light lemongrass

Chapter 144 I Hope You Remember Me

Yun Xi didn't pay attention to the fragile shaking in Ziyang's eyes, and didn't understand why Ziyang answered so firmly.The pain in the ankle was no longer as strong as before, Ziyang's hand was very light and gentle, accidentally touching the skin was so warm that Yunxi was afraid that the ice cube would melt in his palm.Looking at Ziyang in front of him, whether it was Ziyang before or now, no matter whether he remembers himself or not, he always feels at ease and at ease by his side. As long as he is by his side, he will not be afraid of anything.Covering Ziyang's hand, Yun Xi suddenly realized that her hand was stained with Chu Mu's blood, and she quickly retracted it before it was too late.He still let that clean and beautiful hand be stained with dirty blood.With his hands shrunk to his chest, his back curled up in awe, a pair of restless baby eyes stared blankly at the place he had soiled.

Ziyang, who used to be clean, couldn't tolerate even the slightest stains.The back of the hand was stained with a dazzling bright red, as if it was about to invade the skin and seep into the bone.Sensitive sense of smell suddenly smelled the tangy blood, thinking that he would be disgusted and disgusted, and then Lima went to the bathroom to wash with disinfectant. ...However, those self-righteous thoughts were easily left behind. Serious cleansing was always drowned out before this boy had time to take effect. Looking at him who was a little flustered,

"what happened?"

"I'm sorry, Ziyang, I got your hands dirty." Yun Xi lowered her head, her chin almost resting on her knees, her thin eyelashes drooping slightly trembling under her eyelids.Annoyance and apology enveloped his whole body.

Yun Xi's obvious self-blame made Zi Yang very uncomfortable, his brows could not help but knit together, he didn't like that he was so timid and even guilty towards him.While he was not paying attention, he held the bloody hand and rubbed it on his clothes regardless of his shock.

"Zi Yang?!" Yun Xi wanted to take back his hand, but Zi Yang grabbed his hand so hard that he couldn't move and could only watch Zi Yang wipe the blood on his hands with his own clothes, such beautiful clothes , such a pure color, such an elegant and noble Ziyang, no one can desecrate and defile the person.Yun Xi's eyes were already red, "Zi Yang, it will get dirty. Zi Yang, I can do it by myself, Zi Yang..."

Ignoring him at all, Ziyang still stubbornly wiped the blood stains on his hands for him. After wiping one hand, he held the other. The shattered shards.Ziyang opened his mouth and said, with a seemingly non-existent smile on the corner of his mouth,

"That's all right, I'm dirtier than you."

"Huh?" Yun Xi was stunned, momentarily at a loss for words.His hand was already warmed by Ziyang.The white skin was exposed, and the cleanliness of the past was restored.It's just that there is still a sudden bloodstain on the back of Ziyang's hand, which is so annoying.In the next second, Yun Xi moved her body, trying to follow Zi Yang's example and use her own clothes to wipe the stains on the back of his hands for him.But I couldn't reach it, so I had to use my sleeves, which was clumsy and awkward.Even Ziyang felt that the hunched back was trembling in the wide pajamas, imitating his own appearance jerky but with a heart-wrenching persistence.It hit the bottom line of his heart.Originally, it was already too weak to withstand a single blow, but now it just collapsed completely.Withdrawing his hand from his palm, he rubbed him into his arms vigorously to stop him from doing anything, holding his arms tightly as if he would disappear in front of his eyes if he was not careful, and the soft hair was as soft as silk on his neck.The faint lemon fragrance floats into the air, mixed with oxygen, you can smell it as soon as you inhale.In the end who reassures whom, who gives stability to whom.

The quilt Ziyang suddenly hugged him, and the hands wrapped around his arms so hard that he almost couldn't breathe.It was the first time that Ziyang was hugged in such a forceful quilt.The heart was beating so fast that it almost jumped out of the mouth, and the cheek against Ziyang's chest was already covered with a layer of blush, but fortunately Ziyang couldn't see it.Although Yun Xi likes to be held in his arms, she is used to gentle hugs, she is obviously panicked by this sudden almost domineering hug.He seemed to look up at the man,

"Ziyang..."

"Don't move." At the same time, the head was fixed by one hand and buried in the man's arms.Sniffing the scent, this is Ziyang's favorite perfume.

"Don't move yet, that's all." Ziyang didn't want to think about how abnormal he was at the moment. He was abnormal in the first place, and someone who lost a memory could still be called normal.Now that the hypocrisy and cover-ups have been crushed layer by layer, revealing naked flesh and blood, it is as abnormal as it hurts.As perturbed as he is, he is as clear-headed as possible, the corners of his lips drooping tightly, not allowing Yun Xi to see him at this moment, there is already cold sadness on his cheeks.

