Inferior dominance

Chapter 77 I Don't Want to Blame the Servant

At that time, I was doing the last rehearsal before the performance. It just so happened that the official actor of this role had something to do at home, so it was a matter of course that I played for him in this rehearsal.

Maybe on the day of the official performance, I will be the one on stage.

This is a rare good opportunity, maybe I was happy within the first minute when I learned about it, but soon I realized that if I went to find my third brother that night, then this opportunity would not have fallen to me on the head.

I can't say I'm happy or worried, at most I feel a little complicated, I seem to have completely taken my emotions out of my body, I only know that the fifth sister will be watching this rehearsal, this is my first This is the first time a more formal "show" will be held in front of family and friends.

So, when the phone call came and the news of my third brother's suicide came to my ears through the receiver, all the messages in my mind were smashed in an instant, as if I lost the ability to understand the other party's words in an instant. Abilities, such as spinning the sky and shaking the earth, are actually not very appropriate in my opinion. I just feel that the world suddenly fell into an endless silence.

It was so quiet, so quiet that even my ears hurt, and everything around me became empty.

At this time, the actor who had just left the stage touched my shoulder and forcibly pulled me back into the real world. He told me with his eyes that it was time for me to appear on stage.

It's ok, it's just a rehearsal, I've practiced it countless times at home, and it'll be fine.

I can't tell you what it was like. I seemed to have forgotten the news of my third brother's accident in an instant. When I walked to the stage, I saw the only small audience at the end of the auditorium—the fifth sister who was hiding in the shadows and looked over with bright eyes. I remember On the way to the theater, I told her to watch my performance with full attention, and to give me appropriate suggestions later, and I...

Thoughts were complicated, and it was no longer me standing on the stage at that time, but a body with the only remaining instincts in my body. Maybe I should be thankful that I have practiced these lines countless times in the audience, so The skillful performance made the director not notice my emotional emptiness, so I just walked on the stage like that, feeling that the auditorium in front of me was full of people at one moment, at one moment I only saw Wumei, and at the next moment I seemed to see me again. The brothers and sisters of the Yu family and the fathers were all sitting in the auditorium, and Ji Xiao, who was standing beside the father, they all came to watch my first performance.

Third brother, when it's time to applaud, he always drums the most vigorously. It should be the first time he has seen my performance, no wonder he put on such a flattering appearance. If I don't perform well, how can I be worthy of him?

A few hours seemed like an instant to me. The curtain call during the rehearsal didn't have to be so solemn, but the senior standing next to me later said that I was too involved in the play, and when I bowed to the audience, I bleed. Tears come.

"Is this your first official performance on stage? Don't be nervous." He comforted me like this.

And how can I answer him?All I can say is, okay, thank you teacher.

When I walked out of the theater, it was already dark. Looking at the dark blue sky, I felt that the air outside was extremely thin. Everything that happened just now was like a dream. Did I really have a performance?Did I really get that call?

I guess it should be my illusion, otherwise why would I be unable to cry?

Fifth Sister ran up to me from the theater. Looking at her smiling face, I seemed to have found another reason not to cry.

I had to continue "acting", because I didn't know how to explain to Fifth Sister that her brother should have just got married a few days ago and entered a new life smoothly.

I just stroked the girl's hair with a smile and asked her what she wanted to eat tonight. She said that she didn't want to eat in restaurants outside and wanted to cook with me. I smiled helplessly and just said: "Okay , I listen to you."

When Fifth Sister is in a good mood, she always chatters. Most of the time, I would listen carefully to every word she said, and respond at any time. I should be very happy to hear her praise, but in fact My heart is numb, as if I can't feel joy and sadness at all.

What did Fifth Sister mention later?I forgot, forgive me for not listening carefully, I was just thinking about the possibilities.

If I hadn't been caught by Ji Xiao that day, but had rushed over overnight, wouldn't this matter have never happened.

If I hadn't listened to Ji Xiao and elder brother's words, followed the agreement with my third brother and attended his wedding, would there be another possibility.

I know that the occurrence of some things is actually predetermined, just like Ji Xiao will never really let me leave there no matter what, in fact there are no ifs, but these ifs just hover in my heart like that, and they cannot be erased no matter what.

"Brother Deng?" Fifth Sister's voice brought me back to my senses, "What's wrong with you? Why do you seem to be a little absent-minded?"

"Oh, sorry, it's just a little distracting." I smiled, "I'm listening, you said you read a new novel recently."

The attention of young girls is easy to be diverted, and soon Fifth Sister focused her energy on telling me about that magical novel.

"I really think it's a coincidence that what happened in this book is similar to ours! I guess it was written by brother Ah Cheng. Tell me, will brother Ah Cheng still write books in his spare time, haha Ha ha."

I smiled absent-mindedly, Fifth Sister, who was completely immersed in another world, didn't seem to notice my little distraction.

Sorry Fifth Sister, Brother originally wanted to listen to you carefully.

