[Comprehensive] Jinmu Rebirth

Chapter 537 Black Tears

A week later.

There were muffled panting sounds in the bedroom.

Under the intense hunger feeling every time, Kaneki Ken clenched his lower lip hard, hallucinations appeared in front of his eyes from time to time, his hands and feet were cold, he had a premonition that he was not far from the critical point of losing his mind.

The taste of blood flowed into the mouth.

Sweet and satisfying.

The cramped and frenzied stomach eased a little.

He was startled suddenly, a moment of trance appeared on his face, and then there was a twist of crying and laughing.

Yes.

Mr. Yueshan said that when he was seriously injured and on the verge of starving to death, he survived by eating his own meat, and he also claimed that the taste of his own meat was unexpectedly delicious.

Can't eat humans, can't eat ghouls, and ordinary food can't satisfy his hunger.

The only way he could fill his stomach—

Even if it is drinking poison to quench thirst, try once to see if it can be solved.

Kaneki Ken raised his arm, placed it in front of his eyes, closed his eyes, and took the first bite.

Familiar pain arose in a sensitive body.

"At this point, how could I be afraid of pain, if I can survive by eating myself... so what if I become a ridiculous Ouroboros..."

【don't want! 】

A horrified scream sounded in the spiritual world.

It was too late to stop.

The super regenerative ability of "Dragon" instantly restores the wound, and at the same time, the flesh and blood rich in RC cells enter the stomach, filling the stomach's desire for flesh and blood.

All this, perfectly rounding out the dire situation of self-sufficiency.

Kaneki Ken smiled abruptly.

He laughed extremely sadly and freely, and his voice echoed in the room, like a demon wandering the world late at night.

"My body has become even more of a monster."

Found a way.

Why is it so difficult to be a human being? What is hidden in his body...

seven in the morning.

The servant brought the food upstairs again, and put the breakfast on the table without hope.

Shendai Lishi sat up straight, ready to start.

Suddenly, the door of Jin Muyan's room was pushed open, and he came out slowly, looking pale, sitting in the small living room, ignoring God Dai Lishi, and silently ate the human food that Hexiu's family had prepared for him.

Goddai Lishi was surprised for a second and laughed, "Have you figured out what?"

next moment.

Her smiling face froze on her face, she turned her head suddenly, and looked at the bedroom where Kaneki Ken was staying before.

Over there, there was a strong smell of blood.

"Are you bleeding?!"

This kind of smell, Shendai Lishi will never forget it after smelling it once, it is the extremely delicious blood of the one-eyed ghoul.

Kaneki Ken said indifferently: "It's just a little blood."

He continued to eat the human breakfast as usual, but his lips turned pale, as if recovering from a serious illness.

Goddai Lishi thought that he was starved like that, and after a few glances, he confirmed that the other party was intact, and he might have injured himself while experiencing the torture of hunger.

"This...do you want to eat?"

Kamitorishi hesitantly pointed to the food on the other plate.

Kaneki Ken's movements stopped.

As if he hadn't seen ghoul meat for many years, he quietly looked at the food exuding a tempting smell.

Shendai Lishi felt that he must be hungry, and said narrowly: "Eat what you want."

Kaneki-ken smiled.

"no need."

He rejected the other party's offer.

God Dai Lishi's breathing stagnated, and he couldn't describe this smile in words.

It's like the skin's nerves are all dead, but because of its special will, the facial muscles show a "smile" appearance.

Those black-gray pupils that once revealed gentleness still contained death and madness.

She avoided the look, her fingers trembling.

"If you don't eat it, don't eat it. Anyway, you like to eat human food. I'll ask the kitchen to bring more..."

Kamdai Rise found an excuse to evacuate the room.

In the room, Ken Kaneki withdrew his smile, tearing open the bread in his hand with a cold expression, stuffing it into his mouth, and chewing as if completing a mechanical movement.

After a while, he covered his lips.

The nausea was so strong that he almost spat out the human food.

