do you have a crush on me

Chapter 22 Awake

22 love letters: I want to be a person who makes you proud, just like when I stood in the audience and shouted for you.

"But I—" I want to go to the debate team!Before Su Ran finished speaking, she was interrupted by Liao Jing.

"It's written on it, I know." She raised her eyes and said very directly, "From the time you came in to the performance just now, I don't think you will get any development in the debate team. When newcomers enter, they will immediately face In the national competition, what they want is the kind of person who can talk freely, not like you..."

"Cough!" Seeing Su Ran's pale face, Mu Qing bent her knuckles and knocked on the table, reminding Liao Jing that enough is enough.

The latter looked at her and paused, before turning the topic around, "You have a good voice, there's no need to waste it arguing with others, come to the music club, I'll give you the lead singer position." She said confidently.

"..." Su Ran bit her lip and lowered her head. She knew that what the senior sister said was right, but on the one hand, she was really unwilling.

The atmosphere was a little stagnant, and neither of them had anything to say for a moment.

"Eh..." Seeing that Liao Jing's eyebrows were furrowed in displeasure, the girl sitting behind Mu Qing scratched her face in embarrassment, and said with a dry smile, "Come on, come to our music club, There are many seniors and seniors here, you can see that half of the people here are from our club... It's very interesting."

What she said was sincere, but coupled with President Liao Jing's cold face, no matter how you looked at it, you couldn't believe it.

"I..." Su Ran was a little shaken in her heart. She wanted to refuse but also to agree. She didn't know whether it was a surprise or a sudden disaster. She looked up at Mu Qing, completely at a loss for what to do.

"..." Mu Qing was silent for a while, nodded with pursed lips, and let out a soft noise, "The music club is good, it is the first and largest club in the experiment, and there are many people, and those who rely on singing to recommend to North China University No no." She said with a smile, with a hint of teasing.

"Well... I agree with what Liao Jing said. You may not get a good development if you come to the debate team. There are also people who can't play until graduation. There are only a few games in total, and they will disappear after the game. If we don't perform well... I won't let people smash our signboard, will I?"

Mu Qing's refusal was very polite and tactful. Seeing that Su Ran lowered her head sadly, she smiled and said persuasively, "Now there are two roads in front of you, one road is cruel, desolate and full of thorns, and you may not find the end , there is still a road, there is a guide there. You have a key to that road, you may stand on a vast stage and declare your name to the world—do you want to give up?"

She turned her head to look at Su Ran, and asked again, "Do you really want to give up?"

Su Ran was silent for a long time, she thought of senior sister Mu Qing on the stage, a smiling senior who was extremely confident and talked to everyone.

The one that shines like the sun, the one she yearns for.

Her eyes gradually became firmer, and she nodded solemnly to Mu Qing, "I don't want to give up!" She also wanted to be the person standing in the center of the world, and also wanted to be a proud person.

This sentence is as urgent and firm as it was when the office was faced with the choice to suspend school.

"Very good!" Liao Jing couldn't help but patted the table and stood up. She breathed a sigh of relief, stretched out her hand and smiled, "Su Ran, welcome to join the music club."

"Thank you... Thank you, senior." Su Ran hurried forward to hold her hand, bowed with a blushing face, and secretly raised her eyes to Mu Qing who was still sitting, but was caught by the latter, playfully There was applause.

Seeing the interaction between the two of them, Xue Jiaying raised her eyebrows, showing a clear look.

Su Ran blushed even more.

"Congratulations!" The girl behind also stood up, reached out to shake her hand, blinked, and whispered, "It's the first time I've seen the president keep someone like this, you have to work hard!"

"Thank you." Su Ran bowed thankfully again, before retreating.

The subsequent process accelerated, and within a few minutes, the five people came out. In the end, Song Xiwen and Wen Le also joined the music club, and Chen Jiajia joined the radio station with her excellent voice and regular spoken English. Instead, it was Liu Ling. ...went to the debate team, but not as a player, but as an assistant.

