Take down that Alpha school grass

Chapter 79 The Truth

"You must not tell Brother Wan that I told you about this." Xu Siwen took a bench, sat face to face with Lin Moci, and unscrewed a bottle of soda, "You should know about it, My late brother does have a special disease."

Lin Moci urged: "Speak quickly."

Xu Siwen took a sip of the soda with a "gulp" and began to talk after cooling off with the air-conditioning wind.

"When he was 12 years old, Brother Wan fell ill while decomposing. He tore up several books in his room and burned them. Then he went to the kitchen to get a knife and didn't know what to cut. Playing at his house, I was scared to death by his appearance, so I hurriedly sent him to the hospital with the bodyguard surnamed Zhang next to him."

He looked at the bubbling liquid, shaking it slightly, but his tone gradually became serious: "It was snowing that day, the road was very slippery, he was stopped along the way not to destroy things, and he was shaking from the pain. I took him Went to my cousin's private clinic, tested him and found out he has pheromone erosion."

Lin Moci: "Pheromone erosion... What kind of disease is this?"

Xu Siwen: "According to my cousin, people with S-level pheromones are prone to all kinds of weird illnesses, and Brother Wan's illness is mainly the result of being eroded by his own too strong pheromones. This There are two specific manifestations of the disease, one is that he will infinitely magnify all the evils in all alpha natures, and the other is that he will destroy all the things he likes when he is mentally stimulated."

Lin Moci was a little dizzy from his explanation: "Wait a minute, what is the evil of Alpha?"

Xu Siwen: "Possessiveness, aggression, violence, these are the natures of all alphas, but normal alphas will slowly wear away these primitive desires through education and growth, and for Brother Wan, he wants to hide these Dark emotions are a hundred times harder than ordinary alphas."

Lin Moci recalled the Chen Weiwan he usually came into contact with, and couldn't help sighing: "But actually... Wanwan has always kept these emotions well..."

Except when she was sick, Chen Weiwan was gentle and considerate in most cases.

So how difficult is it for him to do this under this disease?

Lin Moci thought that he was accusing Chen Weiwan of being too controlling yesterday, and couldn't help feeling guilty.

"So, brother Wan is like a bow. The string of reason is always stretched and cannot be relaxed. Once loosened, it will cause an attack." Xu Siwen patted his thigh, "He has been taking medicine for these years, which can help him dilute the alpha information. The influence of toxin on the spirit, this medicine is a very mature product, so as long as you take it, you will not get sick."

Lin Moci recalled the small medicine bottle he had seen before, and couldn't help but ask, "Does this medicine have any side effects?"

Xu Siwen: "The side effects are not serious, but Brother Wan's illness is also partly due to psychological reasons. According to the analysis of my cousin's psychiatrist, he is extremely unsure in his heart that his important things will always belong to him. So I always think about destroying the things I care about before I lose them.”

Lin Moci recalled Chen Weiwan's behavior every time he got sick. Whether it was burning books, destroying records, or abusing himself, what he really hurt was what he cared about.

He is completely dismissive of the things he doesn't like and let others take them, but he destroys the things he likes most in the madness again and again.

When he woke up, there was nothing but lucid and absurd pain.

Lin Moci tentatively asked: "Do you know what is the cause of his heart disease?"

Xu Siwen shook his head: "I don't know, I just know that the more you care about it, the easier it is to get sick. He seems to be getting worse recently. I heard from my cousin that if he is sleeping or drunk, it is very likely that the medicine cannot suppress it. It is reasonable to suspect that his condition worsened after he had feelings for you."

Lin Moci no longer knew what to say.

Countless complicated emotions welled up in his heart.

When Chen Weiwan was ill, he always kept repeating that he would not let himself run away, as if he wished to break his legs with such ruthlessness, but when he was awake, he was very cautious, and he did not dare to exceed the rules with himself, for fear that he would be hurt. A little hurt.

He didn't even hesitate to persuade himself to leave, to push himself away.

On the one hand, he carefully hides the dark side of his heart, fearing that he will leave him after spying on him, but on the other hand, he longs to never leave him after he discovers the real him.

Finally, I lived as a collection of contradictions and distortions.

Xu Siwen said quietly: "Speaking of which, Brother Wan has always loved music as much as I do. When I was in junior high school, I participated in the audition of the brokerage company with him, and there was only one place. During the last round of interviews, he suddenly fell ill and halfway through singing, he was in front of everyone. He broke the guitar into tatters and frightened everyone, leading to the final spot being given to me, otherwise he should be the one who debuted now, after all, he is more talented than me."

Lin Moci lowered his head quietly, his heartache for Chen Weiwan could no longer be suppressed.

On such an important occasion, it is so painful to personally destroy one's dream.

Seeing his downcast look, Xu Siwen thought that he was afraid and wanted to leave, so he understood very well: "Actually, I can understand if you want to leave Brother Wan, after all, who can accept that your future partner is a person who may get sick in the middle of the night?" People who stab themselves with a knife? This is not something in a drama, but a real life-threatening thing!"

