gentle fairy tale

Chapter 100 100

Twilight is fading.

The two figures in the room are reflected on the wall by the afterglow of the setting sun, entangled gently.

Yu Mian raised her head slightly, feeling the back of her neck being gently caressed by her callused fingertips.

She opened her eyes, and met Pei Songxi's twinkling eyes that were full of mist, and the end of the eyes was also a little red, but there was a kind of natural charm in the abstinence and desolation.

She intuited that this time was different from the previous one.

But... the clothes were pushed up, and finally pulled down again.

Pei Songxi breathed lightly: "... Mianmian, I'm going down for dinner."

Yu Mian covered her eyes with the palm of her hand, and she spoke after a while, but her voice still had a trembling ending: "I'm angry. And you... I'm not even attractive to you."

Pei Songxi smiled, stretched out his hand to hug her, tied her hair behind her ears, smoothed the corner of her clothes, and said softly: "It's not you...it's me, I really can't do it."

Just now... I remembered that a long time ago, Mianmian waited for her in the corridor until she fell asleep. She carried her back to this room, put her on the bed, and only got up and left after listening to her steady and long breathing.

At that time she was such a small, soft ball.

So a voice told her not to do this, not to do this.

Yu Mian pursed her lower lip, rubbed her chin lightly on her shoulder, and didn't speak for a while.

Until Pei Linmo came to knock on the door: "Dinner...cough cough, I didn't want to disturb you, but my sister-in-law insisted on asking me to come up. I said you..."

He was still talking, when the door suddenly opened.

Pei Songxi looked at him lightly: "What are you talking about?"

Pei Linmo: "...Say, don't say anything!"

Yu Mian let out a chuckle, and was a little nervous when she went downstairs, took a few deep breaths, and then walked down slowly.But everything was better than she expected, and they didn't even ask her a question.

Ding Mei was serving soup to Pei Zhiyuan, no doubt it was the same cliché, she advised him to find a partner quickly.

Pei Zhiyuan got tired of hearing it: "Mom, if you want more people in your family, you can just find one yourself. I don't ask men, women, old or young, as long as you are happy, okay?"

Ding Mei finished speaking, as if thinking of something, she stretched out her hand and slapped him: "How do you talk... What are men, women and children..."

Look at her, she's the kind of person who misses young girls!

Yu Mian pulled out the chair and sat down, sitting opposite Pei Zhiyuan.

Pei Zhiyuan glanced at her quietly, then looked at Pei Songxi, and after a short while, he and Pei Linmo nodded, and they came to the same conclusion: beast.

Ding Mei also had a little toothache.

Look, this is still at home, it looks like I just kissed upstairs, it's true... the old house is on fire, and it's getting hotter and hotter, and I don't know how to restrain myself at home.

Pei Songxi met her gaze: "Sister-in-law?"

Ding Mei coughed lightly, subconsciously looking for a topic: "Cough...it's all right. I just want to ask you, tomorrow is grandma's birthday, what time do you go out in the morning?"

Pei Songxi thought for a while: "Nine o'clock."

Yu Mian was eating, but she gradually stopped when she poked her chopsticks into the bowl.

She was a little dazed, thinking of the rain three years ago, and the words Pei Songxi said to her in the rain.

Not long after, she heard Pei Songxi turn her head and ask softly: "What's wrong?"

Yu Mian turned her head and smiled at her: "It's okay."

The next day.

The sky was clear and the sun was warm.

The private cemetery is cleaned and cleaned by a special person, so it is quiet.

The pines and cypresses on both sides of the road are straight and tall, and they are still green.

In summer, the vegetation is verdant, and there are still a few clear dewdrops hanging on the tip of the leaves, trembling slightly and falling into the soil.

Ding Mei and the others knew that Pei Songxi had the deepest relationship with the old man, so they left first after mourning, leaving Yu Mian here to wait for her.

Pei Songxi looked at the back of them leaving: "It's been three years, don't be so nervous anymore."

Yu Mian also looked at her, and gently held her fingertips: "Aunt Pei...you, do you still remember the question you asked me here?"

Pei Songxi stared at her quietly: "I will wither and fall in the future. Do you really like me like this?"

Yu Mian nodded: "Of course!"

Pei Songxi touched her cheek, with slightly curved lips, looking at her thoughtfully.

Yu Mian pursed her lower lip, and said seriously: "I don't know what time is. I only know my heart."

I want to love you forever.

It is difficult for mortals to talk about eternity, how many passionate loves, but only a moment of brilliance in the end.