But it was probably because my state was really different from usual, and Fifth Sister still found out when it was dinner time.

She asked me carefully, what happened?

I said, no, it was just a stressful day and I was too tired.

She froze for a moment and said, okay.Eyebrows drooped, like a lost kitten.

I looked at her, "Don't get me wrong, my brother didn't find you annoying, it's just that I stayed up all night to practice the script last night. I was too tired and wanted to rest."

She looked into my eyes and finally smiled slowly.

This day, I left Wumei's house 10 minutes earlier than usual.

I staggered into the door of my house with no expression on my face. The room was empty. I didn't turn on the light, but went straight to the bedroom and threw myself hard on the soft mattress.

I have forgotten how I shed my first tear.

I just remember that it took less than 10 minutes to cry silently at the beginning, to cover my eyes and couldn't stop, and finally couldn't help sobbing.

The phone has rang countless times, either Ji Xiao or Ji Xiao's subordinates, and it is likely to be Dong Siyuan... I lay on the bed and let it vibrate persistently. I didn't want to make any moves, just wanted to move This hard-earned quiet time is given to myself, so that my mind can be quiet, quiet...

When I woke up the next day, I felt a little hot in front of my eyes. I realized that my eyelids were swollen due to crying. I ran to the bathroom to see that it was true, and because of this, my whole body showed an extremely tired, swollen and ugly appearance. Fortunately, today is a holiday, so I don't have to bring this face to meet anyone I don't know well.

Maybe I should make a phone call with Ji Xiao to confirm the status of the third brother. When will his body be transported back to the country?Or was he sent directly to the country where he originally lived to be buried directly with his wife?

After a short escape, I had to face it. When I walked to the living room with unsteady steps, I found a person sitting on the sofa who I was having a headache about how to negotiate.

I don't remember when I invited him, and the anger that rushed to my head for a moment made me feel like I was alive again.

"How did you get in?" After asking, I realized that what I was talking about was nonsense. It's not that I haven't learned how to pick a robber's lock in the past, let alone moved to this place where both the door and the lock are even simpler. The place.

"If you don't answer the phone, I'll come." Ji Xiao's current state is not as domineering as before. At this moment, he looks at me with a sense of guilt that I am unfamiliar with.

"Remember to knock on the door when you come in next time. You are breaking into a private house like this, understand?"

Uncharacteristically, Ji Xiao didn't come back immediately this time, "Yu Jingcheng's body will arrive in China tomorrow, and I will send someone to deal with his funeral as soon as possible. I came here today to ask your opinion, whether to bury him in China or not?" ..."

It’s okay to take this opportunity to talk about something serious, and I sat on the sofa opposite him, “When I called earlier, he said that he wanted to be buried with his wife in the cemetery near that villa.” I didn’t expect to talk to him again. I feel ironic that Ji Xiao talked calmly because of this.

"Okay." Ji Xiao nodded, agreeing.

"Let me take care of it," I said without waiting for him to say anything else, "I also took care of Ms. Lin's affairs before, so it can be regarded as... I have a little experience." The corners of my lips were hooked, and it was not a joke. joke.

"Sorry." After a moment of silence, Ji Xiao gave an answer that I expected but made me feel unreasonable, "If you mean that you go abroad to host, I can't agree, but if you keep Domestically, I will not have any opinion."

At this moment, I don't know how to be angry. I can't be there in person for my third brother's burial?I just wanted to call him absurd and tell him to get out, but seeing his ashen face, I didn't know what to say.

"Or you can hand over this matter to your elder brother." Ji Xiao finally raised his head and looked directly into my eyes, "You already know, right? He's returned to China."

Sure enough, it seems that I guessed right, Ji Xiao and Big Brother, these two seemingly sworn enemies, seem to have reached some unknown negotiation in private.

"I can't do this." Thinking of the last phone call with my third brother, I knew that if I handed over this matter to the eldest brother's people, it might be cruel to him, "And his wife, arrange them Buried together...I'll take care of it."

For a while, I felt a little ridiculous, why am I starting to be handy with this kind of thing now?Now he is the third brother, who will he be in the future?brother?Ji Xiao?

"There is still a letter in his cabin. It is probably his will. I think it is for you. Tomorrow, someone will deliver it to you." Ji Xiao lowered his eyes, which is really rare, the first time I saw it With such a "obedient" appearance, "Ran Deng, I want to say sorry for this matter."

"If you do it again, would you change your mind?" I asked him without emotion.

He looked at me, thought for a few seconds, and shook his head very firmly again.

I knew it, the corners of my lips curled up, and I smiled, "You don't need to apologize, it's not your fault, even if I went there that night, I still couldn't dial his phone number, and the time when the ship was docked at the pier was not It will be half a minute earlier."

There are no ifs in this world, things happen in a coherent and fixed way, and we cannot single out a bad result to blame a specific person, because this is the result of all choices working together.

"It's okay, Ji Xiao."