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Chapter 98

"Xiao Shengning?" Shan Yufei raised his eyes from the document, and glanced at Luo Tanshen who was sitting stiffly.

"Yes." It was snowing outside, and Luo Tanshen came dusty, without taking off his cashmere coat, holding steaming black tea in his hand, his face was slightly red from the smoke.

Shan Yufei leaned back and looked at him with cold eyes.

He held the porcelain bowl even tighter, forcing himself to meet Shan Yufei's gaze.

Shan Yufei always looked at him like this, not sharp, not arrogant, seemingly calm, but the implying aura shrouded him like substance.

After a while, Shan Yufei finally said, "You came here suddenly just to inquire about Xiao Shengning?"

He tried his best to stay steady, "You answer my question first, have you slept with Xiao Shengning?"

Shan Yufei's face was as usual, neither angry nor unnatural because of his offense.

He couldn't help leaning forward, his eyes flashing with intense emotion.

Shan Yufei said abruptly, "Are you angry?"

His shoulders trembled, and the black tea overflowed from the porcelain bowl and spilled on his hands.

He frowned in pain, and hastily put down the porcelain bowl.

"I'm angry, nervous, and scared." Shan Yufei said, "There is paper on the table, wipe it yourself."

He clutched his fingers, feeling frustrated.The aura that was finally propped up was disturbed by the episode just now, and it seemed to die down again.

Shan Yufei watched him tidy up in a hurry, "In what capacity are you asking me questions?"

He was a little confused, "What 'what identity'?"

Shan Yufei said slowly, "Predecessor?"

His heart tightened, he became more uneasy, and his eyes began to wander, "I just want to make sure..."

"Okay, what should I do?"

He felt that he was walking toward a pit, and he jumped down without hesitation.

Shan Yufei asked unhurriedly, "Huh?"

"I..." He grabbed the hem of his coat tightly until his knuckles turned white.

At this time, it was different from courting in the villa in T country. He didn't drink, he was sober, and he sat here with a lonely courage after careful consideration.

"I'm better than Xiao Shengning." Sweat was already dripping from the back of his neck, his throat was tight and sore, and his eyes full of struggle and longing looked at Shan Yufei without blinking, "What Xiao Shengning can do, I, I can do too." .I'm better than him."

He had recited such a straightforward courtship silently many times on the way here, but when he really said it to Shan Yufei, the huge shock brought about by his shame still made his internal organs twist in one place.

Shan Yufei didn't show any emotion on his face, the fire all over his body seemed to have encountered an insurmountable ice wall, the ice wall remained motionless, and the fire gradually annihilated.

He couldn't control himself anymore, he lowered his head, "You know what we have done, and what I am like."

"Xiao Shengning and I are over." Shan Yufei said suddenly.

He raised his head suddenly, in disbelief.

"The relationship between me and Xiao Shengning is different from what you imagined." Shan Yufei said again: "At least, Xiao Shengning is not my ex."

His heart was beating like thunder, and after hesitating for a while, he said, "I can..."

Shan Yufei interrupted, "I don't need an incumbent either."

"I can help you." He said eagerly, "I don't want to fall in love with you."

Shan Yufei's eyes were bright, "You don't want to fall in love?"

He opened his mouth, but his throat seemed blocked and he couldn't make a sound.

——I want to accompany you, protect you, and satisfy you.

Shan Yufei got up and went to the window.

Heavy snow falls, and the city is covered with snow.

"You came here by car." Shan Yufei said, "If it's not convenient to go back, find a hotel to stay for one night."

This is what chasing guests means.

He was in a trance, "Mr. Shan..."

Shan Yufei raised his hand, motioning for him to stop talking.

From the top floor to the garage, the time seems to be extremely long, like a hot heart slowly falling.

Sitting in the driver's seat, his limbs went numb for a while.

In fact, he knew that Xiao Shengning should not be mentioned.

No one has ever talked about Mr. Shan's personal affair, and he said abruptly about Xiao Shengning, which would definitely displease Shan Yufei.

But he couldn't help it.

Even if he already guessed the relationship between the two, he still hoped that Shan Yufei would tell him personally.

But everything was messed up by him, Shan Yufei drove him away, he was not needed.

The road was wet and slippery, but fortunately the highway was not closed yet, so he galloped through the wind and snow, clearly aiming, but seemed aimless.

There was no snow in Yuancheng, and the sun came out rarely.

Luo Tanshen parked the car on the side of the road, went to the bookstore to buy bouquets, and drove towards the cemetery.

The warm winter sun seemed to make Luo Xiaoyu's smile even warmer. When he looked at his 24-year-old brother, his eyes were stained red with sadness.

Putting the flowers on the pedestal, he knelt down and lightly touched Luo Xiaoyu's photo with his fingers, "Brother, I'm here to see you again."

This narrow and quiet world is not only the place where Luo Xiaoyu rests forever, but also the only place where he can speak freely.

"I have carried Rockwell, and my own technology company has developed very well." He said: "I will soon be 32 years old, brother, do you think I can be regarded as successful in my career?"

