At sunset, the mountains are far away

Chapter 43 Xia Chengqi went to Xiamen

Shen Junran sent Tao Yan home, and before turning around to leave, he stepped forward and gave Tao Yan a hug, and said softly into Tao Yan's ear, "Tomorrow I will pick you up from work at school, and have a good rest." Scratching Tao Yan with his hands After touching Yan's cheek, he put a kiss on Tao Yan's forehead before leaving reluctantly.

Tao Yan watched Shen Junran walk away until his figure turned into a small dot in the night, but still stood like a sculpture downstairs in the community, looking blankly into the vast night, she felt that she was being manipulated like a puppet , but my heart seems to be lost in an unknown place.

The message Tao Yan sent did not receive a response that night. She left her mobile phone in the living room, and almost decided to go back to the bedroom to lie down and rest.During class the next morning, Tao Yan looked at the phone with a black screen on the podium from time to time, and suddenly the phone screen lit up. She stopped the lecture and picked up the phone, only to find that it was a WeChat message from Shen Junran; you can take advantage of class Time to think about what to have for lunch today, see you later.

Tao Yan put down his phone, apologized to the students in the audience, and continued the class.

When Xia Chengqi started working this morning, he turned on his phone to check for any new news as usual, and the WeChat message from Tao Yan suddenly appeared on the phone screen.Xia Chengqi repeatedly read the not-so-long WeChat several times, trying to detect the hidden meaning between the lines, but she found that Tao Yan's words were impeccable, and she couldn't detect any other emotions.

She got up numbly, left the cold message on the desk, picked up the water glass and went to the lounge to get the boiling water, then stood on the balcony overlooking the city with the water.The cold wind was blowing on the empty balcony, and it was a bit painful when it was blown on the face. The steaming hot water in the cup gradually cooled down, and the hands holding the water cup gradually became numb from the cold, and lost the sense of perceiving everything, but Xia Chengqi didn't seem to notice it. Like a stake, still standing in the cold wind.She slowly stretched out her hand to caress her chest, which was experiencing bursts of pain. For the first time in many years, her heart, which had been lonely for a long time and had no desire for others, ached for a single person.

Xia Chengqi sat blankly in front of the computer desk, his eyes fixed on the computer screen were obviously in a relaxed state.The phone on the table vibrated and the alarm sounded, and it was time for Tao Yan to leave get out of class.She calculated the time and called Tao Yan.

Tao Yan had just packed his things and was about to pick up his mobile phone to leave, when the mobile phone rang at the right time, and the caller ID was Xia Chengqi.

"Hello" Tao Yan answered the phone naturally.

"Hey..." Xia Chengqi's voice was a little cautious, as if he was afraid of breaking something.

Listening to Xia Chengqi's weak voice, Tao Yan couldn't help clenching his hands on the phone.

"Do you have time to deal with our relationship?" Tao Yan leaned on the podium, holding his bag with his hands down.

Xia Chengqi's throat felt astringent when he heard Tao Yan's relentless, straight-to-the-point tone, and he was speechless for a long time. She clenched her lips tightly, took a deep breath to relieve the pain in her throat, "Yes, I have time. This time A period of time was like a gift from heaven to me, and now when I wake up from the dream, I accept it calmly. From now on, I hope you are well." Xia Chengqi's words were calm, as if she was talking about unimportant things, but her throat tightened so tightly that she couldn't help it. Say more.She was afraid to speak again, her voice would tremble with sadness, and even look like a mourner.

"You too." Hanging up the phone, Tao Yan stood leaning against the podium for a while, turned his head to the two violets on the window sill, and then slowly moved to the seat where Xia Chengqi used to sit. The silhouette that made her feel at ease is about to become a thing of the past. Dissipated like a cloud of smoke.

Tao Yan didn't go back to the office, but went straight to the parking lot. Shen Junran was standing beside his car, watching Tao Yan approach step by step with a smile on his face. "get out of class is over, do you want something to eat?" Shen Junran took the bag from Tao Yan's hand and led Tao Yan into the co-pilot.

"Go to my house to eat." The two drove to Tao Yan's house.

Tao Yan was sitting in the passenger cab, resting his head on his hands, looking out the window blankly.The scenery passing by outside the window has not yet formed a concrete image in Tao Yan's eyes, and he is ruthlessly left behind the car, just like the relationship between himself and Xia Chengqi, since he can't see the future, he looks forward to it. Before the feelings are strong, Ji cuts the mess quickly, so that each other has appeared brilliantly in each other's life, but there is not much emptiness and loneliness after the beauty blooms.It's just that the love hasn't reached the depth. Is it just the wishful thinking of the parties or self-deception?

Although the trip to Qinghai seemed like nothing major had happened, it made the two of them see the distance between each other clearly. Whether it was geographical location or life trajectory, it made this long-distance relationship feel like a storm. The crumbling dead leaves will return to the dust sooner or later.

Xia Chengqi devoted himself wholeheartedly to his work, and did not leave any chance for himself to indulge in negative emotions. Even when it was off-duty time, he still sat at his desk and worked until there were only a few dim lamps left in the brightly lit building. Turning on the light, he returned to the apartment like a walking dead.

It's just that in the middle of the night, Xia Chengqi, who always sleeps well, always wakes up suddenly at a certain point, and then stays sleepless all night, opening his eyes wide in the dark and carefully savoring the traces of Tao Yan left in the room.Tao Yan hugged him sideways from behind, Tao Yan leaned softly in his arms, Tao Yan with two shallow pear dimples hanging from his hands around his neck, the pictures about Tao Yan frame by frame are like The image of going backwards emerged in my mind in the boundless darkness.

Xia Chengqi sat up, embraced his arched legs, and sat silently in the darkness.She remembered that when her grandma passed away, she also listened to the sound of the rain beating on the window, and sat in her clothes until dawn, leaving only an empty heart as if it had been hollowed out and an empty, lifeless house.Since then, Xia Chengqi has been afraid of establishing an intimate relationship with people, afraid of relying on others, and afraid of expecting from others, because people are the most unpredictable things in the world, life and death, any one of them is enough to break your heart and take away your original. normal life.

But Tao Yan's appearance broke all this. She began to have a faint expectation, slowly approached, and gradually got used to the warmth Tao Yan gave, and just when she gradually connected this warmth with her independent and isolated life, a message came. Cut off all these without mercy, forcibly revealing the cruel reality.In the darkness, Xia Chengqi crouched and buried his head in his arched legs.She wants to keep the warmth that she has almost never felt before, and follows the footsteps of the sun like longing for the sunshine, moving from east to west, yearning for the warmth of the sun.

"Leave? Two days?" Su Qingmo looked up at Xia Chengqi who had an indifferent expression, hoping for a reasonable explanation.

"Yes, I need to go back to Xiamen to deal with some things."

Su Qingmo felt that Xia Chengqi had obviously lost weight during this time. Although she didn't seem to have changed much, her gestures seemed to have added a little alienation. Although she had doubts in her heart, she was never a gossip person.

"Are you sure you're okay?" Su Qingmo clasped her hands to her chin and asked hesitantly.

"It's okay, can it be approved if it's fake?" Xia Chengqi looked directly at Su Qingmo, unable to see the emotional fluctuations in his heart.