Yun Xi didn't move any more, she stayed in Zi Yang's arms so docilely that he let him hold her, her hands gently caressed the other's back, the straight and hard back revealed a man's stubbornness and strength, through the thin clothes she could feel to body heat.Greedyly, Yun inhaled the fragrance of his body. After Ziyang lost his memory, such a hug was already a luxury for him.If time can stand still at this moment, it doesn't matter if he suffocates to death the next second.

"Yun Xi." It was Zi Yang who spoke, and his voice passed through the room like flowing water, without the slightest fluctuation.A drop of liquid fell into Yunxi's hair at the same time.

"kindness?"

"Afraid?"

Yun Xi thought Zi Yang was talking about the thief just now, and replied, "I'm not afraid anymore, you've already returned."

"What if I never come back? What will happen to you?"

Why?Yun Xi was stunned, what would happen if Zi Yang never came back?Trying to think about it in my mind... but after thinking about it for a long time, I really dare not think about it.Move your mouth, "I don't know."

"So what if I keep having trouble remembering those memories?"

[What should I do if I can't remember...? ] What to do?Yun Xi didn't understand why Zi Yang asked him that, but it undoubtedly made him fall into the whirlpool again.Inextricable.what to do?What if Ziyang couldn't remember him all the time, and couldn't remember him coming?If it was him a month ago, he would have immediately refuted Ziyang's words.He was so eager for Ziyang to remember that he prayed to God every day and worshiped so devoutly.But later, seeing Zi Yang's exhaustion after waking up countless times in the middle of the night, Yun Xi began to hesitate, if he remembered that he would make Zi Yang so painful, he would rather not have him think about it.Reminds me of that bloody car accident.Then don't think about it... It's just that the wound in my heart is being torn and enlarged bit by bit, how to live... Yun Xi didn't know how to answer, Ziyang's voice sounded in her ears again,

"Well? Tell me, what will you do?"

"I have no idea."

"If I can't remember, I won't remember you. Didn't you be in that memory?...Will you be sad?" Ziyang kept asking, as if he wanted to dig out the deepest and deepest secret in Yunxi's heart Same, gentle and cruel.Cunning yet wise.

"I don't know, don't ask me, Ziyang." Yun Xi resisted this question, her bony knuckles were sternly waiting to be touched, and her ivory white knuckles were tightly pulling on Ziyang's clothes.Begging the other party to end this brutal interrogation, but his God did not intend to let him go, although his arms were still warm enough to hug him, but he was uttering painful sentences like Ling Chi, forcing him to the ground. dead end,

"Won't you be sad? No? Even if you can't remember, you won't be sad, will you? Yun Xi?"

The tears had already broken the embankment and wet the skirt of Ziyang's chest.Yun Xi began to struggle, he wanted to escape from Zi Yang's restraint, to avoid the constant questioning.But how could Ziyang allow him to escape from him so easily, and then put a little more force on him so that the person in his arms could not move.The coldness in his chest was as unforgettable as the wet marks on his cheeks.But he still didn't give up,

"Answer me, Yunxi. Do you want me to restore my memory?"

Powerless, with nowhere to hide, Yun Xi felt as if she had been stripped naked and presented herself naked in front of Zi Yang, when she heard the sound of a broken root in her heart, at the same time, it swept through her with unprecedented joy, fingers Deeply sinking into the other person's body, it was him who was in so much pain, the pain he had suppressed for a long time was exposed with blood, he cried out angrily and helplessly,

"Yes, yes! I want you to recover your memory! I hope you will remember everything! Think of me! Be sure to think of me! Otherwise, I will be sad! I will go crazy! I will die! Is that all right?!"

The person in his arms almost collapsed and trembled, but a smile appeared on the corner of Ziyang's mouth.open the mouth,

"Say it again."

"I, I don't want you to forget me, I don't want you to remember me! I don't want to see what you said in front of those reporters. Nothing has changed! Except forgetting me, nothing has changed! It's not fair! It's not fair! I know I Wrong! I shouldn't have asked you those stupid questions at the time, and I should have pushed you away at that moment! Otherwise, you wouldn't have amnesia, and you wouldn't have suffered such serious injuries! Damn it should be me! It's me!..." In the end, Yun Xi went from yelling excitedly to almost crying, from the beginning to the end, Zi Yang just listened indifferently, "Even so, I still hope you can remember me, not from someone else's mouth The name, rather, actually remembers my name."

It's not the stories heard from other people's mouths, but the memories that she really remembers, those things that she experienced together with him, Yun Xi would like to hear Zi Yang tell him in person in her dreams.It's just this sinful body, what else is there to expect?It was himself who made Ziyang like this, should he beg him to remember himself?This kind of struggle destroyed his fragile heart day after day, and the accumulation of depression was accumulated bit by bit in his heart. He thought that as long as he could still laugh, it was the best disguise, but when he couldn't, that laugh became the biggest foreshadowing.Well now, it's all said and done.All the shameful selfishness was uttered, and the body was as weak as if it had been drained of water in an instant.Apart from clinging to Ziyang's arms, he almost thought that he would die like this in the next second.