Chi Guang

Chapter 156 Showdown

In the first two years when Mu Shihai went abroad, Shen Sijing sincerely hoped that the young man who led her son astray would never come back, and believed that time would dilute everything, not to mention that Xu Chichuan has been very good since he was a child, and it won't be long You will understand that what you do is for his own good, maybe some practices are biased, but she still tells herself like this, and she has always been so firm, she is not wrong, Xu Chichuan is not gay, her child must be normal people.

But the phrase "Mom, please save me, I'm going to find him" when she woke up from a dream in the middle of the night was still in her ears. Touching her face, it seemed that the scarlet heat splashed on her face was still there. Outside the door of the emergency room, the young man who questioned her sharply turned into Xu Chichuan's face, cornered her, and asked sharply if she must To kill him.

Admitting mistakes and failures is a difficult thing for Shen Sijing, but Xu Chichuan's estranged and silent resistance and the crumbling mother-child relationship have exposed her luck over and over again in the past seven years. Those "everything will be fine" Fantasy is just her meaningless wishful thinking.

What's more, her child is very unhappy.

During Xu Chichuan's freshman semester, she went to Qingda University once.

It was a scorching hot Saturday, she hid far away under the tree, watched Xu Chichuan come out of the dormitory, her throat was choked instantly, her sleeves were empty, she was thin at a glance, her lips were as pale as her face, as if she was sick , Holding the book and looking down at the road, the sun is scorching, but the back is far away and cold, it does not belong to this weather.

Shen Sijing burst into tears.

The passing students came and went in a hurry, not understanding why there was a woman crying so badly outside the library, and even Shen Sijing didn't understand whether there was more regret or more heartache in those tears.

Before leaving, I quietly went to the law school and asked for the phone number of the counselor. The counselor was a very enthusiastic young female teacher. She told me everything she asked, saying that Xu Chichuan won the first place in the department and won a scholarship last semester. I joined the sports department, but I am a bit introverted, rarely smile, and not very talkative.

Not very talkative.

Shen Sijing's eyes were sore again.

How can I not like to talk? When I was in high school, I won the first place in the English speech contest in the school.

Before leaving, please ask the teacher to keep it secret, and don't tell Xu Chichuan that you have been here. The counselor was a little surprised, but agreed: "Okay."

"Thank you teacher," she held back her tears, "Thank you."

After that, Shen Sijing went there two more times. At first Xu Youhua stubbornly held her neck and refused to listen or ask, but when she came back, she couldn't help but want to ask. Last time, she lost a little weight again, her dark circles became heavier and heavier, and her complexion didn't look good. At this time, Xu Youhua would sit on the sofa and smoke silently. living room.

In fact, she was lucky enough, even if Xu Chichuan didn't want to come back, she could still see Han Yu secretly, and Han Yu, who had gone far away and never heard from her—the elder sister and her elder brother-in-law were about to divorce, Xu Youying complained that her husband had driven him away cruelly Son: "Isn't it your son who likes men? If you force him to have a family and can't go back, you are satisfied!"

Han Ting was speechless, his face hardened with pain, and no one could bear to see it.

When she went home that night, Shen Sijing also asked herself this question, could she abandon her son and torture each other for the rest of her life without compromise?But can she really accept that her son is gay without any grievances?

she does not know.

she does not know.

Love can contain everything and demand everything.

It's like she persuaded herself to let go, and hoped that Xu Chichuan would let go first.

This weird balance has continued to this day when it was broken by an unexpected guest.

"aunt."

The man stood in front of her, with a dark windbreaker straight and straight, with deep and distinct browbones, and dark eyes that were bottomless, which made her heart tremble and she couldn't help but take a few steps back.

"haven't seen you for a long time."

"I don't know if I have time. I would like to talk about the old days."

Strong and low, it reminded her of the call to Mu Xingyong that afternoon seven years ago.

After getting into the car, Mu Shihai nodded: "Thank you, Auntie."

The atmosphere in the car was very stuffy, Shen Sijing pulled a sheet and did not speak, and Mu Shihai did not intend to speak, An Xin was in front of the driver, pretending not to see the woman's vigilant eyes.

Until the car drove into the community, Shen Sijing finally couldn't help but ask: "Your house?"

"No," Mu Shihai opened the car door for her, "The name of the house is Xu Chichuan."

The woman's complexion changed, and she stopped talking.

The moment she stepped into the room, Shen Sijing's face became even uglier. The identical slippers in the hallway, the clothes on the sofa, the cups of the same style on the coffee table, and the half-opened chocolate...all of them revealed a strong message—— Before she knew it, not only did Mu Shihai come back, but he also lived with Xu Chichuan for a long time.