But she won't.

She wants to be a person who can shine.

She wants to love her well.

Pei Songxi was amused by the serious look of her puffed cheeks, and couldn't help stretching out her hand to pinch it, it was so soft and comfortable to the touch.

There was also a little more smile in her voice: "Don't be nervous. I don't mean to disbelieve you. It's just that we just happened to talk about this topic."

But Yu Mian threw herself into her arms and hugged her tightly: "I don't know...how can I make you believe me. I..."

Pei Songxi bowed his head and kissed the top of her hair: "Okay, I don't believe you."

Perhaps what she didn't believe from the beginning to the end was just impermanent time.

But now she gradually found peace.

Besides, Mianmian had already told her the answer.

On the way back, Pei Songxi received a call from Zhou Qingyuan.

Zhou Qingyuan said briskly, "Songxi, how have you been recently?"

Pei Songxi smiled: "It's okay, it's fine, what's the matter?"

"The medicine prescribed to you at the beginning of this year has recently been revealed to be a problem with the raw materials of the manufacturer. Have you taken it?"

Pei Songxi pressed the phone in: "No. Don't worry. I'm driving and I'll be home soon. I'll talk about it later."

She quickly hung up the phone.

Yu Mian turned her head: "Who is it?"

She seemed to hear what the other party was talking about...

"A friend, I'll take you to meet another day."

"Is it the one you've known for many years?"

Pei Songxi smiled and nodded: "That's right. We've known each other since middle school."

Yu Mian's eyes lit up: "I want to see her. I want to know what Pei Xiaoxi was like in middle school!"

Pei Songxi just parked the car in the garage and rubbed her hair: "...What Pei Xiaoxi."

Yu Mian didn't take her fake seriousness seriously, hooked her fingers, and asked repeatedly:

"Do you still have your photo from middle school?"

"Is it the one in school uniform?"

"It should be the most beautiful one in the crowd!"

"Please, Aunt Pei! I want to see what Pei Xiaoxi looks like!"

Pei Songxi was tortured to no avail by her, but she still refused to let go: "No... Mianmian, there's nothing to watch, so I won't watch it."

Yu Mian was a little disappointed, it was rare for her to have a small temper, and she refused to stay in the living room with her: "I want to be alone later, I'm angry."

She puffed her cheeks and said solemnly that she was still so cute when she was angry.

Pei Songxi looked at her with warmth in his eyes: "Then you go up first, and I'll make some tea."

Yu Mian turned around and went upstairs, in order to look angry, she deliberately made her footsteps very loud, making a bang bang sound on the stairs.

But that person was still unmoved, he just refused to show her the photos from middle school.

She went directly into Pei Songxi's room.

Since... since she started sleeping here, she rarely went back to her room, and always stayed here.

The quilt in the room was neatly folded, and there was a black underwear on the bedside.

Her ears turned red, she turned her eyes away, and reached out to fiddle with the small silver lock on the bedside cabinet, as if remembering something, she ran back to the room and took a small silver key.

It was given to her by Pei Songxi before. Wherever she is, take this key with her.

The sound of a teapot boiling came from the living room downstairs.

Yu Mian knew that she still had a little time, she thought for a while, and then gently turned the key.

She shouldn't have done this.

But she knows that if she doesn't do this, there are some things that she may never know for the rest of her life.

She reached out, pulled the lock off, and gently opened the drawer.

There are two rows of white medicine bottles neatly arranged in the drawer, and the lids are labeled, which should record the date of opening.

It is its rigorous master and consistent style of doing things.

These medicine bottles were divided into two groups, and the bottle caps of the inner group were a little yellow, which seemed to be a long time ago.

Yu Mian picked up a bottle, looked at the date on the label, and found that it had been more than ten years.There is still medicine in the bottle, and when you shake it slightly in your hand, you can hear the crisp sound of the pill hitting the wall of the bottle.

The date on the set of medicine bottles outside is much closer. The earliest bottle was about three or four years ago, and the latest date...was half a year ago.

Yu Mian gently held her breath.

She seems to have discovered a secret.

She took out her mobile phone and searched the names of the medicines on the medicine bottle one by one. The more she looked down, the more her heart felt pinched, and she couldn't breathe for a long time.

Until she forced herself to look away, her eyes fell in mid-air, but gradually lost focus.

It turned out to be the case.

It turned out to be so...

After Pei Songxi made tea, he squeezed another cup of fresh orange juice and brought it up. As soon as he walked to the door of the room, he heard a soft breathing sound from inside.

