Chi Guang

Chapter 127 He Has Nothing To Be Afraid Of Losing

Two hours later, Ye Jing came out of the bedroom, looked back at the locked door and bodyguards, and walked out of the villa step by step.

The recording is real.

He forgot how he hung up Qi Shi's phone call, and how he struggled to tell the result. Maybe he didn't need to say it at all. Mu Shihai already knew the answer with just one glance through years of tacit understanding.

He saw that pair of dark eyes suddenly lose their last trace of expression, exuding a emptiness like death, his heart tightened, and just about to say something, there was a crash, the two of them lowered their heads, and the beads on Mu Shihai's wrist didn't know. When it broke, the beads fell to the ground with a splash, falling apart.

He vaguely remembered that this seemed to be a birthday present from Xu Chichuan in a certain year. Mu Shihai hated wearing things, especially jewelry. He felt like a peacock, but this string of beads had been worn for so many years.

Now it's broken.

It's like between them, falling apart and making a mess.

then.

then.

Mu Shihai cried.

Like the last straw that broke the camel's back, Mu Shihai pushed him away, knelt on the ground like crazy and picked up the beads frantically, tears fell on the carpet drop by drop, the pain was silent.

It hurts too much, Ye Jing raised her head and wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, it really hurts too much, she just likes someone, why should they suffer like this.

The long night is hard to understand, and it is dying.

After a long time, Mu Shihai finally picked it up. In the palm of his hand, there was a small handful, like a treasure, and he carefully put it into his pocket. There were traces of crying on his face. Ye Jing couldn't bear to look any longer: "Where are you going? What? time to go?"

I don't know." Mu Shihai stretched out his hand and asked for the recorder back, "Have you brought your mobile phone? "

"No," he gritted his teeth angrily, "I was taken away by the bodyguards before I came in."

The old fox is an old fox, and he didn't give a damn. There was a knock on the door, reminding him to hurry up. Ye Jing sniffed and held back his sourness: "What else can I do?"

"No need," he paused, "The college entrance examination is over, bring me a sentence."

"What?"

After Mu Shihai finished speaking, Ye Jing finally couldn't help yelling: "Are you sick!"

"Don't you hate him?"

hate it?

Damn it.

But there is more love than hate.

On the third day after Xu Chichuan was imprisoned in the hospital, Shen Sijing received a call from Mu Xingyong for the last time.

This time it is excellent news.

Mu Shihai is about to be sent abroad.

The excitement on the woman's face was beyond words, she almost cried with joy, Xu Youhua also breathed a sigh of relief: "Then...do you want to tell Xiao Chuan?"

"Yes, but not now." The news that Mu Shihai was about to leave made her firmly believe that what she did was right: "Isn't the visit once a week? There are still four days left, and I will tell him when the time comes."

At the moment in the hospital, Xu Chichuan has lost time.

In the dark and turbid storm room, I lost the distinction between time and space, my hands and feet were tied to the chairs and stools, and my skin was worn out. The red marks from yesterday's slaps have not disappeared, and I was slapped heavily just now. At this moment, my right cheek is swollen. The corner of the mouth dripped and oozes blood, burning pain

The nerves were continuously stimulated, the thin hospital gown was already drenched with cold sweat, and the woman in the white coat in front of her had a terrifying and gloomy expression

"You are so good, how can you be gay, it's disgusting."

"This is wrong against morality and nature."

"Do you know that homosexuals are lunatics, scum and scum cast aside by society."

"I'm here to help you, to help you become a normal person again."

"Be obedient, if you are sick, you must be cured."

"You have to be obedient, be a good boy, and cooperate with the treatment obediently, in order to recover."

"Say it, say you know it's wrong, say you don't like him."

For three consecutive days, mechanically repeated words, brainwashed mental torture, even if he collapsed halfway and passed out and was woken up by cold water, Xu Chichuan gritted his teeth and said nothing. With a smile: "It seems that you are very sick."

"Then let's change to an immediate treatment."

The light was turned on, and looking at the equipment in front of him, Xu Chichuan felt chills all over his body. The female doctor saw the horror in his eyes and smiled triumphantly: "It seems that you know him."

The more he struggled, the tighter the hemp rope was tightened. With a piercing smile on the corner of the woman's mouth, she firmly fixed the electrode pad on his forehead. Xu Chichuan finally despaired, closing his eyes and no longer resisting.

I heard that after the electric shock, I will become stupid. I hope Mu Shihai won't let him go.

Before pressing the button, the woman asked one last time: "Do you want to admit your mistake?"

