Zhen Guo Princess GL

Chapter 334 The Night

The moonlight is beautiful tonight.

Except for the rustling of snowflakes falling, there were no other noises.

Another year of winter, and in a few days, it will be my birthday. After this time, I will be 29 and [-].

The sage said that one stands at thirty, but he never clearly told us what it means to "stand".

Wei Shulin explained some principles of standing up for one's morality, but until now, I haven't figured it out.But what Xu Jingzong said reminds me to this day. He said, "When a person reaches the age of 30, what to do should not be prevaricated by being 'young and ignorant' or 'young and vigorous'".

When people recalled my master Xu, they always derogated me more than praised him, saying that he was flattering, mean and ungrateful, and even his own son didn't see him much. But time flies, and the strict Wei Shulin once taught him I have almost forgotten the things we memorized by rote. On the contrary, Xu Jingzong, who didn't care about anything, many of his words and deeds are still in my heart.

Wei Shulin blamed him for allowing us to do our homework, but instead he questioned, "Should we learn form or spirit? If we want to learn form, why should we cling to external objects? If we only want to learn form, why should we use us?"

At that time, Li Rui echoed Xu Jingzong, thinking that practicality is more important than form. In other words, as long as the goal is achieved, one does not need to care about the means. Although I vaguely felt that it was wrong, I was greedy for the convenience of class, and I also stood by Xu Jingzong's side At that time, Wei Shulin was so angry that he walked away, and then wrote a long book of ten thousand words to persuade Li Rui-because there were too many words, Li Rui and I naturally didn't read it, but my mother wrote it down. Go, read it carefully, and then punished Li Rui and me to kneel down and apologize to Wei Shulin in public.

Given how favored the two of us were at that time, this was considered an extremely rare punishment.

Wei and Xu have passed away for many years, Li Rui is far away in the domain, and I am the only one staying in the capital. For some reason, I suddenly want to take a look at this book.

I quietly stepped out of the Lichun Terrace and looked up at the full moon in the sky. It was already late at night, and the palace people were afraid of making noise, so they did not dare to sweep the snow. Down, it didn't feel dark at all.

I asked the palace man for a lantern, and holding an umbrella in one hand, I stepped aimlessly into the plain white snow. The clogs made a creaking sound when they stepped on the snow. Seems like a night watchman, met me alone, the team stopped slightly, a moment later a person came out, bowed his back, but it was Gao Yanfu: "It's so late, the princess is still outside?"

I took a light look at him, looked along his head and face, and saw the figure of my mother without accident. Although she was old, she was still taller than ordinary people, but tonight, for some reason, she finally appeared a little old.

I walked forward slowly, put away the umbrella, and bowed to my mother: "Ma'am still not asleep?"

My mother walked up to me and stroked my cheek with one hand: "You are not asleep either." She looked down, but landed on my clogs, and said in a daze: "It is snowing, it is indeed easier to walk in clogs."

I couldn't help but go to see my mother. She was wearing heavier clothes than before, but she was only wearing a pair of beautiful cloud platform shoes. It has gradually become wet: "It's getting deeper and the snow is heavier, Aniang... let's take a chariot."

My mother nodded, Gao Yanfu had already called someone to bring the chariot over, I helped my mother onto the chariot, but she held my hand and said softly, "Come to bed with me."

I said: "Okay." Borrowing the strength of my mother, I stepped onto the imperial chariot and sat beside me, covering my mother with the cloak and tucking up the curtains on all sides, so as not to be blown up by the wind, and the chariot would be lifted again. The small censer was stuffed at the mother's feet, and my hands were warmed on it, and then I went to cover my mother's hands.My mother looked at me with a smile, and held my hand in turn: "Taiping has grown up and knows how to be considerate of others."

I said: "I see them doing this every day. If they are not here, I will serve A Niang on their behalf."

The mother chuckled, but after a while she turned her eyes to the distance, half-absent and half-absent: "Zheng Xiuyuan has passed away, Wan'er asked for an order to go out to the palace for the funeral, I will approve."

