for the formation of the Three Views, fragile and sensitive, in Ruan Yi's heart, the weight of emotion was very heavy, but the more he saw Zhou Shangqing and Ruan Chengjian, the less he dared to open his heart.

"They are very busy at work, and I often stay alone with myself. I thought I could escape their 'control' over me, but really... there is still no way. The changes they have made to me are really beyond my imagination. Ruan Yi, looking at Ji Hang's face, finally couldn't help reaching out and gently flicking his eyelashes, "And these changes have penetrated deep into the marrow of my bones. It took me a lot of effort just to realize their existence. Can't get rid of it."

At this point, Ruan Yi spoke Japanese as soon as his voice changed, and the soft tone was very comfortable to hear.

He translated to Ji Hang: "Haruki Murakami said: 'No one likes to be alone, they just don't want to be disappointed.'"

"The more I realize that it's wrong for me to distrust anyone, the more I hate myself, because I really can't get over it. I always feel that no matter who will leave, it's just a matter of time. I hate this insecurity. Feeling, the self who is worried about gains and losses."

Ji Hang's Adam's apple twitched, and it was completely impossible to describe his suffocating mood at this moment. Seeing Ruan Yi's hand that was still on his eyelashes, he raised his eyes and looked straight over: "...Even if I am too?"

Looking at each other, Ruan Yi suddenly smiled, the dimples showing from both sides of his cheeks were very sweet.

Ji Hang heard him say: "Your status in my heart is really much higher than you think Ji Hang."

"If I also have such a gift list in my heart, except for people like Xiao Mu who can't afford to give me gifts, you must be the one on the top of the list."

"And thanks to FOD, you are in my heart now, omnipotent."