She sat on the sofa, straightened her back, caught a glimpse of the little seal that Xu Chichuan took to college, her face was livid, ignored the teacup brought by Mu Shihai, and said coldly, "Where is Xu Chichuan?"

Mu Shihai sat down calmly, and faced her face to face: "Bring the Earl to his classmate's house in Lan Province."

Shen Sijing frowned: "Count?"

"A little Bourne Hill."

Mu Shihai took a sip of tea, crossed his hands on his knees, revealing the yellowed and old bead strings on his wrists, the woman's complexion changed again, it was the small red sandalwood string that Grandma Xu specially asked for from Shi Guitang a long time ago, Xu Chichuan It said that it was sent to someone, but it didn't say who it was sent to.

"When did you come back?"

"months ago."

"It seems like it's been planned for a long time," the woman said mockingly, "If you pester him as soon as you come back, seven years is not enough to make you give up."

"Auntie was joking."

"Strictly speaking, we never broke up," Mu Shihai raised his legs, "after all, neither of us mentioned it."

"Isn't it?"

"so what!"

The tone suddenly rose, like a snake being stepped on seven inches, Shen Sijing was very excited, and spoke more harshly than before: "Whether you admit it or not, from the day you left, the relationship between you is over."

"Really?" Mu Shihai looked directly at her anger, "I don't think so."

"I think you must know better than me about all kinds of things back then." He saw the woman clenched her hands, "and today, I'm not trying to bring up old things again."

"It's for this."

Mu Shihai stood up, and under the gaze of the woman, he slowly lowered his head and bowed deeply.

"sorry."

Shen Sijing was surprised and confused by him.

"In the past seven years, the only mistake I have admitted is falling in love with him prematurely at an incapable age."

He really liked Xu Chichuan too much, but they met too early.

"And Xu Chichuan did some things for me that you can't accept, such as innocuous lies and deceit, but this has nothing to do with him, it's my problem."

"I'm sorry," he bowed again, "I'm sorry."

Shen Sijing was slightly taken aback, with a complicated expression on her face. Such a humble attitude made it hard for her to get angry.

"Actually, what you said back then was correct. According to the universal saying, I was the one who almost destroyed him."

Without him, Xu Chichuan would have followed the usual steps, got into the university he liked, fell in love with a good girl, got married and had children, and lived his life happily and calmly, without having to suffer from illness, and embarked on a full road. It is a way of thorns.

The woman snorted: "It's good that you know."

"Since you know, you shouldn't..."

"But I provoked."

Mu Shihai interrupted her, his eyes were fixed and frighteningly deep.

"There is no word to give up."

Shen Sijing's face changed again, she stood up abruptly, raised her head and looked at him: "I don't agree."

"No matter how much you say, I still say that, no parent would want their son to be with a man."

"You are still young, don't take a momentary impulse as a lifetime love."

"On impulse?" Mu Shihai smiled, "Auntie, do you believe it yourself?"

"Could it be that we have been impulsive for seven years and haven't figured out whether we like it?"

Shen Si was speechless, and said again: "Then what?"

"Compared with the cruelty of the real society, that little liking is insignificant at all. Marriage and having children is the right way. Even the national law does not recognize the legitimacy of two men's love. It is not only useless for you to discuss these issues with me, but also useless." significance."

"If you really love someone, shouldn't you be good for him?"

"Don't you have the heart to watch Xiao Chuan being pointed at and stabbed in the back of his back, saying that he is a psychopath who likes men?"

"Auntie knows you are very good to him," she said earnestly, "then be friends and brothers, won't you?"

Mu Shihai was silent for a long time, so long that Shen Sijing thought he was persuaded by herself, but saw him raise his head again and spit out heavily.

"not good."

People who risk their lives to love are only willing to be friends.

The atmosphere suddenly became tense, and no one would give in after a long time of confrontation. Shen Sijing was angry, but when he was about to explode, he heard a beep, and the door opened.

Both of them turned their heads, and their expressions changed.

The moment he opened the door and saw Shen Sijing, Xu Chichuan felt cold all over, his blood flowed upstream, and he was so dizzy for a moment that he didn't even have the strength to pull the earl's rope.Before Shen Sijing could speak, a cheerful puppy whimpered and ran to her feet, rolling its eyeballs enthusiastically: "This is——"

Mu Shihai locked the dog in the cage, and led Xu Chichuan to stand beside him: "I told you just now, Little Bern Mountain is called Earl."

Xu Chichuan licked his lips, his voice trembling: "Mom."

Shen Sijing looked at him, feeling a little cold: "Is this the classmate's dog you mentioned?"

Sure enough, her child was still lying to her.

