mousepad-d2 Chapter 84 She Doesn't Want Her
Chapter 84 She Doesn't Want Her
Once fully marked, the gland is what keeps the two forever connected.
With the glands present, she will always be soft-hearted towards Jiang Youwan, always attracted to her, and will never be able to leave her.
So, in front of Jiang Youwan, in front of her, he stabbed the knife into his gland fiercely, trying to destroy it.
Let Jiang Youwan see that he really doesn't want to have anything to do with her anymore, he would rather self-destruct and suffer the great pain of having his glands gouged out, and would rather not be an alpha than be with her again.
She wanted Jiang Youwan to give up.
"Uh--!"
The huge pain made her cry out in pain, Jiang Youwan's brain was like being struck by lightning, shutting down on the spot, staring at Jiang Jinyi with wide eyes, her lips trembled, and red bloodshot eyes appeared in her eyes.
The desperation in her eyes was like a person standing on a lone boat in the vast sea facing a huge wave that hit him.
Even more than that.
"Uh......."
Jiang Jinyi's face turned pale from the pain, her head was sweating coldly, the knife fell to the ground, and her whole body fell to the ground powerlessly.
Fu Mingyue recovered from the shock, and immediately ran over to support her, "Xiao Jin!"
"Xiao, Xiaojin...Xiaojin——!"
Jiang Youwan's mind was buzzing, his throat was so dry that he could not speak out, his legs and feet were weak, he staggered to Jiang Jinyi's side, fell to his knees in front of her, watching all this with despair and heartache.
Jiang Jinyi was already passed out from the pain, the glands at the back of her neck were bleeding, Fu Mingyue was also heartbroken, and while ordering the servants to drive the car, she tore off the fabric of her clothes to hold the wound Help her stop the bleeding.
"Xiao Jin, Xiao Jin, why are you, you..." Jiang Youwan burst into tears, choking on incoherent words.
How could it be, how dare Xiaojin...
Why didn't she know that the gland is one of the most fragile and sensitive places on Alpha's body. Usually, when the two of them were intimate, she would cry if she pinched and bit Jiang Jinyi with a little force, and begged her not to touch it.
Now he dares to pick up a knife...to stab his own gland...
Jiang Youwan shook her head in fear, unable to believe everything in front of her eyes, the distressed feeling spread to her limbs and bones, making it extremely difficult for her to breathe, her brain swelled, and she couldn't help retching.
"Xiao Jin, Xiao Jin..." Kneeling like this, she reached out tremblingly to touch Jiang Jinyi's pale face, but Fu Mingyue slapped her away when she failed.
"Don't touch her!"
Fu Mingyue glared at Jiang Youwan, she was rarely angry, this was the first time she looked at someone so angry, she moved her lips and wanted to scold her, but she didn't know where to start.
The Fu family's car soon stopped in front of them, Fu Mingyue stopped looking at her, and ordered his servants to help Jiang Jinyi into the car with her.
"Quick, go to the nearest hospital!"
The car door was slammed shut, Jiang Youwan got up from the ground in some embarrassment, wiped away the tears that blurred his vision with his hands, and staggered back to his car, his fingers were about to bleed from her grip, so he managed to stay awake .
She started the car and drove to the hospital with Fu Mingyue's car.
Jiang Jinyi was pushed into the emergency room for rescue.
Jiang Youwan arrived one step later, standing in front of the emergency room, his eyes were loose and empty.
The gland is one of the most important organs in the body of oemga and alpha. It is okay if it is surgically removed, but if it is violently tried to goug out like this, it will be life-threatening.
And it may be accompanied by many sequelae.
When the doctor first saw the appearance of Jiang Jinyi's glands, he showed a shocked expression. After asking about the situation, he couldn't help feeling that there was an alpha who could be cruel to his glands.
Soon, Fu Mingyue came back, saw Jiang Youwan standing in front of the emergency room, frowned, and wanted to drive her away, but the doctor suddenly pushed the door out of the emergency room, and said anxiously: "The patient has lost a lot of blood and needs to For the blood transfusion, please sign the family member, which of the two of you is the family member?"
Jiang Youwan immediately said: "I am, I am her—"
Before the three words girlfriend could be said, Fu Mingyue interrupted first, "I am her friend, I will sign."