Xu Chichuan suddenly opened his eyes, weak but arrogant.

"I am right……"

"what--!!!!"

The severe pain broke through the heavenly spirit cover and tore and pulled in the cracks of the bones, like countless steel needles inserted into the body, the muscles twitched out of control, and every bone was crushed and rebuilt.

Xu Chichuan had never been so clearly aware of one thing.

He wants to die.

When I woke up again, I was already lying in the ward, a strong sense of dizziness and nausea rushed straight to my forehead, a low male voice came from the door of the ward, the white coat who had just looked like a vicious witch was lowering his eyebrows, listening to the man's words Rebuke: "Now is a sensitive time, who will allow you to receive electric shocks?"

"Just a few days after calming down, did you forget the lesson!"

"Yes, yes, Director, you are right, but I also want him to be cured and discharged from the hospital as soon as possible..."

"What's the hurry!" The man scolded, "The last one who was fired was too anxious, and he killed people too hard, and he paid 20 yuan to settle it. How many heads and lives are enough for you!"

After a round of cursing, the man finally calmed down a bit: "I don't care how you want to treat it, even if it's an electric shock! Don't make me dizzy again! Do you hear me!"

"Understood." The woman lowered her head: "Don't worry."

The footsteps gradually went away, and one hand patted his sleeping face: "Wake up, don't pretend, people are gone."

Xu Chichuan opened his eyes, a big face with a playful look straight into the eyeballs, 1.8 meters tall with that cynical face, automatically matched into a word, dandy: "How long have you been in?"

"Three, three days," Xu Chichuan was taken aback, "You are..."

"Get to know each other," the young man stretched out his hand, "Zhou Xiao, arrogant Xiao, from today onwards, he is your roommate and patient."

"Xu Chichuan," he also stretched out his hand, "I'm not sick."

"Pfft," Zhou Xiao was taken aback for a moment, then laughed out loud, tears streaming down his face, "Are you not sick? Why are you here if you're not sick?"

"They thought I was sick and wanted me to feel the same way."

"So send me here."

After hearing this, Zhou Xiao suppressed his smile and looked at him carefully: "Are you... an adult?"

"There are still a few months."

"Tsk," there was a hint of sarcasm on the young man's face, "it's really inhumane to accept even minors. Where's your partner?"

"I don't know, I should have been locked up by my parents."

"broke up?"

"No, we won't break up."

"It's better," he snorted, "Maybe he has realized that he has changed his past and changed his mind to be a good son for his parents."

"Impossible, he won't."

I wanted to say something else, but the dizziness came again accompanied by the feeling of vomiting. It was more violent than last time. I covered my mouth and was about to get out of bed when a trash can was stretched out. Wow, it was all thrown into the bucket.

After vomiting, Xu Chichuan handed over a few tissues, with a weak face: "Thank you, thank you."

Zhou Xiao frowned deeply: "This is the sequelae of the electric shock, there is no way, just bear with it."

"You were also..."

"Nonsense, I have vomited for several days, and I have come in several times, let me do the math," Zhou Xiao pinched his fingers, "Well... at least three or four times."

Xu Chichuan was shocked that there were such cruel parents in the world: "Your parents...are you willing?"

"There's nothing to be reluctant about, it's not their fault," Zhou Xiao sneered, "Don't tell me you were sent in by your parents?"

Seeing his silence, Zhou Xiao put away his sharpness, and lazily said: "I'm sorry, I'm a cheap person, but ah, if your will is not firm enough, and you don't have the determination to fight to the death, I advise you to admit your mistakes now and take the assessment. There are still a few days left for the exam."

"No need," Xu Chichuan said softly, "I can get through it."

He has nothing to fear.

After coming in for three days, Xu Chichuan basically figured out the situation. This is a hospital that specializes in treating all kinds of mental illnesses. He took a set of detailed mental tests and examinations, and the conclusion he reached was not optimistic in the eyes of the doctor—a patient with severe homosexual disease.

Then everything was taken away, and they were assigned to a separate ward with two rooms, where the female doctor guided and treated her alone.

It is said to be an independent ward, but it is actually more like a prison. There is surveillance in the ward, and the door can only be locked from the outside. Every day when you go to bed and wake up, the doctor in charge opens it. When you get up at six o’clock, the lights are turned off at ten o’clock. You are not allowed to stay in the ward during the day. 24-hour security patrols in the corridor.

On the first night, Xu Chichuan had a taste of it.