Xu Chichuan lowered his head, but Mu Shihai grabbed his hand with a strong look: "Does Auntie think that I'm not a classmate?"

"This is not a concept," Shen Si calmed down, "Don't confuse the public."

"Just right, in front of the two of you, let me explain a little more clearly," the woman said word by word, "I, no, agree, agree."

"I know."

Xu Chichuan raised his head and said softly, "I know."

Known seven years ago.

This expression was too tired, and there was a relief that was so relieved, Shen Sijing's nose was sore, and he shouted: "Xiaochuan."

"Mom," strong despair welled up in those almond eyes, "why... is this the way it is?"

"I like men, so I'm not your child?"

"Could it be that I like men, and it's so sinful that you are ashamed of it?"

"No, no," Shen Sijing became anxious, reaching out to pull him but was avoided, "Mom didn't mean that."

I really wanted to explain, but the way Xu Chichuan looked at her made her unable to utter a word. The eyes were very calm, but it hurt her to see her. It hurt more than seeing him cut his wrists in the hospital that year. Mu Shihai took him away, entered the bedroom and locked the door, and immediately hugged him tightly: "Why did you come back suddenly?"

"Liar," Xu Chichuan thumped him, his voice muffled, "deliberately dismiss me."

"You didn't find out yet," the man kissed his face, "Baby is so smart."

"What should we do now?" He had a headache, "My mother..."

"good."

"trust me."

"She said that all the time."

"Then trust me too."

Mu Shihai was the only one who came out again, his expression was not as easy-going as before, and his brows were a little sharper: "Auntie."

"I'll just say three sentences."

"First, please forgive me. For homosexuals, the biggest obstacles and prejudices are not from society, which can make them feel painful, nor are those unfamiliar good people, but the closest people around them. The first knife to stab them."

Mu Shihai spoke calmly, but Shen Sijing suddenly felt burning in his ears.

"As for what you just said, the pointing and pointing of outsiders does not constitute any trouble at all."

"Because I will protect him for the rest of my life."

The man knocked his hands, his eyes were burning, revealing a look of contemptuous confidence.

"Maybe it was empty talk seven years ago, but now, this is something I can definitely do."

"Let's talk about the second point."

"Tell me the reason why it's up to me." He looked at the woman with a cold look in his eyes, "In the final analysis, you delivered him to me personally."

A thick stack of documents was thrown in front of the woman, and Shen Sijing's pupils shrank suddenly, and her eyes widened in disbelief.

It was full of medical records and diagnosis reports, and a pile of prescriptions for medicines. The time span was from five years ago to last month. Each of them was a sharp nail pierced deeply into the woman's heart, dripping with blood.

The man stared at her expression, and spoke at the right time——

"Xiao Chuan suffers from depression, did you know that?"

she does not know.

The hands holding the medical records were shaking violently, and Mu Shihai continued to worry about her: "Moderate anxiety plus severe depression, long-term insomnia leading to neurasthenia, and other somatic symptoms—Auntie, just guess, What is all this for?"

because of her.

Because she made the first knife to stab Xu Chichuan.

"But don't worry, I just took him for a check-up last week. The doctor said that the drug can be stopped after the Spring Festival, provided that he continues to maintain the current state and cannot be stimulated by anything."

"You can take this as a threat," Mu Shihai said bluntly, "Because no one can cooperate with the treatment except me, and take the medicine obediently."

"The truth is, whether you agree or not, I will not let him go, because I don't care about your attitude towards me at all, and I don't care whether you support me. The reason why I invited you here today is that I have spent a lot of time talking about it. Because of Ogawa."

"The doctor said that half of his depression came from his family."

With a slap, the medical record was wet.

"I wish him well."

"I won't force you, the man's eyes darkened," but with me, regarding Xu Chichuan, there is no word of giving up. "

After speaking, he stood up, stopped looking at her, and turned back to the bedroom.

Seeing him coming in, Xu Chichuan was very nervous: "How is it?"

Mu Shihai patted his head and smiled: "Just wait."

He counted: "Up to five days."

After a long time, there was a sound of closing the door outside, and when he went out again, he found that all the documents on the table were missing. Mu Shihai raised his eyebrows, let the earl out in a good mood, and fed him a large bowl of dog food.

Sure enough, Xu Chichuan received a call on the third day: "Mom."

The other end was silent for a long time, and finally sighed: "Come back at night."

"Take Mu Shihai with you."

Xu Chichuan's eyes widened, and his voice trembled after hanging up the phone: "Brother..."

With tears in his eyes, a salty kiss was accepted, and the man licked away his tears, with a gentleness that was determined to win: "Stupid."

How can I let you down.