Doctor: "OK."
Jiang Youwan was stunned, his pretty brows were frowned, a little displeased, this feeling was very uncomfortable.
Do you need an outsider to help Xiao Jin sign?
But now that Xiao Jin was giving first aid, she did not obstruct her and withdrew her hand.
She said in a deep voice, "doctor, she must be fine."
The doctor nodded and said as he walked to the emergency room: "We will do our best."
The door of the emergency room closed, and the corridor was quiet again.
There was only the unsteady breathing of both of them.
Gradually, Fu Mingyue heard an extremely faint sobbing sound coming from her side. She turned her head to look, and saw Jiang Youwan lowered her head, her eyes were very red, and there were drops of water on her eyelashes, and she wiped it with the back of her hand. go.
With her other hand, she tightly grabbed the corner of her clothes, and the blue blood vessels burst out, very hard.
It's hard to imagine that the woman who was so strong and calm before would have such a vulnerable side.
She was standing at the door of the emergency room, the closest place to Jiang Jinyi so far.
Jiang Jinyi was being rescued, she couldn't feel Jiang Jinyi's pheromone anymore, it was as if her pheromone was gone, and she could no longer smell half of it in the air, it was all the smell of disinfectant and blood.
It seemed that Jiang Jinyi was about to leave too.
With this feeling, she felt scared and helpless from the bottom of her heart. She was so flustered that she gradually lost her balance and fell to the floor, breathing desperately, trying to catch a little bit of hyacinth flower fragrance.
No omega can withstand such a blow.
She has just been marked, and this is when she needs alpha the most.
Fu Mingyue understood this truth, with complicated emotions in her eyes, she sighed for a while, took out the coat that Jiang Jinyi took off before entering the emergency room, and handed it to Jiang Youwan.
"Take it."
Jiang Youwan was stunned for half a second, then immediately reached out to take it, trembling, hugged the coat that still had a lot of blood stains into his arms, buried the lower half of his face in it, breathed heavily, and absorbed the pheromones that were still left on the coat.
Her eyes were drooping, her wet eyelashes were trembling constantly, and she looked like a dying patient taking the last bit of medicine to keep her spirit from breaking down.
Fu Mingyue didn't bother her, nor did she drive her away. She didn't know how long it had been like this. After an hour, maybe two hours, the door of the emergency room finally opened.
Jiang Youwan immediately stood up and followed to watch.
Her Xiao Jin's face was pale, so white that there was no trace of blood, lying weakly, still unconscious.
Seeing this scene, Jiang Youwan's heart was broken, his eyes and nose were red, and he watched Jiang Jinyi being pushed into the ward.
She didn't have time to go in, and looked at the doctor nervously: "How is she doing now?"
"The patient is out of danger and is now hospitalized for observation."
Fu Mingyue asked: "Where are her glands? How are they?"
The doctor frowned, sighed, and said, "She's been cruel to herself, her glands have been severely damaged, and most of her alpha functions have been lost."
Jiang Youwan was startled slightly, another tear fell, feeling extremely distressed.
The doctor continued to add: "But it hasn't been completely gouged out. We have already stitched it up. If we take good care of it and recover, it is still possible to recover. It depends on luck."
Looking at luck means uncertainty, what a cruel word.
"Her body was not very good in the first place. Now that her glands are damaged, her physique will only get worse. In the future, it will be common for her to fall ill with a cold and fever. She must take good care of her, and she can't suffer such a serious injury again... ...."
The doctor left after giving some precautions. Jiang Youwan listened carefully the whole time, keeping it in mind.
She wanted to take good care of Xiaojin, but when she entered the ward, she was stopped by Gu Mingyue.
"Miss Jiang, you better not go in." Fu Mingyue said.
Jiang Youwan frowned, she didn't like this feeling very much, obviously she was Xiaojin's closest person, obviously Xiaojin was her alpha, why should she be stopped outside the door?
She said with some restraint: "Fu Mingyue..."
Fu Mingyue frowned: "Jiang Youwan, don't you still understand? Does Xiaojin really want to see you when she wakes up? Does she really want you to stay by her side and take care of her?"
Fu Mingyue thought, in fact, Jiang Youwan knew it in her heart, but she didn't want to admit it.