She slightly raised her eyebrows, pushed the door open, and saw Yu Mian sitting on the floor next to the bed, her swan-like white and soft neck drooping, and the phone screen in her palm was dark.

She put down the cup and walked over quickly: "Mianmian?"

Hearing her voice, Yu Mian raised her head.

What caught her eyes was a face full of tears: "You don't even tell me."

Pei Songxi was stunned for a moment, but subconsciously looked at the bedside... Sure enough, the drawer was opened, and the medicine bottles with labels were moved, not so tidy.

Yu Mian asked her softly: "When I saw it that time, you said it was all right, it was just because of insomnia."

Pei Songxi gently embraced her shoulders, and comforted her softly: "It's okay... It's okay, it's over, I'm fine."

Yu Mian stared at her, the water in her eyes gathered again, and her voice was choked up: "Why do you say it's okay...don't say it's okay. I don't know, I don't know anything."

Pei Songxi pursed her lower lip and didn't speak for a while, just patted her on the back lightly.

Yu Mian's tears fell more and more fiercely, and she couldn't stop, she held the key tightly: "You said that you gave me the key, and you won't take medicine anymore, you promised me at that time. For so many years, I have taken it with me everywhere, and I thought I couldn’t let you take it back, as long as I take it away, you will be fine.”

Pei Songxi was hit by her tears.

She didn't expect what happened so long ago. At that time, Mianmian was still so young, and she always remembered what she said casually. The key she handed her... was still carried with her.

She leaned over, kissed the tears off her cheeks, and sighed lowly: "It's my fault... I always have two keys in my hand. But I didn't expect, I didn't expect to Open it again. Don't worry too much, okay. I remembered it for a long time after I promised you, so I didn't touch it. Until a few years ago..."

Yu Mian choked up in a low voice: "Why is this happening?"

Why did it happen a few years ago, when the relationship between them was completely freezing?

Pei Songxi couldn't answer her question.

There was a long silence in the room.

It took a long time before Yu Mian managed to sort out her emotions, and apologized to her in a low voice: "I'm sorry. Aunt Pei, it's my fault."

Pei Songxi looked at her tenderly: "What does it have to do with you, Mianmian."

Yu Mian bit her lip, but said nothing.

There were still a few teardrops on her eyelashes, which were trembling and foggy.

Her gaze continued to turn to the drawer, to the calendar next to it, and she took it out before Pei Songxi could speak: "What is this?"

Pei Songxi wanted to say something, but Yu Mian had already seen a few words written on the front page, which was her notebook to record the time of taking medicine.

There is a sentence written on the title page: I may want everything, the darkness that swirls endlessly every time, and the horrifying brilliance that rises with every step[Note].

Yu Mian looked at her, her dark eyes were crystal clear, and she was very firm: "I want to see."

Pei Songxi couldn't refuse her, and nodded slightly: "...you see."

Yu Mian let out a long sigh of relief, and then slowly opened the calendar, on which the time was circled with black and red pens.

At first, I just circled it with a pen, but later I wrote a lot of words beside it.

"I held a parent-teacher meeting for Mianmian today."

"I went to see Mianmian dancing."

"Promise her to come skiing in the future."

"It's been a long time since I took her to ride a horse."

"Promise her to teach her how to play billiards."

"Mianmian was scared by a text. Promise her that I will always be here."

"Mianmian's birthday. No medicine is allowed."

"Remember to send her Happy New Year; control your emotions."

All these dates circled with a black signature pen, with a line of small characters written in red pen next to them, are related to her.

The days circled are all people who wrote this line, reminding themselves to be alert to drug dependence all the time.

She was like the thread holding her down.

At the beginning, there were relatively few circled notes. She saw that Pei Songxi recorded the date when she took the medicine, and avoided these time points by recording, and controlled the frequency of taking the medicine; later, it gradually decreased, until half a year ago, all The writing all disappeared.

Yumian's breath froze.

The time node she set for herself turned out to be like this.

She didn't know how much willpower she had spent to get to this point.

Using the time they spent together as the latitude and longitude, she reconstructed her universe, step by step, pulling herself out of the quagmire of emotions.

She came out of the darkness by herself and went to Yongzhou University to see her.

Yu Mian still remembers her gentle and smiling eyes in the audience, but she doesn't know...it turns out that she walked out of the infinitely falling darkness step by step.

Yu Mian suddenly hated herself very much.

How could she let her spend such a long time alone?

What about her at that time?

She was walking around in all over the world, but only... alone was not by her side.