"The assistants of the debate team are changed every year, and each of them is a candidate for the president of the student union. Let's say that your last assistant, Senior Lin Qiqi, is already the vice president. Wait for the one at the head to retire. Just take over the position of president, this wave is not bad!" Xue Jiaying said with a smile.

Liu Ling nodded, but did not refuse.

When everyone had gone out and the next batch was about to come in, Mu Qing packed up her things, stood up and gestured to them, "I'm leaving first, Xia Jiu will come later, don't snatch everyone away from me." Already."

"Walk so fast? Why?" Xue Jiaying raised her eyebrows, she didn't know what to think of, her expression suddenly became sweet and lewd, and said, "Could it be that you are looking for your elementary school girl?"

"Ah? Why did you think of her all of a sudden?" Mu Qing didn't understand what was going on in her brain, when a message came from her phone, she glanced at it and frowned, "I really have something to do this time, so I'm leaving first."

Without waiting for Xue Jiaying's words, she left in a hurry.

"Tsk, Lu Yixuan, what are you talking about...Ah Qing? Is the roof on fire?" Xue Jiaying curled her lips, turned her head to the girl sitting behind and raised her chin and asked.

"It's probably coming soon." Lu Yixuan popped a lollipop and stuffed it into her mouth. Hearing this, she raised her head from the phone screen, winked at her gossipingly, and whispered, "I saw her phone just now. the person I like."

"...Could it be someone from the Mu family?" Xue Jiaying gasped and grinned, "It's all over, this time Ah Qing must be in a bad mood again."

"It's annoying, I don't know how many times I've searched for it this year." Lu Yixuan pouted.

What else did Xue Jiaying want to say, when she suddenly heard the sound of a chair, Liao Jing stood up, and she looked at the two of them coldly, "How much gossip did Lin Qiqi tell you?"

"Eh..." Lu Yixuan looked at her boss's face, feeling very guilty.

"Okay," Liao Jing frowned, she didn't want to hear these gossips, she knocked on the table and warned, "Stop playing games, sit in front."

"Hey!" Lu Yixuan quickly exited the game and stood up, wiped her palms in embarrassment, and asked cautiously, "President, who are you?"

"The first club event on September 21st, the time has already been set, and the content of the event has not yet been handed in." Liao Jing glanced at her, her tone was a little bad, "What? You write it?" The prepared materials were passed to her.

"No, no, no, no, no!" Lu Yixuan quickly shook her head, made a gesture, and said with a doggy smile, "President, go slowly, president, goodbye!"

It wasn't until Liao Jing's back completely disappeared at the door that she sat back with a sigh of relief.

Xue Jiaying glanced at her, then shook her head in disdain, "Excellent."

"Hey!" Lu Yixuan was dissatisfied with this, and she stood up again, walked around the table and sat in front, "What? Have you already decided on your club activities?! Are you procrastinating?"

"I don't have one." Xue Jiaying was still grinning, she tilted her head, and said in an extremely embarrassing way, "Because we don't need to do it." There are only four people in the radio station, two old people and two newcomers, and club activities are nothing more than The four of us went out for a meal together.

She packed up her things and stood up as she spoke, shaking her hand at Lu Yixuan, "I'm fully recruited, bye bye~"

So in an instant, only Lu Yixuan was left in the first row of seats.

"I...I!" She pouted aggrievedly and held back for a long time, but when she saw the person walking in from a distance, she swallowed it all in horror.

"Good afternoon." Xia Jiu nodded at her, put down her things and sat down.

Lu Yixuan stiffly pursed her lips and sat down, took out her mobile phone and typed a bunch of words into the group: Mu Qing, you hurt me! ?I am at odds with you! !

This time, she exploded a group of melon-eating crowd who were happy to hear and see.

Your Majesty's best minister (Lin Qiqi): Yo~ What wicked thing did our Daqing do again?

Big Bird one-on-one after class (Yan Zhao): Remember to call me when you fight, don't just finish it without saying a word, let me record the beautiful moments anyway.

Xueshen is in retreat (Zhou Peng):?The brat is causing trouble again?

Head of the Organization Department: Blow up Father Zhou, watch!

Head of the Reporting Department: AhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhWhen will I have time to interview the school magazine that was discussed last quarter? !