I vaguely felt the reason why she stayed up so late, and said in a low voice: "When Cui Mingde's grandfather died, Auntie granted ten days' leave to come to Master Shangguan. There are not many blood relatives left, it is not good to not give them for a day."

My mother held my hand all the way without saying a word, and took the chariot to the inner court, but she didn't live in the main bedroom in the past, but stopped in front of the newly renovated small hall near the north gate, Qiyun Hall.

I know that my mother doesn't stick to one place to go to bed recently, so I helped her get off the chariot and entered the hall. The hall has already been prepared, it is fragrant and warm, and two rows of large candles are lit, and the people who are always in front of the emperor are listed on the big hall. Beside the candles, those holding towels and water basins went forward according to the class. Although dozens of people came and went, they were in order, and no one was heard.Seeing that I was useless, I took my mother's outer robe back, changed my clothes, and sent my mother to the inner room. I was going to the side hall, but my mother called me again: "If you are not sleepy, you might as well accompany me." I will sit down."

I then turned around and accompanied my mother to sit on the couch beside her. After she got on the couch, she ordered me to sit on the side opposite her, and asked someone to bring a pair of Shuanglu and two piles of small gold and silver objects. One son, not a word.

I cast dice to ride horses, and I didn't make a sound. I went back and forth several times before I heard my mother say, "What are you thinking?"

I lowered my head, and when I stopped, I said, "I miss Wei Shulin and Xu Jingzong."

Mother casually pressed the crystal chess piece on the board, raised her eyebrows and looked at me: "Oh?"

I thought these were the last things I should say to my mother, but at this moment, I felt that it was nothing to say to her: "Did you ever do anything that you regret in your life?"

Mother's hand holding the chess stopped in mid-air, and immediately dropped it again: "No." She stopped her hand and sat upright, and looked up at me: "Did Taiping do anything that I regretted?"

I pursed my lips and said, "Not yet, I'm just... afraid that I will do such a thing."

My mother raised her eyes and glanced at me, and after a while, Fang gently said: "When I was young, I also had such hesitation as you. But what I was afraid of at that time was a little different from what you are afraid of now. The only thing I was afraid of was nothing but Kong tried his best, but in the end he couldn't reach the position he wanted. In that case, not only me, but also..." She sighed suddenly: "You brothers and sisters, after all, have never been driven to a corner .”

I looked at her curiously: "Ah Niang...is there also a time when you are afraid?"

The mother chuckled: "Auntie is also human, so naturally there are times when you are afraid. Your brother...you were weak and sick when you were born. You Aye and I were afraid that you would not be able to survive every day. At that time, whenever he retired from the court, he must come back. I will ask you first, and then I will ask Dalang and Erlang. As for me, I will take you to ask the Buddha, the ancestor, and all the gods and Buddhas day by day, to see if you can survive that day. , if it is good news, I will use the best offerings to pay off the next day. Until you are five or six years old, I am not willing to move you to the outside room. I must look at you every morning and evening to be at ease... You, Aye, and I are already precious As the son of heaven, we are the most honorable in the world, but we can't do anything about the six realms of heaven and man, and the reincarnation of all beings."

She looked at me with extremely gentle eyes: "I am glad that you have grown up now, and you no longer need Aniang to watch you day and night. But sometimes when you think about it, I would rather you were just a child of more than ten years old and stay with Aniang forever." By my side, I have never experienced the world."

I crawled over from a few sides, leaned on my mother, and gently called her "A Niang". She patted my shoulder and called me by my nickname after a long absence: "Xizi."

I responded, and my heart was surprisingly calm, and I called "A Niang" again, and said: "I have a lot of things I want to do, but I don't know whether I should do it or not, and I don't know whether it will be good or bad after I do it." .”

Mother smiled and said: "I haven't done anything, so I don't know whether it is good or bad. But even if it is a bad thing, it is better to correct it immediately after doing it, than to do nothing and regret it in the end-not to mention your mother is still far away." Not old yet." She looked down at me, stroking my face repeatedly with her hands, as if she saw someone else through me: "Try it and see how...you can do it."