But the atmosphere at home was still very tense. Xu Youhua glanced at the two of them, then turned his head and went into the kitchen, but Mu Shihai was very magnanimous, carrying things generously: "A little heart, please accept it."

Not a little at all, two bottles of Moutai, two Chinese and countless New Year's products, and a diamond necklace bought separately, Shen Sijing took a breath, feeling a little embarrassed: "It doesn't cost so much."

"It should be," he said, "It's the first time to meet an elder, it's better to be more formal."

Shen Sijing was dumb, no matter how angry he was, he couldn't find anything wrong with it.

But Xu Youhua still looked very angry, and even Xu Chichuan ignored him when he called him. Fortunately, with Shen Sijing in control, the scene was not too embarrassing, but the man suddenly took out a bottle of white wine during the meal, and said inexplicably: " Can I drink it?"

Pressing Xu Chichuan's restless hand, Mu Shihai looked directly at him and said, "Yes."

Then the two started drinking, every time they clinked glasses Mu Shihai kept it very low, Xu Youhua snorted and said, "It seems that they often socialize."

"Work required."

The man looked at him from beginning to end, his eyes were very rude, Xu Chichuan couldn't help shouting: "Dad—"

Xu Youhua ignored him, lit a cigarette and took a deep breath: "You guys, your family, do you have any objections?"

"You won't make a show of Joe, waiting for my son to come to the door and be a child?"

These words were extremely sharp, and Mu Shihai's face remained unchanged, and said: "Uncle, don't worry, they have no objections."

"Okay," Xu Youhua shook the cigarette ash, "If that day comes, it won't be too late to clean you up."

After drinking for three rounds, the man raised his glass: "To be honest, no matter in the past or now, I don't like or agree with you, and I don't want Xu Chichuan to follow you."

"Not to mention that there is no guarantee for two men to be together. Just your face can cause many troubles."

"Why do you convince me that Xiao Chuan will not suffer or be wronged if he follows you?"

The room fell silent.

"Dad," Xu Chichuan stood up, "I don't need any protection."

"Shut up for me," Xu Youhua glared at him, "I want to listen to him."

So under the watchful eyes of everyone, Mu Shihai took out two documents from the bag he brought, and handed them to the man with both hands.

"By this."

Xu Youhua opened the first one, shook it, his drunken eyes instantly became clear, and his expression couldn't conceal the shock, Xu Chichuan also leaned over curiously, saw the content clearly and shouted out: "What!!!"

Shen Sijing also leaned over, dropped the chopsticks in her hand, and was so shocked that she lost her voice——

It was an English version of the informed consent form for vasectomy, with a Chinese translation attached.

It was signed six years ago.

Six years ago, when he was still in England, Mu Shihai had his vas deferens tied.

Xu Chichuan was the first to react, rushed over and punched him: "You are crazy!!!!"

"What's the matter?" Mu Shihai smiled and held his hand, "What's the problem?"

"You, how could you..."

"Why not?" he said, "you can't have children."

Is this a fucking question of whether he can give birth! !

"Crazy, really crazy," Xu Chichuan murmured, "How could you do this."

Now even Shen Sijing couldn't help but say: "Xiao Hai, this is too..."

"It's nothing, Auntie," Mu Shihai said, "I won't get married, and I won't have children, it doesn't matter if it's tied or not."

"But that was six years ago, what if, what if Xiaochuan didn't wait for you..."

"It's okay." There was calm paranoia between the brows, "If you don't wait, there will be no one else."

There is absolutely nothing to say now.

Then open the second document, which is a will and a stack of same-sex consented guardianship materials. Mu Shihai explained: "When I bought the house I live in now, I wrote Xiao Chuan's name, savings and credit cards. In the hands of Xiao Chuan, I still have some assets in the UK, and I will take him there after the new year, together with Haiyue's shares, do an asset liquidation and then draw up a transfer agreement."

Xu Chichuan was startled: "I don't want it!"

Mu Shihai patted his hand, and continued: "As for the guarantee you mentioned, we will register our marriage in the UK. In the will, I designate Xu Chichuan as the first heir of my property, and there are same-sex consent guardians. It is a legally recognized system, and after signing, I will be his guardian in written form, and when he loses or partially loses his capacity for civil conduct, I will perform guardianship duties and take care of him for the rest of his life."

After speaking, the air fell into silence again. The three people on the table had different expressions and were too shocked to speak.

Shen Sijing was in a complicated mood.

He actually counted everything.

Xu Chichuan's eyes turned red, and he tightly grasped the man's hand. When they parted, Mu Shihai had already made preparations for the future.

Only Xu Youhua, after a long silence, sighed deeply, and picked up the wine glass.

"That's it."

"You... just figure it out."

Mu Shihai also drank it all in one gulp: "Thank you uncle."