She sternly told Jiang Youwan word by word: "What is the purpose of Xiao Jin gouging out her glands? It is to separate from you completely. She cuts her glands in front of you just to make you give up, do you know?"
"Xiao Jin is already very sad, she doesn't want to see you at all."
"You want to take her away by force. I really can't stop you, but can you guarantee that she won't do anything to hurt herself because of you?"
These words, like needles one by one, pierced Jiang Youwan's heart mercilessly, making her feel so painful that she regained consciousness little by little.
She muttered to herself, Fu Mingyue was right.
She is now the source of Xiao Jin's pain, and the last person Xiao Jin wants to see is herself.
In fact, thinking about it, this is the first time Jiang Jinyi has entered the emergency room.
From the explosion when he was three or four years old, to being stabbed by a lunatic, being smashed by a chandelier and losing his memory, to now, gouging out his own glands by himself.
It seems that everything has nothing to do with me.
A delicate girl like Xiaojin has a weak body, but she has experienced so many accidents that make her legs weak.
Thinking of this, Jiang Youwan felt so guilty and self-blaming that he was about to suffocate. It was the first time he realized, the first time he faced it seriously, that he had caused so much harm to Jiang Jinyi.
Seeing her gloomy expression, Fu Mingyue asked curiously: "I heard that she lost her memory a few days ago, you just took advantage of her loss of memory to coax her, didn't you think about recovering her memory?"
Jiang Youwan murmured: "I didn't dare to think about it."
Fu Mingyue laughed out of joy or anger, and reminded her: "You are holding on too tightly, the thread is already broken."
"Please, don't bother her in the future, don't get close to her, unless, you want to make her sad, you want her to be hurt again."
After Fu Mingyue finished speaking, she turned around and entered the ward, and closed the door, separating Jiang Youwan and Jiang Jinyi.
Jiang Youwan couldn't get in, and he didn't have the qualifications to get in.
She felt that she really deserved to die.
All of this seemed to be a mistake.
But how would she let go of Xiaojin? How would she spend the days without Xiaojin?
Jiang Youwan lowered her eyes, her eyes were as dark as a pool of ink, and the image of Jiang Jinyi gouging out her glands was lingering in her mind.
She fell into the eternal darkness, clutching her last ray of sunshine tightly, but even if she wanted to die, that beam of light would go away from her, and she was willing to keep her in the darkness.
Even if she doesn't let go, that beam of light will dissipate in her hands.
Jiang Youwan's eyes tightened, and with extreme force, he finally let go of his tightly clenched hand, which was already bleeding all over the floor.
Turn away.
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The next day, Jiang Jinyi was transferred by Fu Mingyue to the hospital invested by their Fu family to give her the best and most comfortable environment.
After being in a coma for five days, he finally woke up.
A person looked at the ceiling for a long time, his eyes were loose, as if he didn't remember who he was.
Amnesia again, forget everything.
If only so.
Staring at the ceiling for 10 minutes, Jiang Jinyi finally sorted out her messy memories and dreams.
She sat up despite the pain from the wound, and the severe pain let her know, reminding her that she had gouged out her gland.
Gouged out in front of Jiang Youwan.
Really heartless.
Has Jiang Youwan given up?
Jiang Jinyi was not sure, looking out the window, the weather seemed to be getting colder, and soon, hurried footsteps came from the quiet corridor, Jiang Jinyi couldn't help but clenched her sleeves tightly.
This tense feeling didn't let go of her hand until the door was pushed open and doctors and nurses in white coats came in.
Fortunately, he was relieved and then lost.
Why did Jiang Youwan come?Jiang Youwan's heart was already broken by her.
She and Jiang Youwan have already broken up.
Fu Mingyue came to see her soon, and told her not to think about anything, but to recover from her injuries, and told her that it was possible for her glands to recover.
Jiang Jinyi didn't want to go back to the way it was before, she felt that she was fine now, although it hurt, but she no longer had the feeling of eagerly longing for Jiang Youwan.
But the bad thing is that her body no longer desires it, but the longing in her heart still makes her unbearable.
She always thought, how should Jiang Youwan get through it, how should Jiang Youwan face it?
She was so fragile that she was so sad that she would cry if she didn't want to eat the food she fed.