After restraining this sense of repulsion, Kaneki Ken looked at the other plates on the table. Godarishi ate "tender vegetables", while the one placed near him was ghoul meat.

His fists were clenched, and his face became even more pale.

"It does not matter……"

I can hold on to myself.

Kaneki Ken was about to get up and go out, when the door was opened unexpectedly, and He Xiu Changji, who hadn't gone to work on Monday morning, walked in from outside.

After He Xiu Changji came in, he only glanced at the table and then at him.

"What did you eat?"

"..."

Kaneki Ken looked back at him sarcastically, didn't he see the human food in front of him?

He Xiu Changji took a deep breath and endured his doubts and solemnity.

"Yan, tell grandpa—what the hell did you eat? I can't believe you're not hungry."

"I disappointed you, I didn't eat anyone."

It's okay not to say long sentences, but when he opened his mouth, Jin Muyan's voice was like someone who hadn't drank water for a few days, so dry and hoarse, it seemed that a knife had been grinded in his throat.

He Xiu Changji walked in front of him, Kaneki Ken looked at him indifferently and coldly.

The grandfather and grandson are like enemies.

He and Xiu Changji felt the gap between them.

"research."

The eyes of the person being called were not as bright as before, as if gray had covered the original pupils.The face that always smiles at Hexiu Changji seems to be covered with frost, so cold that there is no trace of warmth. It seems that the experience of growing up in Hexiu's family in the past three years has been erased.

He Xiu Changji didn't believe it.

How could a person who likes to call him "Grandpa" after losing his memory and rely on him from the bottom of his heart completely abandon his family affection and stand on the opposite side of him and be hostile to him.He believes that the essence will not change, and Kaneki Ken is far less heartless than he shows.

Kaneki Ken looked indifferent under He Xiu Changji's gaze, trying to distract himself and let himself remember how the other party forced him to accept the crime.

But the ghoul's excellent eyesight made him notice the dimples on the old man's face and his dry eyelids, which looked no different from ordinary old people.

He is older than three years ago.

The chief speaker of the CCG spent three years cultivating and training, breaking his bottom line of not being cannibalistic, and ruining the happiness he has carefully guarded since his rebirth.

Kaneki Ken's eyes were dry, and he blinked subconsciously.

Inexplicable.

A black tear fell.

In his left eye, black teardrops overflowed from the eye socket, slipped from the corner of the eye, and flowed on the pale cheek, like the pain and struggle that he had not spoken these days.

Ken Kaneki looked at the tears on his finger in confusion and anger.

what is this?

How could he cry!

On the other side of him, He Xiu Changji fell silent unexpectedly, staring at him fixedly.

Kaneki Ken couldn't bear such a situation, stopped wiping, turned his head and walked to his bedroom.

He Xiu Changji stood behind him and said in an old voice.

"stop."

Kaneki Ken didn't listen.

He Xiu Changji only felt the nerves on his forehead throbbing. After living for so long, no one except Kaneki Ken could get him so angry, "If you dare to take another step, I'll—"

Before finishing this sentence, Kaneki Ken turned around as if he was irritated.

"What else do you want!"

His vision went black.

Forcing his unharmed body, he fell into an embrace.

He Xiu Changji hugged him, not letting him escape from his sight.He opened his grandson's sleeve little by little, and looked at the clean arm above which seemed to have no problem.

However, the skin to be researched should be soft skin with a healthy color, not such a pale and ugly skin color that cannot be seen as a living person.

He has seen all kinds of people and encountered all kinds of bizarre things in his life.

Only this time, he was surprised and saddened.

"You ate yourself."

According to family records, only when the body is extremely weak and affects the lifespan will the ghoul's body show signs of shedding black tears.

Generally, before such signs appear, ghouls will hunt prey instinctively.

No ghoul has ever starved to death.

He Xiu Changji felt an unprecedented exhaustion in his heart, all his plans fell through, and he understood his father's feeling of powerlessness when he treated Nagara Jie back then.

"Yan, are you hating grandpa?"