"If you are still here, you will definitely praise me."

"But if you're still here, you'll be the one to carry the Rockies. You've always been stronger than me, better than me. If you're here..."

The sun made people squint their eyes, he paused, his voice was a little lonely, "Brother, let me tell you something, I... I let you down."

"When you left, I was only 16 years old. I didn't understand you, I didn't understand you, I couldn't figure out why you were like that."

"You told me not to be like you when I grow up. In fact, at that time, I felt in my heart that you were not up to date."

"I thought, of course I wouldn't be like you. How could I treat someone as the whole world just because I fell in love with him? How could it be up to him to decide all the joys, sorrows and joys? How could I be sad after countless times? After that, do you still miss him and miss him?"

"How can I be so cowardly?"

He stroked his forehead with a wry smile, "Brother, I thought I was different from you. You have only loved Zhou Jinchuan in your life, but I... I have played with many people."

"It's only now that I realize that we are exactly the same in terms of emotions."

"Brother, what should I do?"

The sky gradually became overcast, and when the dark clouds blocked the sunlight, the cemetery suddenly lost its vitality and became gloomy and gloomy.

He took a deep breath and forced a smile, like comforting Luo Xiaoyu, more like telling himself: "But brother, don't worry, I have concerns in this world, I will take care of myself."

"I will not commit suicide."

Not many people came to visit the grave in the cold winter, and there were not many cars in the parking lot.He unlocked the car, but his hands were sticky and slippery when he opened the door.

He frowned, not knowing what it was, subconsciously smelling it, there was a smell of glue, which was very light and not pungent.

A staff member of the cemetery happened to pass by, and he called to ask, and learned that a young man was wandering around just now, bumped into every car a few times, like a thief, and had already been driven away.

There was no place to wash his hands around the parking lot, so he wiped his fingers with a tissue first, smelling them twice in the process.

This thing must have belonged to the thief. He felt disgusted. He drove to the door of a convenience store and immediately bought mineral water to wash it off.

It was getting late, and he stopped when he passed the motorcycle factory area on the way back to the city center.

I met Shan Yufei last time, and I will definitely not meet him this time.

My heart is really sad, and I want to relive the past time urgently.

It is said that this area will be demolished soon, and it looks quieter and more depressed than it was at the end of summer.

The Tongzilou where the Shan family lived has lost a single light, and it has become an empty house.

He was a little scared, and stayed downstairs for a long time before going up.

The original city is so big, this dilapidated neighborhood is actually one of the few places where he has happy memories.

He pushed open the door of Shan's house, the street lights came in from the balcony, and the living room was not completely dark.

There seemed to be an old smell in the air, and he quietly relaxed his tense nerves, and closed the door, as if he had returned to before all the accidents had happened.

Closing his eyes, he saw Shan Yufei boiling brown sugar in the kitchen, Shan Yufei brought him boiling water, and Shan Yufei gently hugged him in his arms.

Consciousness seems to be out of the body, freely shuttle in the memory.

His body seemed to become a little cold, and he even started to convulse, but he didn't realize it until he slowly lay on his side on the floor, and he still didn't wake up from this dream that shouldn't exist.

The surroundings were getting colder and colder, he was shivering uncontrollably, the images in his mind became more and more real, when he curled up, it was as if Shan Yufei was really hugging him.

The tongue of fire licked the fuel oil on the old wood and expanded rapidly, waves of heat came one after another, but he only felt cold, unable to open his eyes, and even his bones were shivering.

Shan Yufei took out a thick quilt from the closet, covered him carefully, and patted his back comfortingly: "This way it won't be cold. Go to sleep, I'll be with you."

He tightly grasped the corner of the quilt, grabbed Shan Yufei's hand, and for some reason, tears fell down, "Don't leave me behind."

"How could it be?" Shan Yufei was still in his 20s, leaning over and kissing his forehead and the corners of his eyes, "You are my concern."

The fire was blazing outside the door, almost burning through the door and the wall.

But he didn't know anything, he yearned for Shan Yufei's company, and clung tightly to Shan Yufei's arms.

Thin embrace is so real.

The fire illuminated the night sky, and Tongzilou burst into great brilliance after years of depression. People who lived nearby stopped to watch. A few streets away, fire sirens blared into the sky.

But he couldn't hear anything, he was twitching, pulling the quilt tightly, but what his hands were really holding was his curled up legs.

The motorcycle manufacturer's area is too old, and the fire engines have arrived, but they can't find a way to drive in.

The people who watched the excitement were in a relaxed mood, and they all said——fortunately, there is no one inside, so let’s burn it, because it will be demolished anyway.

The man stood in the crowd with a strange, fulfilled gleam in his eyes.

The tube building gradually made the sound of building materials cracking, and window frames and railings continued to fall from upstairs.

Firefighters are trying to open a path as the fire intensifies.

The real scorching heat finally dispelled the imaginary severe cold, he kicked his legs several times, and was dazed awake in the sweat all over his body.

As far as the eye can see, there is no 20-year-old Shan Yufei, nor a soft and warm quilt.

Surrounding him was a fire that could devour everything.