——The more you like and care about it, the worse your condition will be.

Lin Moci's mind was buzzing, he wasn't in the mood to listen to what Xu Siwen was saying, he just felt his heart getting tighter the more he thought about it, he clenched his hands and said softly, "Then he's having a hard time."

Xu Siwen didn't expect that this was what he was most concerned about. He paused for a moment before following along, "It's very bitter, but there's no way around it. The fate is like this. There is no cure for this disease yet."

Chen Weiwan is an S-level alpha that everyone envies, but he is doomed to lose everything he really loves again and again—and destroy it with his own hands.

He has never fallen in love with someone so passionately. He was moved for the first time and cherished in every possible way, but he immediately faced the dilemma of aggravating his illness and possibly hurting his lover at any time.

The appearance of his family makes people can't help feeling how much love God has given him, but in fact, God has given him so much cruelty.

For him, the more he likes something, the easier it is to lose.

"Late night..."

Lin Moci clenched his hands tighter and tighter, he felt his chest suffocate, and his heart throbbed in pain.

——I have good grades, but I am actually much worse than you...

——Say it a few more times... What you said just now, say it a few more times...

——Are you really talking about it....

——I like marrying you the most, followed by music.

—— is getting worse, I can't help it, I ruined the record, I don't remember....

——I give you all the shares in the group under my name, I don't know what else to pay, I only have these.

——Forgive me this time, okay, don't leave me...

Xu Siwen wanted to say something, but when he raised his eyes, he saw Lin Moci blinking, and a teardrop the size of a bean fell directly on the ground.

"Hello...Lin Moci...you..."

Lin Moci covered his eyes with his fingers, and when Xu Siwen felt that he might consider breaking up with Chen Weiwan, he cried and said regretfully, "Why don't I treat him better... Why should I blame him... In fact, he obviously lacks a sense of security... why can't I understand him more..."

Xu Siwen: "...don't you think about your own safety first?"

Lin Moci turned to accuse him with tears in his eyes: "Whose brother are you, why are you still persuading me to leave Wanwan?!"

Xu Siwen: "It's mainly because I think about it in another way. This... you won't really be able to accept this."

Lin Moci gave him a hard look: "You are not worthy of the brother of that night at all!"

Xu Siwen wanted to say something else, but Lin Moci buried his face in his arms, and flinched and felt sad again.

"You can't be like this..." Xu Siwen couldn't see others crying in front of him, so he patted him tentatively and said, "Don't do this, my brother Wan is still alive, so there's no need for you... "

Lin Moci suddenly raised his head and looked at him resentfully, his eyes were as sharp as a knife: "Is there something wrong with your brain, Xu Siwen, do you consider him a friend?!"

"No, what does this have to do with me? I treat him as a brother, and I am absolutely willing to help him when something happens, but it doesn't mean that I can't think of him as a dangerous person!" Xu Siwen is very innocent, "I used to represent him Uncle played there, and in the cases I have seen, someone accidentally stabbed his omega gland, and spent his whole life in regret."

His expression became more serious: "Brother Wan and you are on the same date now, he must be reluctant to part with you, so I tried my best to persuade you, unless you think clearly and stay with him Plato and never sleep, otherwise an accident will really happen After killing you, he will definitely live in shadow and pain all his life, and I am also helping him."

Lin Moci listened to him quietly, and suddenly asked a cool rhetorical question: "Do you love music very much?"

Xu Siwen: "Nonsense, although it was because of Brother Wan's illness at the beginning, I was able to debut because of my hard work anyway."

Lin Moci murmured for a while, and looked at him several times, but finally he still didn't reveal the truth he thought of.

Since Chen Weiwan wouldn't get sick after taking medicine, why didn't he take medicine for such an important final?

Based on his own understanding of Chen Weiwan, Lin Mo was convinced of one thing that no one expected - he deliberately made himself ill. ?

He gave up music not because of coercion from his family, but because he had to fight for family property, so he knew that he was destined not to take the road of music.

In the name of "morbidity", he broke his dream with his own hands, and gave the opportunity to Xu Siwen with reasonable reasons.

Because if he directly withdraws from the competition and gives the place to Xu Siwen, Xu Siwen, who also loves music, will always carry his favor behind his back and live in his shadow.

It's just that everyone doesn't know.

Even Xu Siwen firmly believed in his heart that Chen Weiwan was a dangerous person.

Lin Moci restrained the urge to blurt out the truth he deduced. He couldn't bear to destroy the tenderness left by Chen Weiwan, but he felt a burst of sadness and pity in his heart.

He involuntarily remembered that the first time Chen Weiwan showed his heart to him, he listened to a song—gasoline.

"Well my heart is gold and my hands are cold."

Such was his evening.

Always carrying too much on his mind, obviously having the most aggressive disease, but always carefully protecting important people and things.

His hands are cold, but he has a heart of gold.