"..."

Kaneki Ken's body was terribly stiff when he was discovered.

"Choose the way of death to get revenge on me?" He Xiu Changji's words were bleak, and his fingers touched the weak pulse on the side of Jin Muyan's neck, "I think you really succeeded. I have never experienced such a bad feeling in my life. You let I felt as if I had dropped something that was most important to me."

He lowered his head, his eyes were as deep as ever, but there was a touch of heavy regret.

"Would it help if I told you 'I'm sorry'?"

"Kanekiken."

Kaneki Ken's eyes widened and his brain buzzed, he never thought he would hear such words from the other party.

Show weakness?

Apologize?

Who is this person holding him...

How could the old man who locked him in Hexiu Mansion at the beginning and looked down at him trying to climb out of the gate condescendingly apologize for what he did?

"I……"

His breathing was chaotic again, and he didn't know how to answer.

Severe pain in the head.

Kaneki Ken smelled the family-like scent on his body, it was so warm... just like the impression his mother left on him... and that powerful Hezi breath, his suppressed appetite was about to move, and there seemed to be a dragon opening its fangs in his mind .

He was in the other party's arms, looking at He Xiu Changji in a daze.

So hungry.

He Xiu Changji's body tensed, feeling something, let his grandson approach his cheek, opened his mouth slightly as if kissing him, and pressed his teeth against his cheek.

He didn't let go of Kaneki Ken's body.

The old man looked at his grandson licking and biting his flesh with pity and calmness. Even though the nerves in his face twitched from pain and his skin was torn, it still couldn't change the determination of the chief speaker.

"Go away!"

Kaneki Ken lost his consciousness for a second, and suddenly woke up and shouted.

He couldn't believe that he lost control so easily. He clearly devoured his own flesh and blood, but how could he still feel hungry for the flesh and blood of others.

He pushed away and Xiu Changji with the remaining strength, and Xiu Changji stepped back, hit the edge of the table, covered half of his bleeding face, the vase on the table rolled down, and the dinner plate and food hit the ground.

Heshu Changkichi's kimono sleeves were wet with blood.

The smell of blood spread.

Kaneki Ken's pupils trembled constantly, and his left eye turned into He's eye in a state of eating.

A large swath of blood stains like ink dots began to appear in front of his eyes, covering his vision, as if to blind his cognition, so that he could no longer see the reality clearly.

No!

Don't lose your mind anymore!

He stuck to the wall, kept a distance from He Xiu Changji, restrained his appetite in pain.

"You are hungry……"

He Xiu Changji frowned, watching Kaneki Ken's every move clearly, this time he went to see the discarded device, really pushed Ken to the limit.

His original intention was to break through and build up, not to further collapse Ken's spirit.

Once the dragon is released, it can destroy the entire Tokyo!

At such a critical juncture, Hexiu Changji did not immediately take emergency measures, but used the aura of Hexiu's patriarch to restrain Kaneki Ken, and asked his grandson abnormally: "In addition to the difference in food and lifestyle, human beings are different from each other. Is there any difference between ghouls?"

【No. 】

Kaneki Ken's mind is intertwined with reason and chaos, but the answer has already emerged.

The friendship in the antique coffee shop and the family affection in the Yueshan family, all these prove that they are no different from human beings, they are all creatures with seven emotions and six desires.

He Xiu Changji got the answer from his non-denial, took a step forward, and crossed the dangerous line.

"So, is there any difference between criminal ghouls and criminal humans?"

"..."

Kaneki Ken was aware of his intention, desperately unable to find a place to refute, sharp pain burst out, like a fragmented cognition.

[Still no. 】

"You can eat sinful ghouls, or ghouls you don't know, why don't you want to touch a human being? Could it be that in your heart, the evil deeds of human beings are not evil deeds?"

He Xiu Changji said from an objective standpoint.

Two consecutive questions were thrown, and the bottom line of Kaneki Ken's heart was bloody dug out.

He doesn't eat people because he was once a human being.