Whenever she thinks of Jiang Jinyi's unavoidable heartache, and wants to distract herself, when she goes online, she will think of Jiang Youwan for every little bit of connection.
She couldn't help but check what would happen if Alpha left after Omega was completely marked.
80.00% of the omega suffered from depression, and 20.00% survived, describing their muddled life in words.
What is described is less than one ten thousandth.
Jiang Jinyi didn't dare to read a line after reading it.
She knew that Jiang Youwan was going through it.
She was afraid that she couldn't help but go back to Jiang Youwan.
Even if the glands were gouged out, her heart was still filled with the thought of going back to Jiang Youwan all the time.
Fortunately, it is still tolerable.
She heard that couples after breaking up are like this, and they will pass after a while.
They all have their own lives.
Will be fine.
Jiang Youwan never bothered Jiang Jinyi again.
She went back to the villa where they lived together before, locked herself in the villa, and didn't go anywhere for many, many days.
Because this villa is the only place where Jiang Jinyi's pheromone remains.
She sealed all the windows of the villa, leaving no openings for ventilation, in an attempt to keep the hyacinths longer.
But it still couldn't stop her from dissipating bit by bit.
It's really hard.
For an omega that has just been completely marked.
The omegas that have just been tagged are extremely fragile, they are sensitive, they have a glass heart, they are hypocritical and cry incontinence, they desperately long for their alphas, and hope that their alphas will always be by their side, even if they leave for a while.
Because they have completely given themselves to that alpha, the feeling that their body and mind no longer belong to them will make them feel uneasy. An omega alone can give an omega a sense of security and happiness.
Jiang Youwan has nothing.
Her alpha didn't want her.
No omega that had just been marked could withstand such a blow, but she couldn't help it.
She can only spend this time that should have been full of affection alone.
Xiao Jin who misses her every day is like a drug addiction attacking every moment. She is really fragile, and there is no time when she is more vulnerable than now.
She abnormally found Xiaojin's clothes, Xiaojin's bed sheets, and all of Xiaojin's dolls, and formed a small hill. She hugged Jiang Jinyi's pillow and curled up in it, curled up very deeply, desperately trying to gain a sense of security from it , I want to isolate myself from this cold room, I want to soak myself in the fragrance of hyacinth flowers.
Protect your vulnerable self.
Gradually, she fell in love with sleeping, and even fed herself medicine every day, hoping to sleep a little longer, because the dream was the only way she could see Jiang Jinyi.
In the dream, Jiang Jinyi was always obedient to her, pampering and loving her, just like before, she especially liked to act like a baby with her.
She knows that this is just a dream, but she is really happy, she has experienced the treatment that other omegas have, and she is very satisfied.
But the dream will always wake up.
Every time I wake up, the pillow is wet, the tears are cold, and I have to face the house alone.
This feeling is really suffocating, the mood is low to the bottom, tears flow down uncontrollably, a person is sad for a long time and can't cheer up.
It feels like the world has become dark.
Fortunately, Xiaoyu is a very human cat. He can feel her sadness and sadness, and always stays by her side. When he realizes that she is awake, he will act like a baby with her no matter how sleepy he is, to comfort her. If he was willing to eat, he brought his small dried fish in his mouth, put it on the ground, and pushed it to her with his paw, signaling her to eat it.
"Xiaoyu, how come Xiaojin doesn't even want you?"
"She likes you so much..."
"She used to like me very much..."
"I really want to see her, but she doesn't want me anymore, she doesn't want me..."
During the month when Omega needed alpha the most, Jiang Youwan spent it like this.
I don't know what supported her to walk out of this villa, maybe it was her promise to Xiao Jin.
I promised to make everyone who hurt Xiaojin pay the price.
In a blink of an eye, Los Angeles completely entered winter, Jiang Jinyi felt that it must be very cold, because the doctor never allowed her to open the window, saying that her immunity is now weak and she is easy to catch cold.
Because the glands are damaged, the body is much weaker than before, a sick child.
On the day she was discharged from the hospital, she was covered tightly and listened to the doctor explain the precautions word by word. After the explanation, she was just about to leave when she saw a familiar figure from a distance.
She couldn't remember who it was for a moment, and seeing that person walking in front of her at a leisurely pace, she stumbled and opened her lips: "...Secretary Song."
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