Insomnia caused him to close his eyes only at dawn. In his sleep, there was a shrill scream from the next door, followed by a sharp and piercing whistle - he remembered that this was the wake-up bell that the female doctor said yesterday. Ten minutes later , everyone gathered urgently.

The training room was full of people, and the oppressive atmosphere was like a balloon about to explode. A shivering boy was kneeling in the middle, naked except for a pair of underwear. A bald man waved the pointer in his hand expressionlessly and threw it on There was a crackling sound on the ground.

"The one you see now! Last night, he tried to escape while going to the bathroom, but was caught by our security guards. Guess why he was shaking so much?"

"Let me tell you! Because after being caught, he knelt in the garden for three hours!"

"This is the punishment! It's the price!"

"My parents sent you here out of painstaking efforts! I want you to undergo transformation and become a normal person who can contribute to society!"

"So today, I repeat, anyone, anyone, who doesn't abide by the rules and regulations of the hospital, will end up like him—"

The pointer flicked violently, a large piece of flesh and blood splashed, the boy let out a scream, the man waved his hand, a doctor stood up and picked up a piece of cloth from the ground and stuffed it into his mouth.

a whip...

two whips...

three whips...

No. 15 whips, the boy finally fell to the ground and passed out. His body was covered in blood, and the frost on his body melted into water. The mixed color of blood flowed from his feet to the door. Two men in white coats dragged him out indifferently. Like dragging a dying dog.

What else did the bald man say, Xu Chichuan didn't hear clearly, the dark red was like a thorn, pierced deeply into his heart, and it reappeared many nights after many years, it was just the person lying on the ground , replaced his face.

With yesterday's lessons learned, after everything was ready, the female doctor decided to change the method, wearing insulating gloves, reducing the current and shortening the time, a small amount and many times.

Xu Chichuan was sitting on the chair, his complexion was as thin as a piece of paper, and the haggard black and blue eyes were exhausted besides exhaustion. In just a few days, he had become so thin that he was wearing a large hospital gown, which was emptied by the wind. He lowered his head, the rope was rough and the scab was broken, his wrist was red and swollen and was oozing blood, he didn't know why, but he didn't feel any pain.

Suddenly there was a picture on the opposite curtain, Xu Chichuan raised his head for a moment, it was a picture of him and Mu Shihai kissing in the classroom.

Then before he had time to take another look, the heart-piercing pain came again, as if someone had forcefully gouged out his skull with a knife, disturbing every nerve, Xu Chichuan stared at him with wide eyes. In the photo, the feeling of electric current disappeared after a few seconds, and a voice rang in my ears at the right time, like accusation, but also like bewitching.

"Look, liking a man is such a pain."

"See the man in the picture? He's the one who caused you so much pain and turned you into a pervert."

No.

no.

Cold sweat stung my eyes. That night, the evening wind was strong, the blue curtains fluttered and rolled up, and the lights were dim. In the middle of the blackboard newspaper, Mu Shihai suddenly pressed him against the wall. The young man's kiss was gentle and hot. Ken picked the moonlight.

"what--!"

The current passed through his whole body and he fell into convulsions again. Xu Chichuan curled up his hands in pain, trembling and huddled up, and the clothes were wet with cold sweat. The woman stretched out her hand, grabbed his head roughly, and locked his face tightly Pointing firmly at the screen, his voice was stern: "Look clearly! This is what happens when you like men!"

The broken eyes gradually focused, and the two teenagers walked out of the hotel one after the other. In that erotic afternoon, such a gentle and strong Mu Shihai, every moment of climax, had a picture when the pain reached its peak.

It's just 17-year-old Xu Chichuan, who can't wait for the summer anymore.

The current stopped.

Xu Chichuan couldn't bear it anymore, curled up and vomited all over the floor. The water and food he drank in the morning, together with gastric juice and bile, vomited until he couldn't vomit anymore, his face lost all color, and his body still couldn't stop. Trembling all over the place, the woman thought he had succumbed, and smiled contemptuously: "Remember this painful feeling and persist in obsession, this is the end."

"Do not……"

A groan came from behind, and the woman turned her head to meet the dying gaze.

"What I remember... is the feeling of liking him."

The smile was very faint, but it was particularly eye-catching.

"Okay!" The woman was furious, and grabbed his neck, "I want to see if you can keep being so stubborn!"

So he untied the rope, dragging and dragging him all the way to a hut, where the three large characters "Confinement Room" on the door were black and dazzling, the woman opened the door, pushed him in, slammed the door hard, and took him with him. Walking through the last ray of light, a dull voice came through the thick iron door: "This time I will not admit my mistake, and I will never let you out!"