He wants to be human - so he doesn't eat his own kind, but only those who are psychologically repulsive.

"Don't say any more."

Kaneki Ken looked at his ruined cheeks, his lips squirmed, but his voice was too weak to withstand a single blow.

Such a weak self.

The choices I made were counterproductive, I repeated the same mistakes, and I was so sad that I looked hideous... How is it different from the self who was tortured by the gecko back then.

He Xiu Changji smiled suddenly, and took out a photo from a long time ago from under his sleeve.

It was a picture of a woman's wound.

"Yan, in order to get rid of Li Shi, you deliberately pretended to be a ghoul... bit the female assistant next to the writer, and faked the incident of the ghoul attacking people."

"How did you come up with this method? Most people wouldn't think of it."

After he finished speaking, his gaze was so sharp that it seemed that he could cut through Kaneki Ken's heart hidden in the corner.

"you."

"Eat humans."

Kaneki Ken's throat was blocked and he completely lost his voice.

Ghouls who extremely reject human flesh usually have either suffered from psychological shadows, or put their own views of good and evil above any material needs, like a saint walking in the world.

It's a pity that He Xiu Changji doesn't think Kaneki Ken has this level of willpower.

Before no one taught the instinct of ghouls, or earlier, when children were hungry and stumbled in human society looking for food to fill their stomachs...

He must have voluntarily eaten human flesh!

"I almost forgot." He Xiu Changji half-closed his eyes, put down his hand trying to stop the bleeding, and ignored the shocking bite marks on his face, "Before you were four years old, your father fed you "tender vegetables." ’, he has a channel for this, and your mother fed you dead human flesh from the hospital, and you rarely show signs of predation when you grow up, which means you may still be eating dead human flesh.”

Ken Kaneki lowered his head, his bangs covered half of his face, making it difficult to see the specific expression.

The tyrannical aura stopped at this moment.

Tears welled up on his chin.

He Xiu Changji didn't elaborate any further, and the step of questioning had already reached the end.

He bent down to find a piece of meat from the still clean plate on the table, walked up to Jin Muyan, put it on the other's lips, and met those ashen eyes.

"Yan, the food is selected from the death row prisoners, everyone is a heinous crime."

"Eat."

"I let you go back to CCG and live the life you want."

At this moment, something broke in Kaneki Ken's soul.

In the depths of his pupils, because of the departure of himself and Yongjin Yingliang in He Bao's consciousness, the world of Bana flowers that disappeared together seemed to be blooming again with the cold and luxuriant Bana flowers.

When the wind was strong, clusters of Bana flowers grew on the banks of the River Styx, and the petals of Bana flowers floated on the river surface.

He Xiuyan hugged Kaneki Ken who was crying from behind.

He leaned on Jin Muyan's shoulder, opened his eyes, and the sight of Bana flowers was not as bright red as his pupils.If Kanekiken is symbolized by Higanka, then his symbol is the dragon that devours everything.

If there are eighteen layers of hell.

They went down together to stand trial.

Looking at his soft white hair, He Xiuyan felt distressed for no reason, but for the sake of each other's future, he said softly: [Eat, you will have a future if you live. 】

Whether it is happiness or misfortune, there is nothing in life that cannot be overcome.

【I remember now……】

Kaneki Ken opened his mouth, his eyes were dead silent.

He has eaten many humans. During the days when the gecko tortured him, the gecko forced him to eat a lot of meat to repair his body. The meat was not ghouls, but his past kind.

not only that.

On the first day when he turned into a ghoul, Dong Xiang stuffed meat into his mouth, and later he also bit the human investigator in order to defeat Amon Kotaro.

In the end, he also ate Ying's flesh and blood.

Many years ago, he transformed from a human into a ghoul.

[I am a ghoul. 】

Kaneki Ken touched and cultivated his eyes, just like looking at his adult self in the mirror.

When the human Kaneki Ken was led into the alley by Ms. Lishi, his abdomen was severely injured, and the moment he watched the steel bars fall——

already dead.