Disciplinary Committee: Using Cell Phones (Devil's Smile)

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Radio station Xiao Tiantian (Xue Jiaying): I just ran into His Majesty when I went out, please send me condolences, Little Luzi [Scattering Emoticons]

Xueshen is in retreat: ...sad.

Your Majesty's only minister: A bow!She was very calm when she went.

Big Bird singles out after get out of class: Two bows!Neither was painful.

Group leader (Mu Qing): Three bows!Can be buried.

President of the music club (Liao Jing): As a relative, I am not sad, let's leave.

"Pfft—" Mu Qing was overjoyed to see Liao Jing's rare naughty reply, she supported her forehead and shook her head.

"Senior sister?" Su Ran looked at her puzzled, her eyes wandered to the excitement and joy in their group, and she felt a little envious.

"Oh, this is the group of our student union and club," Mu Qing didn't hide it, and showed her the chat records very straightforwardly, and said with a smile, "As the lead singer of the band, you should also come in at that time."

"Oh." Su Ran nodded ignorantly.

Just arrived at the first teaching building, Mu Qing stopped, thought for a while and explained to Liao Jing, "Sister Liao looks difficult to get along with, but in fact she has a very good temper, you and your friends are staying in the music club, there are also Someone can take care of you."

"Oh, yes." She paused thinking of something, reached out and patted her on the shoulder, "The music club has a large site, occupying more than half of the third floor of the event building. We borrow all the classrooms for training from them. It's next door, if you have anything to do, you can drop by."

"Really?" Su Ran's eyes lit up, and her mood immediately rose.

"Yes, senior sister is covering you." Mu Qing smiled and waved her hands, "Go up quickly, I'll go first."

"Okay." Su Ran watched Mu Qing leave before going upstairs, just when she was about to enter the classroom, she ran into Liu Ling and Wen Le who had gone to the store and came up the stairs from the other side.

"You're really slow, I feel like this popsicle is about to melt." Wen Le took out a popsicle from the snack pile and threw it to her, interrupted her thank you with a wave, followed Liu Ling in, and stopped for a moment.

She said in a very casual tone, "From now on, keep your eyes closed. Teachers and classmates are on guard against these things that happened in the experiment."

Su Ran's expression was startled, her face turned slightly pale, and she looked at her helplessly.

"Don't say I speculate, people's hearts are dirty." Wen Le raised her eyebrows at her, "Didn't Mr. Lu Xun say that?" , I don’t believe it—it’s so vile and cruel.’”

These words sounded like a wake-up call in Su Ran's mind.

"Wen Le?" Seeing no one following, Liu Ling yelled strangely inside, "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, remind Su Ran to eat quickly, or the popsicle will melt." Wen Le glanced at her, "You should think about it carefully." She said and returned to the classroom with a smile.

Only Su Ran was holding a ticking popsicle, eyes downcast, unable to swallow.

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I originally wanted to delete the following clichéd long speech, but after thinking about it, I still can’t bear it. Friends who don’t like it can choose to block it.

bow.

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The road of homosexuality is really difficult. No matter how well-developed the web texts and dramas are, the facts are right in front of us.

Many people who say "agree" on the Internet are actually just talking.

I still remember that when I watched the episode about homosexuality in "The Story of Strange Flowers", I cried so badly, but it was a pity... that episode was taken off the shelves.

Faced with this situation, there is nothing we can do.

The reason why I suddenly thought of this is that I wrote a short story when I was in high school (it was written in a notebook at that time, and then passed around from class to class hhh). At that time, I didn’t know what danmei was, but I wrote a story between two girls, in which I expressed some words about my feelings.

Someone asked me with a sneer: If your son or daughter takes this path in the future, will you still say that?You won't, you'll kill him.

I thought about it for a long time, but didn't answer.

I don't want my child to go down this road, and be looked at, speculated and abused by others with strange eyes. Ordinary people don't have the courage to tell.

But when it does come, I will agree, I may be sad, but definitely not because of a different sexuality than them.

Our life is very bitter, please remember to add some sugar called kindness.